Post by Todd Williams on Mar 3, 2012 22:57:11 GMT -6
I can’t believe it. In just one short day I will be walking into a match where everything is pretty much on the line. I would be lying if I said that I am not anxious for this match but the truth is I can feel the butterflies flying all in my stomach. I can feel the goose bumps popping up all over my body, and I can feel my heart beating faster and faster, as the adrenaline seems to be kicking in.
Every day, for the past three months I have honestly been waking up in the middle of the night having the same exact dream over and over again. The dream of me actually proving everybody wrong and becoming a World Champion. I know it sounds weird to dream because dreamers are only left using their imagination to envision things happening. I been telling myself for far too long that I shouldn’t be a dreamer but as I came to the realization a few days ago it’s a part of who I am. There should be no reason for me to run away from my dreams instead I just need to focus on achieving them.
This is my Crossroads…
I truly am not worried about what the other three men want to achieve…
The only thing that can stop me from winning this match is my own lack of confidence.
I just need to negate all of those crazy thoughts and instead focus on my strengths and turning my weaknesses into perhaps my biggest strengths. I know no one really thinks that much of me. To everyone I am just the same old one trick pony who has no business being involved in any of this. Everyone seems to think that I am just the merchandise, the catch phrases, the lame puns, the video games but I assure you that I am much more than that…
I don’t want to be the guy that people look at and go oh “LOOK AT TODD, LOOKING LIKE HE CAN DO SOMETHING…”
I don’t want to get caught up in just “looking” because looks can be deceiving but I want to be the son of a bitch that ACTUALLY CAN DO SOMETHING…
It’s time to hold onto my beliefs and dreams, and prove that those dreams can come true….
Sure they may never come to pass, sure I may be holding onto such a false sense of security and pride…
I really don’t care…
It’s time to defeat my sin…
It’s time to bring the calm…
And more importantly than that it’s time to return to Zanarkand…
Wake up Todd… Wake up Todd… This is more than just a dream…
This is what you been fighting for…
We open up and this time we find ourselves in my gym in the downstairs of my house. I stand there as I drive kick after kick at the huge heavy punching bag. As I drive kicks I am able to see my protégé Jasmine Barrera walking downstairs to the gym. She has a somewhat confused expression on her face as she glances over at me. I don’t lose focus though as I continue to hit that bag with everything that I have inside of me.
“So you wanted me to come over?! What did you have in mind Todd… I thought we weren’t going to do a training session for a while…”
I just keep hitting the bag with harder strikes. Jasmine just glances at me as she crosses her arms. She nods her head speaking some more.
“Oh Todd you are looking like you can do something…”
I don’t know if I should laugh at her using one of my own catch phrases or if I should be embarrassed. One thing is for sure I can feel the sweat slowly dripping down my face. I take a breather as I glance back at her.
“Thank you so much for coming up Jazz… The reason I asked you to come out here is because I needed your help with my training. This is the time when I want you to become the teacher and I shall become the pupil. I know it sounds strange, but I need this from you…”
Jasmine just gives me a befuddled look. An expression that tells me she thinks I am crazy. She rolls her eyes as she looks back at me.
“And what exactly could I teach you Todd?! After all I have yet to win a match yet… Wouldn’t you be better off asking your wife Crystal to help you out? I mean I really don’t have any idea why you want me hear…”
I however keep my eyes firmly locked on her, as I shake my head and reply back.
“I know I could always go to Crystal but for this I really need your help. Crystal and I think too much alike. We think about going for the big pop looking good for the camera. Hence you would say just doing a whole bunch of flips. I need to be much more than that Jasmine. You may be a rookie as a wrestler but you seem to be a pretty good kick boxer. I want that same discipline that you have. The discipline that teaches you to give everything you have even when there’s nothing left in the tank. That’s what I want… Just like you my last couple of matches haven’t been the best but I rather focus on what’s ahead, and I don’t know anyone else who could help bring that out of me. So please help me…”
She looks at me and slowly nods her head.
“Ok Todd but don’t expect me to go easy on you… If it’s discipline you want that’s exactly what you are going to get. For starters you shouldn’t wear your heart on your sleeve all the time. You need to clear your mind and just take all your frustrations out in the match. You don’t win by matches by jumping around flipping around like a lunatic. You win by keeping calm and focusing on your goal. You get where I am coming from?”
I slowly nod my head as I glance back at Jasmine. I offer her a smirk as I keep my eyes on her.
“Instead of saying what you are going to do… Just be about it… Hence going out there and MEANING BUSINESS….”
Jasmine just glances at me sighing as she replies back.
“Sure if you say so… Just promise me one thing, if I am going to help you out… I don’t want to hear one catch phrase…. Alright now that we got that out of the way let’s start shall me?”
I slowly nod my head as my student, becomes my teacher. I know everyone else must be doing all kinds of things to get ready for the match but this is how I like to roll. Besides I would say I am in a win win situation. I get a hot ass Latina to show me a thing or two… How many guys can say that. Anyway I know Jasmine won’t go easy, I know she will tell me what she knows. I must focus, and I must clear my head… Chances like this only come once in a while. With that in mind we slowly fade out on this image as it fades to black.
So gentlemen this is it… Like I told you once before this is our Crossroads. We each want something different but only one person can accomplish their dreams.
Xander buddy what can I say. You are my brother, you are my best friend. You are the boyfriend of my sister. I hope you treat her well because you truly are a great man. I don’t know how you and I have a song which we can call “ours” but I think for this match you are the one who will need to hold out for a hero. I know you seem to think that you need this match, it’s in your blood to go out there and carry on your family’s honor, but that’s where you are wrong Xander. I know we are best friends but in this match you will be far from that. The way I see it you have something I want and I intend to take it. I don’t care what I have to put on the line, I will do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING to achieve my dreams.
I get it Xander… Really I do… You are the self proclaimed Chosen one…
Xander how can I break it to you?
You aren’t the chosen one…
Moses and Anakin Skywalker called… they want their gimmicks back…
You won’t be bringing balance to the force…
You won’t be leading this company to the promise land…
Instead you will be falling down before me…
Oh wait you might be the Chosen one, just like that Lebron James…
You know the man who left his home state to play on this Star Studded team…
Yet when it truly matters and the game is on the line he just doesn’t deliver…
I intend to be the Dallas Mavericks to your Miami Heat, I tend to dose extinguish your heat out. Last month when we faced and you wrestled me to a draw, that was you passing the ball in the fourth quarter. This week I will kill your dreams of being the longest reigning champion as I become the new champion.
I will be the anarchy to your hierarchy, and there’s nothing you can do about it…
Oh wait you can… you can stop being the “Chosen One” I mean I think you would do much better as a Hate Breeder buddy or better yet after you lose why don’t you go hide behind a mask…
Wait a minute… you did that already haven’t you? Silly me…
Jimmy Zane what’s there really to say about you, the one time we faced off one on one you destroyed me. Both times that you and Lex have teamed up you have always seem to get the best of me. However this time the playing field seems a little different because you aren’t going up against that man who is riding a bad emotional roller costar because his wife his ****ing some dude with nice abs. You aren’t fighting a man who is willing to dance and prance around the ring…
Sure I will scream out IM TODD WILLIAMS because that’s who you are getting this week. You are getting a man who wants this more than you. I know you been in NCW for a long time but I think I want this more Jimmy Zane. I honestly can’t wait to see what you bring in the ring because I know what I am bringing. I am laying it all in that ring. My blood, my sweat, my tears, everything I have plus more… So get ready Jimmy because I refuse to be InZane but instead I rather be your worst “Nightmare”. Night night Jimmy this Dreamer is putting you to sleep…
Last but not least Lex Sense, the man who everyone is looking at to win this big match, this is your moment isn’t it? Well if you think that’s the case you better think again. You need to realize how much I want this match. A man like me just doesn’t walk into the RIOT at the number six spot to lose. Instead I came out there, I stood in the ring over an hour, and I won. Not only did I win but I threw your ass out of the ring. I know you tower over me, and hell you seem to tower over every man in this match but I am one who isn’t running from you…
You may very well have the size advantage and I don’t care…
When motivated I can push myself to do anything… which includes beating you… Does last summer ring a bell?
I hope you are prepared because I will play the role of David to your Goliath… I will strike you down Lex… so come on buddy give me what you got because I am not backing down for anything…
I know people must think I am going insane that I actually am here telling you all that I think I have what it takes to win. Why is that hard to believe?
When I went the distance with Xander was that really unbelievable?
Sure I didn’t win but did Rocky win in the very first movie? No it took Rocky two attempts and this is my second crack at glory and I intend to make the most of it.
I know it might seem silly to be a dreamer sometimes but why is it silly?
Was it silly when perhaps the biggest dreamer of them all, that’s right Martin Luther King Jr. in 1963 when he dreamed of Racial Equality for everyone…
Sure his dream may not have occurred overnight after all he eventually got assassinated but it’s still a dream that’s being put into play even today…
That was a dream that wasn’t deferred so why should I believe that mines will suddenly dry up like a raisin in the sun?
The fact is it won’t, and I will be damn if it does…
I will continue pouring everything into that ring that I have in my body to make it come to pass.
Who is Todd Williams?!
That’s the question that I was questioning myself on…
Well that’s simple..
He’s a dreamer… he’s a believer… he’s an achiever…
He can be the joke of the company… he can be the man who lets the women in his life ruin his career… he is the man who seems to be more concerned over his sister than his own wife…
In the same token he’s a hard working father… He’s a family man… he’s successful… he’s a man who sticks to his morals, and he’s himself…
To be honest whatever way you look at me… I honestly just don’t care because with one win I can change what you people think about me, and you will be forced to acknowledge me as World Champion…
I know the odds may be stacked against me but I don’t need to be the wrestler of the year, I don’t need to be over 7 foot tall, I don’t have to be as quick as Jimmy Zane…
The only thing I have to do is win one match on one night…
I just have to be the best in one match and that’s what I am going…
Fellas I hope you are ready because I know I am…
It’s time to make these dreams become a reality…
Brittany sweetie… I will make your birthday wish come true because daddy is coming back home with the belt….
This one is for you…. For I am TODD WILLIAMS and I MEAN BUSINESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS…..
NRP BONE BONE BONE SEE YOU AT THA CROSSROADS........ and I'M GONNA TELL EVERYBODY!!!!!
Every day, for the past three months I have honestly been waking up in the middle of the night having the same exact dream over and over again. The dream of me actually proving everybody wrong and becoming a World Champion. I know it sounds weird to dream because dreamers are only left using their imagination to envision things happening. I been telling myself for far too long that I shouldn’t be a dreamer but as I came to the realization a few days ago it’s a part of who I am. There should be no reason for me to run away from my dreams instead I just need to focus on achieving them.
This is my Crossroads…
I truly am not worried about what the other three men want to achieve…
The only thing that can stop me from winning this match is my own lack of confidence.
I just need to negate all of those crazy thoughts and instead focus on my strengths and turning my weaknesses into perhaps my biggest strengths. I know no one really thinks that much of me. To everyone I am just the same old one trick pony who has no business being involved in any of this. Everyone seems to think that I am just the merchandise, the catch phrases, the lame puns, the video games but I assure you that I am much more than that…
I don’t want to be the guy that people look at and go oh “LOOK AT TODD, LOOKING LIKE HE CAN DO SOMETHING…”
I don’t want to get caught up in just “looking” because looks can be deceiving but I want to be the son of a bitch that ACTUALLY CAN DO SOMETHING…
It’s time to hold onto my beliefs and dreams, and prove that those dreams can come true….
Sure they may never come to pass, sure I may be holding onto such a false sense of security and pride…
I really don’t care…
It’s time to defeat my sin…
It’s time to bring the calm…
And more importantly than that it’s time to return to Zanarkand…
Wake up Todd… Wake up Todd… This is more than just a dream…
This is what you been fighting for…
We open up and this time we find ourselves in my gym in the downstairs of my house. I stand there as I drive kick after kick at the huge heavy punching bag. As I drive kicks I am able to see my protégé Jasmine Barrera walking downstairs to the gym. She has a somewhat confused expression on her face as she glances over at me. I don’t lose focus though as I continue to hit that bag with everything that I have inside of me.
“So you wanted me to come over?! What did you have in mind Todd… I thought we weren’t going to do a training session for a while…”
I just keep hitting the bag with harder strikes. Jasmine just glances at me as she crosses her arms. She nods her head speaking some more.
“Oh Todd you are looking like you can do something…”
I don’t know if I should laugh at her using one of my own catch phrases or if I should be embarrassed. One thing is for sure I can feel the sweat slowly dripping down my face. I take a breather as I glance back at her.
“Thank you so much for coming up Jazz… The reason I asked you to come out here is because I needed your help with my training. This is the time when I want you to become the teacher and I shall become the pupil. I know it sounds strange, but I need this from you…”
Jasmine just gives me a befuddled look. An expression that tells me she thinks I am crazy. She rolls her eyes as she looks back at me.
“And what exactly could I teach you Todd?! After all I have yet to win a match yet… Wouldn’t you be better off asking your wife Crystal to help you out? I mean I really don’t have any idea why you want me hear…”
I however keep my eyes firmly locked on her, as I shake my head and reply back.
“I know I could always go to Crystal but for this I really need your help. Crystal and I think too much alike. We think about going for the big pop looking good for the camera. Hence you would say just doing a whole bunch of flips. I need to be much more than that Jasmine. You may be a rookie as a wrestler but you seem to be a pretty good kick boxer. I want that same discipline that you have. The discipline that teaches you to give everything you have even when there’s nothing left in the tank. That’s what I want… Just like you my last couple of matches haven’t been the best but I rather focus on what’s ahead, and I don’t know anyone else who could help bring that out of me. So please help me…”
She looks at me and slowly nods her head.
“Ok Todd but don’t expect me to go easy on you… If it’s discipline you want that’s exactly what you are going to get. For starters you shouldn’t wear your heart on your sleeve all the time. You need to clear your mind and just take all your frustrations out in the match. You don’t win by matches by jumping around flipping around like a lunatic. You win by keeping calm and focusing on your goal. You get where I am coming from?”
I slowly nod my head as I glance back at Jasmine. I offer her a smirk as I keep my eyes on her.
“Instead of saying what you are going to do… Just be about it… Hence going out there and MEANING BUSINESS….”
Jasmine just glances at me sighing as she replies back.
“Sure if you say so… Just promise me one thing, if I am going to help you out… I don’t want to hear one catch phrase…. Alright now that we got that out of the way let’s start shall me?”
I slowly nod my head as my student, becomes my teacher. I know everyone else must be doing all kinds of things to get ready for the match but this is how I like to roll. Besides I would say I am in a win win situation. I get a hot ass Latina to show me a thing or two… How many guys can say that. Anyway I know Jasmine won’t go easy, I know she will tell me what she knows. I must focus, and I must clear my head… Chances like this only come once in a while. With that in mind we slowly fade out on this image as it fades to black.
So gentlemen this is it… Like I told you once before this is our Crossroads. We each want something different but only one person can accomplish their dreams.
Xander buddy what can I say. You are my brother, you are my best friend. You are the boyfriend of my sister. I hope you treat her well because you truly are a great man. I don’t know how you and I have a song which we can call “ours” but I think for this match you are the one who will need to hold out for a hero. I know you seem to think that you need this match, it’s in your blood to go out there and carry on your family’s honor, but that’s where you are wrong Xander. I know we are best friends but in this match you will be far from that. The way I see it you have something I want and I intend to take it. I don’t care what I have to put on the line, I will do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING to achieve my dreams.
I get it Xander… Really I do… You are the self proclaimed Chosen one…
Xander how can I break it to you?
You aren’t the chosen one…
Moses and Anakin Skywalker called… they want their gimmicks back…
You won’t be bringing balance to the force…
You won’t be leading this company to the promise land…
Instead you will be falling down before me…
Oh wait you might be the Chosen one, just like that Lebron James…
You know the man who left his home state to play on this Star Studded team…
Yet when it truly matters and the game is on the line he just doesn’t deliver…
I intend to be the Dallas Mavericks to your Miami Heat, I tend to dose extinguish your heat out. Last month when we faced and you wrestled me to a draw, that was you passing the ball in the fourth quarter. This week I will kill your dreams of being the longest reigning champion as I become the new champion.
I will be the anarchy to your hierarchy, and there’s nothing you can do about it…
Oh wait you can… you can stop being the “Chosen One” I mean I think you would do much better as a Hate Breeder buddy or better yet after you lose why don’t you go hide behind a mask…
Wait a minute… you did that already haven’t you? Silly me…
Jimmy Zane what’s there really to say about you, the one time we faced off one on one you destroyed me. Both times that you and Lex have teamed up you have always seem to get the best of me. However this time the playing field seems a little different because you aren’t going up against that man who is riding a bad emotional roller costar because his wife his ****ing some dude with nice abs. You aren’t fighting a man who is willing to dance and prance around the ring…
Sure I will scream out IM TODD WILLIAMS because that’s who you are getting this week. You are getting a man who wants this more than you. I know you been in NCW for a long time but I think I want this more Jimmy Zane. I honestly can’t wait to see what you bring in the ring because I know what I am bringing. I am laying it all in that ring. My blood, my sweat, my tears, everything I have plus more… So get ready Jimmy because I refuse to be InZane but instead I rather be your worst “Nightmare”. Night night Jimmy this Dreamer is putting you to sleep…
Last but not least Lex Sense, the man who everyone is looking at to win this big match, this is your moment isn’t it? Well if you think that’s the case you better think again. You need to realize how much I want this match. A man like me just doesn’t walk into the RIOT at the number six spot to lose. Instead I came out there, I stood in the ring over an hour, and I won. Not only did I win but I threw your ass out of the ring. I know you tower over me, and hell you seem to tower over every man in this match but I am one who isn’t running from you…
You may very well have the size advantage and I don’t care…
When motivated I can push myself to do anything… which includes beating you… Does last summer ring a bell?
I hope you are prepared because I will play the role of David to your Goliath… I will strike you down Lex… so come on buddy give me what you got because I am not backing down for anything…
I know people must think I am going insane that I actually am here telling you all that I think I have what it takes to win. Why is that hard to believe?
When I went the distance with Xander was that really unbelievable?
Sure I didn’t win but did Rocky win in the very first movie? No it took Rocky two attempts and this is my second crack at glory and I intend to make the most of it.
I know it might seem silly to be a dreamer sometimes but why is it silly?
Was it silly when perhaps the biggest dreamer of them all, that’s right Martin Luther King Jr. in 1963 when he dreamed of Racial Equality for everyone…
Sure his dream may not have occurred overnight after all he eventually got assassinated but it’s still a dream that’s being put into play even today…
That was a dream that wasn’t deferred so why should I believe that mines will suddenly dry up like a raisin in the sun?
The fact is it won’t, and I will be damn if it does…
I will continue pouring everything into that ring that I have in my body to make it come to pass.
Who is Todd Williams?!
That’s the question that I was questioning myself on…
Well that’s simple..
He’s a dreamer… he’s a believer… he’s an achiever…
He can be the joke of the company… he can be the man who lets the women in his life ruin his career… he is the man who seems to be more concerned over his sister than his own wife…
In the same token he’s a hard working father… He’s a family man… he’s successful… he’s a man who sticks to his morals, and he’s himself…
To be honest whatever way you look at me… I honestly just don’t care because with one win I can change what you people think about me, and you will be forced to acknowledge me as World Champion…
I know the odds may be stacked against me but I don’t need to be the wrestler of the year, I don’t need to be over 7 foot tall, I don’t have to be as quick as Jimmy Zane…
The only thing I have to do is win one match on one night…
I just have to be the best in one match and that’s what I am going…
Fellas I hope you are ready because I know I am…
It’s time to make these dreams become a reality…
Brittany sweetie… I will make your birthday wish come true because daddy is coming back home with the belt….
This one is for you…. For I am TODD WILLIAMS and I MEAN BUSINESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS…..
NRP BONE BONE BONE SEE YOU AT THA CROSSROADS........ and I'M GONNA TELL EVERYBODY!!!!!
