Post by Alex Jones on Aug 9, 2010 21:17:45 GMT -6
So it’s been done?....”
My heart sinks. I know the answer. I don’t even know why I asked the question. I turn my head as Shelly nods. I can see the disappointment in her eyes, This was the right thing to do. It went too far.....
“It’s for the best....a girl needs her father...her...real...father...”
I swallow and put my head down, my forehead resting against Shelly’s, she takes my hand and places it on her obviously pregnant stomach. Not long to go now, not long until my child enters this world. I know what she’s trying to say, I know what she’s trying to do. I can do this...I have to....
“I suppose I should start getting ready. This will end it....this will finish it....”
She gives me a light smile. It’s amazing, she knows what to say or in this case what not to say. I walk outside into the cold night air, the light from behind makes my outline down on the grass seem darker. But that’s what I am isn’t it?, I’m a dark shadow. A shell of my former self.....
“You asked me to look inside. You asked me to seriously ask myself if I could beat you again. In out long history we’ve had so many close, competitive matches. Matches where we both came within inches of injury, of career ending injury I might add. July twenty seventh two thousand and eight. Over two years ago you and I stepped into the ring for the first time. Before the match you told me I had a bright future ahead of me. And it’s amazing how right you can sometimes be. The first meeting between us was something magical. I was an unknown in this company, an up and coming force that wouldn’t let anyone stand in my way. And you were the former X-Division champion just having lost your belt to Xavier Williams.”
“I put everything into that match like I do time and time again, I did everything I could to win. You just wouldn’t stop, then before I knew it I was done. You beat me. I dominated much of that match but you still beat me. I offered you my hand in respect and you took it. I knew right then and there that this issue between us was not over. Over the coming months I faced you over and over again in tag matches. I had partners that walked out, partners that were just pathetic and partners who were scared of you to the point they threw up backstage. The next time I faced you one on one was December seventh. At transgression 08’. I’d held the X-Division title. A belt that you made famous for four months. I defeated every single challenger that NCW put in front of me. But then again...I hadn’t faced you had I?....”
A smile comes across my face, a walk down memory lane to remind me of who I am?. Or just a way for me to remember why I have to beat him....
“Again you and I went to war. But you beat me, after a match that had fans chanting for us both you won, again. But you see all the times we’ve faced each other, I can look back and I know that out of all the men you’ve faced, legends, world champions, I was the one who always gave you the fight you were looking for. I was the one who silenced that beast inside that needed competition. And I knew I had you in trouble Angel, I knew it when you and I had a first blood match and you needed Adam to help you. February seventh two thousand and nine. You won that night, but you didn’t beat me. I beat you down over and over and over and just as I was ready to take your head off Adam appeared and hit me in the face with brass knuckles....”
“See Angel..you may of beaten me here...”
A small tap on the ol head
“But you didn’t beat me here..”
A hand on my heart
“You knew that something had changed, you can’t hide it. But it wasn’t until the twelfth of April two thousand and nine that I’d get another one on one shot with you. In the main event. I got you, I beat you. The world was stunned the world was shocked. Truth be told I was a little surprised. But I did it, I finally got you. And over the year since then we’ve faced many more times trading victories back and forth, at one point I even had a three win-win streak against you. But the point to this whole trip down memory lane is that even after I’ve beaten you. Even after you and I have destroyed each other time and time again, shaken hands, spit in each other’s faces people still don’t see me as a credible threat or as your equal.”
“Do you know how infuriating that is?. To have people look upon me as your lesser, as your perennial whipping boy. I’m done with that Angel, so you ask me to look inside and really see if I can beat you. The answer is a resounding...No.....”
I swallow hard again, a sad admission....
“Who I’ve been, what I’ve been, can’t beat you. Light will always triumph over darkness and I have brought a dark cloud over myself and over our issues. It went too far. And now I look back and realise that the last four months have been a blur. I became obsessed with beating you, with taking everything from you. With making you feel that pain of being the lesser one, the one looked upon as the constant underdog. I hate what I’ve become, I hate who I’ve become. The only person keeping me from the edge is Shelly. And lately that hasn’t been enough. But as I said, who I am can’t beat you right now...but who I was...now that’s an entirely different story.....”
“You remember don’t you?. I may not have been as aggressive but damn I was good. I still am that good Angel. But some of what we do is heart. You have your heart and soul in this match. My heart is frozen. I found myself not being able to feel anything but hatred. That’s no way to live. The reason I agreed to all this is simple. I knew the right thing to do was to give you Hayleigh. I didn’t quit on her like you said, I did what a REAL father would. I did the best thing for her and the best thing for her is to be with her father. I added the whole thing with your career because I know you. I know you fight harder when you have something you want on the line. When you have something to defend. I couldn’t use Hayleigh like that anymore. I couldn’t use Hayleigh as a bargaining chip. She’s innocent in all this..unlike us...we’re monsters Angel....”
“We’ve both done things that are considered “wrong”, I may have overstepped my bounds but you’re far from innocent, we’ve both done things that are disgusting in the name of competition. I had an advantage a trump card, but I gave it up because it’s the RIGHT thing to do. I gave Hayleigh back to you, Because I care for her. But in the end I will defend my own honor Angel. In the end that’s all I have. We’ll come face to face in an unsanctioned fight. If you win, you have my pride, if I win I have your career. Go to war with me Angel. Come at me with everything, leave nothing to chance, try and destroy me, I want your best I want your most destructive, I want Savior ****ing X.....”
“I want to be able to beat you to show the world that I am your equal, that I am the man who has always pushed you to be the best....I need this...I want this.....I am going to beat you...one way or another...I’m going to beat you....”
I close my eyes and sigh before walking inside...the first counter shot is fired.....preperation over and over again.....
My heart sinks. I know the answer. I don’t even know why I asked the question. I turn my head as Shelly nods. I can see the disappointment in her eyes, This was the right thing to do. It went too far.....
“It’s for the best....a girl needs her father...her...real...father...”
I swallow and put my head down, my forehead resting against Shelly’s, she takes my hand and places it on her obviously pregnant stomach. Not long to go now, not long until my child enters this world. I know what she’s trying to say, I know what she’s trying to do. I can do this...I have to....
“I suppose I should start getting ready. This will end it....this will finish it....”
She gives me a light smile. It’s amazing, she knows what to say or in this case what not to say. I walk outside into the cold night air, the light from behind makes my outline down on the grass seem darker. But that’s what I am isn’t it?, I’m a dark shadow. A shell of my former self.....
“You asked me to look inside. You asked me to seriously ask myself if I could beat you again. In out long history we’ve had so many close, competitive matches. Matches where we both came within inches of injury, of career ending injury I might add. July twenty seventh two thousand and eight. Over two years ago you and I stepped into the ring for the first time. Before the match you told me I had a bright future ahead of me. And it’s amazing how right you can sometimes be. The first meeting between us was something magical. I was an unknown in this company, an up and coming force that wouldn’t let anyone stand in my way. And you were the former X-Division champion just having lost your belt to Xavier Williams.”
“I put everything into that match like I do time and time again, I did everything I could to win. You just wouldn’t stop, then before I knew it I was done. You beat me. I dominated much of that match but you still beat me. I offered you my hand in respect and you took it. I knew right then and there that this issue between us was not over. Over the coming months I faced you over and over again in tag matches. I had partners that walked out, partners that were just pathetic and partners who were scared of you to the point they threw up backstage. The next time I faced you one on one was December seventh. At transgression 08’. I’d held the X-Division title. A belt that you made famous for four months. I defeated every single challenger that NCW put in front of me. But then again...I hadn’t faced you had I?....”
A smile comes across my face, a walk down memory lane to remind me of who I am?. Or just a way for me to remember why I have to beat him....
“Again you and I went to war. But you beat me, after a match that had fans chanting for us both you won, again. But you see all the times we’ve faced each other, I can look back and I know that out of all the men you’ve faced, legends, world champions, I was the one who always gave you the fight you were looking for. I was the one who silenced that beast inside that needed competition. And I knew I had you in trouble Angel, I knew it when you and I had a first blood match and you needed Adam to help you. February seventh two thousand and nine. You won that night, but you didn’t beat me. I beat you down over and over and over and just as I was ready to take your head off Adam appeared and hit me in the face with brass knuckles....”
“See Angel..you may of beaten me here...”
A small tap on the ol head
“But you didn’t beat me here..”
A hand on my heart
“You knew that something had changed, you can’t hide it. But it wasn’t until the twelfth of April two thousand and nine that I’d get another one on one shot with you. In the main event. I got you, I beat you. The world was stunned the world was shocked. Truth be told I was a little surprised. But I did it, I finally got you. And over the year since then we’ve faced many more times trading victories back and forth, at one point I even had a three win-win streak against you. But the point to this whole trip down memory lane is that even after I’ve beaten you. Even after you and I have destroyed each other time and time again, shaken hands, spit in each other’s faces people still don’t see me as a credible threat or as your equal.”
“Do you know how infuriating that is?. To have people look upon me as your lesser, as your perennial whipping boy. I’m done with that Angel, so you ask me to look inside and really see if I can beat you. The answer is a resounding...No.....”
I swallow hard again, a sad admission....
“Who I’ve been, what I’ve been, can’t beat you. Light will always triumph over darkness and I have brought a dark cloud over myself and over our issues. It went too far. And now I look back and realise that the last four months have been a blur. I became obsessed with beating you, with taking everything from you. With making you feel that pain of being the lesser one, the one looked upon as the constant underdog. I hate what I’ve become, I hate who I’ve become. The only person keeping me from the edge is Shelly. And lately that hasn’t been enough. But as I said, who I am can’t beat you right now...but who I was...now that’s an entirely different story.....”
“You remember don’t you?. I may not have been as aggressive but damn I was good. I still am that good Angel. But some of what we do is heart. You have your heart and soul in this match. My heart is frozen. I found myself not being able to feel anything but hatred. That’s no way to live. The reason I agreed to all this is simple. I knew the right thing to do was to give you Hayleigh. I didn’t quit on her like you said, I did what a REAL father would. I did the best thing for her and the best thing for her is to be with her father. I added the whole thing with your career because I know you. I know you fight harder when you have something you want on the line. When you have something to defend. I couldn’t use Hayleigh like that anymore. I couldn’t use Hayleigh as a bargaining chip. She’s innocent in all this..unlike us...we’re monsters Angel....”
“We’ve both done things that are considered “wrong”, I may have overstepped my bounds but you’re far from innocent, we’ve both done things that are disgusting in the name of competition. I had an advantage a trump card, but I gave it up because it’s the RIGHT thing to do. I gave Hayleigh back to you, Because I care for her. But in the end I will defend my own honor Angel. In the end that’s all I have. We’ll come face to face in an unsanctioned fight. If you win, you have my pride, if I win I have your career. Go to war with me Angel. Come at me with everything, leave nothing to chance, try and destroy me, I want your best I want your most destructive, I want Savior ****ing X.....”
“I want to be able to beat you to show the world that I am your equal, that I am the man who has always pushed you to be the best....I need this...I want this.....I am going to beat you...one way or another...I’m going to beat you....”
I close my eyes and sigh before walking inside...the first counter shot is fired.....preperation over and over again.....