Post by Alex Jones on Apr 28, 2010 5:10:27 GMT -6
“What a fool.”
A thought goes through my head as I watch Andrew Jacobsen on my computer screen. My eyes fixated on his trying to read him like a book. I see many things, fear, stupidity, loathing. Truth is I can see into his soul and what do I find?. A scared child fumbling through words in a vain attempt to put me off my game like I’m some kind of amateur. What an idiot....
“Andrew. Why must you continually make an ass out of yourself and then try and transfer it to me. You can say with a straight face and a heart full of self belief that you have nothing to prove to me?. You don’t believe you need to prove you’re better because you quote un quote “know” it?. Let me explain this very slowly to you so your mind can understand it and process it in time for you to maybe put out a suitable reply. You HAVE to prove it to me. If you don’t prove to me you’re better you’ll lose. You can believe you’re better than me all you want or rather you can “know” it, but if you don’t PROVE it to me then I’m sorry you’ll go home a loser and a failed champion...”
The words spew from me with venom and vigour. Confidence rushes through my body as every muscle tenses. I may be simply sitting at a computer screen but I feel as if I could leap from my chair right now and go five rounds with Anderson Silva.
“See what I’ve done there is apply calm reasoning to destroy what you’ve said in a counter point. You believe the simple fact that you “know” you can beat me will get you through, but you see people once believed the earth was flat. People once believed the sun revolved around the earth, people once believed that an atom could not be split. See Andrew just because you know something doesn’t make it true. As a champion you have to accept there are those who are better than you. You have to accept that there are those who are your superior. And as a champion, as a true champion you need to overcome that and believe in your heart of hearts you are invincible. You need to believe that you can become that much better and you can rise to the occasion....”
“But I can already see that it won’t happen with you. I’ve given you ample chance to look at the facts that I’ve presented and admit to yourself and the fans around the world that I am better than you. Admittance will go along way to making you a better person and a better champion. But instead all I’ve had from you is half hearted insults and a statement of you letting me “douche it up”. You examples of me talking and insulting you etc. I mean come on, you’re going to give me a little TV history lesson about the batman TV series?. Well I’m sorry I got my decades wrong when it came to a campy television show that was more known for its homosexual undertones than it was for being an action packed series for kids....”
“But for all your little fact pinching you forgot one thing. I don’t really care. It’s like you going on about calling our peers WRESTLERS instead of superstars. I don’t know about you but I am a superstar. You may be proud to call yourself a “wrestler” but me I’m a star. And you pinned Gib?..wow you know I don’t think I could ever match tha-, oh wait I beat him too and Angel and Adam Knite and Jack Hammond and Xavier Williams and Trent Helms and Steve Awesome.....don’t try and name drop against me Andrew, you’ll lose....”
A cocky grin comes across my face. I don’t mean to be an asshole. But I am...so I can’t really help it....
“And until you do get those big names on your hit list like I have. Until you do step up, get out of this slump and actually prove to me you are as good as you believe. You have no right to tell me when I can and can’t have an attitude or be a prick. As I said before, I’ve been places and done things you can only dream of. I don’t say these things to simply boast about them. I’m trying to get it through your head that it’s a good thing to have an ego. I can be humble to WHEN I’m beaten but until you beat me you’ll only see the bottom of my boot while I’m stomping your face into the dirt.”
“Part of me wants to just smash you into the ground Andrew. I just want to walk over you like I have time and time again with others and take the X-Division title. But another part of me looks at you with your bright eyed optimism and uncanny ability to live in the world of the fairies and I envy you. I envy you because I’ve seen the dark side of this company. I’ve had the world title in my grasp and I’ve had my hands smacked away. I’ve been that bright eyed optimistic idiot. You need to see what NCW is Andrew. You need to see that to reach your goal of being champion and to reach your goal of beating me that you have to unleash that inner asshole. You need to become an arrogant destruction machine. No mercy no optimism. Just a cocky prick....”
“I want you to prove me wrong. I want you to beat the crap out of me. It’ll do one to two things. It’ll either turn you into me and you’ll attain the success you want. Or you’ll prove to me that nice guys can in fact finish first....”
I sigh deeply. My mind flashes back to a time when I had friends backstage who are now enemies. A time when the word ego meant nothing...a time when I too was innocent....
“I’m broken....damaged...”
“I’ve lost my heart. My soul. It was taken from me by two men. Adam Knite and Angel. And now I sit back and wait for me time to confront them but until then I need that spark back. I need that thing that made me like you. That’s why I chose you. You can make me the man I once was. You can help me find a balance between the ego driven superstar I’ve become and the optimistic wrestler I was....”
“I’m begging you to stop me or to change me. Give me your best, show me there is another way...remind me of what I was...and how horrible I have become...”
Scene fade
A thought goes through my head as I watch Andrew Jacobsen on my computer screen. My eyes fixated on his trying to read him like a book. I see many things, fear, stupidity, loathing. Truth is I can see into his soul and what do I find?. A scared child fumbling through words in a vain attempt to put me off my game like I’m some kind of amateur. What an idiot....
“Andrew. Why must you continually make an ass out of yourself and then try and transfer it to me. You can say with a straight face and a heart full of self belief that you have nothing to prove to me?. You don’t believe you need to prove you’re better because you quote un quote “know” it?. Let me explain this very slowly to you so your mind can understand it and process it in time for you to maybe put out a suitable reply. You HAVE to prove it to me. If you don’t prove to me you’re better you’ll lose. You can believe you’re better than me all you want or rather you can “know” it, but if you don’t PROVE it to me then I’m sorry you’ll go home a loser and a failed champion...”
The words spew from me with venom and vigour. Confidence rushes through my body as every muscle tenses. I may be simply sitting at a computer screen but I feel as if I could leap from my chair right now and go five rounds with Anderson Silva.
“See what I’ve done there is apply calm reasoning to destroy what you’ve said in a counter point. You believe the simple fact that you “know” you can beat me will get you through, but you see people once believed the earth was flat. People once believed the sun revolved around the earth, people once believed that an atom could not be split. See Andrew just because you know something doesn’t make it true. As a champion you have to accept there are those who are better than you. You have to accept that there are those who are your superior. And as a champion, as a true champion you need to overcome that and believe in your heart of hearts you are invincible. You need to believe that you can become that much better and you can rise to the occasion....”
“But I can already see that it won’t happen with you. I’ve given you ample chance to look at the facts that I’ve presented and admit to yourself and the fans around the world that I am better than you. Admittance will go along way to making you a better person and a better champion. But instead all I’ve had from you is half hearted insults and a statement of you letting me “douche it up”. You examples of me talking and insulting you etc. I mean come on, you’re going to give me a little TV history lesson about the batman TV series?. Well I’m sorry I got my decades wrong when it came to a campy television show that was more known for its homosexual undertones than it was for being an action packed series for kids....”
“But for all your little fact pinching you forgot one thing. I don’t really care. It’s like you going on about calling our peers WRESTLERS instead of superstars. I don’t know about you but I am a superstar. You may be proud to call yourself a “wrestler” but me I’m a star. And you pinned Gib?..wow you know I don’t think I could ever match tha-, oh wait I beat him too and Angel and Adam Knite and Jack Hammond and Xavier Williams and Trent Helms and Steve Awesome.....don’t try and name drop against me Andrew, you’ll lose....”
A cocky grin comes across my face. I don’t mean to be an asshole. But I am...so I can’t really help it....
“And until you do get those big names on your hit list like I have. Until you do step up, get out of this slump and actually prove to me you are as good as you believe. You have no right to tell me when I can and can’t have an attitude or be a prick. As I said before, I’ve been places and done things you can only dream of. I don’t say these things to simply boast about them. I’m trying to get it through your head that it’s a good thing to have an ego. I can be humble to WHEN I’m beaten but until you beat me you’ll only see the bottom of my boot while I’m stomping your face into the dirt.”
“Part of me wants to just smash you into the ground Andrew. I just want to walk over you like I have time and time again with others and take the X-Division title. But another part of me looks at you with your bright eyed optimism and uncanny ability to live in the world of the fairies and I envy you. I envy you because I’ve seen the dark side of this company. I’ve had the world title in my grasp and I’ve had my hands smacked away. I’ve been that bright eyed optimistic idiot. You need to see what NCW is Andrew. You need to see that to reach your goal of being champion and to reach your goal of beating me that you have to unleash that inner asshole. You need to become an arrogant destruction machine. No mercy no optimism. Just a cocky prick....”
“I want you to prove me wrong. I want you to beat the crap out of me. It’ll do one to two things. It’ll either turn you into me and you’ll attain the success you want. Or you’ll prove to me that nice guys can in fact finish first....”
I sigh deeply. My mind flashes back to a time when I had friends backstage who are now enemies. A time when the word ego meant nothing...a time when I too was innocent....
“I’m broken....damaged...”
“I’ve lost my heart. My soul. It was taken from me by two men. Adam Knite and Angel. And now I sit back and wait for me time to confront them but until then I need that spark back. I need that thing that made me like you. That’s why I chose you. You can make me the man I once was. You can help me find a balance between the ego driven superstar I’ve become and the optimistic wrestler I was....”
“I’m begging you to stop me or to change me. Give me your best, show me there is another way...remind me of what I was...and how horrible I have become...”
Scene fade
So you wanna play games with my head
But you make me fall apart, I wish that I was dead
I just can't believe I fell, for such a blackened heart
You played me for a fool and used me from the start
**** it all, **** it all
I just want to know the truth,
But the words from your heart they just cloud,
All the negativity, forces me down into (silence)
But still I can dream,
I wanna know, I wanna know
If I tear you open wide,
take a look inside
Are you pretty
Can I get inside your mind,
see what I can find?
Are you pretty?
So just take off that disguise, everyone knows that you're only
Pretty on the outside
Now I ****ing hate you, with all of my heart
Just disappear, and never will I fear for my life
I just want to be alone,
And never, no never, will I be unhappy and low,
I wanna know, I wanna know
If I tear you open wide,
take a look inside
Are you pretty
Can I get inside your mind,
see what I can find?
Are you pretty?
So just take off that disguise, everyone knows that you're only
Pretty on the outside
You're so pretty on the outside
You're so pretty on the outside
So you wanna play games with my head
But you make me fall apart and wish that I was dead
Can't believe I fell for such a blackened heart
You played me for a fool and just used me from the start
I just wanna know the truth (but the words from your mouth)
All your negativity (you keep forcing me down)
Into silence I can dream (into silence I can dream)
Into silence I can dream
If I tear you open wide, take a look inside
Are you pretty? (pretty!)
Can I get inside your mind, see what I can find?
Are you pretty? (pretty!)
So just take off that disguise, everyone knows that you're only
Pretty on the outside
Whoa, you re so pretty on the outside
Whoa, (you re so pretty on the outside)
You're so pretty on the outside!
But you make me fall apart, I wish that I was dead
I just can't believe I fell, for such a blackened heart
You played me for a fool and used me from the start
**** it all, **** it all
I just want to know the truth,
But the words from your heart they just cloud,
All the negativity, forces me down into (silence)
But still I can dream,
I wanna know, I wanna know
If I tear you open wide,
take a look inside
Are you pretty
Can I get inside your mind,
see what I can find?
Are you pretty?
So just take off that disguise, everyone knows that you're only
Pretty on the outside
Now I ****ing hate you, with all of my heart
Just disappear, and never will I fear for my life
I just want to be alone,
And never, no never, will I be unhappy and low,
I wanna know, I wanna know
If I tear you open wide,
take a look inside
Are you pretty
Can I get inside your mind,
see what I can find?
Are you pretty?
So just take off that disguise, everyone knows that you're only
Pretty on the outside
You're so pretty on the outside
You're so pretty on the outside
So you wanna play games with my head
But you make me fall apart and wish that I was dead
Can't believe I fell for such a blackened heart
You played me for a fool and just used me from the start
I just wanna know the truth (but the words from your mouth)
All your negativity (you keep forcing me down)
Into silence I can dream (into silence I can dream)
Into silence I can dream
If I tear you open wide, take a look inside
Are you pretty? (pretty!)
Can I get inside your mind, see what I can find?
Are you pretty? (pretty!)
So just take off that disguise, everyone knows that you're only
Pretty on the outside
Whoa, you re so pretty on the outside
Whoa, (you re so pretty on the outside)
You're so pretty on the outside!