Post by Brad Kane on Oct 14, 2009 18:51:33 GMT -6
The sunny view of a nice neighborhood in Boston. Its not too glitzy as where the mansion is but its a perfect starter home for a certain little sister and her husband to start their own family, away from the craziness of her twin older brothers. But now she's seemingly been dragged into it. Standing outside on the front door step of his old home is Reckless Jack. He's alone today with a serious yet sad look on his face while waiting for the door to get answered. He sighs, a little upset that he needs to drop by his sister's place at a time like this to explain a few things to her about his and her brother.
The door swings open as there stands Freya Ragnal in her pregnant glory. A smile is on her face seeing her "good" brother. Reckless Jack makes his way into the house that he gave them, a little surprised with how nice it looks. He nods his head, happy that Freya's settled in so nicely.
Reckless Jack: Place looks good sis. Really like what you've done with it. Though I don't quite understand the need for that giant beer sign on the wall...
Yeah, there is a giant Budweiser sign on the wall. Freya lets a giggle escape from her mouth before trying to explain.
Freya Ragnal: Got it from a neighbor. Paid a couple of bucks for it but I thought it'd be a little fun to have around even though neither Joe or myself drink.
Reckless Jack: A little ironic yeah. You should put it in the basement though if you want my opinion.
She shrugs her shoulder before motioning her brother to a couch in the family room. He takes a seat, Freya sitting next to him. In walks Joe Ragnal with a black eye and a bruise on near his lip. He sits in a chair that looks at Brad before Freya stands and goes over to sit on his lap.
Freya Ragnal: How ya feelin' baby?
Joe Ragnal: Alright I guess. My eye still hurts but that's to be expected yanno.
Reckless Jack nods his head in agreement before leaning forward in his seat. He looks at his little sister and her husband, feeling awful for what Spike did to him and to her. Just a couple of hours after he uttered so many words that Spike might do something to harm their little sister. While it wasn't direct, just by punching Joe, Spike has damaged Freya more then he could ever imagine.
Reckless Jack: I'd just like to apologize for what Michael did yesterday. The guy... he just has a screw loose and he refuses to get it tightened back in to become sane. I just wish I could've been there to stop it...
Joe Ragnal: So he could've beaten you right then and there after a sucker punch. I appreciate what you're saying to me, I really do but there isn't a thing you could've done yesterday that would've stopped Michael from beating me. Its just like you said, he has a screw loose.
Freya looks down at the floor, trying to keep her tears in.
Joe Ragnal: I understand that all three of you have your problems but at least you and my Freya have done something to fix those problems that you have. You went into rehab after your future wife noticed you needed help when no one else did. I brought Freya back from the brink of a loveless life and helped to stop her budding alcohol addiction. It seems that Spike just lets his problems continue to get bigger and bigger, just trying to fake his way through it all just for the approval of River.
Jack looks around sees a few of River and Xander's bags sitting around.
Reckless Jack: I'm glad Megan went to lunch with River today. It'll do the both of them good I think. But how is Xander doing in all this?
Freya Ragnal: He's sleeping right now. Looks like a great baby but its just too bad who his father is...
Reckless Jack: Freya, I know Mike has done some horrible things to us but no matter what happens, he's always going to be our brother. We might not like that fact a lot of the time but it'll never change the fact that because of him you're sitting on your husband's lap, four months pregnant or so or whatever. He's the one who took you away from your life.
Now the tears do roll down Freya's cheeks before she nods her head.
Freya Ragnal: I know but after he started to hit Joey, I just, I don't know what to think of him anymore. He's never liked him anyways so I don't buy this whole he did it because he thought it was Conrad stuff.
RJ sighs after hearing that name. Conrad, always the source of their problems as it would seem. If he could just get Spike to stop seeing him then maybe things would get back to normal.
Reckless Jack: Conrad? I thought all that crap was over and done with but I guess it'll never be until Spike is in his coffin with his eyes shut for good. So many times these past two years he's been seeing him. I just wish I could help him finally end all of this...
Freya Ragnal: Maybe you can on Sunday. I know this'll sound a bit weird but you have to make sure Spike can't walk out at all. He has to leave on a stretcher.
Reckless Jack: You think I don't know that Freya? Do you know how much this really pains me? I put up this front that I want to kill Mike all the time but like I told you, he's always gonna be our brother and nothing can change that, not even if we have to get him locked into a looney bin because of his problems. Michael just needs our help in any way possible. Thats why I'm doing this on Sunday.
She blinks a couple of times, a tad bit confused by her brother's words. He looks to explain them a bit more.
Reckless Jack: Remember how some people go on about want versus need? I don't want to do this to Spike. If I had my way, he'd just wake up and realize that we can be a family united instead of one divided but he just isn't able to process it because of that part in his brain. So I need to do this to him. I need to hurt my brother. I need to make him bleed and if it comes to a certain extreme, I'll put him down by my own hand. Its like I told Megan the other day, just because you love someone doesn't mean you have to like them. I love Spike but I don't think I'll ever like him. Get what I'm saying?
Freya Ragnal: No, not really but that's okay. I just don't want Mike to be like this anymore.
Reckless Jack: I don't either Freya, I don't either. Don't watch us either. Don't read about it, don't let Joe watch it, nothing. Sorry if this is overbearing but you don't need to see us killing one another on Sunday.
Freya Ragnal: Its okay. My best friends have a pay per view the same night anyways. So I'll be watching that. Sorry.
RJ shakes it off, not really concerned about it.
Reckless Jack: Good, just keep your focus on them then. No matter what happens, I love you sis.
Freya Ragnal: I know you do. Now go off and get ready for this. Quit wasting time sitting here on the couch.
After nodding his head, Reckless Jack stands up and heads for the door. He opens it and takes one last look at the Budwieser sign before shaking his head.
Reckless Jack: You know who'd really like this?
Freya Ragnal: Who?
Reckless Jack: Spike...
With a half smirk now on his face Reckless Jack exits Freya's home and heads to his car. He sits down in the driver's seat and turns some music on, closing his eyes to think. So many reasons to go through with this and so many reasons not to. Its almost an enternal struggle within his soul between doing the right thing, putting Spike down and doing the wrong thing, letting Spike keep going down his destructive path. But maybe the right thing to do is let Spike keep going down this destructive path. Who knows, its all how you make it and that's the one thing Reckless Jack isn't sure of anymore.
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"The words spoken by you brother, they're nothing after Sunday night. Every single word that escapes from your mouth is just something designed to try to get into my head, wanting me to feed into your hate, your anger and your want for destruction of our family, they'll be nothing but a memory in a few short nights. The words that you've tried to speak to Freya, my wife, your wife, they're all but lost memories after Sunday evening.
My intentions for that evening are not as bad as you might think brother. I don't wish you more harm then you've wished upon me. If you were to die in the middle of that ring, who would grow up to teach Xander to be a bitter man? If you were to die in the middle of that ring, who would help take care of River? I know you love your wife and son, much like how I love my wife and children and how Freya will do the same in due time. Think about them Spike, think about River and Xander just for a moment.
Do you know what this is really doing to my love? Seeing me like this is tearing her up inside but she sticks with me. She sticks with me because she knows for a fact that after Sunday, no matter what happens to me, I'm done with you. I'll be going back to the name mom and dad gave me, Bradley Kane. You might not want me as Brad Kane and that's perfectly fine brother, I can understand how you feel. When I was with our aunt and uncle here in the states, there were so many times I didn't want to have their same last night because of how they are.
Now that I look back on it, it was nothing but unfair of me to judge them in such a manner. They took me in, they tried the best they could with me. I'm not blaming them for how I turned out anymore. We're all in control of our own lives, people can only influence them towards good or evil. Just like how Conrad constantly keeps popping into your mind and tells you all these outlandish things that you believe to be reality. Just remember who the best man at your wedding was. Just remember who was right with you when your son was born.
Be angry with me all you want to big brother because even though I don't like you, I don't hate you. You see brother, this match is just a way for us to finally get all the anger out. This is a way for both of us to beat each other senseless until one of us yells the words. But as far as your words are concerned right now though, Michael, you've just dug yourself into a bigger hole then you could possibly imagine.
See, I could use this time to spit facts back in your face and debate this whole issue with you but I won't because I wish to do something else. Although it is a little sad to see you bring Freya back into this whole mess by saying that I tainted her. I do take offense to that because I could say the exact same about you. I'm open about things and you're a prude, contrast much? Like I said last time, we might look the same but we are two completely different people.
I had a dream last night big brother that we were kids again. But it was later in our childhood and our family was still together. Me, you, Freya, mom, dad and their last kid, Aiden. It was Christmas and we were around ten years old. We had smiles on our faces, everyone did. Dad wasn't the hardass we remember him to be. Mom was still a saint. It was one of the greatest dreams I've ever had in my life Spike because we were happy, as a family.
Then the dream became a nightmare again as I woke up. The thought of the happy family we were determined to be was replaced by a father who did the worst thing he possibly could. He forced us to seperate into three different directions. That nightmare though is something I can't wake up from no matter how hard I try. Why do you think I have the amount of kids I do brother? Why do you think I enjoy having so much sex that its impossible for me to go longer then a year without trying to get someone pregnant.
I want that big family feeling. I want that Christmas morning in ten years where my kids are opening presents with their cousins, their aunts and their uncles. But you've taken away my dream just like how my problems took away so many things. If I had known about yours, I would've helped but you never uttered a word to me. Our nightmares are in part of our own doing. We're responsible for our actions brother. Its our fault that we don't like one another.
This is all our fault and if someone sides with you, they aren't right. If someone sides with me, they aren't right. No one is right in this Spike because this whole thing is nothing but two brothers who need to paste one another with hard shots to the face. This is about your attachment to Conrad and my attachment to the need of being loved by everyone to feel some sort of self worth. Even if we do beat one another senseless, these problems won't go away from us.
When Sunday night rolls around, I don't take my time in that ring. I'm not going to enjoy this like I had originally planned on because I've found the deeper meaning to our problems. We both want one thing Spike and that's love. Just like how Freya wants love. That's why we're this way because we weren't taught to love.
But no matter Michael because even if something were to happen to you, I'll always love you, big brother."
The door swings open as there stands Freya Ragnal in her pregnant glory. A smile is on her face seeing her "good" brother. Reckless Jack makes his way into the house that he gave them, a little surprised with how nice it looks. He nods his head, happy that Freya's settled in so nicely.
Reckless Jack: Place looks good sis. Really like what you've done with it. Though I don't quite understand the need for that giant beer sign on the wall...
Yeah, there is a giant Budweiser sign on the wall. Freya lets a giggle escape from her mouth before trying to explain.
Freya Ragnal: Got it from a neighbor. Paid a couple of bucks for it but I thought it'd be a little fun to have around even though neither Joe or myself drink.
Reckless Jack: A little ironic yeah. You should put it in the basement though if you want my opinion.
She shrugs her shoulder before motioning her brother to a couch in the family room. He takes a seat, Freya sitting next to him. In walks Joe Ragnal with a black eye and a bruise on near his lip. He sits in a chair that looks at Brad before Freya stands and goes over to sit on his lap.
Freya Ragnal: How ya feelin' baby?
Joe Ragnal: Alright I guess. My eye still hurts but that's to be expected yanno.
Reckless Jack nods his head in agreement before leaning forward in his seat. He looks at his little sister and her husband, feeling awful for what Spike did to him and to her. Just a couple of hours after he uttered so many words that Spike might do something to harm their little sister. While it wasn't direct, just by punching Joe, Spike has damaged Freya more then he could ever imagine.
Reckless Jack: I'd just like to apologize for what Michael did yesterday. The guy... he just has a screw loose and he refuses to get it tightened back in to become sane. I just wish I could've been there to stop it...
Joe Ragnal: So he could've beaten you right then and there after a sucker punch. I appreciate what you're saying to me, I really do but there isn't a thing you could've done yesterday that would've stopped Michael from beating me. Its just like you said, he has a screw loose.
Freya looks down at the floor, trying to keep her tears in.
Joe Ragnal: I understand that all three of you have your problems but at least you and my Freya have done something to fix those problems that you have. You went into rehab after your future wife noticed you needed help when no one else did. I brought Freya back from the brink of a loveless life and helped to stop her budding alcohol addiction. It seems that Spike just lets his problems continue to get bigger and bigger, just trying to fake his way through it all just for the approval of River.
Jack looks around sees a few of River and Xander's bags sitting around.
Reckless Jack: I'm glad Megan went to lunch with River today. It'll do the both of them good I think. But how is Xander doing in all this?
Freya Ragnal: He's sleeping right now. Looks like a great baby but its just too bad who his father is...
Reckless Jack: Freya, I know Mike has done some horrible things to us but no matter what happens, he's always going to be our brother. We might not like that fact a lot of the time but it'll never change the fact that because of him you're sitting on your husband's lap, four months pregnant or so or whatever. He's the one who took you away from your life.
Now the tears do roll down Freya's cheeks before she nods her head.
Freya Ragnal: I know but after he started to hit Joey, I just, I don't know what to think of him anymore. He's never liked him anyways so I don't buy this whole he did it because he thought it was Conrad stuff.
RJ sighs after hearing that name. Conrad, always the source of their problems as it would seem. If he could just get Spike to stop seeing him then maybe things would get back to normal.
Reckless Jack: Conrad? I thought all that crap was over and done with but I guess it'll never be until Spike is in his coffin with his eyes shut for good. So many times these past two years he's been seeing him. I just wish I could help him finally end all of this...
Freya Ragnal: Maybe you can on Sunday. I know this'll sound a bit weird but you have to make sure Spike can't walk out at all. He has to leave on a stretcher.
Reckless Jack: You think I don't know that Freya? Do you know how much this really pains me? I put up this front that I want to kill Mike all the time but like I told you, he's always gonna be our brother and nothing can change that, not even if we have to get him locked into a looney bin because of his problems. Michael just needs our help in any way possible. Thats why I'm doing this on Sunday.
She blinks a couple of times, a tad bit confused by her brother's words. He looks to explain them a bit more.
Reckless Jack: Remember how some people go on about want versus need? I don't want to do this to Spike. If I had my way, he'd just wake up and realize that we can be a family united instead of one divided but he just isn't able to process it because of that part in his brain. So I need to do this to him. I need to hurt my brother. I need to make him bleed and if it comes to a certain extreme, I'll put him down by my own hand. Its like I told Megan the other day, just because you love someone doesn't mean you have to like them. I love Spike but I don't think I'll ever like him. Get what I'm saying?
Freya Ragnal: No, not really but that's okay. I just don't want Mike to be like this anymore.
Reckless Jack: I don't either Freya, I don't either. Don't watch us either. Don't read about it, don't let Joe watch it, nothing. Sorry if this is overbearing but you don't need to see us killing one another on Sunday.
Freya Ragnal: Its okay. My best friends have a pay per view the same night anyways. So I'll be watching that. Sorry.
RJ shakes it off, not really concerned about it.
Reckless Jack: Good, just keep your focus on them then. No matter what happens, I love you sis.
Freya Ragnal: I know you do. Now go off and get ready for this. Quit wasting time sitting here on the couch.
After nodding his head, Reckless Jack stands up and heads for the door. He opens it and takes one last look at the Budwieser sign before shaking his head.
Reckless Jack: You know who'd really like this?
Freya Ragnal: Who?
Reckless Jack: Spike...
With a half smirk now on his face Reckless Jack exits Freya's home and heads to his car. He sits down in the driver's seat and turns some music on, closing his eyes to think. So many reasons to go through with this and so many reasons not to. Its almost an enternal struggle within his soul between doing the right thing, putting Spike down and doing the wrong thing, letting Spike keep going down his destructive path. But maybe the right thing to do is let Spike keep going down this destructive path. Who knows, its all how you make it and that's the one thing Reckless Jack isn't sure of anymore.
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"The words spoken by you brother, they're nothing after Sunday night. Every single word that escapes from your mouth is just something designed to try to get into my head, wanting me to feed into your hate, your anger and your want for destruction of our family, they'll be nothing but a memory in a few short nights. The words that you've tried to speak to Freya, my wife, your wife, they're all but lost memories after Sunday evening.
My intentions for that evening are not as bad as you might think brother. I don't wish you more harm then you've wished upon me. If you were to die in the middle of that ring, who would grow up to teach Xander to be a bitter man? If you were to die in the middle of that ring, who would help take care of River? I know you love your wife and son, much like how I love my wife and children and how Freya will do the same in due time. Think about them Spike, think about River and Xander just for a moment.
Do you know what this is really doing to my love? Seeing me like this is tearing her up inside but she sticks with me. She sticks with me because she knows for a fact that after Sunday, no matter what happens to me, I'm done with you. I'll be going back to the name mom and dad gave me, Bradley Kane. You might not want me as Brad Kane and that's perfectly fine brother, I can understand how you feel. When I was with our aunt and uncle here in the states, there were so many times I didn't want to have their same last night because of how they are.
Now that I look back on it, it was nothing but unfair of me to judge them in such a manner. They took me in, they tried the best they could with me. I'm not blaming them for how I turned out anymore. We're all in control of our own lives, people can only influence them towards good or evil. Just like how Conrad constantly keeps popping into your mind and tells you all these outlandish things that you believe to be reality. Just remember who the best man at your wedding was. Just remember who was right with you when your son was born.
Be angry with me all you want to big brother because even though I don't like you, I don't hate you. You see brother, this match is just a way for us to finally get all the anger out. This is a way for both of us to beat each other senseless until one of us yells the words. But as far as your words are concerned right now though, Michael, you've just dug yourself into a bigger hole then you could possibly imagine.
See, I could use this time to spit facts back in your face and debate this whole issue with you but I won't because I wish to do something else. Although it is a little sad to see you bring Freya back into this whole mess by saying that I tainted her. I do take offense to that because I could say the exact same about you. I'm open about things and you're a prude, contrast much? Like I said last time, we might look the same but we are two completely different people.
I had a dream last night big brother that we were kids again. But it was later in our childhood and our family was still together. Me, you, Freya, mom, dad and their last kid, Aiden. It was Christmas and we were around ten years old. We had smiles on our faces, everyone did. Dad wasn't the hardass we remember him to be. Mom was still a saint. It was one of the greatest dreams I've ever had in my life Spike because we were happy, as a family.
Then the dream became a nightmare again as I woke up. The thought of the happy family we were determined to be was replaced by a father who did the worst thing he possibly could. He forced us to seperate into three different directions. That nightmare though is something I can't wake up from no matter how hard I try. Why do you think I have the amount of kids I do brother? Why do you think I enjoy having so much sex that its impossible for me to go longer then a year without trying to get someone pregnant.
I want that big family feeling. I want that Christmas morning in ten years where my kids are opening presents with their cousins, their aunts and their uncles. But you've taken away my dream just like how my problems took away so many things. If I had known about yours, I would've helped but you never uttered a word to me. Our nightmares are in part of our own doing. We're responsible for our actions brother. Its our fault that we don't like one another.
This is all our fault and if someone sides with you, they aren't right. If someone sides with me, they aren't right. No one is right in this Spike because this whole thing is nothing but two brothers who need to paste one another with hard shots to the face. This is about your attachment to Conrad and my attachment to the need of being loved by everyone to feel some sort of self worth. Even if we do beat one another senseless, these problems won't go away from us.
When Sunday night rolls around, I don't take my time in that ring. I'm not going to enjoy this like I had originally planned on because I've found the deeper meaning to our problems. We both want one thing Spike and that's love. Just like how Freya wants love. That's why we're this way because we weren't taught to love.
But no matter Michael because even if something were to happen to you, I'll always love you, big brother."