Post by Roxi Johnson on Mar 26, 2010 22:59:56 GMT -6
To answer all your questions...yes.
Yes, I saw Ricky's press confrence and subsequent apology if you want to call it that.
I was not amused.
But I am giving him the benefit of the doubt.
My Itunes playlist managed to wake me up with Papa Roach's "Scars" As if to mock me. Can't get much more cleche' than that can you?
It seems all anyone wants to talk about with reguards to me is how sorry they feel for me, and how much of a bad person Ricky is. But, do they even know him?
The answer is of course, no.
But that doesn't mean he's off the hook altogether. He's got a lot to answer for, including the completely unacceptable trip down memory lane for my first nCw match against a sick freak like Bukakke man. I wouldn't think you would like think I screwed him, I'd be too repulsed to do it. If he weren't repulsive enough.
Ok, I gotta move on, that is just too creepy of a subject for me to continue to dwell on.
What I must focus on is this assualt X match for the nCw women's title.
Alya, Cleo and Zelda. My three opponents. Which is to say it seems to be 1 on 1 on 2. It's clear that Alya and Cleo have some sort of bond, and they are operating as a unit. And for some Cleo seems to be reaching out to me, making it look like I can be part of that team. I guess that's why I got blood taken from my body.
As confusing as that was, I can't say I didn't feel strange over the past few days. I don't know what to really think anymore. Everything has been getting hazy out there in the real world.
There are so many confusing thing going on, I don't know who to turn to.
Part of me wants to trust Ricky. He's never let me down before. We were a regular Batman and Robin, a dynamic dou. It's hard to believe that he could do anything to change that, and the simple truth is, I don't know if he did, or if I can trust him that same way again. I know him so well, and love him so much, it's hard to really stray away from that faith.
Part of me wants to trust Cleo and Alya. They are the people who offered to comfort me in my time of need, no offer excuses and maybe even lie to me. All they want in return for a friendship and perhaps, even a family, is my cooperation. They just want to help them help Cleo win the woman's title. To finally take it off of Zelda. That offer is extremely tempting.
But as I look as my options, it the figurative rock and a hard place.
What if Ricky has been lying this whole time? He's slept with that woman? He's cheated on me? He could very easily destroy my life with this. He has a dark side to him, that even I have never seen. And he's been ignoring my pain. There is never a straight answer from him either. Sign to tend to point that he is that way. And that he is willing to do something like that.
But, on the other hand, Cleo is very manipulative. She's shown it with her apparent brainwashing of Alya to become submissive to her. She's seems ready and willing to do whatever Cleopatra tells her. Is that what they have in store for me, if I joined them? Would I become an unwilling servant of Cleo?
And what does Zelda make of all this?
There are so many choices.
So many possibilities.
And few answers.
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{Scene: The Johnson mansion, a knock at the door, Roxi answers.}
I don't believe it.[/color]
Roxi - What are you doing here?
{There stands Sarah Kennedy}
Sarah - I'm just here to talk.
Roxi - Why should I not kill you right now?
Sarah - Because I'm doing you a favor.
Roxi - So, you're going to kill yourself for me?
Sarah - No, I'm going to help you.
Roxi - Why should I believe you?
Sarah - Because you'll know all the answers when I'm done.You'll be able to make that choice.
Roxi - You've got 5 minutes, start talking. Or I will beat it out of you.
{Fade}
Yes, I saw Ricky's press confrence and subsequent apology if you want to call it that.
I was not amused.
But I am giving him the benefit of the doubt.
My Itunes playlist managed to wake me up with Papa Roach's "Scars" As if to mock me. Can't get much more cleche' than that can you?
It seems all anyone wants to talk about with reguards to me is how sorry they feel for me, and how much of a bad person Ricky is. But, do they even know him?
The answer is of course, no.
But that doesn't mean he's off the hook altogether. He's got a lot to answer for, including the completely unacceptable trip down memory lane for my first nCw match against a sick freak like Bukakke man. I wouldn't think you would like think I screwed him, I'd be too repulsed to do it. If he weren't repulsive enough.
Ok, I gotta move on, that is just too creepy of a subject for me to continue to dwell on.
What I must focus on is this assualt X match for the nCw women's title.
Alya, Cleo and Zelda. My three opponents. Which is to say it seems to be 1 on 1 on 2. It's clear that Alya and Cleo have some sort of bond, and they are operating as a unit. And for some Cleo seems to be reaching out to me, making it look like I can be part of that team. I guess that's why I got blood taken from my body.
As confusing as that was, I can't say I didn't feel strange over the past few days. I don't know what to really think anymore. Everything has been getting hazy out there in the real world.
There are so many confusing thing going on, I don't know who to turn to.
Part of me wants to trust Ricky. He's never let me down before. We were a regular Batman and Robin, a dynamic dou. It's hard to believe that he could do anything to change that, and the simple truth is, I don't know if he did, or if I can trust him that same way again. I know him so well, and love him so much, it's hard to really stray away from that faith.
Part of me wants to trust Cleo and Alya. They are the people who offered to comfort me in my time of need, no offer excuses and maybe even lie to me. All they want in return for a friendship and perhaps, even a family, is my cooperation. They just want to help them help Cleo win the woman's title. To finally take it off of Zelda. That offer is extremely tempting.
But as I look as my options, it the figurative rock and a hard place.
What if Ricky has been lying this whole time? He's slept with that woman? He's cheated on me? He could very easily destroy my life with this. He has a dark side to him, that even I have never seen. And he's been ignoring my pain. There is never a straight answer from him either. Sign to tend to point that he is that way. And that he is willing to do something like that.
But, on the other hand, Cleo is very manipulative. She's shown it with her apparent brainwashing of Alya to become submissive to her. She's seems ready and willing to do whatever Cleopatra tells her. Is that what they have in store for me, if I joined them? Would I become an unwilling servant of Cleo?
And what does Zelda make of all this?
There are so many choices.
So many possibilities.
And few answers.
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{Scene: The Johnson mansion, a knock at the door, Roxi answers.}
I don't believe it.[/color]
Roxi - What are you doing here?
{There stands Sarah Kennedy}
Sarah - I'm just here to talk.
Roxi - Why should I not kill you right now?
Sarah - Because I'm doing you a favor.
Roxi - So, you're going to kill yourself for me?
Sarah - No, I'm going to help you.
Roxi - Why should I believe you?
Sarah - Because you'll know all the answers when I'm done.You'll be able to make that choice.
Roxi - You've got 5 minutes, start talking. Or I will beat it out of you.
{Fade}