Post by Kelly Fox on Mar 22, 2010 20:26:02 GMT -6
Little angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear a word you say
Promised I would find a little solace
And some peace of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so
Desperate and ravenous,
So weak and powerless
Over you
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear a word you say
Promised I would find a little solace
And some peace of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so
Desperate and ravenous,
So weak and powerless
Over you
..::I feel like I have no control over anything right now, I feel like everything has been taken out of my hands and left o fate, what can I do, what can I say? I don't know, I keep looking around trying to find some answers trying to find out what am I supposed to do? Do I just play it by ear, do I just go where the wind takes me, or do I fight it, do I swim against the current? Can I swim against it? Will it be a lost cause, and if so will it be worth it to go down fighting?
This is where I wish somebody was there for me to help me along this path, to give me the gentle nudge in the right direction, maybe somebody like a brother, a brother did wasn't being a total jerk right now, but I have nobody. I'm trying to find a way, by blindly running down the halls hoping to eventually find my way.
Don't think I haven't seen how all of you look at me, how all of you despise me because of my success, because of what I was able to accomplish in under a month of mainstream wrestling. I can see it in your eyes as you shun me, as you refuse to even acknowledge I exist, except when you think you can get a title shot out of it. Don't think for a second that I'm so young and naive that I can't tell when you're jealous, when you desperately want what I have. So what I'm young, so what I'm apparently good at what I do, you don't have to have the old ugly green eyes over it.
I don't know what I should do about it, I don't have a clue, but I have decided on what I am going to do. I will fight, I will stand up to any obstacle being thrown my way and I'll hold my ground for as long as I can. If you think sending three of the best at me will cause me to falter, you're dead wrong. You can string me up and rip me into a bunch of little triforce pieces, I don't care as long as I give you something to remember me by, and believe me that's what I'm going to do.
You may take this title from me, you may take my undefeated streak from me, you may even take a big vile of my blood as a souvenir but I can guarantee you something, that after you're finished, you'll never forget my name. You'll always know who I am, and what I did, and you'll have the scars to give you a good visual. Admit it or not you all envy me, you all have this burning desire to be more like Zelda Knite and that's what's going to drive you in this match that is what's going to force you into giving me everything you have, because of the hype i've built around myself. You maybe too self centered or too conceded to just accept that fact, but it isn't like you're hiding it from anybody.
No matter how powerless I feel going into this match I'll know that at least you three are feeling some pressure, the pressure of not being just another page in the Zelda Knite book of history. Maybe the's the point behind all of this, maybe that's why I should be looking down, because there is pressure coming from both sides? But, what is worse, worrying about some girl who can't seem to be beat, or worry about three women who only want to see you fail?
Oh, I'm so sick of worrying about you three, I'm so tired of hearing your names. Ayla, Cleo, and Roxi, that's all I've heard since Sunday, is blah, blah, blah! I wish this match was right now so I could just get to it already, so I could just at least have these butterflies in my stomach settling down. I can't lie, I don't want to lose, I don't want to walk out without my women's championship, that's why they are thre, that's why they are fluttering around and won't leave me alone. Then I have Adam putting so much pressure on me from stuff outside of the ring, and it feels like my life is no longer in my control, like I'm just a puppet or some Sehpiroth clone being controller against my will.
But I will come out fighting, and I will come out ready to go down swinging, because that's just how I was taught. I can't run and hide like some spoony bard, I have to stand with my sword drawn prepared for a battle, and I will be be prepared. I can't control how many contenders will be in this one match, I can't control the match stipulation, all I can control is what I give in that ring, and that will never be left up to chance.
That will be my legend, that I never gave in, that I never baked away. I always stood up and took the blunt force of everything, everybody could think of throwing at me. Not being thrown through plate glass, not being threatened by a pink slip, but by being me and standing up for what I believe in. If that means I have to do all this alone, if I have to find my own way and carry down my own path, whatever, that's fin, because unlike you three, I followed a path trying to be unique, trying to be me and trying to make my own why, while you, you were just chasing after somebody, trying to grab the him of their garments. Here's to the Knite, the Knite that Zelda took on her biggest threat, and still found a way to walk out a champion, title or not::..
{continued.}
Zelda: ADAM!!!!!!!
{Zelda rips the silly ears and tail off of her and runs over to where Adam is standing next to a catering table talking to Eric Hardy. She is obviously very upset as her face is turning a brighter shade of red with every passing second.}
Adam: Zel?
Zelda: Take me home, I wanna go home, I need to go home. Now.
Adam: You couldn't possibly be done this soon.
Zelda: I don't care, I'm through, I'm done, it's over. I don't care, I wanna leave. Please.
Adam: What's wrong with you?
Zelda: They want.... they said.... I... this!
{Zelda holds up the ears and tail and Adam doesn't seem very phased by it. Leonard by this point as walked his way over with his lackies in tow. Zelda sees him and she turns and gets behind Adam using him as a shield as she peaks around. Adam looks confused as he tries to see what she's doing.}
Adam: What's the problem with it?
Zelda: And nothing else!
Adam: They want you to get naked?
Zelda: YES!
Adam: I know, I signed the contract agreement to do this shoot, you did too, remember?
******FLASHBACK******
{Adam comes walking into the room where Zelda sits at a table and throws a stack of papers in front of her.}
Zelda: What's this?
Adam: Contract for a photo shoot, sign it.
Zelda: Ok.
{Zelda signs the papers without ever glancing at them.}
******/FLASHBACK******
{Zelda backs away from her brother now as her mouth is wide open in shock again. Adam turns around and stares at his sister confused, by how she's acting.}
Zelda: You too? I'm not doing that.... You can't make me.
Leonard: Yes you are young lady. You and him have both signed off on it, and you're not backing out.
Zelda: I didn't read it, Adam didn't say anything about something like this. I'm not going through with it! Adam I can't believe you'd agree to this, I'm your sister!
Adam: You walk around my house half naked all the time, I figured you wouldn't have a problem with this. Besides, it's not a nude shoot, it's NCW Magazine, you just have to wear some body paint....
Zelda: and be naked?
Adam: Yeah....
Zelda: NO! I'm not going to have a bunch of old guys gawking at me in here.
Leonard: Well, we'll clear out the room and it'll only be us and the camera crew.
Zelda: That doesn't make it better! There would still be people staring at me like I was some... piece of meat or something.
{Adam looks pretty annoyed now as he rubs his chin. Zelda is breathing hard as she keeps backing further away from the men.}
Adam: Zelda, you're embarrassing me here with your overreacting.
Zelda: I'm not overreacting this time, I don't want to do this, and I wouldn't of agreed to it if you would of told me what was going on! I'm done Adam, through with this!
Leonard: Well then... go get the Women's title and bring it to me.
Zelda: What?
Leonard: I believe you heard me, either you go to that dressing room and get ready or, I'm letting you go. I'm a little tired of your incessant whinning. You're becoming more of a hassle than you're worth, and when that's the case you have to cut the cord.
Zelda: Fine! You want it that way... then I quit!
{Zelda throws the ear and tail straight into the chest of Fox and turns around and heads to her bags to get the belt then walk out. Adam looks shocked and runs after her, as Zelda reaches into her bags Adam grabs her by the shoulder and jerks her around to face him.}
Adam: What do you think you're doing!? You can't quit! I thought this was your big life dream, to be a professional wrestler like me?
{Through the tears Zelda lets her feelings known, she can't take it anymore.}
Zelda: Yes I can! I don't care anymore! I've had enough of this, I can't catch a break with him, and you... you've been acting even worse lately! I don't care about this dream anymore, not if I have to go through this for it!
Adam: Quit acting like a baby Z, geez every woman wrestler ever has done this, this will only help your career get your name out there more.
Zelda: I don't care! You can't call me a baby because I don't want a group of smelly, sweaty guys gawking at me, and as my brother I thought you'd agree with me, but apparently you've been selling tickets to the peep show!
Adam: Fine, you can quit, and I'll take you back home where you can pack your stuff, and go back to living with Dad, sounds like a great future for ya.
Zelda: You too? You're going to get rid of me if I refuse to do this?
{Adam doesn't say a word, he doesn't blink, no reaction at all as he just stares at his sister with tears running down her face, Zelda looks more hurt by this reaction than she could ever be by any words he could say. She swallows, as if swallowing her pride and her sadness now shifts to anger.}
Zelda: FINE! Have it your way, I'll do it, but after this we're through. I can't have you as a manager and a brother, then I don't want either. You're not my brother, you're not my manager, you're just some guy who trained some girl, and that's it.... GOT IT!? Good Bye, nice life, whatever. I'll be out of your house soon enough, just like Kelly.
{Zelda angrily wipes the tears from her face and turns to head towards the dressing room. Adam lowers his head as he looks at the floor and Leonard puts his arm over his shoulders and smiles at him.}
Leonard: Now you're acting like a real business man.... and I wouldn't worry about her, she'll come around and this will blow over. If I had five dollars for everytime Kelly told me “you're not my father” I'd be twice as rich.
{Adam shakes his head as the scene fades out... to be continued.}