The Best Worst Weekend Ever!

[Spike Kane]

So....Friday, the weekend begins today...and so does the stress.

My brothers said he's got a lot on his mind, I know at least one of those things because it's on mine to. This weekend it's been a year since our Grandfather died. We've never had to deal with a death in the family before and it was extremely upsetting...even more so because he died in our house.

So the family are coming over and the alcohol levels have reached insanity...ok, we're an irish family. You get the point. I have one day for my back to repair itself, else I will not be drinking at all...which means I'll probably lock myself upstairs and play Assassin's Creed.

Ontop of this...today I go to the hospital, to talk to the surgeons about my major heart surgery. For those of you that don't know, I have a heart condition called "Tretalogy of Fallots" and I'm awaiting a pulmonary valve replacement. Open heart surgery...again. Some of you know I went in not too long after joining nCw for a "Stent" operation...well I was really bad then...vomiting so much blood vessels in my eyelids popped...and seeing my girlfriend sitting next to my bed so upset...it hurt me pretty bad. Yet...this is nothing compared to the operation I'm waiting for.

I'm terrified. Plain and simple...I've had five opertations so far in my life...3 of which I was too young to know whats going on...this time, I know. I know how upset my mom will be, I know how devestated my girlfriend will be....and I know the chances of not surviving.

Your world champion is sh*t scared nCw...worried, upset, confused...

The only thing that's keeping me from losing it is this..the nCw. I'm focused on writing the awards with Trent. I'm focused on making my ppv promo video, focused on Collision...Metamorphosis.......I don't know what I'd do without you guys.

So...you know whats going on with me...you know why I might snap at you, or may just be unresponsive.

I leave for the hospital in about an hour and fifteen minutes. Wish me luck nCw...lord knows I need it.

[Jack Manson]

Spike I really hope everything goes well for you and your family.

It's tough when a family member passes away. Like you I hadn't had to deal with a family member dieing until just last year. Just before I started university again last September my nana gave up her fight with cancer and passed away, then a week before christmas the same year my grandad passed away in hospital after a stroke. It was later found out he had lung cancer and the doctors had failed to spot it.

Two family deaths with hardly any time in between was really hard for me to take. It's been both their anniversary's and it's still not the same without them. I miss them both dearly. So I can understand what you're going through.

I remember you going in for that operation when you just joined here, you were in my prayers then, and you will be again today. I really hope everything goes on without any complications. Your family and friends at home will be wishing you luck and hoping everything goes well, and your family here on these boards will also be doing the same.

Good luck to you, and to Christian. Im proud to have you both as my friends.

[Jason Norton]

It's crazy how we get caught up in some of the petty things in life, and then when something like this comes up...we stop and think.

I hope everything goes well. I know what it's like being in and out of the hospital. I have a disorder called hemophilia, where your blood doesn't clot. That's why I like efeds so much. If i even thought about stepping into a wrestling ring, i'd probably get a bruise.

That's what this game is all about though. And its definetly great, because you make life long friends. I know a lot of these guys in here since back in like 99-01. And I'm sure if I showed up in their hometowns without a place to stay, I'd have a bed and food, and vica versa.

Anyway, I hope everything goes well. Good luck.

[Black Shaun]

I can relate to missing a family member. I lost my uncle like a day or two after I seen him. I can remember he even giving me some money telling me he would see me later. And that was a few years ago, and it still bothers me.

But enough of that, Spike you've been a bud of mine for maybe four or five years now. Actually we reunited seeing how you found me on Facebook. And I know these are trying times, but keep your head up. Christian you do the same. I remember you going in the first time, and you're always gonna be in my prayers. I definitely understand why you love nCw. Just reading results or working on a rp just takes my mind away all the drama and chaos.


Anyways Good Luck to you bud, and can't wait to see you around.

[msjsn3]

Good luck at the hospital today. I will keep you and Christian and your family in my prayers. I hope that everything goes well. I know how it feels having a love one going thru an operation.

[Jimmy Zane]

Spike

Hey man, I know all about heart issues. I had a heart attack earlier this year, and a scare just a few weeks ago. I also know what its like to miss a family member. I lost my father a few years ago, and 2 years ago, we lost my mother in law and grandfather in law in 4 days.

I hope that all goes well and that you come through this with flying colors. "That doesn't kill you, makes you stronger". Just keep thinking of your girlfriend and your family while you are under. You will come through.

A fighter always does!

Peace, Love, and Prayers my friend.

Wil

[Adam]

Just remember we're all family here man.

You and Christian always have a place to come rant/vent/or just to get things off your chest.

We're here for you.

[John Anthony]

Spike my friend I will keep you in my prayers!!! You are a hell of a person and I have seen that over the years in efedding. If you ever need someone to talk to jut pm and I will give you my cell number or something. I will keep you in my prayers good luck my friend.

[Spike Kane]

..thanks, everyone. Seriously.

So I found out my operation is going to be as soon as January. Wanna know the f*cked up thing? I'm already planning on how I can roleplay, lmao.

Seriously, the doctor told me it will most likely be January, and then if a slot opens up soon I'll be having that slot. The sad thing is, I want it over and done with as soon as possible, I don't want it playing on my mind and depressing me. The flipside is, I don't want to be in hospital over christmas or new years.

The operation itself will take place in the morning and take four hours! Then I'll be in intensive care, where they'll slowly wake me up through the rest of the day, and by the evening I should be sitting up. I'll probably spend the night in intensive care, and then the next in the High Dependancy ward, which is right next to intensive care, before I get shipped back to the ward fo the best part of a week.

I'll be off college for about 4 weeks, and it'll take me 6 weeks before I'm active again, however sports and the like (even playing the Wii!!!!) will have to wait 2-3 months....MONTHS!

So...that may clarify the seriousness of this operation and how much it can improve my way of life...so...let's hope I don't miss ppv week

Thanks again guys, your words mean the world to me.

[The Brothers Holland]

You best not miss ppv week! This one or the next!

[Spike Kane]

(by active I mean in real life, not efeds. I'll miss a week efed wise.)