Post by Zelda Knite on Jan 31, 2011 10:48:23 GMT -6
I’ve cried... a lot.
Yeah I know right.. understatement of the year that Zelda Knite is an emotional person, not telling you anything you don’t already know? Exactly. Either way... shut up, I’m telling my story.... so I’ve cried a lot. Sometimes it seems that my entire life has been me trying to mask pain just so I wouldn’t cry more than I already was. Everything around me was pure hurt, it was a constant blur of suffering where I wished for death. Cue the part where Desiree responds that she’s going to make that a reality again... yeah, go act all dark and sinister somewhere else for a minute.
This isn’t about you or your quest for fame, and don’t try and act all high horsey on me because we both know what this is about. Just keep saying everything Cleopatra said before you, just keep mimicing her every step and I’ll drop you head first in the parking lot just like I did to her, okay sweety? This is about me, my real life, my personal being, and I don’t care what kind of snide remarks you can come up with about it, about me, or about anything, because none of it matters to me... you don’t matter to me.
No matter how you try and rationalize it, no matter how you try and say you’re not jealous... everybody knows the truth, this crusade against me would be pointless if you didn’t have animosity towards me, if you didn’t have a reason to fight.... but you do, it’s called jealousy, just like with everybody else who’s come to face me. Lets face reality shall we? You’re a lemming, a goomba, a kremling... you’re just blindly walking forward, no real goal, no real point except to stand in my way, hoping that I don’t jump.... until you walk off the edge into a bottomless pit. Just keep doing what you’re told and believing that I’m some kind of evil twit and I’ll jump over you and move on to the next one... just like I always do.
Now back to what I was saying... I cried after the first time I slept with Kyle, well because it hurt for one thing and for another because it was me giving up something I held onto for so long, it was like I was moving past a part of my life, going forward and it was scary. I thought I loved him, he was sweet and caring and he treated me like a prize, but I still cried in the end. It never felt right, no... it wasn’t right... he was too old, I was just looking for anybody.... and because of that dumb mistake, I gave up something I can never have back, and that realization hurt so bad... I cried.
[We open up inside the office of one Leon Wesker who has Rob Diamond on a table, looking him over after his brutal beating on Collision. Zelda stands in the door way, her eyes starting to fill with tears. A bloodied and beaten Rob Diamond lays on the table being looked over by the medical staff, he’s refused to be taken to a nearby hospital “like some pussy” as he put it. From the hallway we now see Adam Knite walking up to the room, where he stands next to his sister who doesn’t seem to notice him until he puts his hand on her shoulder.]
Adam: He ok?
Zelda: They say he should be, just really sore and bruised up. Stupid... stupid idiot trying to take all of them on at once...
Adam: I’m just glad that you’re ok, if you nee anything just let me know ok?
[Rob turns over and looks at the door way, he and Adam catch each other in their sights. Adam looks at Rob with gratitude clearly in his expression, then gives him the manly head nod of approval. Rob has a faint smile and nodes back before Adam squeezes his sister’s shoulder and turns around, heading away.]
Zelda: You should be proud of yourself, that’s the biggest compliment he’s ever given to anybody.
Rob:Nice, I’d like to see Obama beat an approval rating like that.
[He smiles through the pain as Zelda inches closer to him, she tries to smile but suddenly her face turns bright red as she stop and screams out in an unforeseen outburst.]
“Why would you do that you big jerk!? They could of killed you!”
[Zelda with tears streaming down her face now stands at his side, and holds his hand with both of hers wrapped tightly around it in a death squeeze. Rob grimaces as he sits up and looks at his girlfriend, wondering what that was all about.]
Rob: I wasn’t going to let them hurt you....
Zelda: It was stupid and idiotic and dumb and idiotic and....
Rob: Stupid?
Zelda: SHUT UP! Let me finish.... You shouldn’t of done that! Look at you, look what they did... I’m not worth that... it was the dumbest... sweetest thing anybody has ever done for me.
[Rob smiles, he takes his free hand, aka: the one Zelda currently isn’t crushing, and puts it on her cheek, staring into her tear filled blue eyes. There no penis jokes, no brash comments, no hate speech, he sincerely speaks as he just glares at her crying because of his actions.]
Rob: I wasn’t going to let them hurt you, they could of killed me for all I cared, as long as you were ok, it didn’t matter. It’s worth all the pain in the world... just to see you were safe.
Zelda: You know... you’re putting a huge dent in that whole “asshole” label you’ve been working on for so long.
Rob: I don’t care, I never will.
[Zelda wipes away those tears as Rob slides off the table, he’s standing right in front of her now with his hands on her hips. She looks at him and sees him smiling, she turns away trying not to let her emotions get the best of her right now. He puts his hand on her chin and pulls her head back, and the two begin to kiss passionately in the moment, while Leon makes an awkward exit. After several seconds of them kissing and rubbing each other’s backs, they pull away. Zelda bites down on her bottom lip, staring at the floor shyly, rob lifts and eyebrow, knowing something is up.]
Zelda: Do you wanna...?
Rob: Want to what?
[She takes a deep breath, still not looking up at him, she kind of half rolls her eyes as she sheepishly and quietly says it.]
Zelda: You know... go to your hotel room...
[She didn’t have to ask twice.]
I cried with Andrew.... I felt terrible for doing what I was doing just because I felt pressured by Kyle, because I felt like I had to show him that I was my own person. I love Andrew and he’s my best friend so I’m glad it was him and not some random douchebag who doesn’t care about me. Yet I just couldn’t help but hurt and cry because I knew what people would say about me when they found out, when they heard about what I did... How I betrayed Kyle’s trust. Slut... whore... tramp, whatever else they wanted to throw out there about a girl who would sleep around...
So I lied, denied, and tried to hide from what I did. I cried myself to sleep thinking about it so many times, then Kelly had to go and let the cat out of the bag just as I thought things were looking up and we could push past this. Kyle wants to blame it on Charlie and Venom, wants to blame them for changing me... but they didn’t change me, they didn’t force me to do anything that I didn’t want to do deep down. I’ve always been the same person, they just encouraged me to be myself, they didn’t judge anything I did like so many other people did... I didn’t have to try and be somebody else around them, all I had to do was be me and have fun, and what’s wrong with a 19 year old girl trying to live her life to the fullest?
I loved Kyle, I love Andrew as my best friend but I just couldn’t help but feel the situations surrounding both were wrong, that I did what I did for all the wrong reasons. I was looking to grow up with Kyle, I was trying to prove that I was an adult, that I could be taken seriously outside my video game girl persona... he was there, he was hurt from Serenity and I... I .. just needed somebody, anybody who seemed to care about me at all. Andrew... I wanted to rebel, Kyle pushed me and I folded, I gave in and I wanted to see him hurt, hurt him for telling me to leave the guns.
With Rob though.... everything seems different... no, With Rob; Everything IS different....[/i]
[We come back and the door to Rob’s hotel room swings wildly open as the two, lips locked stagger into the bedroom, trying to walk and make out at the same time. Finally Rob realizes this isn’t work too well, he grabs Zelda and lifts her to her feet. He walks her to the bed and lays her down. Like a flash of lightning Rob is stripped down to his boxers and Zelda giggles softly.]
Zelda: I see you’ve been looking forward to this...
Rob: Oh, I’ve been wanting this like you wouldn’t believe.
[Zelda bites down on her bottom lip again as she pulls the blanket over her. Rob slides into the bed with her and under the blankets as well, the two begin kissing and various articles of Zelda’s clothing begin getting thrown to the floor. It seems all is in order now as the two kids look at each other, longing for the other, Zelda takes a deep breath and lets out a soft sigh. ]
Zelda: I’m sorry I made you wait so long...
Rob: It’s worth it... you’re worth it.
[Nothing in the world could take Zelda’s grin off her face, we fade to black on the sight of Zelda’s big blue eyes closing as she tilts her head back and the two kiss again before we got totally black, left to assume what obviously happens next.]
...with Rob.... I smiled....
Yeah I know right.. understatement of the year that Zelda Knite is an emotional person, not telling you anything you don’t already know? Exactly. Either way... shut up, I’m telling my story.... so I’ve cried a lot. Sometimes it seems that my entire life has been me trying to mask pain just so I wouldn’t cry more than I already was. Everything around me was pure hurt, it was a constant blur of suffering where I wished for death. Cue the part where Desiree responds that she’s going to make that a reality again... yeah, go act all dark and sinister somewhere else for a minute.
This isn’t about you or your quest for fame, and don’t try and act all high horsey on me because we both know what this is about. Just keep saying everything Cleopatra said before you, just keep mimicing her every step and I’ll drop you head first in the parking lot just like I did to her, okay sweety? This is about me, my real life, my personal being, and I don’t care what kind of snide remarks you can come up with about it, about me, or about anything, because none of it matters to me... you don’t matter to me.
No matter how you try and rationalize it, no matter how you try and say you’re not jealous... everybody knows the truth, this crusade against me would be pointless if you didn’t have animosity towards me, if you didn’t have a reason to fight.... but you do, it’s called jealousy, just like with everybody else who’s come to face me. Lets face reality shall we? You’re a lemming, a goomba, a kremling... you’re just blindly walking forward, no real goal, no real point except to stand in my way, hoping that I don’t jump.... until you walk off the edge into a bottomless pit. Just keep doing what you’re told and believing that I’m some kind of evil twit and I’ll jump over you and move on to the next one... just like I always do.
Now back to what I was saying... I cried after the first time I slept with Kyle, well because it hurt for one thing and for another because it was me giving up something I held onto for so long, it was like I was moving past a part of my life, going forward and it was scary. I thought I loved him, he was sweet and caring and he treated me like a prize, but I still cried in the end. It never felt right, no... it wasn’t right... he was too old, I was just looking for anybody.... and because of that dumb mistake, I gave up something I can never have back, and that realization hurt so bad... I cried.
[We open up inside the office of one Leon Wesker who has Rob Diamond on a table, looking him over after his brutal beating on Collision. Zelda stands in the door way, her eyes starting to fill with tears. A bloodied and beaten Rob Diamond lays on the table being looked over by the medical staff, he’s refused to be taken to a nearby hospital “like some pussy” as he put it. From the hallway we now see Adam Knite walking up to the room, where he stands next to his sister who doesn’t seem to notice him until he puts his hand on her shoulder.]
Adam: He ok?
Zelda: They say he should be, just really sore and bruised up. Stupid... stupid idiot trying to take all of them on at once...
Adam: I’m just glad that you’re ok, if you nee anything just let me know ok?
[Rob turns over and looks at the door way, he and Adam catch each other in their sights. Adam looks at Rob with gratitude clearly in his expression, then gives him the manly head nod of approval. Rob has a faint smile and nodes back before Adam squeezes his sister’s shoulder and turns around, heading away.]
Zelda: You should be proud of yourself, that’s the biggest compliment he’s ever given to anybody.
Rob:Nice, I’d like to see Obama beat an approval rating like that.
[He smiles through the pain as Zelda inches closer to him, she tries to smile but suddenly her face turns bright red as she stop and screams out in an unforeseen outburst.]
“Why would you do that you big jerk!? They could of killed you!”
[Zelda with tears streaming down her face now stands at his side, and holds his hand with both of hers wrapped tightly around it in a death squeeze. Rob grimaces as he sits up and looks at his girlfriend, wondering what that was all about.]
Rob: I wasn’t going to let them hurt you....
Zelda: It was stupid and idiotic and dumb and idiotic and....
Rob: Stupid?
Zelda: SHUT UP! Let me finish.... You shouldn’t of done that! Look at you, look what they did... I’m not worth that... it was the dumbest... sweetest thing anybody has ever done for me.
[Rob smiles, he takes his free hand, aka: the one Zelda currently isn’t crushing, and puts it on her cheek, staring into her tear filled blue eyes. There no penis jokes, no brash comments, no hate speech, he sincerely speaks as he just glares at her crying because of his actions.]
Rob: I wasn’t going to let them hurt you, they could of killed me for all I cared, as long as you were ok, it didn’t matter. It’s worth all the pain in the world... just to see you were safe.
Zelda: You know... you’re putting a huge dent in that whole “asshole” label you’ve been working on for so long.
Rob: I don’t care, I never will.
[Zelda wipes away those tears as Rob slides off the table, he’s standing right in front of her now with his hands on her hips. She looks at him and sees him smiling, she turns away trying not to let her emotions get the best of her right now. He puts his hand on her chin and pulls her head back, and the two begin to kiss passionately in the moment, while Leon makes an awkward exit. After several seconds of them kissing and rubbing each other’s backs, they pull away. Zelda bites down on her bottom lip, staring at the floor shyly, rob lifts and eyebrow, knowing something is up.]
Zelda: Do you wanna...?
Rob: Want to what?
[She takes a deep breath, still not looking up at him, she kind of half rolls her eyes as she sheepishly and quietly says it.]
Zelda: You know... go to your hotel room...
[She didn’t have to ask twice.]
I cried with Andrew.... I felt terrible for doing what I was doing just because I felt pressured by Kyle, because I felt like I had to show him that I was my own person. I love Andrew and he’s my best friend so I’m glad it was him and not some random douchebag who doesn’t care about me. Yet I just couldn’t help but hurt and cry because I knew what people would say about me when they found out, when they heard about what I did... How I betrayed Kyle’s trust. Slut... whore... tramp, whatever else they wanted to throw out there about a girl who would sleep around...
So I lied, denied, and tried to hide from what I did. I cried myself to sleep thinking about it so many times, then Kelly had to go and let the cat out of the bag just as I thought things were looking up and we could push past this. Kyle wants to blame it on Charlie and Venom, wants to blame them for changing me... but they didn’t change me, they didn’t force me to do anything that I didn’t want to do deep down. I’ve always been the same person, they just encouraged me to be myself, they didn’t judge anything I did like so many other people did... I didn’t have to try and be somebody else around them, all I had to do was be me and have fun, and what’s wrong with a 19 year old girl trying to live her life to the fullest?
I loved Kyle, I love Andrew as my best friend but I just couldn’t help but feel the situations surrounding both were wrong, that I did what I did for all the wrong reasons. I was looking to grow up with Kyle, I was trying to prove that I was an adult, that I could be taken seriously outside my video game girl persona... he was there, he was hurt from Serenity and I... I .. just needed somebody, anybody who seemed to care about me at all. Andrew... I wanted to rebel, Kyle pushed me and I folded, I gave in and I wanted to see him hurt, hurt him for telling me to leave the guns.
With Rob though.... everything seems different... no, With Rob; Everything IS different....[/i]
[We come back and the door to Rob’s hotel room swings wildly open as the two, lips locked stagger into the bedroom, trying to walk and make out at the same time. Finally Rob realizes this isn’t work too well, he grabs Zelda and lifts her to her feet. He walks her to the bed and lays her down. Like a flash of lightning Rob is stripped down to his boxers and Zelda giggles softly.]
Zelda: I see you’ve been looking forward to this...
Rob: Oh, I’ve been wanting this like you wouldn’t believe.
[Zelda bites down on her bottom lip again as she pulls the blanket over her. Rob slides into the bed with her and under the blankets as well, the two begin kissing and various articles of Zelda’s clothing begin getting thrown to the floor. It seems all is in order now as the two kids look at each other, longing for the other, Zelda takes a deep breath and lets out a soft sigh. ]
Zelda: I’m sorry I made you wait so long...
Rob: It’s worth it... you’re worth it.
[Nothing in the world could take Zelda’s grin off her face, we fade to black on the sight of Zelda’s big blue eyes closing as she tilts her head back and the two kiss again before we got totally black, left to assume what obviously happens next.]
...with Rob.... I smiled....