Post by Nathan Webb on Aug 28, 2011 0:15:21 GMT -6
OOC: I am sorry this is coming later than it should but with storms cutting out the power and deleting parts of my RP I am just now coming to a conclusion with this.
Losing always played havoc upon my mind…Losing more than one in a row made it worse. My mind was riddled with thoughts.
What did I do wrong that night?
What have I been doing wrong?
Is it just me?
Is it something of which I can’t control?
Am I just not that good?
What could’ve I done then?
What can I do today?
What should I do in the future?
All in all these doubts, these questions, all amounted to a bunch of what ifs, would’ves, could’ves, and should’ves. Essentially they were all useless to linger on. The past is the past and while it was something I could use to learn from as so not to make the same mistakes, it was still the past and couldn’t be changed no matter how much I thought. Likewise the distant future is simply distant. The only thing I could directly control is the here and now which is in New York City, at Nothing to Lose, in a match against Lucas Young on Sunday night.
Sure I wanted to get my hands on Roberto Verona but as much as I talked and probably unnerved him to some extent, there was nothing set in stone between us…yet. But my chances of that would significantly diminish if I lost on Sunday against Mister Young.
This of course begged the question of what I needed to do today to be successful today which would hopefully translate to me being successful in the future.
What did I need to do?
What did I need to change?
Did I need to change or just grow?
I knew I was on the cusp of being among the best within the company…on the verge of breaking thru that glass ceiling. Everyone who had an inking of knowledge was saying it was only a matter of time. I just needed to make that final push forward…and with every loss that push had to be started all over again.
In the end I had no need to reinvent the wheel I just needed to add some rims to mine.
Regardless of the thoughts going thru my head the real world was reckoning in the form of a scheduled interview with Carly Robbins. As I stepped out of my hotel room with a bottle of Mountain Dew in tow, I popped a piece of bubblegum in my mouth. Thanks to the harsh smoking laws in New York City my habit was significantly diminished. Thank You Mayor Bloomberg.
As I stepped out of my hotel room and stepped into the elevator to go down to the lobby I was greeted by a familiar face who was going down as well, in the form of Amy Marshall. Stepping in as the elevator doors closed I looked around awkwardly as Amy just stared straight ahead pretending like I wasn’t there. Of course me being me I couldn’t resist and started the conversation.
Nathan: So…
Amy: Not a chance… (she said slamming me down)
Nathan: Come on you didn’t even let me get a statement off.
Amy: ‘Cause you are a guy…you only think about two things…sex and women and how to have sex with them.
Nathan: You forgot about one thing…beer.
Amy: And you would be asking about beer.
Nathan: Maybe…
Amy: My point exactly…so the opening statement still applies….No
The elevator doors opened allowing both of us to step out.
Nathan: So can I ask a hypothetical question?
Amy: (Turning toward me acting reluctant) Since it is only hypothetical, I guess you can.
Nathan: So hypothetically speaking …if you were ever available would you consider ever getting with me.
Amy: (snickering) Well…you are nice Nate…and I know you got stamina in the ring but I need a man who can give me more than two pumps in the bedroom.
Nathan: Ouch…harsh…but how would you know that seeing that we never really talk outside the confines of work.
Amy then leaned in close gently patting the side of my face
Amy: Well seeing that for all that the videos and promos you made there hasn’t been one woman at all in them lets me know you have absolutely no sex life…whatsoever. So if you’ll excuse me I have **** to be doing…all the while thinking about the awesome sex I have with Ander.
With that Amy walked away toward the lobby doors leaving me with harshest of verbal swats to the balls. For some reason though the only thing could come out of my mouth was.
Nate: (shouting) If you only knew Amy. If you only knew.
Hearing that Amy turned her head around and slightly smirked as she walked out the lobby doors obviously hearing how pathetic a comeback that was. As she left Carly walked looking at Amy before looking to me wondering what happened.
I walked toward Carly and motioned to come walk with me and without saying a word she walked at my side.
Carly: Any reason why we are walking?
Nathan: I am getting cabin fever doing all the stuff in the hotel. I figure the fresh air and a walk in central will allow the answers to flow easier from my mouth.
Carly nodded as we walked out the hotel doors and toward Central Park. I looked around in amazement at all that comprised New York City since this was really my first time here. While I could understand why it was so popular, being that it had everything in a relatively small area it was definitely not the place I wanted to call home anytime soon. I was perfectly content with what the suburbs offered me.
After about a fifteen minute walk we arrived at our destination and started walking down a path, at which time Carly pulled out her trusty recorder and proceeded to start with the interview.
Carly: So Nathan, how do you feel going into your next match? You seemed quite confident after your last Cold Cut.
Nathan: Well this is an industry that runs on confidence. Any wrestler especially with the quality of talent within New Championship Wrestling should feel like they could win any match, against any opponent any given week. The same goes for me. I like last week and the week before knew that I had the capacity for winning even though I may have not gotten the desired result. This week even despite the losses am ready to fight and confident in my abilities to win.
Carly: But you are not guaranteeing victory?
Nathan: Nothing is guaranteed in life. Yes the odds are in my favor but in the end you go in there arrogant and cocky instead of confident than you become complacent and nine times out of ten that means you lose instead of win.
Carly: So what do you make of Lucas Young’s statements in his promos? Do you think he is getting ahead of himself?
Nathan: Yes I do. He may scoff at what I said in regard to being his toughest opponent to date but I still stand by that statement. To date I am his toughest opponent. I will show him that I am nothing to wag his finger at. Like I was at the point when I fought Falcon, I had not proved anything and frankly neither had he. He may have a lot of the tools but in the end he has to let his actions to a majority of the talking. He may talk in cute analogies in terms of fairy tales and poker terminology but I’ll just say those have been beaten like the dead horse. Those do not impress me and will not impress the NCW public. Again those are words and words are not equivalent to the blows dealt in the ring. If anything our match will showcase that.
Carly: With that said though do you think he still will be a tough opponent?
Nathan: Absolutely. Again I am not taking anything away from the guy, I am just not saying his words are carrying any weight with me. I know what he is capable in that ring and will give him the respect for it but I know that I will be a wake-up call for what he will expect in the future being in this company.
Carly: So if you don’t mind me asking why do you want to face Roberto Verona again? You have faced many opponents in your first four three months here, but you seem fixated on Roberto and a lot of people want to know why?
Nathan: Roberto to me is to me different than all of my other opponents. First I want the rematch since I felt like our business is unfinished. I am sorry but a move coming off a cheap shot by him didn’t feel to me like he proved anything but again that is just me. Second although I know he is the biggest of hypocrites residing within the company it felt awesome to force him to take account for the words that come out of his mouth, something I had yet to see him do. I feel that with both our verbal sparring along with another match would be something worth seeing again.
With that Carly got a phone call and had to excuse herself. While the interview was short I did feel good that I was able to vent again in a way that let me express what I needed to.
Losing always played havoc upon my mind…Losing more than one in a row made it worse. My mind was riddled with thoughts.
What did I do wrong that night?
What have I been doing wrong?
Is it just me?
Is it something of which I can’t control?
Am I just not that good?
What could’ve I done then?
What can I do today?
What should I do in the future?
All in all these doubts, these questions, all amounted to a bunch of what ifs, would’ves, could’ves, and should’ves. Essentially they were all useless to linger on. The past is the past and while it was something I could use to learn from as so not to make the same mistakes, it was still the past and couldn’t be changed no matter how much I thought. Likewise the distant future is simply distant. The only thing I could directly control is the here and now which is in New York City, at Nothing to Lose, in a match against Lucas Young on Sunday night.
Sure I wanted to get my hands on Roberto Verona but as much as I talked and probably unnerved him to some extent, there was nothing set in stone between us…yet. But my chances of that would significantly diminish if I lost on Sunday against Mister Young.
This of course begged the question of what I needed to do today to be successful today which would hopefully translate to me being successful in the future.
What did I need to do?
What did I need to change?
Did I need to change or just grow?
I knew I was on the cusp of being among the best within the company…on the verge of breaking thru that glass ceiling. Everyone who had an inking of knowledge was saying it was only a matter of time. I just needed to make that final push forward…and with every loss that push had to be started all over again.
In the end I had no need to reinvent the wheel I just needed to add some rims to mine.
Regardless of the thoughts going thru my head the real world was reckoning in the form of a scheduled interview with Carly Robbins. As I stepped out of my hotel room with a bottle of Mountain Dew in tow, I popped a piece of bubblegum in my mouth. Thanks to the harsh smoking laws in New York City my habit was significantly diminished. Thank You Mayor Bloomberg.
As I stepped out of my hotel room and stepped into the elevator to go down to the lobby I was greeted by a familiar face who was going down as well, in the form of Amy Marshall. Stepping in as the elevator doors closed I looked around awkwardly as Amy just stared straight ahead pretending like I wasn’t there. Of course me being me I couldn’t resist and started the conversation.
Nathan: So…
Amy: Not a chance… (she said slamming me down)
Nathan: Come on you didn’t even let me get a statement off.
Amy: ‘Cause you are a guy…you only think about two things…sex and women and how to have sex with them.
Nathan: You forgot about one thing…beer.
Amy: And you would be asking about beer.
Nathan: Maybe…
Amy: My point exactly…so the opening statement still applies….No
The elevator doors opened allowing both of us to step out.
Nathan: So can I ask a hypothetical question?
Amy: (Turning toward me acting reluctant) Since it is only hypothetical, I guess you can.
Nathan: So hypothetically speaking …if you were ever available would you consider ever getting with me.
Amy: (snickering) Well…you are nice Nate…and I know you got stamina in the ring but I need a man who can give me more than two pumps in the bedroom.
Nathan: Ouch…harsh…but how would you know that seeing that we never really talk outside the confines of work.
Amy then leaned in close gently patting the side of my face
Amy: Well seeing that for all that the videos and promos you made there hasn’t been one woman at all in them lets me know you have absolutely no sex life…whatsoever. So if you’ll excuse me I have **** to be doing…all the while thinking about the awesome sex I have with Ander.
With that Amy walked away toward the lobby doors leaving me with harshest of verbal swats to the balls. For some reason though the only thing could come out of my mouth was.
Nate: (shouting) If you only knew Amy. If you only knew.
Hearing that Amy turned her head around and slightly smirked as she walked out the lobby doors obviously hearing how pathetic a comeback that was. As she left Carly walked looking at Amy before looking to me wondering what happened.
I walked toward Carly and motioned to come walk with me and without saying a word she walked at my side.
Carly: Any reason why we are walking?
Nathan: I am getting cabin fever doing all the stuff in the hotel. I figure the fresh air and a walk in central will allow the answers to flow easier from my mouth.
Carly nodded as we walked out the hotel doors and toward Central Park. I looked around in amazement at all that comprised New York City since this was really my first time here. While I could understand why it was so popular, being that it had everything in a relatively small area it was definitely not the place I wanted to call home anytime soon. I was perfectly content with what the suburbs offered me.
After about a fifteen minute walk we arrived at our destination and started walking down a path, at which time Carly pulled out her trusty recorder and proceeded to start with the interview.
Carly: So Nathan, how do you feel going into your next match? You seemed quite confident after your last Cold Cut.
Nathan: Well this is an industry that runs on confidence. Any wrestler especially with the quality of talent within New Championship Wrestling should feel like they could win any match, against any opponent any given week. The same goes for me. I like last week and the week before knew that I had the capacity for winning even though I may have not gotten the desired result. This week even despite the losses am ready to fight and confident in my abilities to win.
Carly: But you are not guaranteeing victory?
Nathan: Nothing is guaranteed in life. Yes the odds are in my favor but in the end you go in there arrogant and cocky instead of confident than you become complacent and nine times out of ten that means you lose instead of win.
Carly: So what do you make of Lucas Young’s statements in his promos? Do you think he is getting ahead of himself?
Nathan: Yes I do. He may scoff at what I said in regard to being his toughest opponent to date but I still stand by that statement. To date I am his toughest opponent. I will show him that I am nothing to wag his finger at. Like I was at the point when I fought Falcon, I had not proved anything and frankly neither had he. He may have a lot of the tools but in the end he has to let his actions to a majority of the talking. He may talk in cute analogies in terms of fairy tales and poker terminology but I’ll just say those have been beaten like the dead horse. Those do not impress me and will not impress the NCW public. Again those are words and words are not equivalent to the blows dealt in the ring. If anything our match will showcase that.
Carly: With that said though do you think he still will be a tough opponent?
Nathan: Absolutely. Again I am not taking anything away from the guy, I am just not saying his words are carrying any weight with me. I know what he is capable in that ring and will give him the respect for it but I know that I will be a wake-up call for what he will expect in the future being in this company.
Carly: So if you don’t mind me asking why do you want to face Roberto Verona again? You have faced many opponents in your first four three months here, but you seem fixated on Roberto and a lot of people want to know why?
Nathan: Roberto to me is to me different than all of my other opponents. First I want the rematch since I felt like our business is unfinished. I am sorry but a move coming off a cheap shot by him didn’t feel to me like he proved anything but again that is just me. Second although I know he is the biggest of hypocrites residing within the company it felt awesome to force him to take account for the words that come out of his mouth, something I had yet to see him do. I feel that with both our verbal sparring along with another match would be something worth seeing again.
With that Carly got a phone call and had to excuse herself. While the interview was short I did feel good that I was able to vent again in a way that let me express what I needed to.