Post by Spike Kane on Nov 23, 2011 12:19:36 GMT -6
Pull the trigger....
When you choose to do so? Could you sound any more like a jacked up prick? When you choose too....right? So you choose when to win and when to lose?
Did you choose to lie on your back and stare up at the lights at Road to the Gold? Huh? Did you choose to take two weeks off before coming back and trying to be the knight in shining armour?
You didn't choose anything dickhead.
I put you down, like the dog you are, and God as my witness.....I'll do it again.
~~~
[/color]When you choose to do so? Could you sound any more like a jacked up prick? When you choose too....right? So you choose when to win and when to lose?
Did you choose to lie on your back and stare up at the lights at Road to the Gold? Huh? Did you choose to take two weeks off before coming back and trying to be the knight in shining armour?
You didn't choose anything dickhead.
I put you down, like the dog you are, and God as my witness.....I'll do it again.
~~~
November 19th, 2011
So I cost myself a match tonight. I walked away and ensured the team of Xander and Alex would pick up the win. I even put Alex's hand over my partner so that he could pick up the win, just to screw with his head a little bit, because let's face it.....wins and losses are irrelevant in the long run.
Xander stopped it though, he had to get the win clean like a hero, but the point was still made. Curtis hit me with the BANG! So I hit him with the Spike Impailer and let him take the fall. So what if people are pissed off, so what if the fans didn't like it. I couldn't give a rats ass about anybody right now, I did what was best for me in the long run. If that means Curtis now has beef with me then fine, we'll handle it like men.
But I know that Breaking Away is next week, and Alex is going to think he can claim a victory over me. He's going to try his hardest, which means I have to go one step higher and further, as per usual. I'm thinking of showing up at Collision tomorrow just to see if I can fire one more shot before the games truly begin.....
~~~
I lost the match Alex. I know I might have knocked you senseless with that kick to your skull, you know the one I delivered where I probably could have pinned you for the victory.....but I'm not in this for the short term Alex, I think big, I think about the big picture and the future effects. Curtis hurt me when he hit me.....so I owed him, and I'm not going to be facing Curtis this week.....so getting revenge on him seemed to take priority over you at the time.
I'm sorry if that offended you.
Who am I kidding? I don't give a crap. I just find it hilarious that you're getting all pissy because I didn't finish the match, trying to bring up the fact that I lost a match, because Xander pinned Curtis and mock me for it. Yet, you try to make me look like a tool for even thinking about saying I've already beat you? Does that even make sense to you?
You f*cking hypocrite.
It's all you are Alex, it's all you've ever been and all you ever will be. You are like a walking explanation for people who those who don't know what the word means. Instead of looking it up in the dictionary we can just show them Alex Jones, and you'll be able to see the light bulb go on in there head as it clicks. Something we don't often see with you, because all you do is care about numero uno, all you do is think about what is best for Alex Jones......
So shove your fake attempt at caring about me right where the sun doesn't shine.
We used to be tight Alex, I won't lie. We used to be what I thought friends were meant to be. We would travel together and play some of the stupidest pranks you could ever think of. It was almost like being at college and being part of a frat.....but once you started becoming a star, you wanted to leave me behind. You rode MGK's coat tails and started to climb the ranks of the other place and left me behind. Mocked me for my feuds with Mark Evil and Kevin Hardaway. You would hype yourselves up and laugh as little Mickey tried his hardest just to tread water running around with the HaRdCoRe title, or fighting with your wife for the US Title after she blamed me for the death of our son. The son I'd had with your wife before you even met her.
But something happened.
The landscape changed the night that Spike Kane became King of the Hill. Something most people have forgotten about, something that those who were in still find a sore subject. The likes of Kevin Hardaway, Rage, Milo Holland, William Spencer....and of course myself.....the last man standing, the King of the Hill. That night something changed and Spike Kane had finally reached the status of the main event. What happened next?
I eliminated you from the Rumble.
I won't lie Alex, I saw you as competition and figured it was best to take you out myself rather than rely on somebody else to do it instead. You might see that as me being petty, I see it as me using my initiative, I saw it as me stepping up to the plate and doing what needed to be done. I won the match and truly excelled myself as a performer, as a fighter, as a wrestler, and even as a person. Which eventually led to that night.....the night that apparently meant so much to you. When we both stood tall in the center of the ring, two of the hot young talents of the company holding the two biggest titles.
But I was the World Champion, something you wanted so bad.
So tell me Alex, where does “Spike is jealous” come into this equation? I have surpassed you in every single aspect of your career. I've out wrestled you in every single match type we've ever been in. I am a self made legend Alex, my name is known worldwide and my name is feared just as much. People have known who Spike Kane is, way before Alex Jones decided to change his name.
And his four million nicknames.
You might look at me and see a bitter, old, jealous man.....but the truth of the matter is, it's exactly what I see when I look at you Alex. The difference is, my name is etched into the history books of nCw and will be remembered for all time. Yours is just a passing thought, a flavour of the week.....you might claim to be the “greatest nCw superstar to never hold the world title” so did Dave Holland, and guess what? All he ever wanted was to capture the world title and where is he now?
Where is Jack Hammond?
Where is Xavier Williams?
Where is Lance Ryan?
All of these people who have had their careers plummet and fall all became obsessed like you to capture the one thing that had evade them, and when they did their reason for being here disappeared, just like that. Every single one of them has become a joke, a faded memory.
Yet they have still done what you are incapable of doing.
Funny, no?
~~~
[/color]I lost the match Alex. I know I might have knocked you senseless with that kick to your skull, you know the one I delivered where I probably could have pinned you for the victory.....but I'm not in this for the short term Alex, I think big, I think about the big picture and the future effects. Curtis hurt me when he hit me.....so I owed him, and I'm not going to be facing Curtis this week.....so getting revenge on him seemed to take priority over you at the time.
I'm sorry if that offended you.
Who am I kidding? I don't give a crap. I just find it hilarious that you're getting all pissy because I didn't finish the match, trying to bring up the fact that I lost a match, because Xander pinned Curtis and mock me for it. Yet, you try to make me look like a tool for even thinking about saying I've already beat you? Does that even make sense to you?
You f*cking hypocrite.
It's all you are Alex, it's all you've ever been and all you ever will be. You are like a walking explanation for people who those who don't know what the word means. Instead of looking it up in the dictionary we can just show them Alex Jones, and you'll be able to see the light bulb go on in there head as it clicks. Something we don't often see with you, because all you do is care about numero uno, all you do is think about what is best for Alex Jones......
So shove your fake attempt at caring about me right where the sun doesn't shine.
We used to be tight Alex, I won't lie. We used to be what I thought friends were meant to be. We would travel together and play some of the stupidest pranks you could ever think of. It was almost like being at college and being part of a frat.....but once you started becoming a star, you wanted to leave me behind. You rode MGK's coat tails and started to climb the ranks of the other place and left me behind. Mocked me for my feuds with Mark Evil and Kevin Hardaway. You would hype yourselves up and laugh as little Mickey tried his hardest just to tread water running around with the HaRdCoRe title, or fighting with your wife for the US Title after she blamed me for the death of our son. The son I'd had with your wife before you even met her.
But something happened.
The landscape changed the night that Spike Kane became King of the Hill. Something most people have forgotten about, something that those who were in still find a sore subject. The likes of Kevin Hardaway, Rage, Milo Holland, William Spencer....and of course myself.....the last man standing, the King of the Hill. That night something changed and Spike Kane had finally reached the status of the main event. What happened next?
I eliminated you from the Rumble.
I won't lie Alex, I saw you as competition and figured it was best to take you out myself rather than rely on somebody else to do it instead. You might see that as me being petty, I see it as me using my initiative, I saw it as me stepping up to the plate and doing what needed to be done. I won the match and truly excelled myself as a performer, as a fighter, as a wrestler, and even as a person. Which eventually led to that night.....the night that apparently meant so much to you. When we both stood tall in the center of the ring, two of the hot young talents of the company holding the two biggest titles.
But I was the World Champion, something you wanted so bad.
So tell me Alex, where does “Spike is jealous” come into this equation? I have surpassed you in every single aspect of your career. I've out wrestled you in every single match type we've ever been in. I am a self made legend Alex, my name is known worldwide and my name is feared just as much. People have known who Spike Kane is, way before Alex Jones decided to change his name.
And his four million nicknames.
You might look at me and see a bitter, old, jealous man.....but the truth of the matter is, it's exactly what I see when I look at you Alex. The difference is, my name is etched into the history books of nCw and will be remembered for all time. Yours is just a passing thought, a flavour of the week.....you might claim to be the “greatest nCw superstar to never hold the world title” so did Dave Holland, and guess what? All he ever wanted was to capture the world title and where is he now?
Where is Jack Hammond?
Where is Xavier Williams?
Where is Lance Ryan?
All of these people who have had their careers plummet and fall all became obsessed like you to capture the one thing that had evade them, and when they did their reason for being here disappeared, just like that. Every single one of them has become a joke, a faded memory.
Yet they have still done what you are incapable of doing.
Funny, no?
~~~
November 21st, 2011
This would have been Nola's birthday. I mean, if anything she ever told me was real. It's days like today when I realise just how messed up my life is, fake deaths, facial reconstruction surgery, long lost children.....it's like every bad soap opera combined into one with a little violence thrown in to keep the male brains attention.
My Dad has done a lot to me in the past, both mentally and physically, and I'm not stupid – it clearly is the reason why I am today. His perfect creation, he likes to call me. Personally, I think I'm the most messed up person I've ever met.....and I've met a few. All I ever wanted to be was normal, just a normal kid, with normal family. Worry about what girl to bring to prom, rather than wondering if I have enough blood left in me to wrestle for a weeks worth of food....
Life isn't easy, but I often find myself thinking about the opposite. Is there an after life? Do we go anywhere else after this, once we shift our mortal coil? Or do we just cease to exist?
I clearly don't know, nobody does.....but it's something that flashes into your mind every once in a while, but you try not to dwell on it, because you want to enjoy your life and not be fearful of death. I'm not scared of death....I just don't want to not exist.
I like existing.
~~~
Family Force Jones. Right? The happy f*cking family. You think that is what I want? To be part of a happy close family?
Of course I do. I'm human. Why wouldn't I want to?
It is all I've ever wanted since I was a kid, since my Dad faked his death and my Mom's grief made her take her life in return. I don't think Dad counted on that one, but he took advantage of it. Shipping me to the orphanage where he would have full control over everything I ever did without interruption. It wasn't until I was an adult that I found out he was my father. Can you imagine how that felt Alex?
Do you remember how it felt? Do you remember me spilling my guts to you? Do you even remember the stupid reveal I did in the middle of the ring to “Reckless Jack” ….I mean, your my friend, right? Surely you should know and remember all of this stuff, because that is what friends do, huh?
Not in Alex's world.
Leaving your friend hanging when you said you'd bring Overdrive back, letting your friends heroine addiction grow and grow, not giving two f*cks when your friend over doses and almost kills himself, and of course not even calling to check on him when his wife leaves him and takes full custody of his son....
That is Alex Jones' guide to being a friend.
Well then, in that case. You are the bestest friend ever on the Alex Jones Douche-O-Meter.
I f*cking miss my son Alex, OK? Do you want me to cry about it on live TV or something? I mean could you rub your damn family life in my face any more than you actually have? Is it something you get pleasure out of you sick f*ck? Yes.....I would do anything for my son, I'd give anything to have Alysson back to her normal self and live like a family. I would even give up wrestling if it meant that I got to live happily ever after, but the thing is, it will never happen, the universe will never counter the balance and restore my family.....because there is something I learned a long time ago Alex.
People like me do not get happy endings.
So why I may be an expert at physically hurting people, and you claim to do the same....except it seems more on an emotional level than anything else. I threatened your family.....because that is the kind of person I am Alex. I want to hurt you on every single level I possibly can, physically hurting you just isn't enough.....breaking you and leaving you in a hospital bed might bring me a certain amount of satisfaction, but it won't last forever.
The feelings I have towards you Alex, they aren't just of hate....I do miss having you at my side. I miss being able to go out and get drunk after a hard nights work. I remember the stupidity of writing “Hammer Time” on STOP signs.....I miss hanging out.....but that isn't enough to outweigh the fact that you have neglected me, that you have dusted me off your shoulder and disrespected me ever since I captured that World Title before you so long ago.
So hurting you isn't an option....it's more than that Alex.
I have to end you!
[/color]Family Force Jones. Right? The happy f*cking family. You think that is what I want? To be part of a happy close family?
Of course I do. I'm human. Why wouldn't I want to?
It is all I've ever wanted since I was a kid, since my Dad faked his death and my Mom's grief made her take her life in return. I don't think Dad counted on that one, but he took advantage of it. Shipping me to the orphanage where he would have full control over everything I ever did without interruption. It wasn't until I was an adult that I found out he was my father. Can you imagine how that felt Alex?
Do you remember how it felt? Do you remember me spilling my guts to you? Do you even remember the stupid reveal I did in the middle of the ring to “Reckless Jack” ….I mean, your my friend, right? Surely you should know and remember all of this stuff, because that is what friends do, huh?
Not in Alex's world.
Leaving your friend hanging when you said you'd bring Overdrive back, letting your friends heroine addiction grow and grow, not giving two f*cks when your friend over doses and almost kills himself, and of course not even calling to check on him when his wife leaves him and takes full custody of his son....
That is Alex Jones' guide to being a friend.
Well then, in that case. You are the bestest friend ever on the Alex Jones Douche-O-Meter.
I f*cking miss my son Alex, OK? Do you want me to cry about it on live TV or something? I mean could you rub your damn family life in my face any more than you actually have? Is it something you get pleasure out of you sick f*ck? Yes.....I would do anything for my son, I'd give anything to have Alysson back to her normal self and live like a family. I would even give up wrestling if it meant that I got to live happily ever after, but the thing is, it will never happen, the universe will never counter the balance and restore my family.....because there is something I learned a long time ago Alex.
People like me do not get happy endings.
So why I may be an expert at physically hurting people, and you claim to do the same....except it seems more on an emotional level than anything else. I threatened your family.....because that is the kind of person I am Alex. I want to hurt you on every single level I possibly can, physically hurting you just isn't enough.....breaking you and leaving you in a hospital bed might bring me a certain amount of satisfaction, but it won't last forever.
The feelings I have towards you Alex, they aren't just of hate....I do miss having you at my side. I miss being able to go out and get drunk after a hard nights work. I remember the stupidity of writing “Hammer Time” on STOP signs.....I miss hanging out.....but that isn't enough to outweigh the fact that you have neglected me, that you have dusted me off your shoulder and disrespected me ever since I captured that World Title before you so long ago.
So hurting you isn't an option....it's more than that Alex.
I have to end you!