Post by Freya Davis on Apr 3, 2012 22:56:40 GMT -6
"Funny how I keep telling everyone week after week that when I say I'm going to do something, I'll go ahead and get it done. I told Amy Marshall. I told everyone that I would beat her again. I told everyone that she had no chance against me and guess what? I did. I'm still sittin' here on my ladder waiting for someone to push me off and so far the only person who has, hasn't been seen for weeks now. I find it funny that I'm running through the women and there's only what? Two or three left for me to destroy to prove something.
See some of you might think this is me being cocky but it's not. Some of you might view me as behing a whiner but it's not. This is me speaking the truth when I say there is no one better in that women's division then me. I've proved it the past seven weeks that I can win. Since I came back two months ago, I've had a match every week and I've lost once. What other woman can say that right now? None of you have been getting the exposure that I have.
So what does that say about your abilites? What does it say that I'm seen more wrestling on the television shows then the champion? Yet here I stand on the outside looking in after beating three former champions in a month span. One of these women gets a shot at Ashlie while I stand in the position to open another pay per view? Is this all I am to you, nCw? Someone to get the crowd going every single pay per view that you hold or is this because of my last name?
I don't understand this and it's confusing me as to why Alysson Gardner is facing Ashlie instead of me. What has Alysson done lately besides lose to me? Oh right she bumps into the champion, makes a snide comment and boom, she gets a title shot. What happened to hard work in this company? What happened to going out to the ring to bust your ass every single night to prove yourself as something worthy? Is it all based on running into someone backstage? Did I not get the memo about this?
Then I get a message saying I'm facing Crystal Hilton in an Honor Rules match. Couple of hours later I get a second message saying that it is no longer Crystal but Jennifer Williams. Then I get wind of this Rose Garden column or whatever in the hell it's being passed off saying that she doesn't think I'm good enough to be in the ring with her? That's really funny because the way I remember things, Crystal, you've pinned me exactly once in your career. How many times have I pinned you? In fact I remember winning a couple of titles against you in another time.
So excuse me when I say this but you're the biggest ****ing pussy on the roster. You're a noted complainer when things don't go your way because you're so perfect. If perfection never fails, then why are you runnin' scared of me. You know I don't back down from anyone. What have you even done lately to warrant such a mindset besides be attatched to your now successful husband. Remember when you divorced him for being immature? Now what? You're a leech, Hilton. One the likes people have never really seen before.
Instead of facing someone that has an ego the size of state of Texas, I have to face her sister in law, Jenny. Jenny Williams, the big sister to the World Champion. The girlfriend of the former World Champion and a member of the Hierarchy. I find it a little funny that despite running a multi-million dollar company that somehow you make time to wrestle on the side. I find it funny that you make the time to do something that you really have no business in either. I know who trained you, Jenny and it makes me sick to my stomach.
Why are so many female wrestlers not getting the proper training that they need to survive in the wrestling business? What can Crystal and Todd manage to teach you about professional wrestling besides how to flip around and shout retarded ass things at the top of your lungs? I look at you, Jenny and do you know what I see? A future carbon copy of Crystal Hilton. What happens when Xander stops being so successful and goes on a bit of a down streak? You gonna up and leave him like your sister in law leaves your brother?
Do you plan to stay with Xander through thick and thin? Just like with your sister in law, you've leeched onto someone powerful within' this company in order to get yourself ahead without actually moving a finger really. People see Jenny Williams and instead of thinking of a professional wrestler, they begin to think of a woman who is porking Xander Famularo. People see Jenny Williams and they think of a woman who runs a company moonlighting as a professional wrestler. You're like Batman only not near as awesome. Not even close to being as awesome, in fact.
Do you even know what an Honor Rules match is much less ever have been in that style of match? I was at one time one of the great pure wrestlers walking the face of the earth. I've been in so many matches like an Honor rules that it's almost second nature to me, Jenny. Do you know what it feels like to be trapped in a submission hold knowing that you can't grab the ropes to force someone to break it? You begin to feel helpless, scared, and this feeling of despair blankets you until you either tap out or manage to break out of the hold.
A five count on the floor? So lets say that I'm in control, you head out of the ring for a breather and you're not aware of the count, you're done. This the thinking wrestler's match. Its like a game of chess where you need to stay ahead of your opponent. Looking at your last name I just don't think it happens. Your brother shows about as much intelligence as a box of rocks. I don't think you fare much better. What kind of an idiot would willingly wrestle as a CEO of a company? You could be living the sweet life in a penthouse, barefoot and pregnant with little Xanders running around you.
Instead you're here in a reality in which you can't escape. In my reality do you know what you are, Jenny? Another body in a pile that's beginning to stack towards the sky. I'm taking this divison and I'm running through it like a treadmill. Some of it will repeat but the path remains the same. My path to the Starlets World Championship. I'm not the type to make outlandish promises about winning a title before a certain date because we all know how that ends up faring but mark my words, I will be Starlets World Champion.
Do you know what you'll be after Sovereign, Jenny? A trophy for Xander. A CEO of a company that makes you more money that most people could ever possibly dream of. A big sister to the biggest male joke in the company. LET'S YELL RANDOM CRAP SO WE CAN GET OVER LIKE A BOSS. Do you know what I'll be after this show? A professional wrestler. A person who makes her living in this sport. Just not comes into it because her brother, boyfriend and sister in law are all wrestlers. And before you make that claim that I'm in this because my brothers are, stop. I've been around this business since the day Spike got me out of the asylum.
Being here in nCw right now will put me back in it sooner then I could possibly imagine. It's all thanks to people like Amy Marshall and your sister in law, Jenny. If I don't get what I want soon, I'll be put back in my little caged part of the world with my padded walls because this business is driving me insane. I know people will turn on me soon. I'm 'complaining' too much but you know what? I'm fine with it. I'd rather live long and become a villian then die a hero to this company.
Boom."
See some of you might think this is me being cocky but it's not. Some of you might view me as behing a whiner but it's not. This is me speaking the truth when I say there is no one better in that women's division then me. I've proved it the past seven weeks that I can win. Since I came back two months ago, I've had a match every week and I've lost once. What other woman can say that right now? None of you have been getting the exposure that I have.
So what does that say about your abilites? What does it say that I'm seen more wrestling on the television shows then the champion? Yet here I stand on the outside looking in after beating three former champions in a month span. One of these women gets a shot at Ashlie while I stand in the position to open another pay per view? Is this all I am to you, nCw? Someone to get the crowd going every single pay per view that you hold or is this because of my last name?
I don't understand this and it's confusing me as to why Alysson Gardner is facing Ashlie instead of me. What has Alysson done lately besides lose to me? Oh right she bumps into the champion, makes a snide comment and boom, she gets a title shot. What happened to hard work in this company? What happened to going out to the ring to bust your ass every single night to prove yourself as something worthy? Is it all based on running into someone backstage? Did I not get the memo about this?
Then I get a message saying I'm facing Crystal Hilton in an Honor Rules match. Couple of hours later I get a second message saying that it is no longer Crystal but Jennifer Williams. Then I get wind of this Rose Garden column or whatever in the hell it's being passed off saying that she doesn't think I'm good enough to be in the ring with her? That's really funny because the way I remember things, Crystal, you've pinned me exactly once in your career. How many times have I pinned you? In fact I remember winning a couple of titles against you in another time.
So excuse me when I say this but you're the biggest ****ing pussy on the roster. You're a noted complainer when things don't go your way because you're so perfect. If perfection never fails, then why are you runnin' scared of me. You know I don't back down from anyone. What have you even done lately to warrant such a mindset besides be attatched to your now successful husband. Remember when you divorced him for being immature? Now what? You're a leech, Hilton. One the likes people have never really seen before.
Instead of facing someone that has an ego the size of state of Texas, I have to face her sister in law, Jenny. Jenny Williams, the big sister to the World Champion. The girlfriend of the former World Champion and a member of the Hierarchy. I find it a little funny that despite running a multi-million dollar company that somehow you make time to wrestle on the side. I find it funny that you make the time to do something that you really have no business in either. I know who trained you, Jenny and it makes me sick to my stomach.
Why are so many female wrestlers not getting the proper training that they need to survive in the wrestling business? What can Crystal and Todd manage to teach you about professional wrestling besides how to flip around and shout retarded ass things at the top of your lungs? I look at you, Jenny and do you know what I see? A future carbon copy of Crystal Hilton. What happens when Xander stops being so successful and goes on a bit of a down streak? You gonna up and leave him like your sister in law leaves your brother?
Do you plan to stay with Xander through thick and thin? Just like with your sister in law, you've leeched onto someone powerful within' this company in order to get yourself ahead without actually moving a finger really. People see Jenny Williams and instead of thinking of a professional wrestler, they begin to think of a woman who is porking Xander Famularo. People see Jenny Williams and they think of a woman who runs a company moonlighting as a professional wrestler. You're like Batman only not near as awesome. Not even close to being as awesome, in fact.
Do you even know what an Honor Rules match is much less ever have been in that style of match? I was at one time one of the great pure wrestlers walking the face of the earth. I've been in so many matches like an Honor rules that it's almost second nature to me, Jenny. Do you know what it feels like to be trapped in a submission hold knowing that you can't grab the ropes to force someone to break it? You begin to feel helpless, scared, and this feeling of despair blankets you until you either tap out or manage to break out of the hold.
A five count on the floor? So lets say that I'm in control, you head out of the ring for a breather and you're not aware of the count, you're done. This the thinking wrestler's match. Its like a game of chess where you need to stay ahead of your opponent. Looking at your last name I just don't think it happens. Your brother shows about as much intelligence as a box of rocks. I don't think you fare much better. What kind of an idiot would willingly wrestle as a CEO of a company? You could be living the sweet life in a penthouse, barefoot and pregnant with little Xanders running around you.
Instead you're here in a reality in which you can't escape. In my reality do you know what you are, Jenny? Another body in a pile that's beginning to stack towards the sky. I'm taking this divison and I'm running through it like a treadmill. Some of it will repeat but the path remains the same. My path to the Starlets World Championship. I'm not the type to make outlandish promises about winning a title before a certain date because we all know how that ends up faring but mark my words, I will be Starlets World Champion.
Do you know what you'll be after Sovereign, Jenny? A trophy for Xander. A CEO of a company that makes you more money that most people could ever possibly dream of. A big sister to the biggest male joke in the company. LET'S YELL RANDOM CRAP SO WE CAN GET OVER LIKE A BOSS. Do you know what I'll be after this show? A professional wrestler. A person who makes her living in this sport. Just not comes into it because her brother, boyfriend and sister in law are all wrestlers. And before you make that claim that I'm in this because my brothers are, stop. I've been around this business since the day Spike got me out of the asylum.
Being here in nCw right now will put me back in it sooner then I could possibly imagine. It's all thanks to people like Amy Marshall and your sister in law, Jenny. If I don't get what I want soon, I'll be put back in my little caged part of the world with my padded walls because this business is driving me insane. I know people will turn on me soon. I'm 'complaining' too much but you know what? I'm fine with it. I'd rather live long and become a villian then die a hero to this company.
Boom."
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I sit in the front steps of my house while the sun beats down onto me. I don't think anyone could phase me right now in the mood I'm in. I wanted to take her out of professional wrestling but I failed. I failed in my goal of getting Amy Marshall out of my business forever. It's enough to drive me insane knowing that she still breathes. It annoys me to know that a lot of people are still breathing. Dexter takes a seat next to me, giving me a smile but I don't even give him a sign of hello.
Dexter: Whatcha upset about Freya?
I don't answer. I'd rather sit here in my own mind knowing that I failed when I had the perfect chance to shut someone up for good. I could've put everyone in nCw out of their misery but I didn't. God I hate them.
Dexter: Don't feel like talking huh?
Again I keep my mouth shut. I'd just like to rewind to Sunday night, snap her neck and be done with it. Until then I know she'll never shut up. Just like how Crystal will never shut up either.
Dexter: Upset about what Crystal said? What does she know. She married the biggest oreo in the United States.
I wish I could chuckle but I can't bring myself to show the proper emotion to Dexter. I've never honestly felt like this before. This feeling of hate, of loathing and disgust for the people I work with. These wrestlers are anything but that.
Dexter: Listen. I can't help you out if you don't help me out, okay? I hate seeing you so upset over wrestling. You've always told me it was a way to have fun and visit new places. What makes you so different then me?
My last name you dumbass. Of course I don't say that outloud to him but it's the truth. No one knows what it feels like to have this name right now. Two brothers faking another retirement. Former sister in law whoring herself out. This name needs me right now more then anything else in the world.
Dexter: Well if you'd like to talk about anything you know I'm here for you babe. It's why I married you. I love you.
I nod my head to let him know I love him but I just can't talk to him right now. I have no one to turn to. No one. Just me. Not even my brothers can help me now. I will rule the Starlets Division one way or another. To bring glory back to the Kane name. In time, people will not bloody hail or go peace. Rather they will look up to me and praise me. It's time to get what I've earned...
