Post by Spike Kane on Apr 6, 2012 9:45:52 GMT -6
”Dear Mother, I love you
I'm sorry, that I wasn't good enough
Dear Father, forgive me
Cause in your eyes, I just never added up
In my heart I know I failed you
But you left me here alone!”
Sometimes I don't even remember who I am any more I don't remember what I'm supposed to be, who I'm supposed to fight for, what I stand for....it all just blends into one massive pulpy mess of brain damage...
Do I fight for the downtrodden like we did in The Forgotten?
Do I fight for supremacy like I did with my Empire?
Or do I fight for the Blood God? And the cause that is chaos?
I've done stupid things over my years, and I've fought for a lot of different reasons, but to think that the main one has ever changed, it would just show you how little you know about me. I fight.....because I have to. I don't know anything else, I can't do anything else.....I was raised to fight, to be the best and there is nothing else I can do that even comes close.
You wonder why I can't stay away? Well there you have it...it's in my blood, it's in my genes. I have no other option, and before any of you say anything....I've tried. You know I've tried, general manager, TV show host....it just wasn't enough....so when Kelly offered me the spot? I damn near bit her hand off....I am back in nCw and back in the nCw ring, doing what I love doing, and doing it at the level I deserve to be doing it at. If any of you have a problem with that, then you need to re-evaluate your definition of “deserving”
I am Spike Kane. I have bled for this company, I have shed tears for this company.....and I have made so many people here a star, just because I have the power and the ability.....Sunday is calling us, and I promise you this I WILL walk out as the Gladiator!
~~~~
If I could hold back the rain, would you numb the pain
Cause I remember, everything!
If I could help you forget, would you take my regrets
Cause I remember, everything!”
Dr. Riley Griffiths office, March 25th 2012.
[/b]I'm sorry, that I wasn't good enough
Dear Father, forgive me
Cause in your eyes, I just never added up
In my heart I know I failed you
But you left me here alone!”
Sometimes I don't even remember who I am any more I don't remember what I'm supposed to be, who I'm supposed to fight for, what I stand for....it all just blends into one massive pulpy mess of brain damage...
Do I fight for the downtrodden like we did in The Forgotten?
Do I fight for supremacy like I did with my Empire?
Or do I fight for the Blood God? And the cause that is chaos?
I've done stupid things over my years, and I've fought for a lot of different reasons, but to think that the main one has ever changed, it would just show you how little you know about me. I fight.....because I have to. I don't know anything else, I can't do anything else.....I was raised to fight, to be the best and there is nothing else I can do that even comes close.
You wonder why I can't stay away? Well there you have it...it's in my blood, it's in my genes. I have no other option, and before any of you say anything....I've tried. You know I've tried, general manager, TV show host....it just wasn't enough....so when Kelly offered me the spot? I damn near bit her hand off....I am back in nCw and back in the nCw ring, doing what I love doing, and doing it at the level I deserve to be doing it at. If any of you have a problem with that, then you need to re-evaluate your definition of “deserving”
I am Spike Kane. I have bled for this company, I have shed tears for this company.....and I have made so many people here a star, just because I have the power and the ability.....Sunday is calling us, and I promise you this I WILL walk out as the Gladiator!
~~~~
If I could hold back the rain, would you numb the pain
Cause I remember, everything!
If I could help you forget, would you take my regrets
Cause I remember, everything!”
Dr. Riley Griffiths office, March 25th 2012.
Riley: So Mike, are we clear on this?
Spike is sitting opposite the resident psychiatrist Dr Riley Griffiths. His mouth has almost hit the floor as he is staring back at the good doctor with disbelief.
Spike: You're kidding me right?
Riley: Not at all Michael. Mrs Knite was very sincere and your progress has been extremely impressive. I'm surprised that she had not enquired sooner and we could have got you back into the ring a lot quicker.
Spike is beaming, literally smiling from ear to ear. He leans forwards towards Riley and seems almost to be begging for the punchline.
Spike: So she contacted you first then? That makes sense.....wouldn't want to get my hopes up.
Riley: Yes, that's right. We agreed that it would be in your best interests to return to the ring, and of course Mrs Knite knows exactly what is good for business and what is not. I heard she wanted to make a new DVD for you?
Spike: Really!? That's awesome! Man...I can't wait to get back in the ring, the Coliseum.....it's just....wow, I never thought I'd ever be in one of them....but you know what? I think I can win it!
Riley folds his arms and looks up at Spike a little sceptical.
Riley: Let's not go getting carried away now Michael. You have a lot of work to do....and besides, there is a rule to all this too.
Spike: I knew there was a catch....
Riley: You have to continue keeping the diary you kept whilst you were active, and if Mrs Knite or myself spot any warning signs we have the right to pull you from the active roster immediately. Do you agree to these terms?
Spike sighs a little, still not knowing whether to believe or not. But he nods his head and leans forward to shake hands with the doctor, before scribbling his name on the piece of paper presented to him.
Spike: Thanks Doc.....for everything....
~~~
“But dear brother, just don't hate me
For never standing by you, or being by your side
Dear sister, please don't blame me
I only did, what I thought was truly right
In my heart I know I failed you
But you left me here alone!”
They say that there is no reasoning with a man who has nothing left to lose, and to a fair extent I'd agree with it, I'd agree with you Ricky. However, there is a line where things like that pale in comparison, and that line is crossed the moment you step into the Coliseum. I look at you Ricky and I see a man with a reason, a man with an excuse.....just like always.
I do have the utmost respect for you, but I'm tired of people lining up their excuses before they even fail, and failure is something you seem to be getting used to. Oh, no, don't take anything away from you. What you have done here in nCw is impressive, I mean at least somebody finally took the best national champion thing from Joe Everyman. I mean we wouldn't want that staining the company for years to come would we? No Ricky, you know exactly what I'm talking about.....you are blessed with the same curse Alex Jones has...
I like to call it Davey Ortega syndrome.
You can cut a swathe of destruction through the roster, tear up the likes of The Ace and Nathan Webb and have an amazing run as the National Champion with barely anyone of worth to defend against, but when it comes to the big game? When it comes to finally reaching the final brass ring? When it comes to smashing through that glass ceiling....you fall short every time. It sucks, I know....because a lot of the time I've been right there with you, on your side, hoping you'll break through and become the true legend you are destined to be.....but it has to take a toll Ricky...I mean for crying out loud...
Todd Williams became world champion before you did.
That has to hurt, right? A sting right there in the pride. I know it can't be fun, and seeing that pansy ass little prick prancing around with the world heavyweight title....it must fill you with rage, a burning desire to become better, to finally make it and slap that pathetic loser back to the ground....but the thing is Ricky? It won't be you....hell it probably won't be anyone in this match, because my money is firmly behind Lex Sense to tear that oreo apart. But what I'm trying to say to you Ricky....it isn't enough, it won't be enough....it never can be.
Go home and enjoy your life with your family.....
Leave the carnage to us monsters.
~~~
“But dear brother, just don't hate me
For never standing by you, or being by your side
Dear sister, please don't blame me
I only did, what I thought was truly right
In my heart I know I failed you
But you left me here alone!”
They say that there is no reasoning with a man who has nothing left to lose, and to a fair extent I'd agree with it, I'd agree with you Ricky. However, there is a line where things like that pale in comparison, and that line is crossed the moment you step into the Coliseum. I look at you Ricky and I see a man with a reason, a man with an excuse.....just like always.
I do have the utmost respect for you, but I'm tired of people lining up their excuses before they even fail, and failure is something you seem to be getting used to. Oh, no, don't take anything away from you. What you have done here in nCw is impressive, I mean at least somebody finally took the best national champion thing from Joe Everyman. I mean we wouldn't want that staining the company for years to come would we? No Ricky, you know exactly what I'm talking about.....you are blessed with the same curse Alex Jones has...
I like to call it Davey Ortega syndrome.
You can cut a swathe of destruction through the roster, tear up the likes of The Ace and Nathan Webb and have an amazing run as the National Champion with barely anyone of worth to defend against, but when it comes to the big game? When it comes to finally reaching the final brass ring? When it comes to smashing through that glass ceiling....you fall short every time. It sucks, I know....because a lot of the time I've been right there with you, on your side, hoping you'll break through and become the true legend you are destined to be.....but it has to take a toll Ricky...I mean for crying out loud...
Todd Williams became world champion before you did.
That has to hurt, right? A sting right there in the pride. I know it can't be fun, and seeing that pansy ass little prick prancing around with the world heavyweight title....it must fill you with rage, a burning desire to become better, to finally make it and slap that pathetic loser back to the ground....but the thing is Ricky? It won't be you....hell it probably won't be anyone in this match, because my money is firmly behind Lex Sense to tear that oreo apart. But what I'm trying to say to you Ricky....it isn't enough, it won't be enough....it never can be.
Go home and enjoy your life with your family.....
Leave the carnage to us monsters.
~~~
April 4th, 2012.
It's becoming pretty clear to me that this match really can be the defining moment of my career. I'm tired of people saying I always leave, and ironically it's people that leave themselves saying it. I'm tired of people saying I'm too old to do this....I'm only 33 for crying out loud, yeah I've been doing this longer than most of these guys.....but it's all I've ever done, it's all I know.
Gee....that is a harsh truth. It really is all I know...
Man, Alysson is coming over tonight anyway, we're going to take Xander to this play area place, it looks cool. It has ball pits and slides so....yeah.
-Spike.
~~~
“If I could hold back the rain, would you numb the pain
Cause I remember, everything!
If I could help you forget, would you take my regrets
Cause I remember, everything!”
It really wouldn't be a welcoming committee if it didn't have my good old frenemy as an integral part of it, isn't that right Jake? Man, it must really make you feel awesome to be mentioned along side names such as Falcon, Ricky Johnson, Nathan Webb, and Spike Kane. I know, I know, you really are elevated by present company.
But it's been that way throughout your career.
Any kind of fanfare or limelight you've been in or a part of, has been because of the other part, because of who you were fighting, and let's not mix words here Jake, nine times out of ten....it was me. You made your way to this federation, or that federation because you followed me around like a lost puppy, because you just didn't know how to get **** done in this business and you had to leech off of me to even try and garner some fame.
You like to call yourself my one successful student of Xtreme, a protégée of sorts.....far from it Jake. You have this messed up notion in your head about how the student has surpassed the teacher, about how the torch has been passed on, hell you even tried to take the Dragon's Den as your home, but I showed you Jake, and I showed the world....on January 1st 2012 I showed the entire universe that the Dragon's Den is my home, and it is my playground....you just leached off of yet another legacy because you can't find the simple truth.
You are incapable of building your own legacy.
It's cool though Jake, we all know that your perfectly fine to sit there and dissect every little detail about everybody else's career, and everybody else's promos and point out the flaws, instead of actually coming out of the gate and talking some smack like a pro, you hide away and wait until just before the dust settles so you can quickly sneak in and try to make people look like fools and throw them off of their game, because you are a coward Jake. You always have been, and you always will be.
You have never surpassed anything in your life, let alone me. My career stands tall against the best this business has ever, or will ever see. I have carved a brutal legacy into this business and left parts of my soul behind as the price. What have you done? Where have you branched out and made a true implant on this business that didn't preceed one from people like me, or Dave Holland? Huh? You know deep down it's all true Jake. You are the poor mans Dave Holland, a man who will always be remembered in this company with fondness, whereas you will be remembered like a shot of lemon juice, leaving a horrible sour taste behind.
Just like your career.
Yes, you think mine is in ashes, that is fine. You try to make the comment that Alex Jones burned it down? You seriously have a skewed perspective Jake....I beat him, I was FORCED to retire you dumbass piece of crap. I know you don't pay attention to anything that doesn't revolve around The Ace, but how hard is it to remember something as simple as that? I know, I know....it shouldn't matter because what you can and can't remember because your memory is exactly what you will be in this match.
Insignificant.
~~~
“If I could hold back the rain, would you numb the pain
Cause I remember, everything!
If I could help you forget, would you take my regrets
Cause I remember, everything!”
It really wouldn't be a welcoming committee if it didn't have my good old frenemy as an integral part of it, isn't that right Jake? Man, it must really make you feel awesome to be mentioned along side names such as Falcon, Ricky Johnson, Nathan Webb, and Spike Kane. I know, I know, you really are elevated by present company.
But it's been that way throughout your career.
Any kind of fanfare or limelight you've been in or a part of, has been because of the other part, because of who you were fighting, and let's not mix words here Jake, nine times out of ten....it was me. You made your way to this federation, or that federation because you followed me around like a lost puppy, because you just didn't know how to get **** done in this business and you had to leech off of me to even try and garner some fame.
You like to call yourself my one successful student of Xtreme, a protégée of sorts.....far from it Jake. You have this messed up notion in your head about how the student has surpassed the teacher, about how the torch has been passed on, hell you even tried to take the Dragon's Den as your home, but I showed you Jake, and I showed the world....on January 1st 2012 I showed the entire universe that the Dragon's Den is my home, and it is my playground....you just leached off of yet another legacy because you can't find the simple truth.
You are incapable of building your own legacy.
It's cool though Jake, we all know that your perfectly fine to sit there and dissect every little detail about everybody else's career, and everybody else's promos and point out the flaws, instead of actually coming out of the gate and talking some smack like a pro, you hide away and wait until just before the dust settles so you can quickly sneak in and try to make people look like fools and throw them off of their game, because you are a coward Jake. You always have been, and you always will be.
You have never surpassed anything in your life, let alone me. My career stands tall against the best this business has ever, or will ever see. I have carved a brutal legacy into this business and left parts of my soul behind as the price. What have you done? Where have you branched out and made a true implant on this business that didn't preceed one from people like me, or Dave Holland? Huh? You know deep down it's all true Jake. You are the poor mans Dave Holland, a man who will always be remembered in this company with fondness, whereas you will be remembered like a shot of lemon juice, leaving a horrible sour taste behind.
Just like your career.
Yes, you think mine is in ashes, that is fine. You try to make the comment that Alex Jones burned it down? You seriously have a skewed perspective Jake....I beat him, I was FORCED to retire you dumbass piece of crap. I know you don't pay attention to anything that doesn't revolve around The Ace, but how hard is it to remember something as simple as that? I know, I know....it shouldn't matter because what you can and can't remember because your memory is exactly what you will be in this match.
Insignificant.
~~~
April 5th, 2012
I don't know why people don't think I can do this, why people think I'm not in the best shape or anything to go through with this. I've only been out of action since January, and then I was in the best shape of my life. I was on the best run I've had in wrestling in general for a long time.
I beat Angel.
I beat Alex Jones.
Twice.
I was doing well and earning my way towards a world heavyweight title shot, but the fates had a different plan and I was forced to the sidelines once again. Something the jackasses in this match won't let me forget, like I had a choice or something. “Oh yes, damn me and that mental health issue I decided to give myself”
F*cking jerks...
-Spike.
~~~
“I feel like running away, I'm still so far from home
You say that I'll never change, but what the f*ck do you know!
I'll burn it all to the ground, before I let you run
Oh please forgive me! I can't forgive you now.”
With William and Nathan given more than enough to respond to, I just want to hit the nail on the head. You guys are talented....I'll give you both that, and William, you do have experience and you've been here and done that. But how much ring rust do you REALLY have? How much fear must you have inside you?
The level of talent in this match far surpasses your past efforts. You have come back to nCw where the competition has thrived, and as far as I can remember....you've never been in the ring with me. Correct me if I'm wrong, no seriously, feel free....because if I am wrong, then it just means that it wasn't a very memorable match at all....but you Nate?
You I feel the most sorry for, because this really is your chance to shine, your chance to break out and really make a name for yourself. Any other time I'd be rooting for you, I'd want the underdog to break through and ironically I'd want him to pin someone like me....but it just isn't going to happen Nate.
Ricky is desperate.
Falcon is too smart.
The Ace is a conniving little prick.
Washington is sneaky little bastard...
and I'm just too damn pretty. No, wait....that's not right. Or is it? No....I'm all of it combined. I'm everything everyone is saying that they are, or need to be to get this victory. I am truly the best, whether people accept it or not, it really means nothing to be because I know...
And when I stand tall above you all, you all will know too, and you all
WILL
BLOODY
HAIL!
~~~
“I feel like running away, I'm still so far from home
You say that I'll never change, but what the f*ck do you know!
I'll burn it all to the ground, before I let you run
Oh please forgive me! I can't forgive you now.”
With William and Nathan given more than enough to respond to, I just want to hit the nail on the head. You guys are talented....I'll give you both that, and William, you do have experience and you've been here and done that. But how much ring rust do you REALLY have? How much fear must you have inside you?
The level of talent in this match far surpasses your past efforts. You have come back to nCw where the competition has thrived, and as far as I can remember....you've never been in the ring with me. Correct me if I'm wrong, no seriously, feel free....because if I am wrong, then it just means that it wasn't a very memorable match at all....but you Nate?
You I feel the most sorry for, because this really is your chance to shine, your chance to break out and really make a name for yourself. Any other time I'd be rooting for you, I'd want the underdog to break through and ironically I'd want him to pin someone like me....but it just isn't going to happen Nate.
Ricky is desperate.
Falcon is too smart.
The Ace is a conniving little prick.
Washington is sneaky little bastard...
and I'm just too damn pretty. No, wait....that's not right. Or is it? No....I'm all of it combined. I'm everything everyone is saying that they are, or need to be to get this victory. I am truly the best, whether people accept it or not, it really means nothing to be because I know...
And when I stand tall above you all, you all will know too, and you all
WILL
BLOODY
HAIL!
~~~
April 6th, 2012
Training for Sunday has gone up a notch. Really pushing myself to try and be at my ultimate physical perfection for the Coliseum. Chances like this don't come along very often. Kelly was quite clear with me.....she wants me to win this match, she gave me the chance to go to A Night to Remember and do something good for once.
Man that pay per view holds bad memories....
I need to win this, to get my life back on track, to get the monkey off of my back. This isn't for the fans, it isn't for Xander, or even Alysson....this isn't even for the Kane Legacy.
This is for me.
-Spike
~~~~
“If I could hold back the rain, would you numb the pain
Cause I remember, everything!
If I could help you forget, would you take my regrets
Cause I remember, everything!
It all went by so fast, I still can't change the past
I will always remember, everything!
If we could start again, would that change the end?
Cause we remember...
EVERYTHING!”
You thought I had forgotten you, right?
Get it?
Ha!
No Kyle, I did not forget you and I never glossed over you at all. Clearly you were too wrapped up in being a model citizen than you didn't pay attention to my promo at all. I was doing the world a favour, and giving you all a chance to say your piece before I slam you all to the ground and rip it apart. I did the only thing that I thought could do the respect I hold for you justice.
I saved the best for last.
A few years ago you came into this company with an outlook that I wasn't used to seeing. You were Falcon, and you would not change for anybody. You opened my eyes and showed me that the rage and anger that guided me were being used wrong, they were controlling me instead of me controlling them. We were the ones who were looked past, because we don't have the **** eating grin like The Ace. Because we don't suck up to management like Washington. We were just ordinary dudes, doing our thing.
So The Forgotten was born and we did what we normally did, but made sure people were aware of it. That if they needed help, they could come to us, that we would help guide the young talent and ensure they get their chance to shine. Ironic right now that both of us have taken spots in the Coliseum. But let's think about it.....who would you have put in there in stead? Lex Sense has a title match, Todd Williams doesn't even deserve a spot on the roster, Alex Jones five millionth shot at breaking into the main event!? What about Jimmy Zane? Oh wait....didn't he leave again?
The only person who deserves a spot in this match that doesn't have one, is Roberto Verona, and really I think if anyone was to drop out for him, it would be Washington. He deserves to be here the least out of everyone.
But we are here Kyle, two members of a former faction, two members of a dying breed. We are the people who got to extreme lengths to ensure this companies survival. We are the people who set the example, but the thing is Kyle. You look down on me like you are better than me, like you are a better person than me. Well, you need to get over it....Falcon. I am the most dangerous man to ever step foot into the squared circle, and I challenge anyone to deny it.....you might think you are a noble spirit, one who can raise his head higher than the others...
But then we can just show the wife beating clip.
And bring you back down with the rabble and the demons. I never claimed to be anything other than what I am Kyle. I'm a nasty bastard, I hurt people for fun, and I am really damn good at it. I've retired more people than I can even care to name, and now I have my shot at greatness once again....one step closer to that world title and becoming part of a very exclusive club and becoming a two time world heavyweight champion.
I want it more than I have ever wanted anything in my life.
I deserve to be at the top Kyle, whether you agree or not. Whether Washington kicks and screams or not....whether Ace makes childish puns about my “dead” career that is flying healthy miles above his own....
It pales in comparison to my desire.
This day is mine, and each and every last one of you will have to kill me to stop me.
[/color]“If I could hold back the rain, would you numb the pain
Cause I remember, everything!
If I could help you forget, would you take my regrets
Cause I remember, everything!
It all went by so fast, I still can't change the past
I will always remember, everything!
If we could start again, would that change the end?
Cause we remember...
EVERYTHING!”
You thought I had forgotten you, right?
Get it?
Ha!
No Kyle, I did not forget you and I never glossed over you at all. Clearly you were too wrapped up in being a model citizen than you didn't pay attention to my promo at all. I was doing the world a favour, and giving you all a chance to say your piece before I slam you all to the ground and rip it apart. I did the only thing that I thought could do the respect I hold for you justice.
I saved the best for last.
A few years ago you came into this company with an outlook that I wasn't used to seeing. You were Falcon, and you would not change for anybody. You opened my eyes and showed me that the rage and anger that guided me were being used wrong, they were controlling me instead of me controlling them. We were the ones who were looked past, because we don't have the **** eating grin like The Ace. Because we don't suck up to management like Washington. We were just ordinary dudes, doing our thing.
So The Forgotten was born and we did what we normally did, but made sure people were aware of it. That if they needed help, they could come to us, that we would help guide the young talent and ensure they get their chance to shine. Ironic right now that both of us have taken spots in the Coliseum. But let's think about it.....who would you have put in there in stead? Lex Sense has a title match, Todd Williams doesn't even deserve a spot on the roster, Alex Jones five millionth shot at breaking into the main event!? What about Jimmy Zane? Oh wait....didn't he leave again?
The only person who deserves a spot in this match that doesn't have one, is Roberto Verona, and really I think if anyone was to drop out for him, it would be Washington. He deserves to be here the least out of everyone.
But we are here Kyle, two members of a former faction, two members of a dying breed. We are the people who got to extreme lengths to ensure this companies survival. We are the people who set the example, but the thing is Kyle. You look down on me like you are better than me, like you are a better person than me. Well, you need to get over it....Falcon. I am the most dangerous man to ever step foot into the squared circle, and I challenge anyone to deny it.....you might think you are a noble spirit, one who can raise his head higher than the others...
But then we can just show the wife beating clip.
And bring you back down with the rabble and the demons. I never claimed to be anything other than what I am Kyle. I'm a nasty bastard, I hurt people for fun, and I am really damn good at it. I've retired more people than I can even care to name, and now I have my shot at greatness once again....one step closer to that world title and becoming part of a very exclusive club and becoming a two time world heavyweight champion.
I want it more than I have ever wanted anything in my life.
I deserve to be at the top Kyle, whether you agree or not. Whether Washington kicks and screams or not....whether Ace makes childish puns about my “dead” career that is flying healthy miles above his own....
It pales in comparison to my desire.
This day is mine, and each and every last one of you will have to kill me to stop me.
