Post by Maniac on Aug 14, 2010 14:26:06 GMT -6
I didn't ask you to feel sorry for me. To be honest, I'd rather you didn't. But how do you want me to feel? How should I feel? I wake up, I look in the mirror and I want to bash my face against the glass...
I want to pick up one of the shards that falls in the sink and I want to drag it across my wrist until there is nothing left but the blood in the sink...
But I guess that's my burden to carry, my cross to bear, something I have to get over... I put myself here through my choices, my actions, all of this was my fault. Our feud didn't have to happen, Jenny didn't have to die, I could of been a better person. We make our life's, and in my case, I destroy it... I've done so much damage to myself, to the people around me... I just can't imagine going on anymore Kyle and I'm sorry....
I know you look at me and you see the future, I used to think so too... I don't see a future anymore... I see blackness... I see evil... I see the end of my own personal hell and it's in that ring with you Kyle.
Only you can set me free.
( It was mid morning and Rob Diamond sat in a booth at a diner. His eyes were locked on the seat across from him, a cold cup of coffee was in his right hand. }
This is where we came for our first real date.[/color]
( He half smiles as he thinks back. )
This is also where she told me she loved me the first time.[/color]
( But the smile quickly fades as he looks down. )
We'd come here every weekend, no matter where nCw was, and have the same thing... She'd order a bacon omelet and I'd order the special...[/color]
( Rob turns and sees his reflection in the mirror. He grimaces as he looks at himself. )
If she could see me now she'd tell me to get over it, things will be better, I just have to be strong... But I don't know if I can be strong anymore... I don't know if I can do anything like I did it before...[/color]
This is a match I've been waiting to have all month long Kyle. I've literally dreamed about it for thirty days. Even through everything that's happened I can't take my mind off of you for more than a few minutes at a time. I don't know if it's the training you, Chris and Angel have given me or if there is just something seriously wrong with me but my mind cannot escape wrestling no matter how much I want it too...
Everything revolves around that ring for me...
Even my relationship with Jenny... We would have never met if it wasn't for wrestling, I know that. I owe my time with her to that ring, to this company, and to you Kyle... If you hadn't taken me under your wing all those years ago against my brother's wishes... Who knows where I would be? I owe you for that Kyle. I owe you this match...
I owe you allot of things, and even though I'd rather bite down on the barrel of a gun... You and I both know I can't...
I'm far too selfish and self serving to kill myself, besides, I hate people feeling sorry for me. So I'm going to give them someone else to fee sorry for. Their going to feel sorry for you Kyle. Because this Sunday night when I step in that ring with you, I'm not wrestling for me, I'm not wrestling for my vanity, I'm going to wrestle for her, for Jenny and I'm going to make you tap out in the center of that ring.
This match is dedicated to her memory, to our love, to everything we could of had if only I had been a better person. And I will be... Some how... I will be... Or I'll die trying...
So please Kyle...
Kill me... If... You... Can...
( A form takes the seat across from Rob. }
Chris: You going to drink that coffee?
( Rob just continues to stare at his reflection. }
Chris: Rob, man, come on buddy, you've got to snap out of it now.
Rob: It's always been so easy for you...
Chris: What?
( Rob turns to his brother with cold eyes. )
Rob: Everything has always been so easy for you. You want it, you take it.
Chris: Yeah?
( He shrugs. )
Rob: I don't know... I guess I just find it funny... Everything goes so wrong for me... And so right for you... I love it...
Chris: Right for me? You tried to end my career twice. You had Seth Evans try and end my career. You've demeaned me, ridiculed me, made fun of me, you've made my life anything but easy.
( Rob smirks. )
Rob: Yeah, and it's about damn time you learned what it's like for me.
Chris: You know what bro, your in a bad place, I'll leave you alone.
( And now he just laughs. )
Rob: That's you man, run away when it gets to serious...
Chris: I'm not the one who wants to die, asshole.
( Rob's head snaps as he makes eye contact with Chris. )
Rob: Is that so?
Chris: Yeah, it is.
Rob: Really... Because I distinctly remember you...
( Chris rams Rob up against the glass, both hands around his throat. )
Chris: Shut your damn mouth before I kill you.
( Chris lets him go and backs off. He looks around, no one saw them. )
Chris: I'll... See you at the show...
( Chris storms off and out of the diner. Rob smiles as he looks back at the seat across from him. )
Don't worry Jenny... If Kyle can't reunite us... Chris can...[/color]
( Rob looks down into his right hand where he holds a bottle of anitpsychotics... )
Don't fail me now brother...[/color]
I want to pick up one of the shards that falls in the sink and I want to drag it across my wrist until there is nothing left but the blood in the sink...
But I guess that's my burden to carry, my cross to bear, something I have to get over... I put myself here through my choices, my actions, all of this was my fault. Our feud didn't have to happen, Jenny didn't have to die, I could of been a better person. We make our life's, and in my case, I destroy it... I've done so much damage to myself, to the people around me... I just can't imagine going on anymore Kyle and I'm sorry....
I know you look at me and you see the future, I used to think so too... I don't see a future anymore... I see blackness... I see evil... I see the end of my own personal hell and it's in that ring with you Kyle.
Only you can set me free.
Today I walked down our old street
Past the diner where we'd meet
Now I dine alone in our old seats
The cold wind blows right through my bones
And I feel like I'm getting old
But I wish I was getting old with you
I held your hand when we took shelter from the rain
She laughed as we picked out our children's names
Past the diner where we'd meet
Now I dine alone in our old seats
The cold wind blows right through my bones
And I feel like I'm getting old
But I wish I was getting old with you
I held your hand when we took shelter from the rain
She laughed as we picked out our children's names
( It was mid morning and Rob Diamond sat in a booth at a diner. His eyes were locked on the seat across from him, a cold cup of coffee was in his right hand. }
This is where we came for our first real date.[/color]
( He half smiles as he thinks back. )
This is also where she told me she loved me the first time.[/color]
( But the smile quickly fades as he looks down. )
We'd come here every weekend, no matter where nCw was, and have the same thing... She'd order a bacon omelet and I'd order the special...[/color]
( Rob turns and sees his reflection in the mirror. He grimaces as he looks at himself. )
If she could see me now she'd tell me to get over it, things will be better, I just have to be strong... But I don't know if I can be strong anymore... I don't know if I can do anything like I did it before...[/color]
White sparrows fell from heaven and carried her away
Black arrows cut the strings of my heart, I kneel and pray
White sparrows fell from heaven and carried her away
Black arrows cut the strings of my heart, I kneel and pray
Black arrows cut the strings of my heart, I kneel and pray
White sparrows fell from heaven and carried her away
Black arrows cut the strings of my heart, I kneel and pray
This is a match I've been waiting to have all month long Kyle. I've literally dreamed about it for thirty days. Even through everything that's happened I can't take my mind off of you for more than a few minutes at a time. I don't know if it's the training you, Chris and Angel have given me or if there is just something seriously wrong with me but my mind cannot escape wrestling no matter how much I want it too...
Everything revolves around that ring for me...
Even my relationship with Jenny... We would have never met if it wasn't for wrestling, I know that. I owe my time with her to that ring, to this company, and to you Kyle... If you hadn't taken me under your wing all those years ago against my brother's wishes... Who knows where I would be? I owe you for that Kyle. I owe you this match...
I owe you allot of things, and even though I'd rather bite down on the barrel of a gun... You and I both know I can't...
I'm far too selfish and self serving to kill myself, besides, I hate people feeling sorry for me. So I'm going to give them someone else to fee sorry for. Their going to feel sorry for you Kyle. Because this Sunday night when I step in that ring with you, I'm not wrestling for me, I'm not wrestling for my vanity, I'm going to wrestle for her, for Jenny and I'm going to make you tap out in the center of that ring.
This match is dedicated to her memory, to our love, to everything we could of had if only I had been a better person. And I will be... Some how... I will be... Or I'll die trying...
So please Kyle...
Kill me... If... You... Can...
They gave her one more day
To say the words I couldn't say
I'm crying in pain, crying in pain
And I'm not looking for answers
No, I'm not looking for answers
But dear God, why did you choose her?
To say the words I couldn't say
I'm crying in pain, crying in pain
And I'm not looking for answers
No, I'm not looking for answers
But dear God, why did you choose her?
( A form takes the seat across from Rob. }
Chris: You going to drink that coffee?
( Rob just continues to stare at his reflection. }
Chris: Rob, man, come on buddy, you've got to snap out of it now.
Rob: It's always been so easy for you...
Chris: What?
( Rob turns to his brother with cold eyes. )
Rob: Everything has always been so easy for you. You want it, you take it.
Chris: Yeah?
( He shrugs. )
Rob: I don't know... I guess I just find it funny... Everything goes so wrong for me... And so right for you... I love it...
Chris: Right for me? You tried to end my career twice. You had Seth Evans try and end my career. You've demeaned me, ridiculed me, made fun of me, you've made my life anything but easy.
( Rob smirks. )
Rob: Yeah, and it's about damn time you learned what it's like for me.
Chris: You know what bro, your in a bad place, I'll leave you alone.
( And now he just laughs. )
Rob: That's you man, run away when it gets to serious...
Chris: I'm not the one who wants to die, asshole.
( Rob's head snaps as he makes eye contact with Chris. )
Rob: Is that so?
Chris: Yeah, it is.
Rob: Really... Because I distinctly remember you...
( Chris rams Rob up against the glass, both hands around his throat. )
Chris: Shut your damn mouth before I kill you.
( Chris lets him go and backs off. He looks around, no one saw them. )
Chris: I'll... See you at the show...
( Chris storms off and out of the diner. Rob smiles as he looks back at the seat across from him. )
Don't worry Jenny... If Kyle can't reunite us... Chris can...[/color]
( Rob looks down into his right hand where he holds a bottle of anitpsychotics... )
Don't fail me now brother...[/color]
They gave her one more day
To say the words I couldn't say
I'm crying in pain (crying in pain)
Crying in pain
Our love will remain
I'm crying in pain
To say the words I couldn't say
I'm crying in pain (crying in pain)
Crying in pain
Our love will remain
I'm crying in pain