Post by Shelly Taylor-Jones on Oct 29, 2011 17:58:28 GMT -6
“I’ve stood at the edge....”
“Felt the wind in my hair...”
“Wondering if I should....”
“Could....”
“Would...”
“Jump.....”
“I always stopped myself...”
“Always stayed safe...”
“But when it happened...”
“When I did jump....”
“I felt free....”
“Silly Kelly....”
My eyes open, I stare out and smile a little to myself. My moment of self reflection and weakness over.
“You can’t create something that isn’t there. You’re under the assumption that we need to have some kind of brutal hate filled conflict for this to be interesting. Just look at the story we have here. The world champion, beaten down and looking for redemption after taking the slings, arrows and harsh criticisms of the NCW public and backstage verbal jabs. The challenger, a woman who is trying to prove she has always been a wrestler, trying to live her dream that she felt was denied her all those years ago. Two women from families who define NCW. The dominating challenger, the powerful champion...HOW CAN YOU SAY THIS MATCH ISN’T INTERESTING?.....”
“We don’t need fake conflict here Kelly. We don’t need cheap insults. Maybe it’s just a case of you needing something to talk about. Maybe it’s just you work better when you’re angry at someone. You want to hate me, you want to despise me, you want that feeling to overcome you where you don’t just want to beat me you want to DESTROY ME. Without that feeling you said it yourself. You have no desire to kick the **** out of me. Outside of our match you have no reason to, the only reason you want to beat me is for the title and honestly that is enough for you. I have the desire to defend this title and stay champion, you’re looking for that little something extra that will turn this into a fight. You’re looking at everything I say looking for things to turn and twist against me in hopes I’ll get angry that my words have been taken out of context.....”
“I know this game....”
“I’m a master at it. But I’m done playing games. You can sit there and say that I’m trying to come off as a gentle sweet human being now that everyone has given up on me as a person but let’s be honest here, I’m about as sweet and gentle as a rattlesnake. I know this, everyone knows this,. But when I come across someone I respect as a person in and out of the ring why should I lower myself to **** talking standards?. Crystal showed me respect and compassion, she and I became friends and last time we faced it did not become an insultfest, just like now. You may not be buying it Kelly and that’s fine sweetheart...because I’m not selling it....”
I shrug and smile.
“I don’t expect you to fully believe me, hell I may be just screwing with you, luring you into a false sense of security. I may be that cold hearted. But then again I may be sincere. I’m not going to lie. I hate Alysson Gardner. I hate her I hate her brother and since you decided to bring it up I’ll comment on it. As I told you all she got what she deserved. She walks out on a title opportunity and leaves her friend abandoned in a match against two women. Then she comes back and wins the most prestigious womens title in wrestling?. Don’t talk to me about sins Kelly because hers got absolved in about five seconds.....”
“I made a few distasteful offhanded remarks to put Alysson off her game and beat her for the title and guess what, it worked. She was sluggish in the ring and wasn’t herself. I would have finished the job if Mercedes Lewis hadn’t of exacted her revenge. And lets not forget that the reason Alysson isn;t here is not because of my harsh words about her validity as champion or the saga with Spike Kane’s son, the reason Alysson isn;t here is because of Mercedes Lewis......”
“But because of Mercedes actions I’m now left with a title that everyone says I didn’t earn, a title that now has a black stain that needs to be removed and the only way this title and my reign can be redeemed in the eyes of fans, the other girls and NCW as a whole, is by me going out into that ring and beating the best of the best to prove I am the rightful champion and that is what I plan to do....”
I sigh and breathe deeply.
“Against you....”
“Against Crystal....”
“Against Sandy....”
I laugh.
“Against anyone else who decides they want a shot to become champion. This isn’t about sympathy, this isn’t about the fans love and respect. This is about my own feelings and my own personal quest of redemption. I told the world I was the best, I told the world I was going to be champion and the way it happened was not ****ing good enough. I got handed a title because one bitch hit another bitch because of their history. I didn’t win because I was better I won because of cheap underhanded tactics and I’ll be damned if I’m going to live with this ****ing feeling the rest of my life Kelly because I just can’t.....”
“You can believe what you want, you can wish upon a star for me to call you out on every little character flaw that makes us all human but Kelly I can’t. You can hate who I am, you can think you know me and talk all the **** you want....”
“It won’t make a damn lick of difference. On Sunday night, I get in that ring, I face you one on one and the better woman will win. If it’s me then so be it, I win have my redemption and I will prove that I should have always been champion. If I lose then I will still have my redemption. I will have lost to one of the best in NCW and someone I respect and know will hold the title with honor. I know that right now you’re trying everything you can to get under my skin....”
I smile and nod
“Calling me a two timing slut and throwing everything in my face is a ploy to get under my skin and ruffle my feathers to make me angry. It’s the same thing I did to Alysson, but remember this Kelly. I was worse. What I did wasn’t being “mean” it was just wrong. It wasn’t a few clever jokes or assassinating character flaws I went deeper and against her I’d do it again but against you this is different. I don’t feel the need to tear you down with those personal little quips Kelly. But that attitude you refer to the “I’m a bitch no matter what” thing. That is me. But I can choose to be a bitch,. I can choose to be a horrible person and in the future against someone else I might, but here and now against you, someone who has had my respect from day one I’m choosing not to, I’m choosing to take the high road. Thing is.....you seem to be confused....”
“You seem to have a skewed view....”
“You seem to think that because I’m talking like this I’m giving up. You seem to think that because my comments are filled with the opposite of what you thought I’m just going to hand you the title, shake your hand give you a hug and walk away.......”
“Sorry but that’s not how I do things.....”
I laugh and fold my arms.
“Just because I’m not being a bitch doesn’t mean I’m not going to walk into Road to the gold and try and destroy you. You’re wrong about me standing up and fighting for my belt Kelly. Dead wrong. I’m not only fighting for my belt, I’m fighting for my soul, my redemption my life. I’m fighting to be the rightful champion and wash away that stain. You may have been expecting more, but from you I have never expexted anything less except your best......”
“Felt the wind in my hair...”
“Wondering if I should....”
“Could....”
“Would...”
“Jump.....”
“I always stopped myself...”
“Always stayed safe...”
“But when it happened...”
“When I did jump....”
“I felt free....”
“Silly Kelly....”
My eyes open, I stare out and smile a little to myself. My moment of self reflection and weakness over.
“You can’t create something that isn’t there. You’re under the assumption that we need to have some kind of brutal hate filled conflict for this to be interesting. Just look at the story we have here. The world champion, beaten down and looking for redemption after taking the slings, arrows and harsh criticisms of the NCW public and backstage verbal jabs. The challenger, a woman who is trying to prove she has always been a wrestler, trying to live her dream that she felt was denied her all those years ago. Two women from families who define NCW. The dominating challenger, the powerful champion...HOW CAN YOU SAY THIS MATCH ISN’T INTERESTING?.....”
“We don’t need fake conflict here Kelly. We don’t need cheap insults. Maybe it’s just a case of you needing something to talk about. Maybe it’s just you work better when you’re angry at someone. You want to hate me, you want to despise me, you want that feeling to overcome you where you don’t just want to beat me you want to DESTROY ME. Without that feeling you said it yourself. You have no desire to kick the **** out of me. Outside of our match you have no reason to, the only reason you want to beat me is for the title and honestly that is enough for you. I have the desire to defend this title and stay champion, you’re looking for that little something extra that will turn this into a fight. You’re looking at everything I say looking for things to turn and twist against me in hopes I’ll get angry that my words have been taken out of context.....”
“I know this game....”
“I’m a master at it. But I’m done playing games. You can sit there and say that I’m trying to come off as a gentle sweet human being now that everyone has given up on me as a person but let’s be honest here, I’m about as sweet and gentle as a rattlesnake. I know this, everyone knows this,. But when I come across someone I respect as a person in and out of the ring why should I lower myself to **** talking standards?. Crystal showed me respect and compassion, she and I became friends and last time we faced it did not become an insultfest, just like now. You may not be buying it Kelly and that’s fine sweetheart...because I’m not selling it....”
I shrug and smile.
“I don’t expect you to fully believe me, hell I may be just screwing with you, luring you into a false sense of security. I may be that cold hearted. But then again I may be sincere. I’m not going to lie. I hate Alysson Gardner. I hate her I hate her brother and since you decided to bring it up I’ll comment on it. As I told you all she got what she deserved. She walks out on a title opportunity and leaves her friend abandoned in a match against two women. Then she comes back and wins the most prestigious womens title in wrestling?. Don’t talk to me about sins Kelly because hers got absolved in about five seconds.....”
“I made a few distasteful offhanded remarks to put Alysson off her game and beat her for the title and guess what, it worked. She was sluggish in the ring and wasn’t herself. I would have finished the job if Mercedes Lewis hadn’t of exacted her revenge. And lets not forget that the reason Alysson isn;t here is not because of my harsh words about her validity as champion or the saga with Spike Kane’s son, the reason Alysson isn;t here is because of Mercedes Lewis......”
“But because of Mercedes actions I’m now left with a title that everyone says I didn’t earn, a title that now has a black stain that needs to be removed and the only way this title and my reign can be redeemed in the eyes of fans, the other girls and NCW as a whole, is by me going out into that ring and beating the best of the best to prove I am the rightful champion and that is what I plan to do....”
I sigh and breathe deeply.
“Against you....”
“Against Crystal....”
“Against Sandy....”
I laugh.
“Against anyone else who decides they want a shot to become champion. This isn’t about sympathy, this isn’t about the fans love and respect. This is about my own feelings and my own personal quest of redemption. I told the world I was the best, I told the world I was going to be champion and the way it happened was not ****ing good enough. I got handed a title because one bitch hit another bitch because of their history. I didn’t win because I was better I won because of cheap underhanded tactics and I’ll be damned if I’m going to live with this ****ing feeling the rest of my life Kelly because I just can’t.....”
“You can believe what you want, you can wish upon a star for me to call you out on every little character flaw that makes us all human but Kelly I can’t. You can hate who I am, you can think you know me and talk all the **** you want....”
“It won’t make a damn lick of difference. On Sunday night, I get in that ring, I face you one on one and the better woman will win. If it’s me then so be it, I win have my redemption and I will prove that I should have always been champion. If I lose then I will still have my redemption. I will have lost to one of the best in NCW and someone I respect and know will hold the title with honor. I know that right now you’re trying everything you can to get under my skin....”
I smile and nod
“Calling me a two timing slut and throwing everything in my face is a ploy to get under my skin and ruffle my feathers to make me angry. It’s the same thing I did to Alysson, but remember this Kelly. I was worse. What I did wasn’t being “mean” it was just wrong. It wasn’t a few clever jokes or assassinating character flaws I went deeper and against her I’d do it again but against you this is different. I don’t feel the need to tear you down with those personal little quips Kelly. But that attitude you refer to the “I’m a bitch no matter what” thing. That is me. But I can choose to be a bitch,. I can choose to be a horrible person and in the future against someone else I might, but here and now against you, someone who has had my respect from day one I’m choosing not to, I’m choosing to take the high road. Thing is.....you seem to be confused....”
“You seem to have a skewed view....”
“You seem to think that because I’m talking like this I’m giving up. You seem to think that because my comments are filled with the opposite of what you thought I’m just going to hand you the title, shake your hand give you a hug and walk away.......”
“Sorry but that’s not how I do things.....”
I laugh and fold my arms.
“Just because I’m not being a bitch doesn’t mean I’m not going to walk into Road to the gold and try and destroy you. You’re wrong about me standing up and fighting for my belt Kelly. Dead wrong. I’m not only fighting for my belt, I’m fighting for my soul, my redemption my life. I’m fighting to be the rightful champion and wash away that stain. You may have been expecting more, but from you I have never expexted anything less except your best......”
