Post by Steven Luke on Mar 10, 2011 11:45:04 GMT -6
My whole world is spinning around me. There is so much going on outside of my upcoming match that I don't know what to do. I have my father who I have to put in an assisted living hospital, but I just can't bring myself to do it. I have some guy who is obsessed with trying to throw me off my game sending me letters and DVDs whenever his heart desires. I also have my best friend and Brother-in-law fighting with what appears to be his life over his company and livelihood. A direct result of that is my wife chewing me out and cursing my name because I told him to forget her and to focus...and a few other things I shouldn't have said about my wives sister.
I've got all this going on and it's driving me out of my mind just thinking about it. Should I create a split personality to take my mind off of the things that are bothering me? It's working so well for others. Just look at two out of the three contenders for the top two male Championships and it has gotten another a World Championship and the Tag Team Championship in the last few months. Two of them have alter egos or split personalities that they use to blame the things they wouldn't normally do on. It's what led Falcon to hit his loving girlfriend twice and it then led him to win the Riot and get a second shot at the World Championship. Maybe if I blame my ass hole ways on a split personality I'll get a shot at the World Champion. Look at Jack Manson. He's now 'unleashing' the Maniac inside of him and he's claiming that it will bring out his ultra-violent ways. He doesn't even really know this maniac inside of him truly exists though. What if I claimed I didn't know I had an ass hole inside of me that sometimes cared more about my career then the feelings of my loved ones? Do you think my wife would buy it and stop bitching at me about trying to get Charlie Velez focused on his match coming up?
It would be so easy. I could just create some alter ego inside of my head. Maybe he could call himself Anti-venom just so everyone knows it's not really me. He could rant and rave about how he hates that Charlie's wife may or may not be being a big bitch and trying to ruin his career and my wife wouldn't be able to say anything because it wasn't me saying it, it was Anti-Venom. I could curse out fans left and right and maybe even punch a ref, but I wouldn't get fined and the fans would still love me because it wasn't me doing all that, it was Anti-Venom. I could even go out and get the stupidest tattoo you can imagine, and I would just go on TV and explain that it wasn't me, it was Anti-Venom and he is ruining my life. It would take away a lot of the headaches of being me. It would make my life so much easier.
There's only one problem though. I've never been one to take the easy road.
So here I am, Venom, the ass hole that everyone loves to hate. Here I am, the man that will tell his best friend his wife is an idiot no matter how hard he may get hit from saying it. Here I am, the man that isn't afraid of the backlash from his wife when he insults her family. Here I am, the man that will tell the truth to the idiot fans and get booed for it. So here I am, the true ass hole that I am, and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Jack, it may seem like I am poking fun of you and your maniac, because I am. I am making fun of you and your maniac that is inside of you because I think it's bull ****. If that's what you need to get you over, then you are a sad man. If you feel that the only way that you can beat me is to unleash some hidden personality that you've buried deep inside your head, then you are a bigger loser then I thought you were.
To me, showing up each week and losing as yourself makes you a far better person in the long run. To me, being yourself and fighting for what you believe in each and every week doesn't make you Joe Everyman plus Davey Ortega. No, showing up each and every week as someone else entirely and using it as a way to try and turn your luck around makes you something even worse, a failure.
You failed at being yourself Jack. You failed at accomplishing your dreams as yourself, so now you have to be someone else. Is that how you want to be seen for the rest of your life? As someone who needed to be two people in order to achieve his dreams? Do you want people to look at you and whisper that he had to lose his mind to reach the top? Is this shiny piece of metal that I hold in my hands worth that much to you that you would lose yourself to gain it?
People say a lot of things about me. People call me a sell out. They even call me a cheat. They say I've done things that most people would never do. I don't mind what they say though because when I first came up in this company, hell, when I first came up in this industry I told the world that I would do whatever it took to be considered one of the best. I have no qualms with being labeled as a cheater or a sell out because that's what I do. I make connections with people who will get me places because I have no problems doing whatever it takes to prove that I am the best this industry has to offer.
You though, you obviously don't want anyone elses help to get there. You want to deny that you've gotten help from Angel to get this rematch. You want to deny that you've been handed a shot that you didn't earn. Why? Because you want to be able to say you did this on your own. You want to say that you beat me and won that shiny piece of gold from me all by yourself. Truly though, you'll never be able to say that. You'll never be able to say that because even if you manage to wrangle my belt away from me you will always be remembered as the guy who needed a second personality to win. No one will ever say that Jack Manson was able to over come his white whale and beat Venom. No, they'll all say that Jack Manson and his maniac inside were able to blind side the National Champion and take his championship.
It doesn't bother me what you're doing Jack, but I think that deep down, it bothers you that you have to do this. It doesn't bother me because I know that I can beat you no matter how ultra-violent you may become. I know that no matter how crazy you may be, I've already faced and beaten someone twice as crazy and as ultra-violent as you could possibly be. I'm no scared and I'm not worried because quite frankly Jack, I am and always will be better then you.
I've got all this going on and it's driving me out of my mind just thinking about it. Should I create a split personality to take my mind off of the things that are bothering me? It's working so well for others. Just look at two out of the three contenders for the top two male Championships and it has gotten another a World Championship and the Tag Team Championship in the last few months. Two of them have alter egos or split personalities that they use to blame the things they wouldn't normally do on. It's what led Falcon to hit his loving girlfriend twice and it then led him to win the Riot and get a second shot at the World Championship. Maybe if I blame my ass hole ways on a split personality I'll get a shot at the World Champion. Look at Jack Manson. He's now 'unleashing' the Maniac inside of him and he's claiming that it will bring out his ultra-violent ways. He doesn't even really know this maniac inside of him truly exists though. What if I claimed I didn't know I had an ass hole inside of me that sometimes cared more about my career then the feelings of my loved ones? Do you think my wife would buy it and stop bitching at me about trying to get Charlie Velez focused on his match coming up?
It would be so easy. I could just create some alter ego inside of my head. Maybe he could call himself Anti-venom just so everyone knows it's not really me. He could rant and rave about how he hates that Charlie's wife may or may not be being a big bitch and trying to ruin his career and my wife wouldn't be able to say anything because it wasn't me saying it, it was Anti-Venom. I could curse out fans left and right and maybe even punch a ref, but I wouldn't get fined and the fans would still love me because it wasn't me doing all that, it was Anti-Venom. I could even go out and get the stupidest tattoo you can imagine, and I would just go on TV and explain that it wasn't me, it was Anti-Venom and he is ruining my life. It would take away a lot of the headaches of being me. It would make my life so much easier.
There's only one problem though. I've never been one to take the easy road.
So here I am, Venom, the ass hole that everyone loves to hate. Here I am, the man that will tell his best friend his wife is an idiot no matter how hard he may get hit from saying it. Here I am, the man that isn't afraid of the backlash from his wife when he insults her family. Here I am, the man that will tell the truth to the idiot fans and get booed for it. So here I am, the true ass hole that I am, and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Jack, it may seem like I am poking fun of you and your maniac, because I am. I am making fun of you and your maniac that is inside of you because I think it's bull ****. If that's what you need to get you over, then you are a sad man. If you feel that the only way that you can beat me is to unleash some hidden personality that you've buried deep inside your head, then you are a bigger loser then I thought you were.
To me, showing up each week and losing as yourself makes you a far better person in the long run. To me, being yourself and fighting for what you believe in each and every week doesn't make you Joe Everyman plus Davey Ortega. No, showing up each and every week as someone else entirely and using it as a way to try and turn your luck around makes you something even worse, a failure.
You failed at being yourself Jack. You failed at accomplishing your dreams as yourself, so now you have to be someone else. Is that how you want to be seen for the rest of your life? As someone who needed to be two people in order to achieve his dreams? Do you want people to look at you and whisper that he had to lose his mind to reach the top? Is this shiny piece of metal that I hold in my hands worth that much to you that you would lose yourself to gain it?
People say a lot of things about me. People call me a sell out. They even call me a cheat. They say I've done things that most people would never do. I don't mind what they say though because when I first came up in this company, hell, when I first came up in this industry I told the world that I would do whatever it took to be considered one of the best. I have no qualms with being labeled as a cheater or a sell out because that's what I do. I make connections with people who will get me places because I have no problems doing whatever it takes to prove that I am the best this industry has to offer.
You though, you obviously don't want anyone elses help to get there. You want to deny that you've gotten help from Angel to get this rematch. You want to deny that you've been handed a shot that you didn't earn. Why? Because you want to be able to say you did this on your own. You want to say that you beat me and won that shiny piece of gold from me all by yourself. Truly though, you'll never be able to say that. You'll never be able to say that because even if you manage to wrangle my belt away from me you will always be remembered as the guy who needed a second personality to win. No one will ever say that Jack Manson was able to over come his white whale and beat Venom. No, they'll all say that Jack Manson and his maniac inside were able to blind side the National Champion and take his championship.
It doesn't bother me what you're doing Jack, but I think that deep down, it bothers you that you have to do this. It doesn't bother me because I know that I can beat you no matter how ultra-violent you may become. I know that no matter how crazy you may be, I've already faced and beaten someone twice as crazy and as ultra-violent as you could possibly be. I'm no scared and I'm not worried because quite frankly Jack, I am and always will be better then you.