Post by Angel on Apr 27, 2010 19:15:49 GMT -6
She was there when I got back...
"We need to talk."
[/color]"We need to talk."
I hate it when she says that.
"About the way you've been acting."[/color]
I feel like we've had this conversation before, several times in fact.
"I really don't like the things you've been telling our daughter, telling her your god..."[/color]
Which I'm not...
"That your a savior..."[/color]
Far from it....
"That your going to crucify people. Look, I understand that it's wrestling and you've got to intimidate these people, but you've taken it too far. Your not just playing a character on TV anymore,your.... Well your acting a little crazy pretty much all of the time and it scares me."[/color]
It scares me too.
"Maybe if it was still just you and I,I could ignore it, but it's not, and it's not even just us and Hayleigh..."[/color]
What does she mean?
"I'm pregnant Angel... We're having another baby...[/color]
Oh my god.
"And I can't raise another child in that house, with you acting the way your acting. I'm not going to ask you to chose, I already know the answer to that question... I love you Angel, with all my heart and soul, but I can't do this anymore, I can't watch as you brainwash my daughter or our baby. I'm sorry."[/color]
It's hard to tell who is crying more, I can't exactly see myself... She turns from me, she heads for the door.
"....Shelly...."[/color][/size]
She grabs the handle, I reach out for her.
".....Shelly....."[/color][/size]
My hand touches the soft skin of her shoulder.
"....Shelly....."[/color][/size]
And then it turns her around and I grab her by the throat, ramming her up against the hard wood of the door. She can barely breath, struggling to scream. I wonder if this is how Gib felt when his wife died, when his son betrayed him, when he fell from grace? I wonder...
"No one takes my family from me."[/color]
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"Whats the matter Gibbers, the truth hurt a little bit? You don't like the way it feels when someone comes forward and tells you their true intentions, that you, your son and this whole damn feud was just a way to make me look better, to make me look more Godly, to make my name legend and yours irrelevant? Don't worry Gib, I will answer your prayer, though I have failed this federation as a God I will step forward and give you what you want."[/color]
I look into the adoring eyes of my friends, my family, my country men through the tiny lens that is this handi cam. Smiling, lips curling, I speak to my people, to my children, to my real family.
"I will end you.
Thats what you want right? Someone to step forward and prove to the entire world that you just don't have what it takes anymore? I hear it in your voice, the desperation, the fear that this is your final run, that when it's all said and done you won't just be retired from wrestling...
You'll be completely wipped from the history books.
I've told you before Gib, I don't fear you, your threats, or your big scary voice. Mask or not your still the same sorry washed up drug addict I put down two months ago. I've defeated you Gib, remember that. Or forget it if you wish, ignore the fact that I've beaten you and continue to ramble on and on about how your going to rip this off and spill that here or whatever it is you like to say when your really pumped up.
It's not going to change history, it's not going to make your win over me real, because lets face it Gib, you took me to the edge, but it was your son who pushed me over.
Not you.
I had you beaten, laying in a pool of your own blood, the title within my grasp.
But that was then Gib, thats the past.[/color]
Somewhere out there Gib is hanging on my every word, getting more and more upset, but who cares about Gib? No one, thats right. We only care about me, the true back bone of nCw, the heart and soul, the only wrestler who matters.
"This is how it's going to be Gib, your going to spill my blood, your going to break me down and your going to have this match in the palm of your hand... And then I'm going to take it all away from you.
Just like I took your son.
Just like God took your wife.
I'm going to Rise Again, I'm going to come at you with everything I have and Gib, when I hit you full force you will know for the first time in your life that there is someone bigger and badder than you.
You had to hide your face to be a monster, you had to bury your identity to go over that cliff, Gib, this is who I am, this is how I live, I don't hide it, I don't play dress up, I don't pretend to be anything but what I am.
And what I am is pure evil.
What I am is a true monster.
You talk about pain.
You talk about ending my career.
Gib, we've been at this for three months and I'm still standing. You think this weekend will be different because your mad? You were mad when I put you back in that mask. You were mad when I was toying with your son. You've been mad since the moment we met and guess what Gib? When it comes to me it doesn't make a damn difference.
I'm not going to threaten you.
I'm not going to play with you.
Sunday night your career comes to an end and your life will be tragically cut short."[/color]
I turn the camera so you can see what I see, my lovely daughter sleeping in her bed,cuddling her favorite stuffed animal, a pink lion. She's so beautiful isn't she? Don't you just want to eat her up? I know I do.
"I wonder where William has been? Are you afraid poor boy, hiding under your bed perhaps? Looking for somewhere safe to hide your head from the monsters looking to eat you alive? It's ok Will, there is nothing to fear but fear itself...
Of course, if any one person were to be fear it'd probably be me...
I guess there is something to fear isn't there?
Sorry for the false hope, I'm just full of that sort of thing lately. Telling people they can be saved when they can't, offering to carry them to salvation when I can't even save myself. I'm such an awful person, aren't I? But not as awful as you are William. For everything I am, Angel, Devil,Demon, Monster,God, I'm at least honest with myself. I at least present myself to the world as the person I am.
What you see is what you get, but not with you William, your everything but honest.
You lie to the fans, you lie to your friends, you lie to yourself.
But it's ok Will, because it's worked out pretty good so far right? You talk in that big voice of yours, make a bunch of random jokes, talk about choking people out and everyone immediately cowers to the might of Will Washington. And yet we haven't, which I'm sure must confuse you, for the first time since you arrived in nCw you've met two people who don't care about your past, who don't care about what you've done, who honestly don't care about you.
It must be hard Will, it must be driving you crazy, facing two people who are what you claim to be, who have done what you claim to have done.
Two monsters. Two of the most feared wrestlers in all of nCw,and you have to get in the ring with both of us and not **** your pants. I wouldn't be surprised if you didn't show up William, faced with the odds your faced with, it's probably the only choice you have.
Lets be real with each other Will, every time you've ever face any kind of adversity, you've tucked your tail between your legs and run for the hills.
Must of been a great soldier..."[/color]
Ha...ha....ha...
"When things are going right, when Will is putting down jobber after jobber, just racking up the wins, it's all good, because he's all powerful, but then you lose it, generally at the worst possible moment, because you realize in that moment that your just not meant to be a big time player in nCw.
As fast as you came up through the ranks of nCw, you've fallen even faster, even harder, and more often.
How many times have you tasted rock bottom before grabbing that ball and going home? How many world title shots has nCw spoon fed you only to watch you piss it away? How many more chances are you going to get Will?
Your not worthy of the main event. Your not good enough for the World title. And you do not belong in this match.
This is between Gib and I, it will end with Gib and I, and if you get in either of our ways, I promise the arena lights will be the last thing that you see.
Ever."[/color]
My hand touches the soft skin of my daughter's shoulder....
"No one takes my family from me."[/color][/size]
She rolls over and smiles, pulling her lion in even closer. I lean down and kiss the lids of her eyes and whisper...
"Good night."[/color][/size]
The End.[/center]