Post by Alex Jones on Feb 29, 2012 2:25:10 GMT -6
"No Matt....."
I look up to find Todd Williams and Matt Jackson arguing. Both men I consider friends. But while they both have important matches this weekend I find myself in a state of total disregard for their feelings. Not because I'm a horrible person...but because I have a job to do.....
"Todd, how can you honestly say the three men you'll be in the ring with are less annoying than the three I'll be in the ring with?...."
Ha. Silly silly men. The man I'll be facing is an annoying little twerp. Atleast Todd and Matt have only known their opponents or tag partners for a short time..I've known Steve for almost ten years...TEN...FREAKING...YEARS.
"Alex, what do you think?...."
Todd stares at me. He knows something is up, I turn my head and slip off the table I'm currently using as a chair. I walk over to Todd and pat him on the shoulder looking over at Matt.
"Boys...good luck....I would normally welcome our support system but for this one I need to fly solo....."
They both stay silent as I breeze past them, my mind rushes with more questions than answers. Can I beat Steve?. Am I really as good as I beleive?. Can I take that next step?.
These are the questions that make my nights sleepless. These are the questions that stay in my mind eating away at the confidence I have taken years to build. Self doubt is an ugly monster that feeds on my soul. I have to beat that monster before I can beat Steve.....
For all his faults Steve awesome is an athlete. A former world champion, a former tag team champion, he has held titles in numerous companies. And for years he and I have avoided one another. But now that time is here, it's time for he and I to finally throw down. For him, he wants to shut me up for me, I want to prove that I'm better.......game on.
I look up to find Todd Williams and Matt Jackson arguing. Both men I consider friends. But while they both have important matches this weekend I find myself in a state of total disregard for their feelings. Not because I'm a horrible person...but because I have a job to do.....
"Todd, how can you honestly say the three men you'll be in the ring with are less annoying than the three I'll be in the ring with?...."
Ha. Silly silly men. The man I'll be facing is an annoying little twerp. Atleast Todd and Matt have only known their opponents or tag partners for a short time..I've known Steve for almost ten years...TEN...FREAKING...YEARS.
"Alex, what do you think?...."
Todd stares at me. He knows something is up, I turn my head and slip off the table I'm currently using as a chair. I walk over to Todd and pat him on the shoulder looking over at Matt.
"Boys...good luck....I would normally welcome our support system but for this one I need to fly solo....."
They both stay silent as I breeze past them, my mind rushes with more questions than answers. Can I beat Steve?. Am I really as good as I beleive?. Can I take that next step?.
These are the questions that make my nights sleepless. These are the questions that stay in my mind eating away at the confidence I have taken years to build. Self doubt is an ugly monster that feeds on my soul. I have to beat that monster before I can beat Steve.....
For all his faults Steve awesome is an athlete. A former world champion, a former tag team champion, he has held titles in numerous companies. And for years he and I have avoided one another. But now that time is here, it's time for he and I to finally throw down. For him, he wants to shut me up for me, I want to prove that I'm better.......game on.
"So here it is Steven......"
A smile comes across my face as my fingers shake. The excitement flows through my veins.
"You know. For years, in another company, I was always looked at as the better man. I held every single title our former employer put up there. Same thing you've done here. See Steve you signed on the dotted line to NCW before I did, and when Leonard was chasing my signature, you where in his ear telling him how I was in XHF...."
"But after three years of being here Steve I have more than proved my worth. But I seem to be in this same spot. Over and over again I seem to be the mid card guy. Good enough to win any of the lower titles, good enough to be national champion, good enough to get a few large wins here and there, but never good enough to be world champion......atleast that's what you all think......"
"I gave myself till a night to remember, the night my contract runs out to either get a title shot or be champion. And I fully mean that Steve. See if I can't win the title after four years of busting my ass in NCW then I have no right even being here. If I can't prove to myself to you to the fans that I deserve to be here and I am a world champion, then I need to leave....."
I sigh deeply and shake my head, it's a hard fact but it's one I fully intend on going through with.....
"Just like you tried to leave. See I get it Steve. I do. You're a former tag team champion, a former national champion and a former world champion. You've done it all. You've headlined pay per views, you've been one of the biggest draws in NCW and you have beaten pretty much everyone in NCW. You've even beaten me. But Steve, I'm not done yet. And one of those things that I want to happen if I'm going to leave NCW and retire is that I want one time, one on one a chance to prove that I can beat the franchise of NCW......"
"Just one time Steve, JUST ONE TIME I want to walk down to that ring, look you in the eye and put everything I have into the ring and leave it there. See Steve this isn't about hate because I don't hate you Steve. I don't hate you, I just don't want people to beleive that I can't beat you and I'm not in your league....."
"I've had enough of people thinking that you are this unstoppable force. I've had enough of people thinking that I can't be a world champion. It makes me sick Steve. It makes me sick to think that when I do leave this company, my legacy is going to be two X-Division title reigns, a national title reign and getting bitch slapped week in and week out by Angel. And of course, being the resident choke artist of NCW. I come up to a huge match I’m expected to win and I choke, I get a world title shot and I choke. I choke more than a debuting pornstar......”
“That is not the legacy I want to leave behind.....”
I pause for a moment and reflect.
“There was a time Steve, a time when I thought you and I could be friends. We had alot in common. Ego’s, the whole sexy thing, the fact that every time we got into a ring we did something innovative. We are similar Steve. Admittedly I can now use my real name instead of having to advertise, I can’t tell you how AWESOME that is. But this Sunday Stevo, well this Sunday, it’ll be just like my NCW theme song says, I will take you straight to heaven if you let me. I will go to the ring and put on a match with you and knock your damn head off and in doing that we will steal the show.....”
I smile to myself and pause again getting excited.
“But as I’ve said before. I don’t hate you as a person Steve. I just hate what you’ve grown to represent. You’ve built this persona for yourself. This face of the franchise thing. You walk around like you’re untouchable, like you’re a god. And the rest of us are nothing. You walk around like a movie star and you are perhaps the one person whose ego is more out of control than mine.....”
“You need to be brought down to earth. You need to realise even with all the world titles, even with all the big matches, you’re still the same guy with the abs who are more famous than he is spouting out clever little one liners and his one word catch phrase. But Steve I am willing to admit “deuces” is alot better than “the ace is in the place”. Seriously how the hell did you tag with that doofus?.....”
“You’re a walking STD joke Steve. And we’ve all had to sit here and watch you try and be with Kelly Knite, and then Crystal Hilton, and lose. We watched as you tried time and time again to win the world title from rob diamond and then you FINALLY succeeded only to be beaten by Xander Famularo, upstaged by the new kid eh Steve?.....”
I shake my head and sigh.
“Last month I got beaten by Adam Knite, I had a chance for retribution slip through my fingers and now this month, this month I get a chance to wipe that permanent grin from your face....and Steve you better beleive I’m not going to let a chance like this slip through my finger, come Sunday you and I will meet in the ring, good luck Steven.......really....good luck....”
A smile comes across my face as my fingers shake. The excitement flows through my veins.
"You know. For years, in another company, I was always looked at as the better man. I held every single title our former employer put up there. Same thing you've done here. See Steve you signed on the dotted line to NCW before I did, and when Leonard was chasing my signature, you where in his ear telling him how I was in XHF...."
"But after three years of being here Steve I have more than proved my worth. But I seem to be in this same spot. Over and over again I seem to be the mid card guy. Good enough to win any of the lower titles, good enough to be national champion, good enough to get a few large wins here and there, but never good enough to be world champion......atleast that's what you all think......"
"I gave myself till a night to remember, the night my contract runs out to either get a title shot or be champion. And I fully mean that Steve. See if I can't win the title after four years of busting my ass in NCW then I have no right even being here. If I can't prove to myself to you to the fans that I deserve to be here and I am a world champion, then I need to leave....."
I sigh deeply and shake my head, it's a hard fact but it's one I fully intend on going through with.....
"Just like you tried to leave. See I get it Steve. I do. You're a former tag team champion, a former national champion and a former world champion. You've done it all. You've headlined pay per views, you've been one of the biggest draws in NCW and you have beaten pretty much everyone in NCW. You've even beaten me. But Steve, I'm not done yet. And one of those things that I want to happen if I'm going to leave NCW and retire is that I want one time, one on one a chance to prove that I can beat the franchise of NCW......"
"Just one time Steve, JUST ONE TIME I want to walk down to that ring, look you in the eye and put everything I have into the ring and leave it there. See Steve this isn't about hate because I don't hate you Steve. I don't hate you, I just don't want people to beleive that I can't beat you and I'm not in your league....."
"I've had enough of people thinking that you are this unstoppable force. I've had enough of people thinking that I can't be a world champion. It makes me sick Steve. It makes me sick to think that when I do leave this company, my legacy is going to be two X-Division title reigns, a national title reign and getting bitch slapped week in and week out by Angel. And of course, being the resident choke artist of NCW. I come up to a huge match I’m expected to win and I choke, I get a world title shot and I choke. I choke more than a debuting pornstar......”
“That is not the legacy I want to leave behind.....”
I pause for a moment and reflect.
“There was a time Steve, a time when I thought you and I could be friends. We had alot in common. Ego’s, the whole sexy thing, the fact that every time we got into a ring we did something innovative. We are similar Steve. Admittedly I can now use my real name instead of having to advertise, I can’t tell you how AWESOME that is. But this Sunday Stevo, well this Sunday, it’ll be just like my NCW theme song says, I will take you straight to heaven if you let me. I will go to the ring and put on a match with you and knock your damn head off and in doing that we will steal the show.....”
I smile to myself and pause again getting excited.
“But as I’ve said before. I don’t hate you as a person Steve. I just hate what you’ve grown to represent. You’ve built this persona for yourself. This face of the franchise thing. You walk around like you’re untouchable, like you’re a god. And the rest of us are nothing. You walk around like a movie star and you are perhaps the one person whose ego is more out of control than mine.....”
“You need to be brought down to earth. You need to realise even with all the world titles, even with all the big matches, you’re still the same guy with the abs who are more famous than he is spouting out clever little one liners and his one word catch phrase. But Steve I am willing to admit “deuces” is alot better than “the ace is in the place”. Seriously how the hell did you tag with that doofus?.....”
“You’re a walking STD joke Steve. And we’ve all had to sit here and watch you try and be with Kelly Knite, and then Crystal Hilton, and lose. We watched as you tried time and time again to win the world title from rob diamond and then you FINALLY succeeded only to be beaten by Xander Famularo, upstaged by the new kid eh Steve?.....”
I shake my head and sigh.
“Last month I got beaten by Adam Knite, I had a chance for retribution slip through my fingers and now this month, this month I get a chance to wipe that permanent grin from your face....and Steve you better beleive I’m not going to let a chance like this slip through my finger, come Sunday you and I will meet in the ring, good luck Steven.......really....good luck....”
