Post by Adam Knite on Jul 6, 2010 23:42:59 GMT -6
Pain
More
Please
I wish I could
Feel anything
Anything
At all
Instead of
Nothing
More
Please
I wish I could
Feel anything
Anything
At all
Instead of
Nothing
[November 16, 2009]
{Outside it's a cool Autumn day as Adam and Kelly stand in the middle of a beautiful hedge garden, there are white streamers attached to fake white pillars scattered around with a huge audience seating in white chairs, looking up at the couple who stand there holding each other's hands in their own as the preacher talks to them. He stops, and holds his hand out to Adam. Adam turns back and is handed the ring by his friend and bestman, Trent Helms. He takes the ring and slides it on Kelly's ring finger as he speaks.}
Adam: Kelly, since the day I met you... I knew that I loved you and could never see myself happy with anybody else. You're the reason the sun rises, you're the reason I wake up in the morning. Without you, I'd be nothing. I promise that I'll always treat you like the queen you are, I promise that until death do us part that I will love you, and even then... I'll love you with everything I have, after this world fades away... my love for you will still be as strong as it was from this day on.
{Tears begin to run down Kelly's face as Adam slides the ring all the way down her finger. She tries to fight them back as she smiles as Adam lovingly stares at her. She turns and is handed a ring from Amber Ashe, her Maid of Honor. She takes it and puts it on Adam's finger.}
Kelly: Adam. You were my first love, even though it took us this long to get here, I always knew deep down that you were my only love. They say soul mates will eventually find each other if you wait long enough, well we found each other early and it just took use a while to understand that we couldn't live without each other. I don't know what I would do without you in my life... I love you and I promise that I will never leave you alone, you are the yang to my yin and not even dying can stop the love I feel for you.
{She slides the ring down Adam's hand. The preacher asks Adam that famous line.}
Adam: I do.
{Ask's Kelly.}
Kelly: I do
{The two embrace in a long kiss as the people in attendance begin to clap and we fade away.}
[End Flashback]
{Adam sits quietly to himself, on the balcony he leans up against the glass of the sliding door and just stares off into the distance. The birds chirp over his head, the sounds of cars speeding across the street reach his ears, but nothing grabs his attention. He barely blinks, barely.. breaths. This was his time alone, his time to sit and think.}
“You continue to think that I care about what has happened to Kelly. You continue to believe that what is going on is about her anymore. I've given up Steve. Have her, take her, hold her, love her. Do whatever you want. I'm sick of it, I'm grown distant from our once amazing love, because she's not the Kelly I loved for so long anymore. The night that you kissed her, that was the night she ceased to be my Kelly anymore, that's the night where I knew everything had gone away between us, I just refused to accept it and I could tell deep down, she had given up as well. We were never meant to be together, we just kept fooling each other, because we were each other's first real love and we didn't want to accept the fact that maybe we weren't meant to be each other's last.”
“Have fun with her Steve, treat her right and one day you'll have the pleasure of being right here with me, sitting alone on your balcony, staring off into the sky and seeing every cloud that passes and thinking of how you once had everything... until she broke your heart. Do you really think this is a one time incident Steve? She left David at the alter, after sleeping with me, she's leaving me for you.. after a kiss. It's getting easier and easier for her to just walk out on the people who treat her like a Goddess. Now lets be honest here, everybody knows I treated Kelly like she was the epicenter of my existence, because she was, and you think you'll do better? You can't change the tiger's stripes Steven.”
It's empty
My feelings
My heart
There's nothing there
Love
Pain
Hurt
It's all gone
Just blackness
Just.... nothing
My feelings
My heart
There's nothing there
Love
Pain
Hurt
It's all gone
Just blackness
Just.... nothing
[November 16, 2009]
{Adam in a long black Tux stands next to Kelly in her pure white dress that Adam insisted she got. With her her long white fingerless gloved hands, she takes a slice of cake that is handed to her by the crew working the wedding. The cameraman gets up and close, ready to snap the picture as she raises it up, Adam smiles and shakes his head before she happily shoves the cake in his face. Bulbs flash, the family in attendance laughs and Adam smiles through the frosting at Kelly. He smiles as he takes a slice now and Kelly tries to playfully get away, but she can't as Adam shoves it into her face. They both laugh as the cameras go off somemore. Adam lowers his head and rests his forehead on Kelly's while she leans up to look at him, they quietly talk to one another.}
Adam: This is the greatest day of my life.
Kelly: I know the feeling.
{Adam puts his hand on Kelly's cheek.}
Adam: I'll never stop loving you Kelly.
Kelly: And I'll always be here, loving you too.
{Their lips meet through the cake as more lights flash and take pictures of their moment together, of their day together, immortalizing this for all to see.}
[End Flashback]
{Adam throws his head back and looks straight up into the sky. He watches the clouds pass by over his head. He sees their shapes, and imagines them as things that could possibly make him happy, it doesn't work. He shakes his head and closes his eyes, numb to the world around him.}
“I wish I could care Steve, I really did, I wish I could feel anything right now. Pain, would be better than nothing. Hurting would be better than emptiness. That's all there is left of Kelly inside of me. Where there was once warm and comfort, love and passion, there is darkness and despair, not even pain, not even hurt. What this is about now is nothing more than business. Keep her, what I want is to beat you. To punish you, to destroy you. I guess it's because of what you did, because you did this to me, you caused me to be this hollow shell, and I want to make you suffer for it. It's not about Kelly, it's the furthest thing on my mind right now, I just want to twist and turn your body until I hear bones snapping, until I hear blood flowing, so maybe you could understand that immense amount of pain it took to sear away every human emotion inside of my body.”
“If you want me to congratulate you on winning, fine. You won Steve. You beat me, you crushed me. You took my wife, my daughter, my life, you took everything from me and you left me like this. You are truly everything you said you were, you accomplished everything you wanted. Even after she clearly picked me at A Night to Remember, it was you who didn't give up. You wanted it and you got it. I'm happy for you. You got what you wanted, you got Kelly, you should be doing back flips, or oiling your abs in a mirror whatever it is that you do.”
“You won that battle, you took control of the chess board and took my queen. Now, it's my turn. Now it's Adam's Revolution... to rip everything you care about apart. You will never touch an NCW title as long as I'm around, you will never sleep a peaceful night as long as I stalk the halls. Everything you think you are, is about to fade into the night Steve. You took my reason for living and twisted her into some wicked perversion of her former self and now, it's time ripped the foundation of everything you built up out from under you. You'll see pain then, all you'll have is Kelly, and when she stabs you in the heart like she did me, you'll realize that I was the one who won in the end.”
Burn away
Everything
My Life
My reason for living
Watch it wither away
Watch it die
But in the end
I will bury you
After I watch you
Slowly burn
In the world you created for yourself
Everything
My Life
My reason for living
Watch it wither away
Watch it die
But in the end
I will bury you
After I watch you
Slowly burn
In the world you created for yourself
[November 16, 2009]
{Adam lays on the bed of the hotel room in Hawaii. It's their first night together as a married couple. He's tired from the flight, so is Kelly, but you only get this moment once... well hopefully once in your life. Adam sits up as he hears some noise. Kelly walks out of the bathroom wearing a frill, laced nightie. Adam smiles from ear to ear, and Kelly does as well as she slowly walks over to Adam. She gets on her knees, on the bed next to him, she throws her arms up on his shoulders, the two kiss before they pull away and look at each other.}
Kelly: You're not regretting this yet are you?
Adam: Now why would I do that?
Kelly: I don't know, you're a guy. You do things then regret them.
Adam: I will never regret being with you Kelly.
Kelly: How an you be so sure?
Adam: Because Kelly, you saved me. You were my ray of light in the darkness. It's always been you, nobody else could ever take your place in my heart.
{Adam smiles at his wife who blushes a bit from what Adam said.}
Adam: What about you? Any regrets.
Kelly: Just that we never did this sooner. Why did we wait so long to be together?
Adam: We were never apart Kelly. We made our share of mistakes, but that just brought us together more, it just showed us how much we really loved each other, and maybe that's what we needed to realize how much we really meant to one another.
{Kelly can't even say a word, as she looks up and sees Adam's eyes watering up. She grabs his face and the two passionately kiss. Adam takes Kelly and turns her over and puts her onto her back on the bed. The two continue to kiss as we fade back to present day.}
[End Flashback]
{Adam pushes up off the balcony and stands to his feet. He looks out into the distance, turning his head from side to side taking in the sights.}
“Kelly, I hope you do realize that... I always loved you. You really were my very existence personified. You truly meant so much more than the world to me. Whatever you do, just be happy... ok? That's all I ask, that's all I want to know after this is over, is that you were happy.”
“I'll see you at Picture Perfect Steve, and I will bring you to your knees, I will bring you to the brink of extinction and make you beg me for your life, and I'll let you, because you for whatever reason can give Kelly what I couldn't, a sense of happiness. After you get out of the hospital, you better treat her right for as long as she wants you around. This is what you wanted, this is what you've fought so hard for, so you better not drive her away, you better recognize and cherish what you have, because like the wrath of Zeus I will rain lightning down on you if you take one second for granted.”
“Everything I am, everything I was, everything I will ever be is now in your arms. You will burn at the stake for turning me into this monster, Steve. I will watch as your ashes blow away on a gust of wind into the distance. I will smile when you realize that this really wasn't worth it, and I'll laugh when you're left with nothing.... nothing.... exactly what you turned me into.”
{A soft hand touches Adam on the shoulder. His sister Zelda stands there, looking concerned.}
“are you ok?”
“I'm fine, I just need some fresh air.”
“Ok.... Adam..”
“I'll be in in a minute Z, I just need to do something.”
{Zelda shrugs her shoulders as she turns around and exits the balcony. Adam reaches into his pocket as he stares off over the ledge. He pulls the picture of Kelly and Him at their wedding from his pocket. He takes it and rips it down the middle, he takes the half with Kelly and brings it to his lips kissing her for a final time before holding up both slices and letting the blowing wind catch them and carry each piece into the distance. Adam turns away and heads into the house.}
Good bye
My love
I'll never forget
How we felt that day
I will never
Feel that way again
Without you
There's nothing
Without you
I'm nothing
No sun in the sky
No smile
No Happiness
Only nothing
Good bye
Kelly
My love
I'll never forget
How we felt that day
I will never
Feel that way again
Without you
There's nothing
Without you
I'm nothing
No sun in the sky
No smile
No Happiness
Only nothing
Good bye
Kelly