Post by Chris Gardner on Sept 28, 2011 1:10:27 GMT -6
I actually have no explaining to do since I wasn't wrong, but being the offspring of a police officer and a teacher I like to make things perfectly clear to the extreme details. If you want to know the true reason for this thread without having to read the full story, then by all means jump to the last stanza.
Yes, I did leave NCW after Battlegrounds. I know many would think that I was just being one of those pissy players full of s*** that turn their back on a fed when they lose a big match or a championship. Well, I've been in this thing for long enough to know that winning and losing isn't all. But what really pissed me off was the way it happened.
I'm not going to talk about admin decisions, voting, systems, problem solving methods and whatnot, because all of those already work pretty well, thanks for asking. But during Battlegrounds, and the three weeks before it, I've been silently enduring what I judged to be a rather big quantity of out-of-character shots by Alex Jones (as Shelly Taylor-Jones), and a few (actually only one or two) by Todd Williams. The inner jokes and venomous comments could've been fun and games for them but I eventually grew tired and sad. I've contemplated leaving NCW before because of those several other times. I've come to the conclusion that AJ Classic hated me for no reason at all. Or maybe the fact that I got legit pissed at Todd for not sharing a storyline with me, a storyline that indirectly involved my character, was reason enough for Classic to hate me. I guess I'll never know.
So Battlegrounds came, and I detected OOC shots in each and all of Shelly Taylor-Jones' promos, which of course made me grow angrier as I read them. But I still kept quiet, because I thought that, in the end, people would have noticed it. Apparently, I was wrong, and I lost the match. Inside my mind -- and, mind you, I still believe in what I'm going to say --, all the effort and emotion that I poured into my promos were thrown to waste. I felt that my hardest work to be a fair player was dismissed, as the one guy being OOC was rewarded for it. And suddenly, all that was wrong became right. And this was the single fact that made me decide to leave NCW, despite all the people requesting me to stay. I'm usually final with my words.
But this time, I won't be. I'm betraying myself as I write this thread, because it is for my own good that I decided to come back. It's simple: after I decided to leave, two things have been happening, and I dislike both. The first being that a considerable amount of people have been telling me they're also pist off because of what happened. I won't cite names, but you must know who you are. I never wanted these people to get angry, as it was a fact that was supposed to hurt me, and only me. I was really expecting to be forgotten as time went by, just so the Gardner Siblings were nothing but a collective dream, a seasonal trend that came and went away. But I couldn't do it. My characters have ties here and I couldn't jut rip them away because of my fit. And second, I grew lonely and bored. For the two days that I kept myself from even entering these boards, I realized that I had nothing to do but correct homeworks and... correct homeworks. I need somewhere to have fun, and with an useless fed like mine, there was no way I was gonna have any. I guess this is the better place for me to be, even if my welcome has already worn out.
Let it be known that I have already sorted my issues with Alex Jones, and all those things that I have judged to be out of character had a reason to be, so I'm doing this with my conscience as clear as water.
So, for Adam, Spike, Craig, all the guys that counted on me and wanted me not to leave... Thank you for the support. It's for you and you only that I've decided to come back, because I guess it just isn't fun without you guys. Yes, I know I might just become one of these guys that keep retiring and unretiring every new season (I'm looking at you, Craig), but sometimes we have to take decisions, and not all of them are the most suitable.
If leaving was the wrong decision, or if I'm wrong to come back... We'll never know. I just hope not to regret it. Thanks for your attention.
Yes, I did leave NCW after Battlegrounds. I know many would think that I was just being one of those pissy players full of s*** that turn their back on a fed when they lose a big match or a championship. Well, I've been in this thing for long enough to know that winning and losing isn't all. But what really pissed me off was the way it happened.
I'm not going to talk about admin decisions, voting, systems, problem solving methods and whatnot, because all of those already work pretty well, thanks for asking. But during Battlegrounds, and the three weeks before it, I've been silently enduring what I judged to be a rather big quantity of out-of-character shots by Alex Jones (as Shelly Taylor-Jones), and a few (actually only one or two) by Todd Williams. The inner jokes and venomous comments could've been fun and games for them but I eventually grew tired and sad. I've contemplated leaving NCW before because of those several other times. I've come to the conclusion that AJ Classic hated me for no reason at all. Or maybe the fact that I got legit pissed at Todd for not sharing a storyline with me, a storyline that indirectly involved my character, was reason enough for Classic to hate me. I guess I'll never know.
So Battlegrounds came, and I detected OOC shots in each and all of Shelly Taylor-Jones' promos, which of course made me grow angrier as I read them. But I still kept quiet, because I thought that, in the end, people would have noticed it. Apparently, I was wrong, and I lost the match. Inside my mind -- and, mind you, I still believe in what I'm going to say --, all the effort and emotion that I poured into my promos were thrown to waste. I felt that my hardest work to be a fair player was dismissed, as the one guy being OOC was rewarded for it. And suddenly, all that was wrong became right. And this was the single fact that made me decide to leave NCW, despite all the people requesting me to stay. I'm usually final with my words.
But this time, I won't be. I'm betraying myself as I write this thread, because it is for my own good that I decided to come back. It's simple: after I decided to leave, two things have been happening, and I dislike both. The first being that a considerable amount of people have been telling me they're also pist off because of what happened. I won't cite names, but you must know who you are. I never wanted these people to get angry, as it was a fact that was supposed to hurt me, and only me. I was really expecting to be forgotten as time went by, just so the Gardner Siblings were nothing but a collective dream, a seasonal trend that came and went away. But I couldn't do it. My characters have ties here and I couldn't jut rip them away because of my fit. And second, I grew lonely and bored. For the two days that I kept myself from even entering these boards, I realized that I had nothing to do but correct homeworks and... correct homeworks. I need somewhere to have fun, and with an useless fed like mine, there was no way I was gonna have any. I guess this is the better place for me to be, even if my welcome has already worn out.
Let it be known that I have already sorted my issues with Alex Jones, and all those things that I have judged to be out of character had a reason to be, so I'm doing this with my conscience as clear as water.
So, for Adam, Spike, Craig, all the guys that counted on me and wanted me not to leave... Thank you for the support. It's for you and you only that I've decided to come back, because I guess it just isn't fun without you guys. Yes, I know I might just become one of these guys that keep retiring and unretiring every new season (I'm looking at you, Craig), but sometimes we have to take decisions, and not all of them are the most suitable.
If leaving was the wrong decision, or if I'm wrong to come back... We'll never know. I just hope not to regret it. Thanks for your attention.
