Post by Kelly Fox on Mar 23, 2010 18:26:23 GMT -6
I will always choose to be me
I can never be anything more
I can never be anything less
I can never be anything else
..::We all have to make our choices in life, we all have to come to the fork in the road and decide which path is the best one to take. I've already been giving so many choices in this short time in NCW that I don't know whether I'm coming or going sometimes. Somebody wants me to do this, somebody wants me to do that, it's all so confusing. But these choices have to be made, and I just hope I make the right ones.
Be it standing up against a jerk boss and brother, whether it be as simple as do I play my Wii, PS3, or Xbox tonight? They're are all choices, they're all my choices. Nobody can make them for me, they can push and they persuade all the want but in the end, the choice is still mine. My choice going to have to be made, do I stand up and be me, or do I just follow the pressure of the ones around me? Can I even face myself in the morning if I give in to the pressure, can I even look at myself in a mirror if I made the wrong choice?
I have one of the biggest choices of my life just staring at me right now. Do I compromise my integrity for this? Do I risk losing everything I love if I choose not to? No matter what, the choice is mine, and sometimes it just takes a friend to help you along to make sure you realize that::..
{Several minutes later we are back in the dressing room where Zelda Knite sits in the chair, no blinking, not moving, not doing much of anything as the women work on her. She has a long robe wrapped around her with her arms crossed in front of her chest. She stares forward not making the slightest expression at all.}
Janet: Zelda honey, I know this is an uncomfortable situation, but you're gonna have to remove the robe for us to finish the painting.
{Without making a sound, or acknowledged that anybody is even talking to her, Zelda stands from the chair. She seems to be in an almost daze as she heads towards the counter and mirror that is in front of her. She stares at herself in the mirror as her whole body begins to gently shake in anger, and just like that she crumbles, she leans over putting her forehead on the counter top and smashes into it with a closed fist, while letting out a loud groan.}
Voice: Where is she!?
{The sound of a woman's voice screaming can be heard even over Zelda's inside the room, it's coming from outside where a ruckus is heard. Zelda stands back up, and looks around trying to find out what the commotion is about.}
Man's Voice: You can't go in there.
Woman's Voice: I can go wherever I damn well please!
{The door suddenly swings wildly open as everybody in the room jumps back in shock. Zelda can't believe her eyes as Kelly Knite walks into the room, almost fuming she is so red with anger. Z, just looks at her confused as Kelly frantically grabs her by the arm. Zelda keeps her arms crossed tightly as to not let the robe fly open and Kelly has a hard time pulling her while Z has no idea what's going on.}
Kelly: I can't believe Adam would do this you! Zelda come on, lets go, we're out of here!
Zelda: Kelly? What are you......
Kelly: We're leaving, I'm taking you home, you don't have to worry over this anymore.
Zelda: But... I....your dad... Adam.... they said...
Kelly: I don't give a f*** what my dad said, and I doubly don't care what Adam has told you. You're not getting fired over this. It's not right, if you don't feel comfortable doing this, then they have no right in trying to force you. They're just trying to take advantage of you, and I'm not going to let that happen.
{Zelda looks around in even more shock as she can't believe this level of kindness coming from Kelly. Kelly cocks her head to the side noticing that Zelda is confused about what to do and smiles to try and reassure her that everything is ok. Kelly takes Zeld and helps her to the chair where she forces her to sit. Kelly takes each of Zelda's hands in hers and looks her in the face.}
Zelda: I have to, I can't back out...
Kelly: Listen to me Zel, if you can look me in the eye and tell me that this is what you want, then I will walk right back out that door and leave you alone. Can you honestly tell me that?
Zelda: No... I don't want to do this at all, but....
Kelly: No, this isn't right. I'm not saying going out there and doing that is wrong, but you don't want to, you're not comfortable with it and anybody can see that. That's what's wrong here, them trying to force this on you. It's your body, it's your conscience and they don't have any say over that, if you don't want to do this then you're not going to, I won't let you, I won't let you compromise your feelings for those two jackasses!
{A small smile creeps along Zelda's face as she looks back at Kelly, her eyes start to water and Kelly laughs and puts her hand over Zelda's eyes wiping away some of the liquid.}
Kelly: Hey now, none of that ok, I'm just doing what is right, I can't stand back and let this happen. Now come on, Steven is in the parking lot with the car ready to go.
Zelda: Kelly..... how did you, uh, know. I asked Adam to invite you but he said he wouldn't.
Kelly: You can thank Willy for calling me later, now get dressed, Steve's waiting.
**SEVERAL MINUTES LATER**
{Zelda is now dressed in a gray NCW t-shirt with a pair of red shorts as her and Kelly are walking away from the dressing room. Zelda has her bag slung over her shoulder and the two are talking and laughing as they head for the exit.}
Leonard: Where do you think you're going young lady?
{Adam and Leonard are standing there, Leonard doesn't look happy and we can't tell about Adam as he just stares away, refusing to look at the women.}
Zelda: I'm leaving.
{Kelly nudges Zelda in the ribs with her elbow, telling her to go on.}
Zelda: I don't feel right doing this, so I'm not gong to. Find somebody else.
Leonard: You know what this means....
Kelly: No, it doesn't mean that at all dad. You're not going to try and bully her. You hear me, if I have to I'll go to mom and tell her what you're trying to do.
Leonard: You wouldn't dare.
{Kelly pulls out her cell phone and holds it into the air in front of Leonard. He just blankly stares at her as she uses her thumb to hit the autodial, Leonard reaches out and grabs the phone and hangs it up frantically.}
Leonard: Fine, you win, but don't think I'm going to forget this. Come on Adam, I think I have to teach you on how to deal with the occasional loss in the business world.
{Adam and Leonard walk away from the girls, Zelda has a big smile as she looks at Kelly with an almost sense of admiration growing between the two. Suddenly Adam is behind the two, he seems to have something to say, but it's not finding it's way out.}
Adam: Zel, I....
{Zelda doesn't bother to even turn around.}
Zelda: Kelly, I'm going to go throw this in the car, I'll see you out there ok?
Kelly: Alright Z.
{Zelda walks away, choosing to ignore her brother, she doesn't care what he has to say, at least not right now.}
Adam: Zelda!
{Just then a hand comes across his face with a slap, Kelly's hand. Adam is almost knocked to the floor by the force, he holds his cheek as he shoots up and stares at Kelly, breathing hard and looking confused.}
Kelly: YOU! I'd expect something like that from him, but from YOU!? That was your sister, and you would put her through that!? I'm disgusted by you right now I don't even want to look at your damn face, so get out of my sight. You wanna be like him.... good... but I'm not sticking around if that's the case.
Adam: First you're mad at me that I pay too much attention and am too nice to Zelda, and now you're mad because you're saying I'm treating her wrong?!
Kelly: There's such thing as a middle ground Adam....but right now, I wouldn't expect you to know that...bye.
{Kelly turns and walks away leaving a shocked and saddened Adam standing there alone, alone that is until Leonard comes up behind him.}
Leonard: Man, tough break kiddo. But like I said, they're women, they'll get over it. Until then how about...
Adam: No. I'm sorry Leo, but I refuse to be anything like you.... it's already cost me enough. I'm through listening to you, Peace.
{Adam throws up the sideways peace sign and heads out the exit, just in time to see Steve and two lades speeding off in Kelly's Corvette with the top down and Steve at the wheel. Kelly and Zelda are seen sitting on the top of the seats with Zelda giving Kelly a thank you by throwing her arms around her, they fade into the distance as the scene fades to black leaving Adam standing alone.}
..::Sometimes when there are choices to be made, you just have to step out on your own, be your own person, find your own way. I've been spending so much of my life just following a path that everybody else has been laying out around me. I've been trying to fit in with some mold that I was supposed to fill. Should I do this, should I do that instead, what would Adam want me to do, what would society say I should do. I don't care anymore, I've seen what people will do with you if you let them I've seen how they push and try to force you to fit into their plans.
What more do some people want from me? I've given this company my all, and for what? They still want me to be just like everybody else? Still want me to just blindly follow some cookie cutter view on what a female wrestler should be?
I'm not going to blend in with the background, I'm not going to fade into the distance. I'm going to stand out among everybody else. I won't follow some trend of dolled up women who flaunt their bodies just so they can get noticed, I'm going to be noticed because of my wrestling skills. I'm going to get noticed by taking on each and every challenger that stands in my way and knock them down. Like dominoes they will fall all in a neat little pattern that I've set up, and all it'll take is a little flick of my finger to cause the chain reaction.
Cleopatra and Ayla, you two want my title, all you have to do is climb those cables and grab it, simple as that. Wait... no it isn't, because I'll be there to stop you. I don't care what little team up plan you guys have, I really don't because I'm not going to worry about it anymore, I'm not going to sit back and spend any more of my time pondering what tweedle dumb and tweedle stupid are planning. Screw it, I can't control it, I can't waste any more time trying to think of some preemptive measure to try and counter it, I'm just going to come out to that ring and take the will to keep fighting from you, and that's how I'll keep my belt.
Like it or not Cleo, I'm going to fight, I'm going to defend this title with every ounce of energy in my body, with every breath in my lungs I'll fight you for this belt. You may have Ayla on your side to give you guys a double chance of walking away with this belt, but I've been playing Legend of Zelda games for years and those little Gibdo mummies that are always running around, I've been hacking them to pieces for years, you might say it was sort of training up to this point. Or not... I don't really care, you're just going to spew the same crap everybody else does, I'm too immature I'm too little, I'm not good enough to beat you, blah blah blah.
You try and act different, act like you're different than the rest, but we all know down there in the ring you're no different. You're not some reincarnation of an Egyptian queen, you're not some special female God put on this Earth, all you are is some goofy girl, just like me who's trying to make a name for herself. I would like to say I know how you feel, I'd like to say that I understand what you all are going through, but I don't, because since I arrived here I've never looked up to anybody, I've never had to because I've always been on the top, I've always stood with this title over my shoulder.
The Women's World Championship will always be synonymous with my name, when somebody thinks of this belt they well think of me, not any of you, no matter what happens Sunday. You can dream of draining the blood from my veins and you can thrive to break my spirit but I will never fade away. I will never be another shade of off white like all of you, I will be the bright light shinning through the darkness, because I accomplished something that can never be taken from me, and I never backed away from the challenges thrown at my feet.
This Sunday at Sovereign all three of you will be playing my game, by my rules. I don't care if there are thirty challengers, I don't care if the belt was hanging from the the tallest building in Flordia, because no matter what you stack against me no matter what odds you make in your favor, this is still my game because you're all chasing me. I don't have anything to prove by winning I don't have anything to gain, you do.
Lose here and you're likely never to get another chance, lose here and your name likely just merges into the endless lists of names of people who have had their chances and failed. Zelda Knite, that's a name that will never just disappear, that's a name that will never fade from the lips of the people who follow NCW wrestling, because I stood out, and I made a difference. Like it or not, it matters very little because you know it's true, you know you're racing for a piece of what I have, racing to be the next Zelda Knite.
I will never have to worry about being “the next 'whoever'” I will not have to worry about being compared to this person or that person, I broke the ground on this division I broke this belt in and I made NCW women's wrestling popular by being it's first big star. Now you want that, good for you, it's nice to have goals in lifes, but I'm not standing to the side and letting you pass on without a fight!
I've come so far, and I'm still trying to learn everything that I can. It's hard, I won't lie, and it makes it harder when I constantly have jealous little girls trying to take my fun away from me, or trying to cut me down and make me feel lesser about myself. However, do you see me backing away? Do you see me giving in? No, if there is just one thing I want everybody to take away from this match, if there is one thing I hope everybody who watches this match realizes it's that Zelda went in and did her best. Maybe my best won't be good enough, I don't know but not giving it 110 percent would be a disservice to values that I've been teaching to my Zombies out there.
Legacies and legends eventually are forgotten, they just melt away from people's memories and become nothing more than old stories, but there is something that will never fade, and that's my pride. The pride I have to keep going despite Leonard being a douchehead, the pride to stand in that ring with all the odds stacked against me and be willing to fight you headhunters, head on. You want me? I'll be right there, Julietta's glass could only slow me down for a couple of days, this won't even be a speed bump on my road.
Roxi, Cleo, Ayla... I hope you've had fun playing this game, I hope you've had a good time, I really do because it's all coming to an end. Your time is up, your fifteen minutes of fame is over with, I've let you three play along for long enough, it's time to call the fat lady to start singing because Sunday, for you three.... it's game over::..