Post by Alex Jones on Aug 11, 2010 20:24:01 GMT -6
“You want to say the words “same song and dance” to me? Really Angel? That’s funny it really is. What have you done in your career?. You’ve jumped from one side to the other your entire career. Trying to make it “shocking” trying to win more and more fans by doing the “tortured anti-hero” thing. You even did it in the NCW’s war with the revolution. Everyone else may have forgotten but I hadn’t. I wanted to stay out of it. I wanted to get on with my career, then I was forced to step in and when I did it was me against the world. JFK, MGK, Steve Awesome, they were no help to me. I stood alone against an army. I made Adam run and hide until he threw you at me. And you had each other’s backs.”
“I was close to beating you, Adam stepped in and stopped me, I was going to beat Adam, become the world champion and you stepped in to stop it. You stopped me from achieving my dream, you stopped me from being NCW world champion. And then a short time after you turn on your revolution teammates to be the “true savior” of NCW. And the thing is, you didn’t do it to save NCW, you didn’t do it for any other grand purpose than to put the spotlight on you. And that’s what you need, that’s what you crave. I have that same feeling inside me, but at the same time I was willing to step back. Have you forgotten that I walked away?. The whole thing with Shelly, I couldn’t handle it...I walked out....”
“But again that was your doing, sending your wife to me to seduce me, to break my heart, to destroy me and break me down from the inside. I suppose I should thank you, you found my true love for me. And in a round about way I found yours. Maybe you missed the point in what I was saying, maybe you don’t get it. Maybe I didn’t make myself clear. Maybe I was rambling. Either way who I was and what I am are the same person. I’ve always had this demon inside me, this anger, this frustration. You cost me a world title, you cost me my career, and you did it to get rid of me because you’re scared. You’re scared that the day will come and I’ll be the one who keeps edging out victories against you. You’re scared that for the first time in your glorious storied career...you’ll be second best.....”
I open my eyes, the light from above hits them and sets off the deep blue. I move my hair from my eyes and stare at her, she smiles at me and goes about making her lunch. Her feelings for Angel finally dead and buried, we can move on with our lives together. With our unborn child.....
“You say that you never doubted me. I know that’s true. All I have to do is look at our first match, you were stunned that I could keep up with you. Then the lengths that you went to to get rid of me. You did so many wrongs to me, yet I’m the bad guy?. I’ve been the bad guy in all of this?. All I did was love a woman you hurt. All I did was love a child who you walked out on. I know you’ve heard this all before but you need to be accountable for your stupidity and you need to admit it to yourself that I’m not the one to blame. You blame me for Hayleigh’s feelings towards you, you blame me for so many things, but shift that judgemental pendulum back towards yourself and have a look. That little girl already had feelings of resentment towards you....”
“Resentment for not being there, resentment for walking out, resentment for not having the time, resentment for hurting her mother. I didn’t do anything Angel, all I did was listen to her pain and look after her. I gave her affection, I gave her love, I gave her what she wanted from you...TIME. And I guess you never know what you’ve lost till it’s gone, you wanted Hayleigh back and I could see that you had changed, that you would never make that same mistake again. It’s because you love her, she is your flesh and blood, but it’s also because you know if you do it again she’ll look back upon the time with me and miss me. You look after her Angel, you actually be a father to her, you can do both you know.....you can be a superstar in NCW and a father. It’s a shame though, it’s a shame that your career will end just as you’ve figured that out. But I suppose it’s a blessing for you that after Sunday you’ll be able to spend all the time at home you want with her....”
“...but you seem to misunderstand again. When did I ever say I was sorry?. It was the right thing to do, but then again so was keeping her from you. I don’t want your forgiveness. I don’t NEED your forgiveness. And the truth is you don’t know me at all. I’m selfish?. I’m arrogant?...well yeah I am arrogant, that’s just who I am but selfish?. Talk about hearing the “same old song and dance” go get some new insults and stop using the same old crap everyone has before. “AJ’s arrogant, AJ’s selfish, AJ only cares about himself.” BLAH BLAH BLAH. You want to talk about me being arrogant?. What about you?. Me scared of you?. Are you high?. I put you through just as much hell as you put me through. I’m not afraid of you Angel, I’m afraid of what I’ll do TO you....”
A smirk and lean back. My mind races through our past encounters. One of us has to just die sooner or later....
“I’m not a nice guy Angel, hell I’m not even a prick. I’m just me. I’ve tried to tell you that, there’s no difference. Everyone has this inside them. Everyone has the capacity for good deeds and what most would consider “evil”. It’s funny though, the first thing you think of when I give you Hayleigh back is that I’m trying to play nice because I’m scared.....and I’m arrogant?.....it doesn’t even dawn on you that I did it and agreed to it just because it was the right thing to do?. It doesn’t even dawn on you that because of me you’ll actually appreciate the gift you have and won’t take her for granted?. You’ll actually be a father instead of a closed off absentee who gives her a quick kiss on the cheek and then walks away. That’s what she wanted and that’s what she deserved. You think because you’re her flesh and blood and because you were there for longer than me that you knew what was best right away and that you knew what was best for her?....”
“She hated you all by herself.......”
“She didn’t care Angel, she laid in my lap and drifted off to sleep, SHE CALLED ME DADDY. And she did it all on her own. But I’m the big bad wolf right?, I “turned” her against you right?. My god you really are blind. This had NOTHING to do with you until you came into it. This was me being a real father to a little girl who felt abandoned, I continued to protect her until you finally had the realisation that you’d never do it again. You finally have the look in your eyes of a real father and not just someone looking for stolen PROPERTY...”
"It's strange how much "give me back my daughter" sounded like "give me back my sterio" coming out of your mouth"
I pick up a picture of myself and Hayleigh, I smile, her little arms wrapped around my neck and a huge smile on her face....
“You want to see me dead, you want to end my life. Come and try it. I don’t hide from you Angel I never have. I know I can beat you, I know I can end your career. This was always personal between us. Always, we didn’t need Shelly and Hayleigh in this. It’s not as simple as hatred between us Angel. It never was. You are that one guy who I know on my best day it still might not be enough. I know I can put my best up against you and you could still win and in infuriates me. But what angers me even more is that in the beginning I gave you respect time and time again and you gave me nothing....”
“My career is everything to me, my search to be the best and you tried to destroy it, you tried to take it away from me, force me out, you cost me everything. You took my X-Division title, you stopped me from claiming my world title, you sent your own wife to sleep with me and break my heart, you did all these degrading things to me and Shelly and YOU expect ME to apologise to you?. Go to hell.....”
“Actually, I guess we’ll be going to hell won’t we Angel?”
I put the photo down, so many emotions welling up inside me. Anger, frustration, pain......
“You can deny us to be equals. You can accuse me of things that I didn’t do, you can hate me and blame me all you want Angel. But one day, and one day soon Mr Blake, you will have to look upon yourself in a mirror and call judgement upon yourself. Will you like what you see Angel?. Will you actually believe that all the blame is to fall on others for your shortcomings, flaws and mistakes?. Or will you finally realise that you’re a better man because of my actions?”
“Who knows Angel, I can’t tell the future...all I know is that in mere days we’ll meet somewhere backstage and start to take each other apart. Blood, pain and most likely trips to the hospital. It’s all been done before and I’m sick of it....after this match I’m done with you, I wash my hands of you and will never see you again. It will be done, you and I will have nothing left to fight for, fight over and fight with....it will be done...and only one of us will be left with his head held high.....this is my last chance Angel, my last chance to beat you and be the better man out of us.....I need it, I want it and I refuse to lose.....so you can become death all you want....I chose my life over death..and I’ll be getting on with it when I’m done with you.....”
“when you’re out of my life....and dead to me....”
“I was close to beating you, Adam stepped in and stopped me, I was going to beat Adam, become the world champion and you stepped in to stop it. You stopped me from achieving my dream, you stopped me from being NCW world champion. And then a short time after you turn on your revolution teammates to be the “true savior” of NCW. And the thing is, you didn’t do it to save NCW, you didn’t do it for any other grand purpose than to put the spotlight on you. And that’s what you need, that’s what you crave. I have that same feeling inside me, but at the same time I was willing to step back. Have you forgotten that I walked away?. The whole thing with Shelly, I couldn’t handle it...I walked out....”
“But again that was your doing, sending your wife to me to seduce me, to break my heart, to destroy me and break me down from the inside. I suppose I should thank you, you found my true love for me. And in a round about way I found yours. Maybe you missed the point in what I was saying, maybe you don’t get it. Maybe I didn’t make myself clear. Maybe I was rambling. Either way who I was and what I am are the same person. I’ve always had this demon inside me, this anger, this frustration. You cost me a world title, you cost me my career, and you did it to get rid of me because you’re scared. You’re scared that the day will come and I’ll be the one who keeps edging out victories against you. You’re scared that for the first time in your glorious storied career...you’ll be second best.....”
I open my eyes, the light from above hits them and sets off the deep blue. I move my hair from my eyes and stare at her, she smiles at me and goes about making her lunch. Her feelings for Angel finally dead and buried, we can move on with our lives together. With our unborn child.....
“You say that you never doubted me. I know that’s true. All I have to do is look at our first match, you were stunned that I could keep up with you. Then the lengths that you went to to get rid of me. You did so many wrongs to me, yet I’m the bad guy?. I’ve been the bad guy in all of this?. All I did was love a woman you hurt. All I did was love a child who you walked out on. I know you’ve heard this all before but you need to be accountable for your stupidity and you need to admit it to yourself that I’m not the one to blame. You blame me for Hayleigh’s feelings towards you, you blame me for so many things, but shift that judgemental pendulum back towards yourself and have a look. That little girl already had feelings of resentment towards you....”
“Resentment for not being there, resentment for walking out, resentment for not having the time, resentment for hurting her mother. I didn’t do anything Angel, all I did was listen to her pain and look after her. I gave her affection, I gave her love, I gave her what she wanted from you...TIME. And I guess you never know what you’ve lost till it’s gone, you wanted Hayleigh back and I could see that you had changed, that you would never make that same mistake again. It’s because you love her, she is your flesh and blood, but it’s also because you know if you do it again she’ll look back upon the time with me and miss me. You look after her Angel, you actually be a father to her, you can do both you know.....you can be a superstar in NCW and a father. It’s a shame though, it’s a shame that your career will end just as you’ve figured that out. But I suppose it’s a blessing for you that after Sunday you’ll be able to spend all the time at home you want with her....”
“...but you seem to misunderstand again. When did I ever say I was sorry?. It was the right thing to do, but then again so was keeping her from you. I don’t want your forgiveness. I don’t NEED your forgiveness. And the truth is you don’t know me at all. I’m selfish?. I’m arrogant?...well yeah I am arrogant, that’s just who I am but selfish?. Talk about hearing the “same old song and dance” go get some new insults and stop using the same old crap everyone has before. “AJ’s arrogant, AJ’s selfish, AJ only cares about himself.” BLAH BLAH BLAH. You want to talk about me being arrogant?. What about you?. Me scared of you?. Are you high?. I put you through just as much hell as you put me through. I’m not afraid of you Angel, I’m afraid of what I’ll do TO you....”
A smirk and lean back. My mind races through our past encounters. One of us has to just die sooner or later....
“I’m not a nice guy Angel, hell I’m not even a prick. I’m just me. I’ve tried to tell you that, there’s no difference. Everyone has this inside them. Everyone has the capacity for good deeds and what most would consider “evil”. It’s funny though, the first thing you think of when I give you Hayleigh back is that I’m trying to play nice because I’m scared.....and I’m arrogant?.....it doesn’t even dawn on you that I did it and agreed to it just because it was the right thing to do?. It doesn’t even dawn on you that because of me you’ll actually appreciate the gift you have and won’t take her for granted?. You’ll actually be a father instead of a closed off absentee who gives her a quick kiss on the cheek and then walks away. That’s what she wanted and that’s what she deserved. You think because you’re her flesh and blood and because you were there for longer than me that you knew what was best right away and that you knew what was best for her?....”
“She hated you all by herself.......”
“She didn’t care Angel, she laid in my lap and drifted off to sleep, SHE CALLED ME DADDY. And she did it all on her own. But I’m the big bad wolf right?, I “turned” her against you right?. My god you really are blind. This had NOTHING to do with you until you came into it. This was me being a real father to a little girl who felt abandoned, I continued to protect her until you finally had the realisation that you’d never do it again. You finally have the look in your eyes of a real father and not just someone looking for stolen PROPERTY...”
"It's strange how much "give me back my daughter" sounded like "give me back my sterio" coming out of your mouth"
I pick up a picture of myself and Hayleigh, I smile, her little arms wrapped around my neck and a huge smile on her face....
“You want to see me dead, you want to end my life. Come and try it. I don’t hide from you Angel I never have. I know I can beat you, I know I can end your career. This was always personal between us. Always, we didn’t need Shelly and Hayleigh in this. It’s not as simple as hatred between us Angel. It never was. You are that one guy who I know on my best day it still might not be enough. I know I can put my best up against you and you could still win and in infuriates me. But what angers me even more is that in the beginning I gave you respect time and time again and you gave me nothing....”
“My career is everything to me, my search to be the best and you tried to destroy it, you tried to take it away from me, force me out, you cost me everything. You took my X-Division title, you stopped me from claiming my world title, you sent your own wife to sleep with me and break my heart, you did all these degrading things to me and Shelly and YOU expect ME to apologise to you?. Go to hell.....”
“Actually, I guess we’ll be going to hell won’t we Angel?”
I put the photo down, so many emotions welling up inside me. Anger, frustration, pain......
“You can deny us to be equals. You can accuse me of things that I didn’t do, you can hate me and blame me all you want Angel. But one day, and one day soon Mr Blake, you will have to look upon yourself in a mirror and call judgement upon yourself. Will you like what you see Angel?. Will you actually believe that all the blame is to fall on others for your shortcomings, flaws and mistakes?. Or will you finally realise that you’re a better man because of my actions?”
“Who knows Angel, I can’t tell the future...all I know is that in mere days we’ll meet somewhere backstage and start to take each other apart. Blood, pain and most likely trips to the hospital. It’s all been done before and I’m sick of it....after this match I’m done with you, I wash my hands of you and will never see you again. It will be done, you and I will have nothing left to fight for, fight over and fight with....it will be done...and only one of us will be left with his head held high.....this is my last chance Angel, my last chance to beat you and be the better man out of us.....I need it, I want it and I refuse to lose.....so you can become death all you want....I chose my life over death..and I’ll be getting on with it when I’m done with you.....”
“when you’re out of my life....and dead to me....”