Post by Adam Knite on Mar 23, 2010 14:38:23 GMT -6
{Adam stands alone, everybody has left him, for things that he's done. He looks out over the water from the dock he's standing on thinking about the things he's done, about the things he's failed at. He is silent for several moments as only the sounds of the crashing waves can be heard. Finally he begins to speek, slow and sobering, there is a lot of regret in these words.}
In this business we spend so much time talking about the things we've done, about our feats of accomplishments. It's like one of the guarantees in life, that a pro wrestler will let you know about all the great things they've done over their careers. Like I spend time and time again reminding people of my long World title run, or my four tag team title runs, and even about the time I beat three former World champions three weeks in a row, or made Angel tap at this even last year. See, there I go again, talking about the good I've done, about my heroics. It's like an unwritten rule that you have to try and make your penis longer by forcing your accolades down other people's throats.
But seldomly do we ever talk about the times we've failed, or about the times we've came up short when all was on the line, or the times when we let down the ones closest to us. We're so focused on always being the best, at always making people know how great we are, we lose focus of everything around us, of everything that really matters.
{Adam lets out a long sigh as he lowers his head and looks down at the planks below his feet.}
Gib... I wasn't there to protect him from Xander and Angel, I wasn't there at all for one of my best friends. I may not have been able to help but I could of at least tried. Instead I sat at home worrying about my knee watching it on TV. Why wasn't I there to help my friend. I failed him, he was going through the darkest of times and had nobody to rely on, thanks to me. When your best friend is hanging by his neck about to die, you're supposed to be there, you're supposed to be a friend, but I wasn't. That is a side of the story that never gets told. Me and him went out and won the tag team titles together, but when he really needed me, when he really could of used a friend... I bailed.
Kelly.... where was I, where was I when Kaos started all this, when Kaos decided to get at Steve... I was nowhere, I let Kelly get involved, I let her get too close to the situation because I ran her off. It's my fault that she was even in a position to be a target to get at Steve, all my fault because I ignored her, because I recognize her please for my attention. I got too focused on helped Zel, that I just never thought about Kelly's feelings, and that's why she left, so I would see how much I missed her, then this. I couldn't do anything, no matter how hard I tried, If I would of gotten close Kaos would have had her dropped, only Steve could be there for her, only he could save her. I was at that moment, nothing... an after thought, simply because I was too centered around what I wanted to do.
Zelda.... now look what I've done, my own sister won't even acknowledge I exist, all because I lost sight of what was important, I lost sight of what really mattered. And for what? So I could assert myself as some business guru, I don't know what has gotten into me, but I just keep letting Zelda down. I was supposed to rescue her from her situation with my dad, but instead I think I'm just making her more miserable. She came to me to get away from her old life and here I am making the new one nothing but pain. I couldn't protect her when she was nearly killed by Julietta's hands and I have pushed her into a position that has made her denounce me as her brother.
Some person I am, huh?
{Adam slowly sits down and hands his feet off the edge, they dangle there as he looks straight up into the air for a bit before lowering his head back down and beginning to talk again.}
I once called myself a king, once proclaimed I was near God like with my talent. Is this some king? A king doesn't let the people around him suffer, not a good one anyways. It was all just talk, a bunch of conceded sightless talk that has brought me nothing but grief, because I started to believe I was above everybody else, and that caused me to not see what was going on around me.
What can I do? What can I say? Do I just say “I'm sorry” and expect that to blow over and everything be all back to normal. Maybe Harry is right, he is just the innocent pawn going where he's told, and maybe I'm just the same. I blame him, I tell him he had a choice but did he? Did he really, or was he just doing what he thought he had to do? Just like I did when I let the loved ones around me down?
We're no different. We're just the same, except at least Harry will admit that he has done something wrong. Me I hide behind this facade I've put around myself. There are so many things that I couldn't do, how can I come out here and tell you about all the reasons why I'm so great? How can I say those things and expect you to believe me? I can barely look at myself in the mirror in the mornings, and I want you to look up to me and worship me as some god among men?
{Adam turns over and pushes himself back to his feet, where he stands with his back turned to the water, he has a determined look on his face as he looks into the distance.}
I can't... not until I make things right. Whatever it takes, I'll find a way to amend what I've done, and what I failed to do. I have been a terrible friend, husband, and brother, but there is always a chance to fix your mistakes, there's always a chance to make things right, and that's what I intend on doing. Last week I started by pinning Kaos in the center of that NCW ring... and now I will make Harry pay for what he's done... for Kelly.
This isn't about me, this isn't about the things I've done, it's about her, it's about her honor and her safety. That's why I will win, that's why I will stand tall at the end of the day. Before I've always fought for myself, even when I was proclaiming I was doing it for the better good in the Revolution, it was really all about me and what I wanted, but not now. Not after what I've done, now I have to fight for somebody else, somebody more important that me.
I will atone for my sins at Sovereign, at all costs. Harry, you held my entire life in your hand when you had Kelly hanging from that truck, and Sunday, I'll hold your life in mine.... and lets just hope that same level headedness you showed when you let her down safely.... is returned, because I can't promise you anything.
{Adam begins to slowly walk away as we fade to black.}
In this business we spend so much time talking about the things we've done, about our feats of accomplishments. It's like one of the guarantees in life, that a pro wrestler will let you know about all the great things they've done over their careers. Like I spend time and time again reminding people of my long World title run, or my four tag team title runs, and even about the time I beat three former World champions three weeks in a row, or made Angel tap at this even last year. See, there I go again, talking about the good I've done, about my heroics. It's like an unwritten rule that you have to try and make your penis longer by forcing your accolades down other people's throats.
But seldomly do we ever talk about the times we've failed, or about the times we've came up short when all was on the line, or the times when we let down the ones closest to us. We're so focused on always being the best, at always making people know how great we are, we lose focus of everything around us, of everything that really matters.
{Adam lets out a long sigh as he lowers his head and looks down at the planks below his feet.}
Gib... I wasn't there to protect him from Xander and Angel, I wasn't there at all for one of my best friends. I may not have been able to help but I could of at least tried. Instead I sat at home worrying about my knee watching it on TV. Why wasn't I there to help my friend. I failed him, he was going through the darkest of times and had nobody to rely on, thanks to me. When your best friend is hanging by his neck about to die, you're supposed to be there, you're supposed to be a friend, but I wasn't. That is a side of the story that never gets told. Me and him went out and won the tag team titles together, but when he really needed me, when he really could of used a friend... I bailed.
Kelly.... where was I, where was I when Kaos started all this, when Kaos decided to get at Steve... I was nowhere, I let Kelly get involved, I let her get too close to the situation because I ran her off. It's my fault that she was even in a position to be a target to get at Steve, all my fault because I ignored her, because I recognize her please for my attention. I got too focused on helped Zel, that I just never thought about Kelly's feelings, and that's why she left, so I would see how much I missed her, then this. I couldn't do anything, no matter how hard I tried, If I would of gotten close Kaos would have had her dropped, only Steve could be there for her, only he could save her. I was at that moment, nothing... an after thought, simply because I was too centered around what I wanted to do.
Zelda.... now look what I've done, my own sister won't even acknowledge I exist, all because I lost sight of what was important, I lost sight of what really mattered. And for what? So I could assert myself as some business guru, I don't know what has gotten into me, but I just keep letting Zelda down. I was supposed to rescue her from her situation with my dad, but instead I think I'm just making her more miserable. She came to me to get away from her old life and here I am making the new one nothing but pain. I couldn't protect her when she was nearly killed by Julietta's hands and I have pushed her into a position that has made her denounce me as her brother.
Some person I am, huh?
{Adam slowly sits down and hands his feet off the edge, they dangle there as he looks straight up into the air for a bit before lowering his head back down and beginning to talk again.}
I once called myself a king, once proclaimed I was near God like with my talent. Is this some king? A king doesn't let the people around him suffer, not a good one anyways. It was all just talk, a bunch of conceded sightless talk that has brought me nothing but grief, because I started to believe I was above everybody else, and that caused me to not see what was going on around me.
What can I do? What can I say? Do I just say “I'm sorry” and expect that to blow over and everything be all back to normal. Maybe Harry is right, he is just the innocent pawn going where he's told, and maybe I'm just the same. I blame him, I tell him he had a choice but did he? Did he really, or was he just doing what he thought he had to do? Just like I did when I let the loved ones around me down?
We're no different. We're just the same, except at least Harry will admit that he has done something wrong. Me I hide behind this facade I've put around myself. There are so many things that I couldn't do, how can I come out here and tell you about all the reasons why I'm so great? How can I say those things and expect you to believe me? I can barely look at myself in the mirror in the mornings, and I want you to look up to me and worship me as some god among men?
{Adam turns over and pushes himself back to his feet, where he stands with his back turned to the water, he has a determined look on his face as he looks into the distance.}
I can't... not until I make things right. Whatever it takes, I'll find a way to amend what I've done, and what I failed to do. I have been a terrible friend, husband, and brother, but there is always a chance to fix your mistakes, there's always a chance to make things right, and that's what I intend on doing. Last week I started by pinning Kaos in the center of that NCW ring... and now I will make Harry pay for what he's done... for Kelly.
This isn't about me, this isn't about the things I've done, it's about her, it's about her honor and her safety. That's why I will win, that's why I will stand tall at the end of the day. Before I've always fought for myself, even when I was proclaiming I was doing it for the better good in the Revolution, it was really all about me and what I wanted, but not now. Not after what I've done, now I have to fight for somebody else, somebody more important that me.
I will atone for my sins at Sovereign, at all costs. Harry, you held my entire life in your hand when you had Kelly hanging from that truck, and Sunday, I'll hold your life in mine.... and lets just hope that same level headedness you showed when you let her down safely.... is returned, because I can't promise you anything.
{Adam begins to slowly walk away as we fade to black.}