Post by Crystal Williams on Aug 23, 2011 0:21:27 GMT -6
I honestly don’t know what I am going to do with myself right now. That lost to Kathleen Conway and Mercedes Vargas was brutal, was devastating, it left me in shock. I know it’s apparent that I am at rock bottom, and with every week that goes by I seem to reach an all new low. A month ago I was busting my ass for the crowd showing the world that perfection never fails. I would enter into the ring with the likes of Mercedes Vargas, Trish Newborn, and even Shelly Taylor Jones, I didn’t back down from them but I gave them my best and at the end of the day I prevailed because I was full of determination.
Yet between ago and now something truly has changed and I can’t manage to win a match if my life depended on it. There was the Riot match, the match where I let my guard down which allowed a hungry Shelly Taylor Jones to throw me out like a common piece of trash. Then there was the tag team match with me and Steve taking on the Jones, and of course I blew it when I got rolled up for a pin fall. That brings us to the present Shelly and I taking on the tag team champions. Shelly came with her A game, she came ready for a fight, ready to knock that **** out of the park but I on the other hand wasn’t quite all there.
My mind was elsewhere and Katgas took advantage of that. So go ahead Shelly go ahead and pick me apart. Tell me how I ****ed that up for you. Tell me you lost an ounce of respect of me because I was the one who got pinned.
Why don’t you go ahead and tell me something that I don’t know?
After these three consecutive weeks of having bad luck and being on the losing side of things that’s when I finally came to the realization that I am not so quite perfect as I claim to be.
I am flawed…
I want to bounce back and give you the match that you been longing for Shelly, a rematch with the woman who felt like she was on top of the world, the one who walked out as if her **** didn’t stink. I know that’s what you want Shelly but I might as well apologize right now because I don’t know if I have it in me to bring that woman out…
So I just want to say sorry now because you might be in for a major let down…Just like you were in our tag team match last Collision…
Sorry Shellz…
Yet between ago and now something truly has changed and I can’t manage to win a match if my life depended on it. There was the Riot match, the match where I let my guard down which allowed a hungry Shelly Taylor Jones to throw me out like a common piece of trash. Then there was the tag team match with me and Steve taking on the Jones, and of course I blew it when I got rolled up for a pin fall. That brings us to the present Shelly and I taking on the tag team champions. Shelly came with her A game, she came ready for a fight, ready to knock that **** out of the park but I on the other hand wasn’t quite all there.
My mind was elsewhere and Katgas took advantage of that. So go ahead Shelly go ahead and pick me apart. Tell me how I ****ed that up for you. Tell me you lost an ounce of respect of me because I was the one who got pinned.
Why don’t you go ahead and tell me something that I don’t know?
After these three consecutive weeks of having bad luck and being on the losing side of things that’s when I finally came to the realization that I am not so quite perfect as I claim to be.
I am flawed…
I want to bounce back and give you the match that you been longing for Shelly, a rematch with the woman who felt like she was on top of the world, the one who walked out as if her **** didn’t stink. I know that’s what you want Shelly but I might as well apologize right now because I don’t know if I have it in me to bring that woman out…
So I just want to say sorry now because you might be in for a major let down…Just like you were in our tag team match last Collision…
Sorry Shellz…
Long Island, New York
Few hours after Collision some random bar.
It is a few hours after Collision and we open up from a local bar in Long Island New York. We open up to a shot of Crystal Hilton sitting down at a bar. She is incognito as she hopes that she will be left alone by random fans and her ongoing flood of paparazzi. The bar is empty except for her the bartender and of course the NCW cameras that are rolling footage of her. It has to be at least 1 in the morning and she has even called or gone back to Steve yet. Crystal sits there and she can’t help but cry as she lets a few tears stroll down her face. The bartender sighs as he walks over to her. He can’t help but speak to her.
Bartender: “Long time no see Miss Hilton…I know things must be hard for you with the divorce and all… Listen you don’t have to say a thing. I will get you the usual and you can consider it on the house…”
The man walks away and pours her a glass of vodka with a splash of cranberry. He brings it back to her and she offers a small smile as she nods her head at the bartender. She truly felt at home at this bar, and she remembers many nights where she would fight with Todd and run right down to this place to ease some of her troubles. She was hoping that the vodka would do the same for her now. She slowly reaches for her glass and brings it up to her lips. She goes to take a sip of it when suddenly a voice speaks out to her. One that she is familiar with.
: “You know that drinking isn’t going to solve your problems right?”
Crystal slowly puts the glass down as she stares at the man who spoke to her. The man is none other than Pedro the fan who has been stalking her for months. She just sighs as she shakes her at him as she crosses her arms staring right back at him.
Crystal: “So my crazy fan is going to start to tell me how to live my life how cute. I put up with it enough. I tried to be nice to you but I want you to know that your stalking is getting a little out of hand. Everywhere I turn you are right there. You know me like an open book and that is not normal. What the hell do you want from me? An autograph, pictures, front row tickets? Anything you want I can make it happen but just give me some space because if you keep this up I will call my boyfriend, and Steve will be here so damn quick to shove his foot far up your ass. So please leave me alone. Besides shouldn’t you be off finding your long lost daughter or something?”
Pedro quickly takes a seat next to Crystal and he stares back at her. He just has a serious expression on his face as he replies back to her.
Pedro: “My long lost daughter? 23 years ago I made the stupidest mistake of my life. I was a happily married man, sure I was young, I was only 19 but I made the mistake of sleeping with some crazy American woman who came over to San Juan for Spring Break. That woman left the country and went back to the United States. I had no idea that the woman was pregnant but I found out that I had a daughter. I searched and searched for that daughter and I finally found her. I wanted to tell the girl that she was my daughter but I never had the courage to do so. I vowed that I would tell her when the time is right…I waited long enough and I am not just going to sit here and watch my little girl go down a path of depression. I wasn’t going to stand by watching my girl destroy herself…”
Crystal looks at the man and she is just shocked. She quickly rises out of her chair, and backs up a few feet as she keeps her eyes on the man.
Crystal: “No way….You can’t be my father….You just can’t be…”
Pedro: “Why is it so hard to believe Crystal or should I call you Christina instead? I know you every single right in the world to go ahead and hate me but I just want to finally be in your life. I wasn’t there for you when you were growing up but I want to be there now. You truly are my angel and I just want you to know that…
Crystal is really at lost with words as she just glances back at her father. She runs right into his arms hugging him tightly. She looks up into his eyes as she replies back.
Crystal: “But why did you wait until now to tell me that you were my father?”
Pedro nods his head as he hugs tightly looking down at her.
Pedro: “Well it was your after match promo that did it for me. I knew I just had to reveal myself to you Crystal because as plain old Pedro the fan you might not have paid any attention to me but as your father I know that you would listen. I sat there and listened to your promo and basically you just came out in the open and admitted defeat to Shelly. You are giving up without even fighting and that’s not the daughter that I have grown to watch. My Crystal would never admit defeat like that…”
Crystal just sighs as she slowly backs away from her father. She takes a seat at the bar again. She looks at her drink eyeing it up, as she just shakes her head at her father.
Crystal: “Well what’s the point of even wishing for something that I know damn well isn’t going to happen? You saw what happened in that ring. I let Shelly down. I was beaten down to a pulp and because I got pinned resulted in a loss for Shelly. She is going to freak out on me and I honestly have nothing to say because I failed her…”
Pedro’s eyes open wide up as he just stares back at her.
Pedro: “Failed her? I don’t know what match you were wrestling in but the one I witnessed saw my daughter being a resilient individual. For anyone else that match would have been over but you kicked out a bunch of times when it should have been over. You are as tough as nails Crystal and you shouldn’t doubt yourself because you are in a slump. I know a lot is going on with you in your life. You just went through a divorce, and your best friend isn’t around anymore. Do you cry just because your best friend Zelda isn’t around anymore? No you place yourself above that. Besides why beat yourself over your wrestling performance. You finally made it to your corner and when you were there, Shelly wasn’t there. Shelly was too busy doing her own thing and left you to hang and dry. So don’t doubt yourself Crystal…”
Crystal angrily looks back at Pedro staring daggers into his eyes as she replies back.
Crystal: “Don’t doubt myself? What else am I supposed to do? It’s funny in my group of close friends I am the one without a World title run in this company. Zelda had one, Rob had one, and Steve has one now but me on the other hand doesn’t have anything. I failed Steve in two tag team matches and now I just failed Shelly. Maybe it’s just not in my destiny to beat Shelly. What would be the point anyway? Me win a match just to lose yet another World title shot? Maybe it’s time to admit defeat and let the woman dubbed as the next Zelda Knite have a go at it…”
Crystal goes to take a sip out of her drink but Pedro places a hand on his daughter’s arm as he looks into her eyes.
Pedro: “Listen Crystal if that’s how you feel then so be it but I guarantee you that simply drinking your life isn’t going to make things any better. I know you can bounce back from all of this but the question is do you really want it. If you want to actually want to win then you would put that drink down and listen to me. If not, if you would rather stay here drowning in your own self pity then so be it, but no matter what you do, I just want you know that I will still be there for you. So what do you want Crystal?
Crystal looks at the drink she holds it tightly in her hands as she just stares at the glass. She pushes it away from her as she just turns her attention back to her father.
Crystal: “I don’t want this life anymore… I don’t want to see another bar again…”
Pedro: “Good why don’t we get going, I think we could go somewhere more appropriate for a father and daughter talk. Any place is much better than this bar…And make sure you call Steve and tell him where you are. Don’t want that boy being worried about you…”
Crystal giggles and the two of them just smirk at one another, and it is on this image that we fade out on.
I am truly sorry Shellz because I know I haven’t been myself as of late but despite all of the **** I have been going through that is not going to stop me from beating you at Nothing to Lose. A month ago you faced off against a woman who was eager to beat your ass for all the things that you were saying about my best friend. Finally after months and months of being delusional I have finally woke up and smelled the coffee. In the past I would have thrown the line at you that I am ****ing the World Champion or I would have thrown the fact that I am the best friend of the greatest woman to ever step foot in a NCW ring like it was suppose to scare you or do something for me in the long run.
But I finally realized that it isn’t about them Shellz, the truth is they won’t help me win this match but it’s my own hard work and determination that will give me the edge to beat you in the long run. For far too long I have dwelled in someone else’s shadow and tried to claim their glory as my own. After all this time I will finally step out the legacy that is Zelda Knite and I will write a destiny that is my own.
For the longest time I get the feeling that everyone wanted to see me go this route but I still was too blinded and naïve to let go that my best friend isn’t around anymore. I know the thing going through your mind is why would the world want to see me beat you just to wrestle in yet another title match? I already have had two title matches and thus I blew my chances already.
That in itself may be true but those two chances were used trying to fight for something else. In my match against Trish Newborn at Metamorphosis it was about being that hero that Detroit longed for, and yet I failed my home town. In the match at Picture Perfect it was about trying to win my best friend back which I did but it came at the cost of costing my boyfriend the World Championship.
I wasted those two opportunities doing it for something else but in this match on Sunday I will finally do it for the one person who I should be wrestling for and that is myself.
Before you Shelly stands a woman who doesn’t have her best friend to lean on anymore…
Before you Shelly stands a woman who just went through a wicked divorce with her childhood sweetheart…
Before you Shelly stands a woman who truly has NOTHING TO LOSE. A woman who has already lost everything that is important to her, and it’s the sole fact that I have nothing to lose which makes me dangerous. I defeated you once before Shelly and I am sure I can do it again. All I need to do is believe in myself and I can do anything...
My question is are you ready to step in the ring with a woman such as myself? Because if not you might as well stay home because this Rose refuses to just wither away…
Let’s do this **** right Shellz…
But I finally realized that it isn’t about them Shellz, the truth is they won’t help me win this match but it’s my own hard work and determination that will give me the edge to beat you in the long run. For far too long I have dwelled in someone else’s shadow and tried to claim their glory as my own. After all this time I will finally step out the legacy that is Zelda Knite and I will write a destiny that is my own.
For the longest time I get the feeling that everyone wanted to see me go this route but I still was too blinded and naïve to let go that my best friend isn’t around anymore. I know the thing going through your mind is why would the world want to see me beat you just to wrestle in yet another title match? I already have had two title matches and thus I blew my chances already.
That in itself may be true but those two chances were used trying to fight for something else. In my match against Trish Newborn at Metamorphosis it was about being that hero that Detroit longed for, and yet I failed my home town. In the match at Picture Perfect it was about trying to win my best friend back which I did but it came at the cost of costing my boyfriend the World Championship.
I wasted those two opportunities doing it for something else but in this match on Sunday I will finally do it for the one person who I should be wrestling for and that is myself.
Before you Shelly stands a woman who doesn’t have her best friend to lean on anymore…
Before you Shelly stands a woman who just went through a wicked divorce with her childhood sweetheart…
Before you Shelly stands a woman who truly has NOTHING TO LOSE. A woman who has already lost everything that is important to her, and it’s the sole fact that I have nothing to lose which makes me dangerous. I defeated you once before Shelly and I am sure I can do it again. All I need to do is believe in myself and I can do anything...
My question is are you ready to step in the ring with a woman such as myself? Because if not you might as well stay home because this Rose refuses to just wither away…
Let’s do this **** right Shellz…