Post by Alex Jones on Jul 7, 2010 19:14:34 GMT -6
Part III-I have a past with her to......
Even if you want, you can't touch me now, Leave me if you want, you can't hurt me now, Build them up - high and strong,, so you'll never have to hurt too long, Put them up - til they surround, and there's no real you left to be found, Hold it up - high above, , no fear of hope or trust or love, Close it up - and hold your ground, and wait until it's time to finally close it down.
“I loved her too Angel. I really did. I was a friend to her husband, he was my trainer, my mentor, my friend, and when they broke up I was there for her. She and I became lovers. I cared deeply for her but she slowly tore my world apart, my ex wanted nothing to do with me, my friends walked away in disgust, all for her, I sacrificed everything. And now inadvertently you’ve done the same thing. You may believe it’s love but it’s not, she’s a soul sucking monster, Satan in an inviting form. Yes she’s beautiful and passionate, she’s also needy and a bitch....”
“Don’t confuse this Angel, Tara and I are done, she hates me and I hate her. She did to me what you believe Shelly did to you. She ripped my heart and soul out, she took everything that was mine and destroyed it in front of me. Shelly loves me, but Tara is evil. So you can sit there and bad mouth Shelly all you want, but I’ve had experience with them both aswell...and Tara is nothing but a puppet master and now she’s pulling your strings. But I’m curious, how do you expect me to believe you?. Talking about respecting me and our battles, talking about how you want me to prove everyone wrong. How can I believe you?. WHY SHOULD I BELEIVE YOU?.”
“You once gloated that YOU sent Shelly to me to break my heart and my will, it was YOU who orchestrated it all. But now you’re switching. Now Shelly is with me and I’m calm, happy and centered you’re decided it was HER. So which is it Angel?. Is Shelly really the evil woman who has tortured you and broke you down and then came up with the idea to destroy me?. Or is it the more likely option, that you’re just a manipulating cold hearted piece of trash who likes to lie to get his way?. After all you’ve done, all your deceptions all your lies and illusions you really expect anyone to believe your little sob story?. You really expect me to believe or care about your little “revelation”?.
I smirk and shake my head, I try to hold back laughter and try to hold back my joy. I’m under Angel’s skin, he’s getting desperate now. Now everyone will see that he’s just full of it....
“Face it Angel....your tricks no longer work on me and very slowly everyone is starting to see that it’s you....you’re the bad guy, you’re the asshole...you’re the physically abusive husband and absentee father....what a shame......”
What a shame, what a shame,, To judge a life that you can't change, The choir sings, the church bells ring, So, won't you give this man his wings?, What a shame to have to beg you to, See we're not all the same, What a shame
“Also, you call Shelly a whore. Have you seen who you’re with?. Tara slept with a married man, Tara was once involved with me while she was with her husband. She’s done other things too but I suppose I’ll let her tell you about it. Do you think it’s any coincidence that Tara latched herself onto you?. One of the most powerful entities in NCW today?. So really Angel how can you call Shelly a whore when you’re with Tara?. How can you chastise the woman you USED to love when the woman you LOVE now is as easy as a two year olds coloring book?”
Honestly. Angel is really reaching, he’s lost it. I have him. I reach over and pick up a bottle of water and take a long drink. I smirk and sit back continuing.
“But you are right about something Angel. I am Shelly’s. Mind body and soul I’m hers. Because unlike you I’ve given myself completely to her. I’ll never mistreat or hurt her. Unlike you. Maybe, and follow me here, maybe you got treated bad by Shelly because you treated her with contempt and hatred?. Maybe it was you who drove her away Angel. Maybe it was you who didn’t care.”
“After all that the entire world is asking you how you could do all the things you did. Because in your twisted world view you were justified. In mine and everyone else’s you were wrong, you were wrong and you should be punished for it. Shelly is now pregnant with a child Angel, MY CHILD. Hayleigh is going to have a little brother or sister. And it really does amuse me how you can bitch and moan about Shelly, she and I are happy and content, we have a wonderful life. The only thing wrong with it is you wanting Hayleigh. The only thing wrong is that you won’t back off and let us be happy.”
“But that’s your way isn’t it Angel?. You’re a pathetic human being who can’t allow anyone to be happy, everyone has to be as miserable as you. But how did you try and “break free” from Shelly?. Was it staying away from her for extended periods of time?. Was it lying to her?. Was it punishing her for something she didn’t do?. That’s not trying to break free Angel, that’s you being an asshole. And she wouldn’t leave. She loves you so much and wanted you to be a real father she stayed, she stayed even though it killed her more and more inside and in the end all she did was stay for Hayleighs sake. Then when you physically hurt her and almost KILLED her she finally had the courage to leave you and come to the man who really does love her. The man who she wants to be the father of Hayleigh and the father of her unborn child.....me....”
I grit my teeth. My anger rises. So there it is, you all know. Now you can all enjoy me tear angel apart. My anger rises more. I can feel my body getting warmer as muscles tense and pulsate underneath my skin....
“Hayleigh loves me Angel. She loves me and wants me to be her father. When she wakes up in the morning Shelly and I make her breakfast, we sit outside and watch nature at its most beautiful, we just spend time together as a real family. I play with her make her feel special, because she is Angel. You were always too caught up in your little bull**** life as a tyrannical leader ruling over NCW with an iron fist that you forgot about the one person in your life that actually mattered. Hayleigh. But now it’s too late. Now I’m her father, now I look after her. Shelly and I do as a couple instead of it being just shelly with you making as a cameo appearance to remind her that you are alive.”
“Being a father is more than just getting your rocks off with the mother and occasionally dropping in to say hi. Being a father means raising the child to be a good person and being a good role model. And what is the role model you set Angel?. That it’s ok for Hayleigh to settle for a man who abuses her because that’s what mommy did?. The role of a father is also to love and protect and that is what I’m doing now. I love this child and I’m protecting her from you. I’m protecting her from a life with a father who will care about her while everyone’s watching then set her aside the minute he knows he can.”
“That’s why I attacked your brother Angel, that’s why I took him out and wanted this match with you. It’s because I’m protecting her. You don’t deserve to have any type of contact with her. I’m going to punish you. I’m going to break you down mentally and physically and destroy you, so you will never come after Shelly and Hayleigh again. I’m going to get it through that thick skull of yours that it’s over Angel. You can come up with all these parallels between us, you can make all the assumptions and clever little quips you want. That you did something and now I’m apparently doing it, but you know something you did that I didn’t?. I never hurt a woman I “love”. You know what I’ve done that you never did?. I’ve been a good father.....”
“But you want to punish me for that. You want to hurt me to prove what kind of monster you can be?. I learnt long ago that to beat a monster you have to become one. So you ask why I did the things I did?. That’s why. To get in your head and to hurt you. Because I know that mentally I have the edge over you. Now you have doubts in your head. Now you know the world see’s you for what you really are. And if I have to become a monster to beat you then so be it. You’ve seen what mental games I can play, you’ve seen what I did to Nero, Seth Evans, Phillip Burns and even yourself. I’ll stop and nothing to protect my family Angel. I’ll do what I have to, even if it means completely destroying what I once admired and respected.”
I breathe deep trying to calm myself.....
“You and I do have the same job, but that doesn’t stop me from being with Hayleigh like it did you. And yes I will be going for that world title, but I’ll still be there for her. You on the other hand. After all is done with you’ll just be a broken man with nothing to live for except your little skank who is akin to a walking STD. You can say it was because of some vain attempt to goat you into a final confrontation. But it is what it is, an attempt by a loving father to protect his wife and children. But it won’t hurt my career. When I beat you, and it’s not a question of if, it’s when I beat you, I’m going to step up the rankings and be known as the guy who FINALLY put Angel to rest. The mighty unstoppable force will finally have met the immovable object....”
“I said it months ago, I was going to be the one to take you down. I told everyone that they could try and try but none of them could do to you what I was going to. And one way or another Angel I’m going to end you. I’m going to destroy you. Protect my family and then use you as a stepping stone to that NCW world title. And when I do win the world title I won’t use it as an excuse to push Shelly and Hayleigh away, I’ll use it to make them happier, to get them anything their hearts desire. And when Hayleigh grows up and she discovers what happened she’ll thank me, she’ll thank me and hug me...like a daughter hugs a father.....”
“And I will be her protector until that day comes when she gets married and I willingly give that job over to a man who deserves it. And that man will never be you. I can see into the future with this. I will end you, I will win the world title and Hayleigh will always love me as a father....and she’ll always hate you because she’ll know what kind of monster you are, and how I had to compromise my morals and become a monster to end you....”
I breathe deep again and close my eyes...letting it all slip away