Post by Angel on Oct 30, 2011 7:18:29 GMT -6
"How quickly we forget..."
Hours before Road to the Gold goes on the air I find myself seated backstage before a mirror. Your view is of my reflection.
"You wanted to be what I am until you realized that you did not? That you wanted to be better? My dear Lex, I do realize that I am in my dreaded thirties these days but I am not suffering from memory loss..."
I smirk at the man in the mirror.
"I remember very well what your reason was for coming after me dear boy, and it was not because you DID NOT want to be like me, it was because I was NO LONGER like me."
Simple thoughts for simple minds.
"I went to war with Alex Jones and did everything in my power to see him crippled and crushed before me... Until the day my daughter asked me not to, and according to you that sent you into a mad rage where you just HAD to come down to the ring nearly a YEAR after the fact and... I do not know, prove a point?"
He must assume I forgot or that we all just gloss of history the way he does.
"You wanted to show the world that Angel was nothing more than a man with emotions, feelings and depth, the very things you are now showing us, and then you wanted to destroy me..."
"Who is the hypocrite again, I was not paying attention."
My lips curl into a cruel sneer.
"I find it funny that you once chastised me for the very things you are doing now, but I suppose this would be just another one of those awful things Lex regrets..."
"Awwwww."
"The thing is Lex, had you only just been a MAN to begin with instead of a CHILD then all of this would have never happened. Instead of running scared after your brother died by your hands, you could of manned up. You could have faced what you had done and dealt with it. But in classic Lex Sense fashion you took the path of least resistance..."
"Like attacking a man from behind..."
And now he tries to justify it to himself and make me the bad guy.
"You struggle and stammer to turn my words against me, to find any rhyme or reason in the chaos that has been your life to make yourself out to be something you are not."
"You are not unstoppable."
"You defeated me once, Lex, I admit that. But when I say you do not know what I am capable of I am not talking about the 'match' nCw would like us to have this weekend. I'm talking about what I'm capable of when I no longer care about winning."
Something he still is not comprehending.
"You have it set in your mind that I am a simple beast looking to exact his revenge in a pin fall or submission situation."
"You are NOT listening."
"Keep your win over me, I want something more than a win, Lex. I want something besides another number in the 'W' column. I want your heart, I want your soul, I want your very reason for living to be ripped from you so you can watch it slowly die in the palms of my hands."
"Not for revenge."
"But as a message to the rest of nCw that yes, Savior X has returned and he is no longer going to play nice. The legacy you claim to know, the career you said you followed will be nothing more than a shadow to the horror I am about to unleash on this company and you get the privilege of being the first."
"Congratulations."
He brought this on himself.
"But only the first of many I will treat in this manor so do not over inflate your ego thinking I am so one dimensional. I am not one of the character's in your life seemingly ripped from a bad novel. I am not a mindless killing machine from an awful 'B' movie. I am so much more than a man, I transcend the word monster and you will learn this tonight Lex. You will learn to fear what you could not kill."
"You had your chance to crush me. You stood across the ring from me 'handing out beatdowns' as you say, you even stabbed my in the back..."
"And..."
"You..."
"Failed..."
"Try to keep that in mind when you threaten me Lex. Try to remember that when you say I have to instill the fear in you. I've been back for weeks now, sending little messages and where have you been? Where did you go last week on Collision when I came to the ring to face you? Where was this beatdown when I came HEAD ON looking for one?"
I look to my left. I look to my right. I look right back at you.
"GONE! No where to be found. Like a thief in the night, Lex Sense had vanished!"
Once again he ran away.
You refused to face me, refused to hand out a beatdown, refused to be a man and take what was coming..."
"Why?"
"Fear?"
"I think it was fear Lex."
Nothing much else it could be.
"Of course you will come up with a seemingly clever reason as to why it was so much easier to tuck tail and run as opposed to face me, but do not worry, I will not believe you."
"Tonight, you will be in that ring whether you want to be or not, and you will face me. You will look me in the eyes, determined to 'rip my world apart' and you will know that you cannot. Many have tried Lex, it's a tired threat I have heard from every major opponent I have every faced. And the fact of the matter is you already tried. No, tonight, you will look me in the eyes and you will know there is nothing you can do. Nothing that will harm me. Nothing that will keep me down."
"Tonight is the beginning of a new Age for nCw, an Age not of whiny little back stabbing brats who cannot face the demon's they create."
"It will be an Age of brutality."
"An Age where only the strong survive."
"An Age where Lex Sense is powerless because no one will fear him. No one will care enough to feel anything but indifference and apathy when it comes to him. An Age where Lex Sense has faded into the background and become nothing more than a memory of a forgotten time."
"Your blood will be the cleansing waters of my flood."
"Your name will be whispered in hushed tones as words of warning."
"Your broken and bloody body will be the example made for everyone who after you who tries to take me out."
I stand up and lean forward, getting as close to the mirror as possible, smiling before stepping back and shattering the glass with my boot.
"You are but a shattered reflection..."
"Welcome to the Age of X."
Hours pass, the arena fills, the show begins.
I find myself near the ramp way, peeking out from behind the curtain, scanning the crowd.
"That thing in your head..."
I wonder as I look, trying to find the one who said those words.
"Angel..."
There she is...
"You doing ok?"
I turn to face my old friend, smiling to myself.
"Why do people keep asking me that?"
"I heard about Chris... The guy is kind of a dick but he didn't deserve a cheap shot to the throat."
The smile fades.
"He beat his woman."
Falcon drops his gaze for a moment... Guilty.
"We ALL make mistakes from time to time."
"And we all must pay for those mistakes in due time."
"Is that why you tried to crush his larynx?"
I take two steps forward and stand directly before Falcon, eye to eye, so to speak.
"Is there a reason behind your questioning?"
"I see you walking that line again, that line you walked with Alex and myself... Just making sure this isn't the guy who makes you cross it.
Falcon searches my eyes for anything resembling sympathy for our hurt friend, it's not there... Wait...
"One small hiccup and that thing in your head is going to bur... Burst...
Falcon's head tilts to the side.
"What?"
I move past him, now realizing what dear sweet Alice was so worried about.
"Nothing."
I look back at my friend, wondering.
"Will you think any less of me if I do cross that line?"
"Why, are you going too?"
My eyebrow arches.
"It may be the only way he will learn."
"Angel, I know the guy tried to end your career-"
"Life. He tried to end my life."
"But we are professional wrestlers, not murderers."
"We are what life makes us."
"We are the choices we make."
Interesting point....
"He made his choice... I have made mine.
Time to go.
"And what is that?"
From down the hall way I turn and out stretch my arms like our Lord upon the cross and shout for all to hear.
"NO MERCY!"
The Age of X begins when Lex Sense ends...
Hours before Road to the Gold goes on the air I find myself seated backstage before a mirror. Your view is of my reflection.
"You wanted to be what I am until you realized that you did not? That you wanted to be better? My dear Lex, I do realize that I am in my dreaded thirties these days but I am not suffering from memory loss..."
I smirk at the man in the mirror.
"I remember very well what your reason was for coming after me dear boy, and it was not because you DID NOT want to be like me, it was because I was NO LONGER like me."
Simple thoughts for simple minds.
"I went to war with Alex Jones and did everything in my power to see him crippled and crushed before me... Until the day my daughter asked me not to, and according to you that sent you into a mad rage where you just HAD to come down to the ring nearly a YEAR after the fact and... I do not know, prove a point?"
He must assume I forgot or that we all just gloss of history the way he does.
"You wanted to show the world that Angel was nothing more than a man with emotions, feelings and depth, the very things you are now showing us, and then you wanted to destroy me..."
"Who is the hypocrite again, I was not paying attention."
My lips curl into a cruel sneer.
"I find it funny that you once chastised me for the very things you are doing now, but I suppose this would be just another one of those awful things Lex regrets..."
"Awwwww."
"The thing is Lex, had you only just been a MAN to begin with instead of a CHILD then all of this would have never happened. Instead of running scared after your brother died by your hands, you could of manned up. You could have faced what you had done and dealt with it. But in classic Lex Sense fashion you took the path of least resistance..."
"Like attacking a man from behind..."
And now he tries to justify it to himself and make me the bad guy.
"You struggle and stammer to turn my words against me, to find any rhyme or reason in the chaos that has been your life to make yourself out to be something you are not."
"You are not unstoppable."
"You defeated me once, Lex, I admit that. But when I say you do not know what I am capable of I am not talking about the 'match' nCw would like us to have this weekend. I'm talking about what I'm capable of when I no longer care about winning."
Something he still is not comprehending.
"You have it set in your mind that I am a simple beast looking to exact his revenge in a pin fall or submission situation."
"You are NOT listening."
"Keep your win over me, I want something more than a win, Lex. I want something besides another number in the 'W' column. I want your heart, I want your soul, I want your very reason for living to be ripped from you so you can watch it slowly die in the palms of my hands."
"Not for revenge."
"But as a message to the rest of nCw that yes, Savior X has returned and he is no longer going to play nice. The legacy you claim to know, the career you said you followed will be nothing more than a shadow to the horror I am about to unleash on this company and you get the privilege of being the first."
"Congratulations."
He brought this on himself.
"But only the first of many I will treat in this manor so do not over inflate your ego thinking I am so one dimensional. I am not one of the character's in your life seemingly ripped from a bad novel. I am not a mindless killing machine from an awful 'B' movie. I am so much more than a man, I transcend the word monster and you will learn this tonight Lex. You will learn to fear what you could not kill."
"You had your chance to crush me. You stood across the ring from me 'handing out beatdowns' as you say, you even stabbed my in the back..."
"And..."
"You..."
"Failed..."
"Try to keep that in mind when you threaten me Lex. Try to remember that when you say I have to instill the fear in you. I've been back for weeks now, sending little messages and where have you been? Where did you go last week on Collision when I came to the ring to face you? Where was this beatdown when I came HEAD ON looking for one?"
I look to my left. I look to my right. I look right back at you.
"GONE! No where to be found. Like a thief in the night, Lex Sense had vanished!"
Once again he ran away.
You refused to face me, refused to hand out a beatdown, refused to be a man and take what was coming..."
"Why?"
"Fear?"
"I think it was fear Lex."
Nothing much else it could be.
"Of course you will come up with a seemingly clever reason as to why it was so much easier to tuck tail and run as opposed to face me, but do not worry, I will not believe you."
"Tonight, you will be in that ring whether you want to be or not, and you will face me. You will look me in the eyes, determined to 'rip my world apart' and you will know that you cannot. Many have tried Lex, it's a tired threat I have heard from every major opponent I have every faced. And the fact of the matter is you already tried. No, tonight, you will look me in the eyes and you will know there is nothing you can do. Nothing that will harm me. Nothing that will keep me down."
"Tonight is the beginning of a new Age for nCw, an Age not of whiny little back stabbing brats who cannot face the demon's they create."
"It will be an Age of brutality."
"An Age where only the strong survive."
"An Age where Lex Sense is powerless because no one will fear him. No one will care enough to feel anything but indifference and apathy when it comes to him. An Age where Lex Sense has faded into the background and become nothing more than a memory of a forgotten time."
"Your blood will be the cleansing waters of my flood."
"Your name will be whispered in hushed tones as words of warning."
"Your broken and bloody body will be the example made for everyone who after you who tries to take me out."
I stand up and lean forward, getting as close to the mirror as possible, smiling before stepping back and shattering the glass with my boot.
"You are but a shattered reflection..."
"Welcome to the Age of X."
Hours pass, the arena fills, the show begins.
I find myself near the ramp way, peeking out from behind the curtain, scanning the crowd.
"That thing in your head..."
I wonder as I look, trying to find the one who said those words.
"Angel..."
There she is...
"You doing ok?"
I turn to face my old friend, smiling to myself.
"Why do people keep asking me that?"
"I heard about Chris... The guy is kind of a dick but he didn't deserve a cheap shot to the throat."
The smile fades.
"He beat his woman."
Falcon drops his gaze for a moment... Guilty.
"We ALL make mistakes from time to time."
"And we all must pay for those mistakes in due time."
"Is that why you tried to crush his larynx?"
I take two steps forward and stand directly before Falcon, eye to eye, so to speak.
"Is there a reason behind your questioning?"
"I see you walking that line again, that line you walked with Alex and myself... Just making sure this isn't the guy who makes you cross it.
Falcon searches my eyes for anything resembling sympathy for our hurt friend, it's not there... Wait...
"One small hiccup and that thing in your head is going to bur... Burst...
Falcon's head tilts to the side.
"What?"
I move past him, now realizing what dear sweet Alice was so worried about.
"Nothing."
I look back at my friend, wondering.
"Will you think any less of me if I do cross that line?"
"Why, are you going too?"
My eyebrow arches.
"It may be the only way he will learn."
"Angel, I know the guy tried to end your career-"
"Life. He tried to end my life."
"But we are professional wrestlers, not murderers."
"We are what life makes us."
"We are the choices we make."
Interesting point....
"He made his choice... I have made mine.
Time to go.
"And what is that?"
From down the hall way I turn and out stretch my arms like our Lord upon the cross and shout for all to hear.
"NO MERCY!"
The Age of X begins when Lex Sense ends...