Post by Rob Diamond on Sept 18, 2010 14:31:52 GMT -6
Will I chose to live?
You make it sound like I have a choice... Huh... But I thought you were like totally going to kill me and junk... Well if I have a choice, then I CHOSE TO TELL YOU TO SUCK IT!
Dude, I'm not scared. No seriously, I'm not. Jumping out from behind the corner with a mask on stopped making me pee my pants when I was ten... SHUT UP JACOBSEN! I CAN HEAR YOU LAUGHING!
But really douche, why don't you try this on for size. You don't scare me, you don't intimidate me and as hard as you try, I'm not going to fall for your little game and play along. But on a side note, do you really think it's a good idea to film yourself physically assaulting a black guy? That's like a total hate crime and if the police see the video... I'm pretty sure some of our viewers are cops... Their totally going to have you red handed. I mean, this is wrestling, not some cheesy soap opera, people go to jail for the kind of stuff your doing...
Unless this isn't reality...
Unless...
This...
Is...
THE MATRIX!!!!
Does that make you the One? And if so, can I kick you in the balls because I hate Keanu Reeves. How the hell does that guy ever get a job? He acts stiffer than a 2x4. Seriously, Will Smith would of made a sweet ass Neo.
Sorry, side tracked again, I'll get back on point now.
Maniac, you kidnapped a kid, released him, then went ahead and re kidnapped him, seems redundant and pointless. And what is even the point of it all? Why do you have Terran? Are you planning to make him your man slave or something? (Not meant in a racist way, meant in a totally saying he's gay kind of way. ) Or is there something more sinister here that I'm not seeing? I'm sorry, I just don't understand where your taking this. It just seems like he's a set piece in your already overly elaborate promos of...
Maniac is in a dark place and you can see his mask...
Ugh... BORING! Where is the scene description? HUH!? Where is the character development!? GOD! It's like your not even trying. Where is the arch, the over lying metaphor? WHAT IS THE POINT OF IT ALL!!!!!
Again, sorry, got off track.
Look Maniac, whatever you think your going to do, it's not going to happen. I've already made my choice and my choice is to choke your large ass out with a fist full of barbed wire. Basically, I'm going to cut you up into little pieces tomorrow. I'm going to live out my darkest fantasies in this match Maniac. You think I'm some well adjusted young punk with a big mouth? YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!
I've been living on edge all month, just waiting for something to give me that final push to snap, and you've done it Maniac. You've made me snap. I HATE YOU CHRIS! I ****ING HATE YOU WITH MY WHOLE GODDAM SOUL AND I AM GOING TO KILL YOU SUNDAY!
Do you hear me Chris? DO YOU! I know it's you in there. I know it... And I'm going to kill you... **** this match... I'm done trying to win... Now... Now I'm just going to try and kill... Everything... And everyone...
Starting with you...
{ Rob buries his face in his hands, he's losing it, he can't keep it together and now the tears start to roll down his cheeks. All month he's been holding it in, the pain he's felt since he found out about Jenny. But now, he just doesn't see the point in hiding it, in pretending to be strong, he just doesn't see the point in anything really. }
Falcon: Rob?
{ Rob looks up to Falcon, their inside of what is to be Rob's locker room tomorrow night. }
Rob: I'm fine.
Falcon: That's not what I came here to talk to you about. I know.
{ Rob's eyes go narrow. }
Rob: Know what?
Falcon: What your doing and I don't like it.
Rob: And what am I doing?
Falcon: Your egging him on, poking and prodding him, hoping you can get him to snap out there and forget your his brother. You think you don't deserve to live, that your not worth saving, and I personally think your hoping that by going through with this match you'll somehow absolve yourself of your sins. He's going to kill you Rob, not save you.
{ Rob laughs. }
Rob: *heh* Yeah, good call buddy.
Falcon: This isn't a game Rob, your playing with your life here.
Rob: That's not really your problem.
Falcon: It is when I don't want him to kill you Rob, when I don't want to see him end your life when it's just really beginning.
Rob: So?
Falcon: So? You've got your entire life in front of you Rob. You entire life. Your going to eventually move on, the pain you feel for her will fade. One day your going to wake up and it will all be behind you. You just need to be strong. Don't do this.
{ Rob stands up and looks at Falcon for a second, regarding him before answering. }
Rob: Thanks buddy.
Falcon: For what?
Rob: For never giving up on me... But I can't live with this anymore... And you went too easy on me...
{ Rob walks past Falcon and to the door. }
Falcon: He'll do it, you know that right, he's going to end your career out there, nothing... No one can stop him...
{ Rob stops. }
Rob: I hope your right. I really do.
{ Rob walks out of the locker room. Falcon sighs and looks down, his hands on his hips. }
Falcon: I don't...
{ Fade. }
What is it they used to say? Your a force of nature, right? That you have no regard, no remorse, you just do what you do because your damn near the best at it?
Yeah, that's what they used to say, that's why I used to look up to you, it's also why I hate you...
Your everything I'm not. Big, strong, talented, people liked you, loved you, you can have whatever you want because your good enough to take it. You make it seem so easy to, like there is no work involved in it what so ever... Thats all I wanted to be... All I wanted to have... I wanted to be Chris Diamond. I wanted to be Maniac... I wanted to be just like you, crazy and all...
Now?
Now I just want to feel again...
I can't, you know? Feel anything... It's empty... All of it... Winning, losing, wrestling in general... I don't care anymore... I can't... I woke up one day and realized there are more important things than what I do in that ring... I woke up and realized I was letting my entire life slip away... As much as I wanted to be you... I just couldn't... And I couldn't try anymore, it was destroying me...
But her...
When I found out...
When I saw the note...
Your right, it is meaningless Chris... Life is so very meaningless... When you have no one to share it with... You have someone... Someone who loves you without question and you don't even see it... Instead you put on a Halloween mask and abduct her kid...
This is the fight of my life... If I can survive this... I don't know... Then just maybe I'm worth saving... Just maybe I have a soul left to save... But I have to face my demom... I have to face death... And somehow... I have to overcome the impossible...
{ Rob looks down at the grave, at the headstone of Jennifer Beane. He drops to his knees and places his hands on his thighs. }
Rob: I'm sorry Jenny... Please forgive me... So I can forgive myself...
{ He turns and lays against the stone, his head pressed against her name. }
Rob: I will always love you Jenny... I'm sorry... I guess neither of us were strong enough...
{ Fade. }
You make it sound like I have a choice... Huh... But I thought you were like totally going to kill me and junk... Well if I have a choice, then I CHOSE TO TELL YOU TO SUCK IT!
Dude, I'm not scared. No seriously, I'm not. Jumping out from behind the corner with a mask on stopped making me pee my pants when I was ten... SHUT UP JACOBSEN! I CAN HEAR YOU LAUGHING!
But really douche, why don't you try this on for size. You don't scare me, you don't intimidate me and as hard as you try, I'm not going to fall for your little game and play along. But on a side note, do you really think it's a good idea to film yourself physically assaulting a black guy? That's like a total hate crime and if the police see the video... I'm pretty sure some of our viewers are cops... Their totally going to have you red handed. I mean, this is wrestling, not some cheesy soap opera, people go to jail for the kind of stuff your doing...
Unless this isn't reality...
Unless...
This...
Is...
THE MATRIX!!!!
Does that make you the One? And if so, can I kick you in the balls because I hate Keanu Reeves. How the hell does that guy ever get a job? He acts stiffer than a 2x4. Seriously, Will Smith would of made a sweet ass Neo.
Sorry, side tracked again, I'll get back on point now.
Maniac, you kidnapped a kid, released him, then went ahead and re kidnapped him, seems redundant and pointless. And what is even the point of it all? Why do you have Terran? Are you planning to make him your man slave or something? (Not meant in a racist way, meant in a totally saying he's gay kind of way. ) Or is there something more sinister here that I'm not seeing? I'm sorry, I just don't understand where your taking this. It just seems like he's a set piece in your already overly elaborate promos of...
Maniac is in a dark place and you can see his mask...
Ugh... BORING! Where is the scene description? HUH!? Where is the character development!? GOD! It's like your not even trying. Where is the arch, the over lying metaphor? WHAT IS THE POINT OF IT ALL!!!!!
Again, sorry, got off track.
Look Maniac, whatever you think your going to do, it's not going to happen. I've already made my choice and my choice is to choke your large ass out with a fist full of barbed wire. Basically, I'm going to cut you up into little pieces tomorrow. I'm going to live out my darkest fantasies in this match Maniac. You think I'm some well adjusted young punk with a big mouth? YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!
I've been living on edge all month, just waiting for something to give me that final push to snap, and you've done it Maniac. You've made me snap. I HATE YOU CHRIS! I ****ING HATE YOU WITH MY WHOLE GODDAM SOUL AND I AM GOING TO KILL YOU SUNDAY!
Do you hear me Chris? DO YOU! I know it's you in there. I know it... And I'm going to kill you... **** this match... I'm done trying to win... Now... Now I'm just going to try and kill... Everything... And everyone...
Starting with you...
{ Rob buries his face in his hands, he's losing it, he can't keep it together and now the tears start to roll down his cheeks. All month he's been holding it in, the pain he's felt since he found out about Jenny. But now, he just doesn't see the point in hiding it, in pretending to be strong, he just doesn't see the point in anything really. }
Falcon: Rob?
{ Rob looks up to Falcon, their inside of what is to be Rob's locker room tomorrow night. }
Rob: I'm fine.
Falcon: That's not what I came here to talk to you about. I know.
{ Rob's eyes go narrow. }
Rob: Know what?
Falcon: What your doing and I don't like it.
Rob: And what am I doing?
Falcon: Your egging him on, poking and prodding him, hoping you can get him to snap out there and forget your his brother. You think you don't deserve to live, that your not worth saving, and I personally think your hoping that by going through with this match you'll somehow absolve yourself of your sins. He's going to kill you Rob, not save you.
{ Rob laughs. }
Rob: *heh* Yeah, good call buddy.
Falcon: This isn't a game Rob, your playing with your life here.
Rob: That's not really your problem.
Falcon: It is when I don't want him to kill you Rob, when I don't want to see him end your life when it's just really beginning.
Rob: So?
Falcon: So? You've got your entire life in front of you Rob. You entire life. Your going to eventually move on, the pain you feel for her will fade. One day your going to wake up and it will all be behind you. You just need to be strong. Don't do this.
{ Rob stands up and looks at Falcon for a second, regarding him before answering. }
Rob: Thanks buddy.
Falcon: For what?
Rob: For never giving up on me... But I can't live with this anymore... And you went too easy on me...
{ Rob walks past Falcon and to the door. }
Falcon: He'll do it, you know that right, he's going to end your career out there, nothing... No one can stop him...
{ Rob stops. }
Rob: I hope your right. I really do.
{ Rob walks out of the locker room. Falcon sighs and looks down, his hands on his hips. }
Falcon: I don't...
{ Fade. }
What is it they used to say? Your a force of nature, right? That you have no regard, no remorse, you just do what you do because your damn near the best at it?
Yeah, that's what they used to say, that's why I used to look up to you, it's also why I hate you...
Your everything I'm not. Big, strong, talented, people liked you, loved you, you can have whatever you want because your good enough to take it. You make it seem so easy to, like there is no work involved in it what so ever... Thats all I wanted to be... All I wanted to have... I wanted to be Chris Diamond. I wanted to be Maniac... I wanted to be just like you, crazy and all...
Now?
Now I just want to feel again...
I can't, you know? Feel anything... It's empty... All of it... Winning, losing, wrestling in general... I don't care anymore... I can't... I woke up one day and realized there are more important things than what I do in that ring... I woke up and realized I was letting my entire life slip away... As much as I wanted to be you... I just couldn't... And I couldn't try anymore, it was destroying me...
But her...
When I found out...
When I saw the note...
Your right, it is meaningless Chris... Life is so very meaningless... When you have no one to share it with... You have someone... Someone who loves you without question and you don't even see it... Instead you put on a Halloween mask and abduct her kid...
This is the fight of my life... If I can survive this... I don't know... Then just maybe I'm worth saving... Just maybe I have a soul left to save... But I have to face my demom... I have to face death... And somehow... I have to overcome the impossible...
{ Rob looks down at the grave, at the headstone of Jennifer Beane. He drops to his knees and places his hands on his thighs. }
Rob: I'm sorry Jenny... Please forgive me... So I can forgive myself...
{ He turns and lays against the stone, his head pressed against her name. }
Rob: I will always love you Jenny... I'm sorry... I guess neither of us were strong enough...
{ Fade. }
White sparrows fell from heaven and carried her away
Black arrows cut the strings of my heart, I kneel and pray
Black arrows cut the strings of my heart, I kneel and pray