Post by Jasmine Barrera on Nov 24, 2012 7:54:12 GMT -6
Synopsis: Jazz's return was successful against Rose Acantha last week, giving Jazz a much needed win. She also officially left the Circle to head her own group, much to the chagrin of Hector, the Circle member who had been supplying her with income and work. As hard as it was Jazz felt it was the right choice. Now Jazz prepares to going one on one with Megan Sanderson, and begin a fresh start without the dark cloud over her shoulder. Can Jazz's new outlook and confidence aid her in a win this week?
It feels really, really good when you get a monkey off your back. Rose was a sore spot for me, because I should have been able to beat her back then, as opposed to now. Just the same, it was great to beat her in the ring. Now my run has to continue inside the ring. If I can string together some wins, I think I may just get in line for a title match down the road. It's just seeming like things are finally starting to come together for me. Both inside the ring and outside the ring.
It was a very hard choice to leave the Circle completely. I'm not going to lie and say it was. It was a struggle to leave the people who made me. The people who took care of me. The people who picked me up when I was down. Those guys who showed me how you can use power the correct way. Yes, those people are no longer in my life, and it's going to be very, very different to say the least not having them in my back pocket so to speak. But like everything else, at some point you have to evolve and change with the times.
But what made my choice easier what the fact that the Circle I knew, the one I grew up in, the people I know, are all gone. This isn't what I was leaving. That Circle, that group, that gave me everything, that Circle is gone. No longer runs that way. I needed to get out because of what it had become. What it had turned into. What it is now, is a group of people with no real direction, headed by a desperate man who used a power play to make himself the ruler he thinks he is. And because of the loyalty that grew between all the members, they've stayed. They continue to follow. I know in my heart I made the right choice. It was time for me to leave. To evolve. To stand on my own.
Not that I really was being given much choice.
At this point, Rodney had a price on my head, no doubt that if he knew I was working with Hector, he would have doubled it. I got out before he knew. Or, at least I think I did. There's really no telling with Rodney anymore. He's become so drunk with power that he's capable of anything. Still, I feel like a cloud was lifted. I don't need to look over my shoulder anymore. I can now look forward.
And I see another person who impacted my career ahead of me.
Megan Sanderson. I felt violated the last time I was in the ring with you. The mere fact that you touched me, forget beat me, just touching me was enough to throw me off my game. I'm not making excuses, on that night, you were better than me. On that night, I was not really looking forward to facing you, since you're the girl who is most likely to piss in the sink of the women's locker room if you see fit. That kind of thing is really just...unsettling.
But that was then. This is now.
Now, I don't care. Be that flirty little sexpot you are. I'm not trying to change someone like you. It doesn't bother me anymore. You know why? Because I'm through trying to reach people. I'd just as soon defeat you in the ring, and move past this part. Move past you and what you are. I am happy for you and Kris. I am happy for you and everything you do. I don't need to hate you to be better. I don't need to call what you do wrong. It's a judgement call that I don't need to make. All I have to do is beat you in the ring. That's all, nothing more, nothing less. Another wrong, misstep in my career that I can and will adjust.
I'm free now Megan. Like you. A free spirit feels very, very good. No more burdens, no more guilt, no more wondering what's next. Just live. Just do what you love. And although Todd and I don't see eye to eye on everything, and his methods are questionable. I think wrestling is starting to grow on me. It may not be in my blood like it is yours, but that's just fine. I am really enjoying myself now. Something I should have been doing from the start. I know when I came in it was rough, all through everything that's happened, I started to get down on myself.. But Todd's always had that super-positive energy, and a positive outlook on life. I guess it's rubbed off on me.
Saturday on Trauma, we will meet once again. And while I don't hate you, or look down on you, I still have to beat you. Someone has to win, and someone has to lose Megan. Avenging a loss will make me feel good, but it's not the sole reason I want to win. I want to win because I know that I can be better than I have been. And beating you will prove that point. It helps me get closer to a lot of goals, a lot of dreams.
You've had dreams before, right Megan? Child birth, Motherhood, some sort of sex record? You have goals, much like I do. But while I can plainly see that you've accomplished a lot of goals, the truth is I haven't. And for the most part, it's been my fault. I haven't been good enough to win when it mattered. Sure, I can blame the outside life that I have on my shortcomings, but the fact is I should be able to focus on the task at hand inside the ring of NCW. And at this point, there isn't any more distractions, so now, there are no excuses.
I have soaked up every last bit of knowledge I could on you, and minus all the purely subjective negatives of your lifestyle, there is that layer of skill. That clever mask of your life hides it very well. But what you do, outside the ring, isn't my concern. It's what's inside the ring that I'm worried about. And those nerves are turning into excitement, I can't lie about it. To beat Megan Sanderson would rank right up there with any match I've won to date. And I know that I can do it.
And now that I have the chance, I need to make it count.
And that's what I plan to do Saturday against you Megan. Make the most of my opportunities, and climb that ladder of success in NCW. I know I can, now I will show you, I can as well.
| Circle HQ, Harlem, NY |
Rodney, sits, smoking a cigar, staring at Ace, who stands off to his side.
Rodney picks up his phone.
It feels really, really good when you get a monkey off your back. Rose was a sore spot for me, because I should have been able to beat her back then, as opposed to now. Just the same, it was great to beat her in the ring. Now my run has to continue inside the ring. If I can string together some wins, I think I may just get in line for a title match down the road. It's just seeming like things are finally starting to come together for me. Both inside the ring and outside the ring.
It was a very hard choice to leave the Circle completely. I'm not going to lie and say it was. It was a struggle to leave the people who made me. The people who took care of me. The people who picked me up when I was down. Those guys who showed me how you can use power the correct way. Yes, those people are no longer in my life, and it's going to be very, very different to say the least not having them in my back pocket so to speak. But like everything else, at some point you have to evolve and change with the times.
But what made my choice easier what the fact that the Circle I knew, the one I grew up in, the people I know, are all gone. This isn't what I was leaving. That Circle, that group, that gave me everything, that Circle is gone. No longer runs that way. I needed to get out because of what it had become. What it had turned into. What it is now, is a group of people with no real direction, headed by a desperate man who used a power play to make himself the ruler he thinks he is. And because of the loyalty that grew between all the members, they've stayed. They continue to follow. I know in my heart I made the right choice. It was time for me to leave. To evolve. To stand on my own.
Not that I really was being given much choice.
At this point, Rodney had a price on my head, no doubt that if he knew I was working with Hector, he would have doubled it. I got out before he knew. Or, at least I think I did. There's really no telling with Rodney anymore. He's become so drunk with power that he's capable of anything. Still, I feel like a cloud was lifted. I don't need to look over my shoulder anymore. I can now look forward.
And I see another person who impacted my career ahead of me.
Megan Sanderson. I felt violated the last time I was in the ring with you. The mere fact that you touched me, forget beat me, just touching me was enough to throw me off my game. I'm not making excuses, on that night, you were better than me. On that night, I was not really looking forward to facing you, since you're the girl who is most likely to piss in the sink of the women's locker room if you see fit. That kind of thing is really just...unsettling.
But that was then. This is now.
Now, I don't care. Be that flirty little sexpot you are. I'm not trying to change someone like you. It doesn't bother me anymore. You know why? Because I'm through trying to reach people. I'd just as soon defeat you in the ring, and move past this part. Move past you and what you are. I am happy for you and Kris. I am happy for you and everything you do. I don't need to hate you to be better. I don't need to call what you do wrong. It's a judgement call that I don't need to make. All I have to do is beat you in the ring. That's all, nothing more, nothing less. Another wrong, misstep in my career that I can and will adjust.
I'm free now Megan. Like you. A free spirit feels very, very good. No more burdens, no more guilt, no more wondering what's next. Just live. Just do what you love. And although Todd and I don't see eye to eye on everything, and his methods are questionable. I think wrestling is starting to grow on me. It may not be in my blood like it is yours, but that's just fine. I am really enjoying myself now. Something I should have been doing from the start. I know when I came in it was rough, all through everything that's happened, I started to get down on myself.. But Todd's always had that super-positive energy, and a positive outlook on life. I guess it's rubbed off on me.
Saturday on Trauma, we will meet once again. And while I don't hate you, or look down on you, I still have to beat you. Someone has to win, and someone has to lose Megan. Avenging a loss will make me feel good, but it's not the sole reason I want to win. I want to win because I know that I can be better than I have been. And beating you will prove that point. It helps me get closer to a lot of goals, a lot of dreams.
You've had dreams before, right Megan? Child birth, Motherhood, some sort of sex record? You have goals, much like I do. But while I can plainly see that you've accomplished a lot of goals, the truth is I haven't. And for the most part, it's been my fault. I haven't been good enough to win when it mattered. Sure, I can blame the outside life that I have on my shortcomings, but the fact is I should be able to focus on the task at hand inside the ring of NCW. And at this point, there isn't any more distractions, so now, there are no excuses.
I have soaked up every last bit of knowledge I could on you, and minus all the purely subjective negatives of your lifestyle, there is that layer of skill. That clever mask of your life hides it very well. But what you do, outside the ring, isn't my concern. It's what's inside the ring that I'm worried about. And those nerves are turning into excitement, I can't lie about it. To beat Megan Sanderson would rank right up there with any match I've won to date. And I know that I can do it.
And now that I have the chance, I need to make it count.
And that's what I plan to do Saturday against you Megan. Make the most of my opportunities, and climb that ladder of success in NCW. I know I can, now I will show you, I can as well.
| Circle HQ, Harlem, NY |
Rodney, sits, smoking a cigar, staring at Ace, who stands off to his side.
Rodney:
...I've had enough. I'm going through with it, Ace.
Ace:
You don't have to do that.
Rodney:
It's got to be done. I'm sending the word.
Ace:
You're inviting a lot of trouble.
Rodney:
Trouble that's goin' get handled.
Ace:
...She isn't a problem anymore.
Rodney:
And she ain't gonna be after this neither.
...I've had enough. I'm going through with it, Ace.
Ace:
You don't have to do that.
Rodney:
It's got to be done. I'm sending the word.
Ace:
You're inviting a lot of trouble.
Rodney:
Trouble that's goin' get handled.
Ace:
...She isn't a problem anymore.
Rodney:
And she ain't gonna be after this neither.
Rodney picks up his phone.
Rodney:
Pete? It's Rod....Yeah, I need you to do a job for me....
Pete? It's Rod....Yeah, I need you to do a job for me....