Post by Xavier Cross on Apr 26, 2010 11:05:35 GMT -6
The television screen crackles a little bit, the picture and sound go in and out with a buzz and a hum. Static snow rains across it. The sound of a voice is heard beneath the fuzz.
The static clears to show Xavier Cross standing holding the X-Treme Title. From August 2008. During his ‘All American’ phase. He turns and stares into the camera as it fades away to the static. The camera pans out to show present time Xavier Cross sitting in a simple wooden chair looking at the television. He doesn’t acknowledge the camera man’s presence for a moment. Until he begins to speak.
“I sit back and wonder Adam. Steve Awesome beating Trent Helms, AJ Phoenix beating Xavier Williams, like Billy Ray Cyrus I wonder, ‘Coulda Been Me?’”
The static clears to show Xavier Cross standing holding the X-Treme Title. From August 2008. During his ‘All American’ phase. He turns and stares into the camera as it fades away to the static. The camera pans out to show present time Xavier Cross sitting in a simple wooden chair looking at the television. He doesn’t acknowledge the camera man’s presence for a moment. Until he begins to speak.
“I was younger back then, a different spry in my step. I had confidence but I wasn’t cocky. I had my first title match ever here at nCw. Against Adam Knite for the x-treme title. I had been in the X-Division tournament but lost to AJ Phoenix before I could make some real noise. I guess you’re in law saw something in me, threw me against you and I came out on top. Back then my family was young, and I was working to improve myself. Becoming a better man.
I would go on to win the title again on my second go round in nCw against Sexy Jason, and a couple of other tools. I would hold onto it for about three or four months before dropping it due to outside interference of one Will Washington. But I would move on to bigger and better things. In one of my most intense, hardcore matches against the same Will Washington, I came out as the world champion number one contender.
I’d later go on to lose to Falcon twice in a month, one of which was the title match. I threw everything I had against Falcon, and I couldn’t come out on top so I stepped away from the business for a few days to rethink my position, to train myself. At that point I had thought about hanging up the boots. If I pushed myself so far only to come up short its really deflating. My redemption would come soon, as would one of the biggest losses I will ever face in my entire life.
Cari passed away giving birth to our son Ashton. She already went through enough blood loss through the delivery, ended up hemorrhaging. The doctor’s couldn’t clout it, and I lost my wife while holding our new born son. I took a red eye flight to the pay per view show to face The Ace. I ran from reality to the only home I knew wouldn’t hurt me the way losing Cari did. I went on to capture the nCw National Championship that night, I held it up, while my heart slowly crumbled. My greatest wrestling accomplishment was shadowed by this terrible incident.
The next month I faced on more personal challenge. I man I saw as my mentor Brad Kane. I had to defend this gold against him. Brad and I had never faced each other in an nCw ring, twice in a dead federation. Once I got the upset as a young punk, the second time Brad literally kicked the sh*t out of me. But this time, fate through me a bone or I was just the better man between the two of us. The way I beat Brad was the same way I saw him beat men before either of us. Methodical and calculating.
This month I’ve realized some things through the days, hours, minutes, and seconds that have past me by. I’ve been using this place as a crutch, as a way to stop the hurt. One day out of the week I come to fight, three days out of the week I train. Those four days I’m away from my children, for three days I spend as much time as possible with them, and I’m coming to realize that it’s just not enough.
I’ve been using these ropes as a way to not feel Cari not being there. To run away from home. I can’t run any longer I have to face these emotions and feelings once and for all. I have to grieve and deal with the loss of my wife. To tend to my children and give they a father who is there, as a wrestler, as an entertainer I can’t do that. So A Night to Remember I will hang my boots up and walk away from the squared ring.
Will this be for a year, a month, a week? Or forever…I don’t know, and I can’t tell you if or when I’ll be back, if ever. But I’ve heard all the rumors and the predictions. Just because I’m walking away people think I’m going to slack? That I’m going to lose because it’s my last match. I am the National Champion of New Championship Wrestling. I earned this title, and I’ll defend it to the best of my abilities. So because Monday I won’t be wrestling, because Monday I won’t have to train, because Monday I won’t have to book a seat on a plane. The fact is this is my last figurative rodeo, which makes me one hell of a dangerous man. Will I revert to my old ways and get a little more extreme? Maybe. The fact is I’m going to give the fans one hell of a show, and I won’t hesitate to take Venom or Velez down for the count, lock ‘em in a submission they can only dream of getting out of.
Despite the fact I’m walking away from a business I love, this place, my friends. My brothers. I won’t let this title come off my waist that easily. I won’t be a push over, I never have been. So the world can vote against me, f*ck ‘em. I’ll pick the world up, and I’ll drop it on their f*cking heads.
Venom. You talked about past experience in a federation with Velez. You talked about your accomplishments like they were something I should be nervous about. You and Chuck know each other, you’ve teamed together, you’ve faced each other, you’ve blown each other, whatever floats you’re boat. You’ve accomplished plenty in other places, but you haven’t had the time to do anything great in here. So here’s your chance Venom, dethrone me. Steal the spotlight, make my leaving you’re springboard to the bright lights.
I’ll offer you the same conditions Velez. Take this whole scenario, the title, the hype around me. Seize the moment because it may be your last here. But if either of you think you’re just going to take this title away from me. Think this is going to be a walk in the park. Motherf*cker this is a track meet, and I’m Usain Bolt. Understand?”
I would go on to win the title again on my second go round in nCw against Sexy Jason, and a couple of other tools. I would hold onto it for about three or four months before dropping it due to outside interference of one Will Washington. But I would move on to bigger and better things. In one of my most intense, hardcore matches against the same Will Washington, I came out as the world champion number one contender.
I’d later go on to lose to Falcon twice in a month, one of which was the title match. I threw everything I had against Falcon, and I couldn’t come out on top so I stepped away from the business for a few days to rethink my position, to train myself. At that point I had thought about hanging up the boots. If I pushed myself so far only to come up short its really deflating. My redemption would come soon, as would one of the biggest losses I will ever face in my entire life.
Cari passed away giving birth to our son Ashton. She already went through enough blood loss through the delivery, ended up hemorrhaging. The doctor’s couldn’t clout it, and I lost my wife while holding our new born son. I took a red eye flight to the pay per view show to face The Ace. I ran from reality to the only home I knew wouldn’t hurt me the way losing Cari did. I went on to capture the nCw National Championship that night, I held it up, while my heart slowly crumbled. My greatest wrestling accomplishment was shadowed by this terrible incident.
The next month I faced on more personal challenge. I man I saw as my mentor Brad Kane. I had to defend this gold against him. Brad and I had never faced each other in an nCw ring, twice in a dead federation. Once I got the upset as a young punk, the second time Brad literally kicked the sh*t out of me. But this time, fate through me a bone or I was just the better man between the two of us. The way I beat Brad was the same way I saw him beat men before either of us. Methodical and calculating.
This month I’ve realized some things through the days, hours, minutes, and seconds that have past me by. I’ve been using this place as a crutch, as a way to stop the hurt. One day out of the week I come to fight, three days out of the week I train. Those four days I’m away from my children, for three days I spend as much time as possible with them, and I’m coming to realize that it’s just not enough.
I’ve been using these ropes as a way to not feel Cari not being there. To run away from home. I can’t run any longer I have to face these emotions and feelings once and for all. I have to grieve and deal with the loss of my wife. To tend to my children and give they a father who is there, as a wrestler, as an entertainer I can’t do that. So A Night to Remember I will hang my boots up and walk away from the squared ring.
Will this be for a year, a month, a week? Or forever…I don’t know, and I can’t tell you if or when I’ll be back, if ever. But I’ve heard all the rumors and the predictions. Just because I’m walking away people think I’m going to slack? That I’m going to lose because it’s my last match. I am the National Champion of New Championship Wrestling. I earned this title, and I’ll defend it to the best of my abilities. So because Monday I won’t be wrestling, because Monday I won’t have to train, because Monday I won’t have to book a seat on a plane. The fact is this is my last figurative rodeo, which makes me one hell of a dangerous man. Will I revert to my old ways and get a little more extreme? Maybe. The fact is I’m going to give the fans one hell of a show, and I won’t hesitate to take Venom or Velez down for the count, lock ‘em in a submission they can only dream of getting out of.
Despite the fact I’m walking away from a business I love, this place, my friends. My brothers. I won’t let this title come off my waist that easily. I won’t be a push over, I never have been. So the world can vote against me, f*ck ‘em. I’ll pick the world up, and I’ll drop it on their f*cking heads.
Venom. You talked about past experience in a federation with Velez. You talked about your accomplishments like they were something I should be nervous about. You and Chuck know each other, you’ve teamed together, you’ve faced each other, you’ve blown each other, whatever floats you’re boat. You’ve accomplished plenty in other places, but you haven’t had the time to do anything great in here. So here’s your chance Venom, dethrone me. Steal the spotlight, make my leaving you’re springboard to the bright lights.
I’ll offer you the same conditions Velez. Take this whole scenario, the title, the hype around me. Seize the moment because it may be your last here. But if either of you think you’re just going to take this title away from me. Think this is going to be a walk in the park. Motherf*cker this is a track meet, and I’m Usain Bolt. Understand?”