Post by Rose Acantha on Jan 17, 2013 14:39:02 GMT -6
I was dejected…Mr. Nate was dejected…I think Mr. Nate was more so than I was…even though his face, his body movements did not show them I know he had an empty feeling inside.
In my case it was supposed to be a coming out party where I beat two misses I knew I could beat and for all intents and purposes, was supposed to beat…but again with one kick I was put back at the drawing board. Not only did I have to go back to the drawing board…but I went back to the drawing board giving Miss Kathy more power and feeling of control over me. She was in the driver’s seat and I knew it and of course she knew it.
Which led to Mr. Nate…here was with his own coming out party, against his philosophic opposite in Mr. Robby. If Mr. Nate had won he would have had all the momentum in the world…but he lost…and not only did he lose but he lost because of Mr. Jake’s helping Mr. Robby…leaving Mr. Nate once again a bloody mess. Then of course pouring salt into his wounds was his receiving his cease and desist notice from Mrs. K. It was a killing blow to what was his righteous war against the corruption and hypocrisy that is the corporate hierarchy. Everything that he had returned for was all but swept from under his feet. So yes I lost and felt dejected, but he lost so much more and frankly we were below stage one…reduced to less to nothing.
On that Monday morning as I walked down the stairs with Sterling on my heels I found Mr. Nate outside sitting on the porch chair with James sitting as close as he could to him trying to get his morning nap in. Mr. Nate was going over the legal paper work that he was given the previous night I assumed to find some loop hole…any loop hole, that could be exploited…to get us back into action. If anything it would bring momentum to our side.
“So anything in there that we can use Mr. Nate to our benefit?” I asked Mr. Nate taking a chair of my own bringing Sterling into my lap.
Mr. Nate looked up somewhat startled…as though I had taken him out of deep thought. Seeing me though, he sat back and put down the stack of legal paperwork and took off his glasses. He sat there looking at me thinking for a few moments…I honestly thought that he was grateful that I was there, to give that person to bounce ideas off of…if for anything that I was a person to talk to that would actually listen.
“To answer your question…I was not able to find a loop hole, call Kelly what you will but her lawyers know what they are doing. We may express our opinions…but any threats or actions will end up having us in court…or worse.”
“So your war is done…and I can’t do anything against Kathy if really steps over the boundary?” Asking the self-answering question.
“No believe it or not there is a silver lining in all of this. It may not be something we necessarily want but it is there.”
I sighed being sure that while there was an adequate solution it was one that was still going to keep us severely limited.
Mr. Nate continued. “Yes we may not being able to physically touch them outside the confines of the ring and we may not be able to threaten them in any way…but the silver lining is that we are able to express our opinion.”
“I know that much Mr. Nate.”
“That is where how we really could use that to our advantage. That means the actions of the staff, whether it be Roberto, or Kelly or even Kathy and the Ace have a spot light on them, which means that any action they take can be further scrutinized by us. Think about it, ”Mr. Nate was now leaning in, “I know that it might not be as effective for me at this juncture but for you…use every opportunity you have to show Kathy for what she is.”
“So you are saying for me to call Miss Kathy out.”
“In a sense. With Kelly and Roberto, they are tempered and methodical…but right now Kathy is acting from an emotional state…it may be something you can take advantage of…”
I nodded understanding where Mr. Nate was coming from…I may not have liked the position we were coming in, but giving up, was not an option either.
“But I assume that while we have this silver lining…we are going to be in store for more actions against us.”
Mr. Nate nodded. “At least you for right now…being that Kathy wants to use you as the her punching bag even if it is from afar….As for me Kelly and Roberto want to just pretend that they are ignoring me, so as of now I don’t exist to them. So I got to force the issue and warrant their actions…”
“How?”
“Easy…win matches…you see we gain something that is valuable to them…gain the spot light that they want to keep off of us…”
“Which I assume is winning titles…or be in that picture…”
“Bingo.”
“You know that is easier said than done…”
“Hey, when we got into this again…no one said anything about this being easy….”
You should have done it when you had the opportunity.
“Again what would it have accomplished.”
Obviously you don’t have any forethought…Don’t you see the bigger picture?
“Yeah you want the misses to be scared of me…but I don’t want them to be scared of me.”
Who cares what YOU want?…it is what you NEED…and you need them to stop thinking of you as some poor creature…
“That is why I need to beat them in the ring…in a match…”
No…you don’t need to beat…you need to dominate…you need to strike fear…
“I need to make this about Miss Kathy acting like a horrible person…not about me putting fear into others…”
Who says you can’t do both?
“I don’t need to…nor do I want to…”
Come on…don’t be stupid…you need to make her regret that she chose you to be her personal punching bag…and you do that by demolishing your opponents…first off being Emma…
“She’s innocent…”
There is no such thing as innocents in war…even Mr. Nate would tell you that….
“But he would never hurt anyone unnecessarily…”
You…you are just so naïve aren’t you…it’s sweet of you to want to be this way…but you are going nowhere soon with that mentality….
Nothing big was built in a day…that goes for cities…buildings…anything, to include a career. It takes hard work, effort, patience and perseverance. Yes there are going to be days that make me want to scream and throw my hands up…some days I want to quit…but I have to have faith in myself to get my job done…to move forward and build this structure that I call my career brick by brick.
Of course it looks like a road block was intentionally thrown in my path last week with the triple threat match…I thought I had it handled…but we all know the results…I sure know as heck that I felt it in the form of a kick.
But that roadblock wasn’t the first and if Miss Kathy has her way it won’t be the last…this week she has put me against the latest in the long number of misses who have caught the fancies of Mr. Jake….Miss Emma.
So before I get to Miss Emma let me first speak to my so called tormentor in Miss Kathy. Now I know I can’t threaten you and I know I can’t put my hands on you but what I can do is call you out.
Were you happy seeing me not only lose the match but the way I lost it?
Are you happy thinking about the fact that Miss Emma may hurt me?
Are you also happy that your hubby may be happy with Miss Emma bating me while you are happy that I will be beaten as well?
Does that make your day? DOES IT?
But the part that astounds me is that you are doing this from afar…in the cozy corners of the Starlets office. You want to pretend like you are not involved…so you can keep your pretty hands clean, and make it look like you are such the great role model for you beautiful kiddies…which can’t be further from the truth….
I hate to make assumptions, but let’s be honest I can only really come up with reason and rationale for all this.
You see I have talked about it and discussed it with the thoughts roaming around in my little mind…and those thoughts are loud and almost over powering with what I have gleaned from them and that is you don’t want to fight me…it’s like you are almost…dare I say…afraid to fight me…
Yes you know I am cute…and warm…and bubbly…but you knew when you made it a point to make me your proverbial punching bag…from afar of course….you knew that you were going to be pressing a set of buttons which have really yet to be pressed…and you knew this could open up a whole can of worms that you probably don’t want to be opened…you don’t know what could happen…heck even I don’t know what may happen…but I can see it in your soul…you are scared of what may happen…
Yeah I said it Miss Kathy…I know deep inside of you there is a part of you that fears it…the unknown…the unknown of what happens if you push me to far…the unknown of that you might be helpless to stop what happens…there is fear inside of you Miss Kathy and I guarantee I can and will bring it out of you if you keep this tired charade up. So let me make a suggestion…if you don’t like me that much…if you want to use me as your personal punching bag….then do it yourself…don’t have others do your dirty work.
Which brings us to the misses that is doing Miss Kathy’s dirty work, and that is Miss Emma. Yes Miss Emma, that is all you are…the miss that is being sent out to whip me like Miss Kathy would love to do…but seems to be absent from the opportunity.
So how does it feel? Huh, Miss Emma…how does it feel to be little more than a play toy for both Miss Kathy and Mr. Jake? I mean do you honestly believe you are something more than that? If not…you need to wake up to reality?
First, let me ask if you honestly think that you are actually going to be something more than a pet for Mr. Jake? If you think he actually gives a good gosh darn about you then you are delusional. First, let’s nail down the obvious Miss Emma…his track record with women…and let’s be honest once he grows tired of you he will toss you to the curb…ask Miss Mercy how that goes. Plus I am willing to bet that he is hoping for a misses fight between you and Mr. AJ’s sister…you know seeing how much he loves building the jealousy of women. Can I prove it? Not necessarily…but let’s be honest would you put it past him to pull a stunt like that.
Then of course I hope you see that Miss Kathy is probably using you to beat on me…she wants my blood and she is expecting you to get that pound of flesh for her….despite what may happen to you…
So while I can’t threaten the staff or put my hands on them…or even encourage another wrestler do either…I will ask you to do this Miss Emma…
Be your own woman Miss Emma…not the woman Miss Kathy and Mr. Jake wants you to be…Don’t allow yourself to be a play toy that someone will use as they see fit…but an independent person that walks her own line…again I can’t force anything but I can make suggestions can’t I? So I suggest for you Miss Emma to look inside of you and ask if what you are doing and who you are associating yourself with is the not only the best for you career wise…but also the best for your personal and emotional well-being? I think you know that answer which of course is no?
Of course I know I am coming into this match as the underdog…and it is something I have gotten used to. I haven’t proven myself as a viable contender as of yet…but I am hoping to start and make that change…I don’t feel entitled to anything nor do I expect anything to just go my way…but the difference between me and the other so called misses that make up the Starlets division…is that I know I am not entitled…and I know everything will not fall my way…
Despite…my status, my stature, my personality…I come each and every week in order to make a name for myself…to win…and to fight for what I believe…and despite what misters and misses say or do…I will be coming each and every week ready to fight…and that is a guarantee.
In my case it was supposed to be a coming out party where I beat two misses I knew I could beat and for all intents and purposes, was supposed to beat…but again with one kick I was put back at the drawing board. Not only did I have to go back to the drawing board…but I went back to the drawing board giving Miss Kathy more power and feeling of control over me. She was in the driver’s seat and I knew it and of course she knew it.
Which led to Mr. Nate…here was with his own coming out party, against his philosophic opposite in Mr. Robby. If Mr. Nate had won he would have had all the momentum in the world…but he lost…and not only did he lose but he lost because of Mr. Jake’s helping Mr. Robby…leaving Mr. Nate once again a bloody mess. Then of course pouring salt into his wounds was his receiving his cease and desist notice from Mrs. K. It was a killing blow to what was his righteous war against the corruption and hypocrisy that is the corporate hierarchy. Everything that he had returned for was all but swept from under his feet. So yes I lost and felt dejected, but he lost so much more and frankly we were below stage one…reduced to less to nothing.
On that Monday morning as I walked down the stairs with Sterling on my heels I found Mr. Nate outside sitting on the porch chair with James sitting as close as he could to him trying to get his morning nap in. Mr. Nate was going over the legal paper work that he was given the previous night I assumed to find some loop hole…any loop hole, that could be exploited…to get us back into action. If anything it would bring momentum to our side.
“So anything in there that we can use Mr. Nate to our benefit?” I asked Mr. Nate taking a chair of my own bringing Sterling into my lap.
Mr. Nate looked up somewhat startled…as though I had taken him out of deep thought. Seeing me though, he sat back and put down the stack of legal paperwork and took off his glasses. He sat there looking at me thinking for a few moments…I honestly thought that he was grateful that I was there, to give that person to bounce ideas off of…if for anything that I was a person to talk to that would actually listen.
“To answer your question…I was not able to find a loop hole, call Kelly what you will but her lawyers know what they are doing. We may express our opinions…but any threats or actions will end up having us in court…or worse.”
“So your war is done…and I can’t do anything against Kathy if really steps over the boundary?” Asking the self-answering question.
“No believe it or not there is a silver lining in all of this. It may not be something we necessarily want but it is there.”
I sighed being sure that while there was an adequate solution it was one that was still going to keep us severely limited.
Mr. Nate continued. “Yes we may not being able to physically touch them outside the confines of the ring and we may not be able to threaten them in any way…but the silver lining is that we are able to express our opinion.”
“I know that much Mr. Nate.”
“That is where how we really could use that to our advantage. That means the actions of the staff, whether it be Roberto, or Kelly or even Kathy and the Ace have a spot light on them, which means that any action they take can be further scrutinized by us. Think about it, ”Mr. Nate was now leaning in, “I know that it might not be as effective for me at this juncture but for you…use every opportunity you have to show Kathy for what she is.”
“So you are saying for me to call Miss Kathy out.”
“In a sense. With Kelly and Roberto, they are tempered and methodical…but right now Kathy is acting from an emotional state…it may be something you can take advantage of…”
I nodded understanding where Mr. Nate was coming from…I may not have liked the position we were coming in, but giving up, was not an option either.
“But I assume that while we have this silver lining…we are going to be in store for more actions against us.”
Mr. Nate nodded. “At least you for right now…being that Kathy wants to use you as the her punching bag even if it is from afar….As for me Kelly and Roberto want to just pretend that they are ignoring me, so as of now I don’t exist to them. So I got to force the issue and warrant their actions…”
“How?”
“Easy…win matches…you see we gain something that is valuable to them…gain the spot light that they want to keep off of us…”
“Which I assume is winning titles…or be in that picture…”
“Bingo.”
“You know that is easier said than done…”
“Hey, when we got into this again…no one said anything about this being easy….”
You should have done it when you had the opportunity.
“Again what would it have accomplished.”
Obviously you don’t have any forethought…Don’t you see the bigger picture?
“Yeah you want the misses to be scared of me…but I don’t want them to be scared of me.”
Who cares what YOU want?…it is what you NEED…and you need them to stop thinking of you as some poor creature…
“That is why I need to beat them in the ring…in a match…”
No…you don’t need to beat…you need to dominate…you need to strike fear…
“I need to make this about Miss Kathy acting like a horrible person…not about me putting fear into others…”
Who says you can’t do both?
“I don’t need to…nor do I want to…”
Come on…don’t be stupid…you need to make her regret that she chose you to be her personal punching bag…and you do that by demolishing your opponents…first off being Emma…
“She’s innocent…”
There is no such thing as innocents in war…even Mr. Nate would tell you that….
“But he would never hurt anyone unnecessarily…”
You…you are just so naïve aren’t you…it’s sweet of you to want to be this way…but you are going nowhere soon with that mentality….
Nothing big was built in a day…that goes for cities…buildings…anything, to include a career. It takes hard work, effort, patience and perseverance. Yes there are going to be days that make me want to scream and throw my hands up…some days I want to quit…but I have to have faith in myself to get my job done…to move forward and build this structure that I call my career brick by brick.
Of course it looks like a road block was intentionally thrown in my path last week with the triple threat match…I thought I had it handled…but we all know the results…I sure know as heck that I felt it in the form of a kick.
But that roadblock wasn’t the first and if Miss Kathy has her way it won’t be the last…this week she has put me against the latest in the long number of misses who have caught the fancies of Mr. Jake….Miss Emma.
So before I get to Miss Emma let me first speak to my so called tormentor in Miss Kathy. Now I know I can’t threaten you and I know I can’t put my hands on you but what I can do is call you out.
Were you happy seeing me not only lose the match but the way I lost it?
Are you happy thinking about the fact that Miss Emma may hurt me?
Are you also happy that your hubby may be happy with Miss Emma bating me while you are happy that I will be beaten as well?
Does that make your day? DOES IT?
But the part that astounds me is that you are doing this from afar…in the cozy corners of the Starlets office. You want to pretend like you are not involved…so you can keep your pretty hands clean, and make it look like you are such the great role model for you beautiful kiddies…which can’t be further from the truth….
I hate to make assumptions, but let’s be honest I can only really come up with reason and rationale for all this.
You see I have talked about it and discussed it with the thoughts roaming around in my little mind…and those thoughts are loud and almost over powering with what I have gleaned from them and that is you don’t want to fight me…it’s like you are almost…dare I say…afraid to fight me…
Yes you know I am cute…and warm…and bubbly…but you knew when you made it a point to make me your proverbial punching bag…from afar of course….you knew that you were going to be pressing a set of buttons which have really yet to be pressed…and you knew this could open up a whole can of worms that you probably don’t want to be opened…you don’t know what could happen…heck even I don’t know what may happen…but I can see it in your soul…you are scared of what may happen…
Yeah I said it Miss Kathy…I know deep inside of you there is a part of you that fears it…the unknown…the unknown of what happens if you push me to far…the unknown of that you might be helpless to stop what happens…there is fear inside of you Miss Kathy and I guarantee I can and will bring it out of you if you keep this tired charade up. So let me make a suggestion…if you don’t like me that much…if you want to use me as your personal punching bag….then do it yourself…don’t have others do your dirty work.
Which brings us to the misses that is doing Miss Kathy’s dirty work, and that is Miss Emma. Yes Miss Emma, that is all you are…the miss that is being sent out to whip me like Miss Kathy would love to do…but seems to be absent from the opportunity.
So how does it feel? Huh, Miss Emma…how does it feel to be little more than a play toy for both Miss Kathy and Mr. Jake? I mean do you honestly believe you are something more than that? If not…you need to wake up to reality?
First, let me ask if you honestly think that you are actually going to be something more than a pet for Mr. Jake? If you think he actually gives a good gosh darn about you then you are delusional. First, let’s nail down the obvious Miss Emma…his track record with women…and let’s be honest once he grows tired of you he will toss you to the curb…ask Miss Mercy how that goes. Plus I am willing to bet that he is hoping for a misses fight between you and Mr. AJ’s sister…you know seeing how much he loves building the jealousy of women. Can I prove it? Not necessarily…but let’s be honest would you put it past him to pull a stunt like that.
Then of course I hope you see that Miss Kathy is probably using you to beat on me…she wants my blood and she is expecting you to get that pound of flesh for her….despite what may happen to you…
So while I can’t threaten the staff or put my hands on them…or even encourage another wrestler do either…I will ask you to do this Miss Emma…
Be your own woman Miss Emma…not the woman Miss Kathy and Mr. Jake wants you to be…Don’t allow yourself to be a play toy that someone will use as they see fit…but an independent person that walks her own line…again I can’t force anything but I can make suggestions can’t I? So I suggest for you Miss Emma to look inside of you and ask if what you are doing and who you are associating yourself with is the not only the best for you career wise…but also the best for your personal and emotional well-being? I think you know that answer which of course is no?
Of course I know I am coming into this match as the underdog…and it is something I have gotten used to. I haven’t proven myself as a viable contender as of yet…but I am hoping to start and make that change…I don’t feel entitled to anything nor do I expect anything to just go my way…but the difference between me and the other so called misses that make up the Starlets division…is that I know I am not entitled…and I know everything will not fall my way…
Despite…my status, my stature, my personality…I come each and every week in order to make a name for myself…to win…and to fight for what I believe…and despite what misters and misses say or do…I will be coming each and every week ready to fight…and that is a guarantee.