Post by Freya Davis on Feb 28, 2012 21:10:40 GMT -6
"Lately I've been doing quite a bit of thinking. More so then what I usually do but I got something big coming up. My first pay per view match in a very long time. Not a Wired match but a god honest pay per view match. The opener. The second most important spot on a wrestling show. I mean everyone knows that the main event is just that and I'm sure it won't disappoint on Sunday night. Just like I'm sure nothing at Crossroads will make the fans leave shaking their heads. That's just not what happens here in New Championship Wrestling from all the shows I've watched the past few years.
But to be placed in the opener after only making my return a few weeks ago means so much to me. I was expecting to be sitting at home for this one but yet when my phone rang and I was told I was facing Amy Marshall I literally jumped for joy. I don't want to sit at home while someone else gets to bust their ass on pay per view. I don't want to sit on the couch while someone else gets a great match and everyone stands on their feet clapping away.
I look at Crossroads as an aptly named title for my career right now. I've gotten in a heap of trouble lately in the wrestling world for my behavoir. nCw is almost the only place willing to take a chance on me right now when so many other places are telling me no. They tell me no because of some small comments that mean nothing in the long run. But nCw opens me with crossed arms just waiting for me to do something stupid because of my last name in professional wrestling.
Yes I bear the Kane stigma. People see the last name of Kane and they expect stupidity. They expect egotism at the worst possible moment. They see sudden retirements that last a matter of three or four weeks before they stand back in a wrestling ring. I could've taken the easy way out and kept my married name. Freya Davis. Nothing bad about it. No one knows Dexter Davis well. My husband as much as I love watching him wrestle is a relative unknown outside of this place and another promotion.
The Kane name? Recognizable because of my two brothers who have soiled this name all over the world. They took a proud family name, and turned into a joke. Brad and Spike took the name that our ancestors wore like a badge of honor, and turned that same name into something people point at simply wondering when they'll be out of their promotion. Its almost like my brothers expect the world on a platter because of their last name and sometimes they get it. Both are getting back into the ring again already. They've making a bigger joke out of our name.
This has to stop. I look at a family like the Knites. Their name means something in the wrestling business and it's not a joke. Their name means professional. The Knite name is legendary. Same goes with Famularo, and so many others. People ask me why nCw with a small women's division. Why did I join nCw again? The answer is very simple. I'm looking to restore my family's name because it's obvious that my brothers don't care anymore. They're looking out for their own selves. Someone has to look out for our future.
That lands all on me. Making the Kane name mean something again is the top thing on my list. It begins on Sunday night when I get into the first match of Crossroads against Amy Marshall. I knew Amy when she was still going by Roxxxie. Knew her from another promotion and she was nothing more then a laughing stock. She was a person that was trotted out and people pointed to laugh. I felt bad for her, I really did. No one deserves that kind of treatment. So she comes here and to my surprise she begins to make something of herself.
Becomes Amy Marshall, her real name. Ditched the whole Roxxxie thing which was so much for the better. Three of those x's in your name isn't great. Could careless what you did before professional wrestling. People will do what they love to do and obviously you did. You have more guts then I do. Sure I talk a big game about that subject but you went and did that on camera. Thousands of men buying or downloading what you did. You probably ended up with a great deal of money from it too.
But you know who you remind me of? My sister in law. You know Megan don't you? She's like you in a way. I mean the tattoos aren't there for her but both of you are the same. Both nymphomanics are you not? Kinda have to be to do porn right? Not condeming what you did as I said but see right now I don't exactly get along with Megan so looking at you and your past reminds me of her. Reminds me of the bad example women set when they do that for a camera.
I know if it feels good and you love it do it but not in that manner. You seem to have straightened yourself back out though. No new titles out anymore? Not doing both wrestling and that at the same time?
These past few months as I've been watching tape after tape of the Starlets Division I'm getting a good feel of what to expect. A couple of years ago Amy Marshall was a pushover but not anymore. I love it. I want a challenge. I want to see how you wrestle now. I want to see how great Amy Marshall has become. You've won both Starlets Titles which is impressive but you teamed with a total retard and the woman you beat for the singles title, well, the less said about that bimbo the better. Though if I remember correctly she is your sister.
Wish I had a sister I could beat up in the ring. Amy Marshall, the two of us don't have any issues between us that I know of. Not looking to make one either. I'm sure whoever wins this match might gain some of a standing in the race for the Starlet's Title. No doubt you'd love to gain that title back and shut up Kelly Knite in the process. I'd love to keep my quest going that will end when I capture that title. If anything can restore the legacy of my last name the Starlet's Championship will be it.
As cliche as this will sound, you won't be able to stop me from getting to that point. Nothing is going to stop me short of death. Look forward to seeing you Amy.
Peace."
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I stand at the brink of total annhilation right now. The white door stares back at me while I try to muster the courage to knock. I've done this many times before but never for a reason like this. Whenever I went to Brad's house it was to use the gym or just hang out with the nieces and nephews. Tonight is a completely different story. I managed to elude Mia a few days ago but I have to do this. Megan and I have to talk about this. I inhale and knock on the door. The door opens as there she stands. Megan looks like she hasn't slept in a couple of days.
Megan: Yeah?
She gives me this look like I'm not supposed to be here right now.
Freya: We need to talk about it.
Megan: I thought we agreed that it never happened.
I nod my head. We did agree upon that but when it's been eating and tearing at me something has to be done so I can gain a peace of mind.
Freya: I know but I just can't deal with this anymore.
Megan: Well that's too bad because we're never talking about it.
Freya: Why?
I try hard not to huff at my sister in law not really caring for how she's acting like now. It's like she took a giant bitch shot before I got there.
Megan: Because there is nothing to talk about. We got drunk and went to sleep.
Freya: I never thought you'd be too chicken to talk about something like this. You're always bragging about the sexual conquest you had the night before with Brad or whoever you managed to get in there with you.
Megan: Says the woman who brags about her love for a certain body part on Twitter.
Okay she took her mega bitch shot tonight.
Freya: You know I came over here to talk this out like rational adults. Even doubled up on my meds to do so but it seems you'd rather make jokes. Don't know what's gotten into you lately but we used to be close.
Megan: That was before the happening. Don't much like to see you at all anymore.
Freya: Why because you made the first move because you can't control your own ***damn horomones?!
She glares at me probably wishing she could just slam the door in my face right about now. We both know I'm too quick for that to happen.
Freya: I can't believe I used to look up to you like a mentor. Turns out you're nothing but a gifted sex guru who gives advice. Nothing else you're obviously good for. I mean your husband said you were a crappy wrestler. That has to hurt.
Megan: At least I'm not the one who got fired beca...
Freya: Don't even go there. But hey we all can't lose constantly and only get popular because we're so willing to flash our tits.
Megan: Jealous because you have none?
I shake my head no. Gotta like who you are. I'm comfortable in my own skin.
Freya: Nope. Pretty fine with who I am. Obviously you're not though.
Megan: Oh go cheat on a husband a bit more.
Freya: Little hypocritical aren't we?
She only gives me a smile before mouthing something at me that makes my blood boil. My eyes widen, nostrils flare as I clench my fist and before I know it Megan's on the ground holding her nose. Blood is on my right hand and it's not mine either. I close my eyes not believing I just probably broke my sister's nose.
Freya: I guess this ends our friendly little relationship doesn't it?
I shake my head before leaving. No doubt I'll be hearing from Brad later on when Megan tells him a false story. Don't much care anymore. I can't allow myself to be near someone like her. Someone who has had a negative affect on my life. She tried to mold me into her and I won't allow it anymore.
But to be placed in the opener after only making my return a few weeks ago means so much to me. I was expecting to be sitting at home for this one but yet when my phone rang and I was told I was facing Amy Marshall I literally jumped for joy. I don't want to sit at home while someone else gets to bust their ass on pay per view. I don't want to sit on the couch while someone else gets a great match and everyone stands on their feet clapping away.
I look at Crossroads as an aptly named title for my career right now. I've gotten in a heap of trouble lately in the wrestling world for my behavoir. nCw is almost the only place willing to take a chance on me right now when so many other places are telling me no. They tell me no because of some small comments that mean nothing in the long run. But nCw opens me with crossed arms just waiting for me to do something stupid because of my last name in professional wrestling.
Yes I bear the Kane stigma. People see the last name of Kane and they expect stupidity. They expect egotism at the worst possible moment. They see sudden retirements that last a matter of three or four weeks before they stand back in a wrestling ring. I could've taken the easy way out and kept my married name. Freya Davis. Nothing bad about it. No one knows Dexter Davis well. My husband as much as I love watching him wrestle is a relative unknown outside of this place and another promotion.
The Kane name? Recognizable because of my two brothers who have soiled this name all over the world. They took a proud family name, and turned into a joke. Brad and Spike took the name that our ancestors wore like a badge of honor, and turned that same name into something people point at simply wondering when they'll be out of their promotion. Its almost like my brothers expect the world on a platter because of their last name and sometimes they get it. Both are getting back into the ring again already. They've making a bigger joke out of our name.
This has to stop. I look at a family like the Knites. Their name means something in the wrestling business and it's not a joke. Their name means professional. The Knite name is legendary. Same goes with Famularo, and so many others. People ask me why nCw with a small women's division. Why did I join nCw again? The answer is very simple. I'm looking to restore my family's name because it's obvious that my brothers don't care anymore. They're looking out for their own selves. Someone has to look out for our future.
That lands all on me. Making the Kane name mean something again is the top thing on my list. It begins on Sunday night when I get into the first match of Crossroads against Amy Marshall. I knew Amy when she was still going by Roxxxie. Knew her from another promotion and she was nothing more then a laughing stock. She was a person that was trotted out and people pointed to laugh. I felt bad for her, I really did. No one deserves that kind of treatment. So she comes here and to my surprise she begins to make something of herself.
Becomes Amy Marshall, her real name. Ditched the whole Roxxxie thing which was so much for the better. Three of those x's in your name isn't great. Could careless what you did before professional wrestling. People will do what they love to do and obviously you did. You have more guts then I do. Sure I talk a big game about that subject but you went and did that on camera. Thousands of men buying or downloading what you did. You probably ended up with a great deal of money from it too.
But you know who you remind me of? My sister in law. You know Megan don't you? She's like you in a way. I mean the tattoos aren't there for her but both of you are the same. Both nymphomanics are you not? Kinda have to be to do porn right? Not condeming what you did as I said but see right now I don't exactly get along with Megan so looking at you and your past reminds me of her. Reminds me of the bad example women set when they do that for a camera.
I know if it feels good and you love it do it but not in that manner. You seem to have straightened yourself back out though. No new titles out anymore? Not doing both wrestling and that at the same time?
These past few months as I've been watching tape after tape of the Starlets Division I'm getting a good feel of what to expect. A couple of years ago Amy Marshall was a pushover but not anymore. I love it. I want a challenge. I want to see how you wrestle now. I want to see how great Amy Marshall has become. You've won both Starlets Titles which is impressive but you teamed with a total retard and the woman you beat for the singles title, well, the less said about that bimbo the better. Though if I remember correctly she is your sister.
Wish I had a sister I could beat up in the ring. Amy Marshall, the two of us don't have any issues between us that I know of. Not looking to make one either. I'm sure whoever wins this match might gain some of a standing in the race for the Starlet's Title. No doubt you'd love to gain that title back and shut up Kelly Knite in the process. I'd love to keep my quest going that will end when I capture that title. If anything can restore the legacy of my last name the Starlet's Championship will be it.
As cliche as this will sound, you won't be able to stop me from getting to that point. Nothing is going to stop me short of death. Look forward to seeing you Amy.
Peace."
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I stand at the brink of total annhilation right now. The white door stares back at me while I try to muster the courage to knock. I've done this many times before but never for a reason like this. Whenever I went to Brad's house it was to use the gym or just hang out with the nieces and nephews. Tonight is a completely different story. I managed to elude Mia a few days ago but I have to do this. Megan and I have to talk about this. I inhale and knock on the door. The door opens as there she stands. Megan looks like she hasn't slept in a couple of days.
Megan: Yeah?
She gives me this look like I'm not supposed to be here right now.
Freya: We need to talk about it.
Megan: I thought we agreed that it never happened.
I nod my head. We did agree upon that but when it's been eating and tearing at me something has to be done so I can gain a peace of mind.
Freya: I know but I just can't deal with this anymore.
Megan: Well that's too bad because we're never talking about it.
Freya: Why?
I try hard not to huff at my sister in law not really caring for how she's acting like now. It's like she took a giant bitch shot before I got there.
Megan: Because there is nothing to talk about. We got drunk and went to sleep.
Freya: I never thought you'd be too chicken to talk about something like this. You're always bragging about the sexual conquest you had the night before with Brad or whoever you managed to get in there with you.
Megan: Says the woman who brags about her love for a certain body part on Twitter.
Okay she took her mega bitch shot tonight.
Freya: You know I came over here to talk this out like rational adults. Even doubled up on my meds to do so but it seems you'd rather make jokes. Don't know what's gotten into you lately but we used to be close.
Megan: That was before the happening. Don't much like to see you at all anymore.
Freya: Why because you made the first move because you can't control your own ***damn horomones?!
She glares at me probably wishing she could just slam the door in my face right about now. We both know I'm too quick for that to happen.
Freya: I can't believe I used to look up to you like a mentor. Turns out you're nothing but a gifted sex guru who gives advice. Nothing else you're obviously good for. I mean your husband said you were a crappy wrestler. That has to hurt.
Megan: At least I'm not the one who got fired beca...
Freya: Don't even go there. But hey we all can't lose constantly and only get popular because we're so willing to flash our tits.
Megan: Jealous because you have none?
I shake my head no. Gotta like who you are. I'm comfortable in my own skin.
Freya: Nope. Pretty fine with who I am. Obviously you're not though.
Megan: Oh go cheat on a husband a bit more.
Freya: Little hypocritical aren't we?
She only gives me a smile before mouthing something at me that makes my blood boil. My eyes widen, nostrils flare as I clench my fist and before I know it Megan's on the ground holding her nose. Blood is on my right hand and it's not mine either. I close my eyes not believing I just probably broke my sister's nose.
Freya: I guess this ends our friendly little relationship doesn't it?
I shake my head before leaving. No doubt I'll be hearing from Brad later on when Megan tells him a false story. Don't much care anymore. I can't allow myself to be near someone like her. Someone who has had a negative affect on my life. She tried to mold me into her and I won't allow it anymore.
"I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now
This is who I really am inside"
But nothing seemed to change
I know now
This is who I really am inside"
