Post by Todd Williams on Mar 2, 2012 20:38:39 GMT -6
So here I am, and in just a few short amount of days I will be walking into a match where four men will be giving it their all for the glory of walking out with the New Championship Wrestling World Championship. You would think with a match of this caliber everyone would be going out there and pulling out all the stunts to ensure that they would walk out as champion yet there is one individual out of those four who doesn’t quite have his head in the game, and I would be lying if I told you all that person wasn’t me. The sad sorrowful truth though is that person is me and to be honest I don’t even know why I should even care…
For far too long I have tried to mold myself into whatever the people wanted from me and whether it was being that over the top name yelling lunatic to the man who tried to prove to everyone that he can be serious what have I really proved?
The answer is nothing… no matter what I’ve done it never seems to be enough because I am still stuck in the same old same old. I still am preaching about the same stuff that I did when I first came into this company. I am still talking about making those dreams become a reality yet how much dreaming does a man have to do before those dreams finally come to pass?
The more I think about it, the more it drives me to the point of insanity…
I am tired of being just a dreamer…
I want to be more than that…
I want to be an achiever…
Yet it’s hard to become something else when I don’t even know who I am as a person…
Our scene opens up to home of the Williams and as it does we are taken to the living room area. It is there where we are able to see Todd’s daughter Brittany playing a video game. It’s a classic it seems that she is playing Final Fantasy IX for the PS One. Brittany seems to really be heavily involved in her video game, and I can’t help but stare at my little girl. Just look at her she is growing up to be quite the young lady. On Monday she will be turning ten years of age. It really never ceases to amaze me. That she is a combined mixture of Jennifer, Crystal, and me. She is as beautiful as her mother, she has the intelligence to be anything she wants just like her Aunt, and well she has that same carefree attitude that I do. I can’t help but smile as I gaze at her. Today we here in our house for a father and daughter day, Crystal is out with Jennifer and Zelda doing God knows what, but this is Brittany’s time with her daddy. With everything that has been going on between Jennifer and I this really will be a great day of bonding for us. I hover over my soon to be ten year old as I begin to speak to her.
“Hey B Brat, so this Monday you have your birthday coming up. You are going to be the big one zero. You will have been living for an entire decade. What would you like for your birthday? I know last year you wished for mommy and I to work our problems out and look at us now. We have a fantastic relationship. So tell me pumpkin what do you want for this birthday? Because if it’s a PS Vita I am hearing rumors that your Auntie Zelda is going to take care of you nicely…”
The little ten year old pauses the game as she glances back at me. She offers me that cheerful smile, the same smile that made me fall in love with Crystal years ago. She stares at me in the eyes as she replies back.
“I just want you to win the World Championship so that you could be happy… That’s all I really want…”
In that moment I am instantly blown away because the little ten year old, my soon to be ten year old was more concerned about someone else rather than herself. It’s funny because as I glance at her I no longer saw Crystal in her but I saw a reflection of myself. For so long I would always try to put someone else’s needs before my own. I don’t know what to think of this but one thing is for certain I couldn’t let my daughter think like that. Why should she have to put up with the burdens of others? She should be able to do her own thing, and that’s when I reply back to her.
“Pumpkin I know you want me to win, but this isn’t about daddy. This is about you, and your birthday not me. Don’t go worrying about me…”
Despite me trying to sway my daughter to get her mind elsewhere she can’t help but keep her eyes locked on me as she replies back.
“But daddy I just want to help you… just like you always help me…”
I look back at her and I really don’t know what to think. She did have a point though. It seems like I do go around helping others most of the time, and as I watch my daughter I notice that she has having issues against Necron. I quickly grab the controller as I smile back at her and begin to play the video game.
“Brittany I don’t know why you want to help me out… But let’s on you, I could have sworn I told you whenever you fight Necron you want to have Vivi cast dark matter all the time, have Steiner do his Shock, and Zidane can do his regular attack. As for Dagger well let her heal or something, you master that and you will get this down in no time…”
I can’t help but smirk as I really am taking it to the end game boss but that’s when my little girl surprises me. She grabs the controller from me and presses pause. She stands in front of the television so that she is solely looking into my eyes. As she offers me a response that simply blows me away.
“You don’t need a reason to help people…”
I am literally speechless, she offered me a quote right from the video game’s main character himself. Finally as my daughter kept her cheerful glance at me, I started to realize who I am as a person. I started to come to the understanding of what my purpose was in this world. I can feel the tears coming as it took the love of a daughter for her father for me to regain my senses. I want to cry tears of joys for my little girl for cheering me up but instead I fight it. I stay strong as I offer a smirk to Brittany as I pull her in close to me.
“Come here Brittany, why don’t we beat this game together…
Brittany grins as she sits beside me, and together we focus on taking the mighty Necron down. With that in mind it is on this image that we fade out on.
This Sunday four of us will be walking into the ring for one purpose and one purpose only, and that is to become World Champion. As I said before three of the men seem to be focus on this match, and each of them all know who they are as a person and what steps they need to take in order to define themselves.
For my best friend Xander it’s about walking in his father’s legacy, it’s about treasuring that last name of his and truly being the guy to carry this company into the promise land. Xander really is like a Moses of NCW and when he Adam and Zelda stood up to Leonard Fox, it’s as if he was telling Pharoh to let his people go. However Xander wants to do a lot more than just take this company to the promised land of new heights. He wants to establish himself as something even greater. I know he has his mind set on winning this match and if he does so he will be a step closer to holding the record for longest reign as NCW World Champion. I know that’s what Xander wants to do more than anything and I saw that for myself when I locked up with him back at Metamorphosis.
For Jimmy Zane this is his quest to become a World Champion. This is about his journey to go from zero to becoming a hero. This about Jimmy wanting to be taken seriously and no longer as a joke of the company, I myself looked at Jimmy as somewhat as a joke but in our one and one encounter last year he was the one to show me that he wasn’t a joke. I tried to get under his skin becoming Theodore for the sake of annoying him as James Wolfe but he was focused and he’s the one who made a joke out of me. While Jimmy had been on the rise I still continued to suffer from the used car battery syndrome. Only working on occasion, Jimmy however seems focus and with one win he can put everyone else to shame.
As for Lex Sense this is his chance to shine. For Lex this is about getting his long awaited shot at the World Championship. I don’t know how the guy is able to deal with it. He teamed up with Joe Everyman, he teamed up with Jimmy Zane, yet somehow he didn’t let the foolishness of his partners hinder on who he was as a person. Well I guess Joe couldn’t hinder on him as that man has no personality what so ever, and maybe he did love an ice cream bar or two hanging out with Jimmy Zane, but through it all Lex still remains as one of the most feared men in this company. Wu Tang ain’t got nothing on Lex because Lex definitely isn’t one to **** with. I know Lex wants this win I could sense it when we were the final two in the Riot match…. Finally after it all he has his shot, and he knows who he is as a person, and knows what he must accomplish in order to get it done…
I am glad that the other three have their heads in the game, and they know what needs to get done, but as for me I was still caught up in exactly who is Todd Williams. I had the opportunity to play some Final Fantasy 9 with my little daughter, and it didn’t dawn on me who I was until hearing various quotes from different characters in that game.
You don’t need a reason to help people – Zidane
How do you prove you exist? Maybe we don’t exist. –Vivi
To be Forgotten is worse than death. -Freya
Someday I will be Queen, but I will always be myself. –Dagger
I don’t wanna be alone anymore. –Eiko
I do what I want! You have problem!? –Quina
Sometimes you can’t think everything out. You just have to listen to your heart. -Zidane
In a nutshell each of those expressions defines me as a person. I was the man who would often go out of his way to protect his sister yet would get careless when it came to his wife. I would be the man who would often change who he was just to fit in with what the masses wanted. When everyone thought I was the joke of the company I had to become that Todd Williams who was serious, and when people thought I had no personality I had to go over the top just to get noticed. Because in my mind I thought I could truly do whatever I want, and I didn’t want to be forgotten…
Yet I shouldn’t get up with what others want because I don’t need a reason to change for anyone. The only person that I have to be is myself, and at the beginning of the year the real Todd started to flow out…
At the beginning of the year I know people were probably RIOTing when they saw me outlast 29 other guys to control my destiny at my hands.
Last month people got to see the METAMORPHOSIS of me, and Xander had an up close encounter that Todd wanted to belong with the best in the business.
And now here we are, in the month of March. After everything I am finally going to go out there to that ring and do what I do best, and that’s being me.
I find it humorous because every man in this match seems like they all have something to accomplish yet only one man can accomplish what they want while the other three men will have their heads held down in shame.
Gentlemen we truly are at a Crossroads, and it seems like we have all arrived at this intersection at the same exact time.
Who will go first?
Who has the right of way?
I don’t know about you all but while you are still contemplating what to do I am going to be the man who has the balls to drive first across through that intersection.
I have come way too far to put my foot on the breaks… sometimes you just have to floor it and take the risk…
It’s all or nothing and that’s why I have no choice but to listen to my heart and put the pedal to the metal…
I refuse to be forgotten…
I refuse to have this dream deferred…
Love me… hate me… call me a joke… tell me I am the reason our race is being set back for 20 years… hell take shots at me on Spike TV…
I really don’t care…
The only thing that matters is that I break out of my shell and be myself…
And that is being TODD WILLIAMS….. yes I said TODD WILLIAMS!!!!!!!
It’s about being TODD WILLIAMS and by the end of the night everyone will know that I MEAN BUSINESS!!!!!!
Bring whatever you want gentlemen because at Crossroads you will see that dreams can in fact become a reality…
For far too long I have tried to mold myself into whatever the people wanted from me and whether it was being that over the top name yelling lunatic to the man who tried to prove to everyone that he can be serious what have I really proved?
The answer is nothing… no matter what I’ve done it never seems to be enough because I am still stuck in the same old same old. I still am preaching about the same stuff that I did when I first came into this company. I am still talking about making those dreams become a reality yet how much dreaming does a man have to do before those dreams finally come to pass?
The more I think about it, the more it drives me to the point of insanity…
I am tired of being just a dreamer…
I want to be more than that…
I want to be an achiever…
Yet it’s hard to become something else when I don’t even know who I am as a person…
Our scene opens up to home of the Williams and as it does we are taken to the living room area. It is there where we are able to see Todd’s daughter Brittany playing a video game. It’s a classic it seems that she is playing Final Fantasy IX for the PS One. Brittany seems to really be heavily involved in her video game, and I can’t help but stare at my little girl. Just look at her she is growing up to be quite the young lady. On Monday she will be turning ten years of age. It really never ceases to amaze me. That she is a combined mixture of Jennifer, Crystal, and me. She is as beautiful as her mother, she has the intelligence to be anything she wants just like her Aunt, and well she has that same carefree attitude that I do. I can’t help but smile as I gaze at her. Today we here in our house for a father and daughter day, Crystal is out with Jennifer and Zelda doing God knows what, but this is Brittany’s time with her daddy. With everything that has been going on between Jennifer and I this really will be a great day of bonding for us. I hover over my soon to be ten year old as I begin to speak to her.
“Hey B Brat, so this Monday you have your birthday coming up. You are going to be the big one zero. You will have been living for an entire decade. What would you like for your birthday? I know last year you wished for mommy and I to work our problems out and look at us now. We have a fantastic relationship. So tell me pumpkin what do you want for this birthday? Because if it’s a PS Vita I am hearing rumors that your Auntie Zelda is going to take care of you nicely…”
The little ten year old pauses the game as she glances back at me. She offers me that cheerful smile, the same smile that made me fall in love with Crystal years ago. She stares at me in the eyes as she replies back.
“I just want you to win the World Championship so that you could be happy… That’s all I really want…”
In that moment I am instantly blown away because the little ten year old, my soon to be ten year old was more concerned about someone else rather than herself. It’s funny because as I glance at her I no longer saw Crystal in her but I saw a reflection of myself. For so long I would always try to put someone else’s needs before my own. I don’t know what to think of this but one thing is for certain I couldn’t let my daughter think like that. Why should she have to put up with the burdens of others? She should be able to do her own thing, and that’s when I reply back to her.
“Pumpkin I know you want me to win, but this isn’t about daddy. This is about you, and your birthday not me. Don’t go worrying about me…”
Despite me trying to sway my daughter to get her mind elsewhere she can’t help but keep her eyes locked on me as she replies back.
“But daddy I just want to help you… just like you always help me…”
I look back at her and I really don’t know what to think. She did have a point though. It seems like I do go around helping others most of the time, and as I watch my daughter I notice that she has having issues against Necron. I quickly grab the controller as I smile back at her and begin to play the video game.
“Brittany I don’t know why you want to help me out… But let’s on you, I could have sworn I told you whenever you fight Necron you want to have Vivi cast dark matter all the time, have Steiner do his Shock, and Zidane can do his regular attack. As for Dagger well let her heal or something, you master that and you will get this down in no time…”
I can’t help but smirk as I really am taking it to the end game boss but that’s when my little girl surprises me. She grabs the controller from me and presses pause. She stands in front of the television so that she is solely looking into my eyes. As she offers me a response that simply blows me away.
“You don’t need a reason to help people…”
I am literally speechless, she offered me a quote right from the video game’s main character himself. Finally as my daughter kept her cheerful glance at me, I started to realize who I am as a person. I started to come to the understanding of what my purpose was in this world. I can feel the tears coming as it took the love of a daughter for her father for me to regain my senses. I want to cry tears of joys for my little girl for cheering me up but instead I fight it. I stay strong as I offer a smirk to Brittany as I pull her in close to me.
“Come here Brittany, why don’t we beat this game together…
Brittany grins as she sits beside me, and together we focus on taking the mighty Necron down. With that in mind it is on this image that we fade out on.
This Sunday four of us will be walking into the ring for one purpose and one purpose only, and that is to become World Champion. As I said before three of the men seem to be focus on this match, and each of them all know who they are as a person and what steps they need to take in order to define themselves.
For my best friend Xander it’s about walking in his father’s legacy, it’s about treasuring that last name of his and truly being the guy to carry this company into the promise land. Xander really is like a Moses of NCW and when he Adam and Zelda stood up to Leonard Fox, it’s as if he was telling Pharoh to let his people go. However Xander wants to do a lot more than just take this company to the promised land of new heights. He wants to establish himself as something even greater. I know he has his mind set on winning this match and if he does so he will be a step closer to holding the record for longest reign as NCW World Champion. I know that’s what Xander wants to do more than anything and I saw that for myself when I locked up with him back at Metamorphosis.
For Jimmy Zane this is his quest to become a World Champion. This is about his journey to go from zero to becoming a hero. This about Jimmy wanting to be taken seriously and no longer as a joke of the company, I myself looked at Jimmy as somewhat as a joke but in our one and one encounter last year he was the one to show me that he wasn’t a joke. I tried to get under his skin becoming Theodore for the sake of annoying him as James Wolfe but he was focused and he’s the one who made a joke out of me. While Jimmy had been on the rise I still continued to suffer from the used car battery syndrome. Only working on occasion, Jimmy however seems focus and with one win he can put everyone else to shame.
As for Lex Sense this is his chance to shine. For Lex this is about getting his long awaited shot at the World Championship. I don’t know how the guy is able to deal with it. He teamed up with Joe Everyman, he teamed up with Jimmy Zane, yet somehow he didn’t let the foolishness of his partners hinder on who he was as a person. Well I guess Joe couldn’t hinder on him as that man has no personality what so ever, and maybe he did love an ice cream bar or two hanging out with Jimmy Zane, but through it all Lex still remains as one of the most feared men in this company. Wu Tang ain’t got nothing on Lex because Lex definitely isn’t one to **** with. I know Lex wants this win I could sense it when we were the final two in the Riot match…. Finally after it all he has his shot, and he knows who he is as a person, and knows what he must accomplish in order to get it done…
I am glad that the other three have their heads in the game, and they know what needs to get done, but as for me I was still caught up in exactly who is Todd Williams. I had the opportunity to play some Final Fantasy 9 with my little daughter, and it didn’t dawn on me who I was until hearing various quotes from different characters in that game.
You don’t need a reason to help people – Zidane
How do you prove you exist? Maybe we don’t exist. –Vivi
To be Forgotten is worse than death. -Freya
Someday I will be Queen, but I will always be myself. –Dagger
I don’t wanna be alone anymore. –Eiko
I do what I want! You have problem!? –Quina
Sometimes you can’t think everything out. You just have to listen to your heart. -Zidane
In a nutshell each of those expressions defines me as a person. I was the man who would often go out of his way to protect his sister yet would get careless when it came to his wife. I would be the man who would often change who he was just to fit in with what the masses wanted. When everyone thought I was the joke of the company I had to become that Todd Williams who was serious, and when people thought I had no personality I had to go over the top just to get noticed. Because in my mind I thought I could truly do whatever I want, and I didn’t want to be forgotten…
Yet I shouldn’t get up with what others want because I don’t need a reason to change for anyone. The only person that I have to be is myself, and at the beginning of the year the real Todd started to flow out…
At the beginning of the year I know people were probably RIOTing when they saw me outlast 29 other guys to control my destiny at my hands.
Last month people got to see the METAMORPHOSIS of me, and Xander had an up close encounter that Todd wanted to belong with the best in the business.
And now here we are, in the month of March. After everything I am finally going to go out there to that ring and do what I do best, and that’s being me.
I find it humorous because every man in this match seems like they all have something to accomplish yet only one man can accomplish what they want while the other three men will have their heads held down in shame.
Gentlemen we truly are at a Crossroads, and it seems like we have all arrived at this intersection at the same exact time.
Who will go first?
Who has the right of way?
I don’t know about you all but while you are still contemplating what to do I am going to be the man who has the balls to drive first across through that intersection.
I have come way too far to put my foot on the breaks… sometimes you just have to floor it and take the risk…
It’s all or nothing and that’s why I have no choice but to listen to my heart and put the pedal to the metal…
I refuse to be forgotten…
I refuse to have this dream deferred…
Love me… hate me… call me a joke… tell me I am the reason our race is being set back for 20 years… hell take shots at me on Spike TV…
I really don’t care…
The only thing that matters is that I break out of my shell and be myself…
And that is being TODD WILLIAMS….. yes I said TODD WILLIAMS!!!!!!!
It’s about being TODD WILLIAMS and by the end of the night everyone will know that I MEAN BUSINESS!!!!!!
Bring whatever you want gentlemen because at Crossroads you will see that dreams can in fact become a reality…
