Breakdown....

[Spike Kane]

So...I bet your all wondering why I no-showed a week before the biggest show of nCw's career.

Well....things got on top of me, everything just kinda hit me and I folded, like a little bitch who just wished his body gave up over christmas and he never survived......yes, that bad.

Well, I'm sure last week you all knew about my internet cutting out, which caused me no end of stress, it was also the result of me no showing the ****ing ICT. Way to go...champ.

And Monday night...my now EX girlfriend decided we need to "have a break" knowing full well that to me there's no such thing as a "break" so basicly she forced my hand to break up with her.

Dum dum di dum, go back to college, got **** loads of work to do...I can deal. Wednesday comes and I got work, a close shift which means no cpu work at all that day.

Thursday comes and I meet up with the guys, me and Sam were supposed to go watch Jumper at the cinema, but when I called I got a "phone off" message and he wasn't at home. I thought nothing of it and headed to my friends because I couldn't be at home on my own. I started drinking again.....drank a fair few, this was after Sam told me he'd spent the day with my ex-girlfriend.

Now don't be confused, I'm not pissed that they spent time together. I'm pissed that she went out of her way to spend time with the guy I told her was looking after me, especially when we were supposed to go to the cinema....

So we leave the pub, and we head to the chippy were Sam blurts out that she tried to kill herself.

****ing awesome! HUH!?

I've just spent three months preparing, having and recovering from ****ING HEART SURGERY! I have fought desperatly for my life...and she tries to throw hers away!?

Let alone she initiated the break up in the first place!

So I decided not to go back to Sams as planned, probably for the best because I didn't want to take my anger out on Sam. He's a great friend and I do appreciate it Sam, I just don't swallow the bull**** that you two are friends. You never wanted me to get back with her, and she hates you....it's that simple.

Friday: So I wake up at my friend Adam's house. He works across the street from me so i know I'm getting a lift to work, woot. So I spend the day doing **** all, get to work two hours early and decide to kill time by watching Rambo!

(which is a mother****ing awesome!)

I convince work to let me leave early, meet up with my friends and go to a rock club. Now I knew going there that SHE was going to be there, out of spite of course, because when she was with me she never did anything or barely spoke to her "friends" but eh...**** that. So I go, it's my mates 21st too, which rocks. We drink JD & Coke all night, then suddenly we turn to vodka and coke. I drank enough to be sick...and then drank even more. I knew she was there, my friends told me...but LUCKILY I never ran into her or her friends.

I had an amazing time, hung out with a couple of girls, one hot chick who I even got a photo with xD and rocked out like crazy. Then in the taxi gome I got depressed...and angry.

When I got out the taxi I began beating the **** out of a power box. Angry at her, and angry at myself for letting it upset me. Luckily Dave was there for me, and he helped me let it all out, which probably helped.

Saturday spawned a day of computer games and finally watching Batman Begins (damn that movie owns) then off to a family gathering with more drinking and awsome food, and more cpu game (meaning I segregated myself and played COD4)

Sunday....wake up...play SDvsR for a bit, then Marvel Ultimate Alliance...then off to work.

I get home, knowing full well I've no shown this week and won't be able to write my match.

Basicly guys....I just lost it this week...I gave in to excessive amounts of alcohol, I fell down a lonely and sad slope, and if it weren't for my few friends who stuck by me...I don't wanna know what would have happened.

I'm sorry I let you guys down...in many more ways than one...

I'm just sorry guys.

[msjsn3]

You know what...sometime you need to do things like that...well maybe not getting drunk! You had your friends around by...plus you have us at nCw...... The one thing I have to ask Did you have fun?

[Steve Awesome]

damn dude. Thats a hell of a story. But you know what? That **** happens. I'm just glad that you seem to be feeling a little better now and I sincerely hope that Sam isn't doing what I think he is. I mean I doubt it because he doesn't seem like the type but hey all he really is is words on a screen to me so what do I know?

Anywho, Spike don't worry about it. Come back swinging for the PPV and ef that bitch if she is going to play these games.

[The Brothers Holland]

Firstly, Steve.. No I'm not. I wouldn't do that and if I did ever do anything like that I'd probably be the first to hate me.

Secondly, if it's true she hates me, dude, she hides it well. You know her a lot better than I do obviously so I'm not going to argue, but she asked for my help and I genuinely forgot about the plans we had for that day, you know my damn memory.

And thirdly.. glad you had Dave with you as the main reason I didn't go out that night was because I knew it would feel weird and frankly I don't want to be stuck in the middle anymore, despite the fact I kinda stepped in willingly. I'm sorry for my influence because I get the feeling it was all bad.

[Spike Kane]

It's not like that at all Steve, I know Sam well enough to know that.

Like I said, no beef between us. Things are a little off, but hey...bitches come and bitches go, but bro's are forever.

[recklessjack]

BROS BEFORE HOES!

[Steve Awesome]

okay thats good. I wasn't accusing you Sam, like I said I highly doubted you would do that. You don't seem like that kind of guy.

Good to see you guys are still friends. As Doctor Dre said once "Bitches aint **** but hoes and tricks"

[adm]

Sorry to hear you had a helluva week, man. Seems like bull**** just follows former members of *HF everywhere. Don't worry much bout your match writing, you had bigger fish to fry this week. And trust me, we've all had our depressed times, and I'll be one to admit if I had the money I probably woulda drank myself into a stupor last night.

Don't sweat it, sometimes you gotta take care of yourself first.

[Cyrus Daniels]

yeah sont worry amigo, as far as the match goes, I got your back...and you know I'm always here for you mate if you need to talk, cos when it comes to women, we all have the **** to deal with, Prophet has been invaluable to me as of late so I know, and you can talk to me about anything Spike, you know that...

[Lance "The Icon" Ryan]

Bro, we may not agree all the time, and we may not even get along some of the time, but remember that you have a family here and we are all here to help for you when you are in need, and here to cover for you when life gets hectic.
It's all good bro.

[John Anthony]

Hey Spike Buddy sorry to hear that man. you will get through it. Thats why we are all here man. I was worried when you didn't rp. I was thinking to myself this isn't like you. I would like to to work with you soon man. I know this could have been a great week for you and I. I am glad you are alrite brotha man. Send me a pm when you get a chance.

[JFK]

this is why i smoke weed and not drink drinking makes me angry and I'm already an angry person by nature.

my advise when it comes to woman ingernal and break ups like this, well all potray characters with ego's here right? cocky agregent sob's who dont give a rat's ass, carry that over to real life, im not saying be a prick, but dont be self loathing also, im a cockcy son of a bitch when im around people, not to the point where my **** doesnt stink but i keep my head up, i look people in the eye, im confedent and people can pick up on that. bitch says she wants a break, ok have fun i got better things to do anyways. ya dig

[Bannedingo]

I KNEW IT!

[tylerjacobs]

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