Post by Shelly Taylor-Jones on Jun 14, 2012 5:24:38 GMT -6
“I can be the bitch, I can play the whore, or your fairytale princess, who could ask for more?. A touch of wicked, a pinch of risqué, good girl gone bad, my poison is your remedy.”
“Blame me....”
“Point your fingers...”
“Twist my words...”
“Lie about me....”
“I don’t care...”
“Crucify my evil...”
“Defeat the darkness...”
“Or just fail....”
“Jennifer....”
The name tastes like vile in my throat. My stomach churns having to deal with this thing.
“It seems as if you blame me for the new found feelings that Crystal Hilton has been bringing out in herself. It seems as if you believe I am to blame for her attitude and anger. Jennifer, there is no one to blame in this. Crystal is who she has always been. Crystal is the uncrowned champion of NCW’s starlets division. She is the one woman in this company who I respect. She is my best friend, she is my partner in crime...she is my other half....”
“She finally knows who and what she is, and as Crystal prepares to wreck unimaginable chaos on the starlets division I find myself reflecting on my career and lack of impact. You see Jenny, I can call you Jenny right?. Before I got injured, through my injury and all the way to my return I haven’t felt like me...I haven’t been Shelly Taylor-Jones, I haven’t been the woman I was last year....”
“It got me thinking, just who am I?. What am I?. And as I sat on my bedroom floor watching DVD’s of NCW pay per view events and even some collisions I found myself remembering something. Something I never forgot I just kind of, misplaced. I remembered just who I was and what I was capable of....it hit me like a frying pan to the face....”
A wry smile comes across my face, the confidence grows, the arrogance returns, I get excited, happy...I am me again....
“Last year I came into NCW and dominated the Starlets division. I verbally and physically beat down every single bitch NCW put in my way. Amy Marshall, Trish Newborne, Emma Danielson, Aly Gardner...even Crystal herself. They all fell to me, they all ended up on their knees begging me to stop, PLEADING with me to just go away. Because I possessed a confidence and a skill set that put me above my peers. And in time that fire I had slowly disappeared. In time that love I had slowly became nothing....”
“I lost my title to Kelly Knite, I lost my love for this business. And as I stood alone, pain in my knee and a hole in my heart I feared I may never step into the ring again. I sat at home and thought about my life as a wife, as a mother. And while I love my family I knew that I would regret not returning. I would regret turning my back on the ring and on the competition that made me feel alive. So, I got the surgery on my knee and started my rehab vowing to return....”
“And as I made my preparations, Crystal asked me to come back and watch her back, so I used that to make an impact. And what an impact I made as special enforcer. But at the same time I made mistakes, I came back to early, I came back and wasn’t ready, ring rust some call it, I just call it a lack of concentration. I faultered, I lost matches, but now. Well Jenny....now this realisation has led me to one simple understanding....”
I laugh to myself and close my eyes.
“To be who I need to be, to become the Shelly that destroyed an entire division. I need to destroy you. I need to beat you to within an inch of your miserable little life and send a message to the entire Starlets locker room. I need to leave you laying in a pool of your own blood, I need to end you. It’s not a personal issue when it comes to the message I need to send through you. But it is personal when it comes to the enjoyment of inflicting that damage.....”
“This business Jenny is in my blood. As much as it is in yours. Your brother is a former world champion, so are mine, and my ex husband, and honestly if it wasn’t for Adam and Zelda, Alex would be a world champion too. And me, well I am a former Starlets champion, I know what it means to be a champion and to be dominant. And the road back to that title starts with you....”
“It’s no secret I have a deep hatred for Aly Gardner, a hatred that I’m sure she shares with me. And she currently holds a world title she had no right competing for. Twice now that bitch has come back from nothing to get a title shot handed on a silver platter for her to take and somehow fluke a win an d I really hope with every fibre of my being that Amy Marshall breaks her neck, ends her career, takes the title and sends Gardner to some backwater hospital where she can lament her dead career and very slowly fade away into obscurity with her lamewad brother....”
My words spit with venom and hatred.
“But if Gardner does happen to survive Marshall, I need to keep winning, which means beating you Jenny. I win, I advance, I face whoever the champion is Gardner or not and I become champion again. I take my rightful place back on top of the starlets division. And this time, I keep that title and have a run that doesn’t go down in history as a joke, a footnote ended by a member of the ****ing Knite family. It’s funny Jenny, but it seems as if the Knites have it against my family.....”
“Adam and Zelda screw Alex and Kelly takes my title. But we’ve had our problems with the Williams family to. See Alex, my loving husband, is twice the man and wrestler that your weasel of a brother is. I had to sit back and watch him leapfrog Alex and win the world title before him and then piss it all away. So this match Jenny, it’s not just for me, it’s not just for my lovely Crystal, it’s also for Alex....”
“He proved he was better than Todd, even when Todd was champion and I’m going to prove that I’m much much better than you. It wont take me much to prove it Jenny. All I have to do is walk down to that ring, beat you down like the dog you are and walk away with your pride tucked away in my purse......”
I laugh to myself again and shake my head.
“When the dust settles Jenny, I will stand tall with my arm raised. Because I’m part of two families where winning is just what we do. I’m a winner Jenny, a champion, a beacon for all women who wish to do what we do. Little girls around the world will buy mine and Crystals themes off of iTunes, they’ll follow us on Twitter, they’ll buy our action figures and buy the official NCW Halloween costumes, they will idolise us. And I think I figured out what this is all about....”
“It’s jealousy. You see how Crystal and I are taking over. You see how little girls idolise us and you see how even though she is your sister in law Crystal and I are sisters in spirit, Crystal embraces me, respects me....loves me.......and she just see’s you as Todd’s annoying sister.....”
“It’s sad Jenny, it’s sad you feel the need to attack me because I’m closer to Crystal than you will ever be. It’s sad that you’re jealous of who I am and what I will be again. But it’s ok, I don’t blame you Jenny, if I wasn’t me, I’d be jealous too......see you soon...bitch....”
“Blame me....”
“Point your fingers...”
“Twist my words...”
“Lie about me....”
“I don’t care...”
“Crucify my evil...”
“Defeat the darkness...”
“Or just fail....”
“Jennifer....”
The name tastes like vile in my throat. My stomach churns having to deal with this thing.
“It seems as if you blame me for the new found feelings that Crystal Hilton has been bringing out in herself. It seems as if you believe I am to blame for her attitude and anger. Jennifer, there is no one to blame in this. Crystal is who she has always been. Crystal is the uncrowned champion of NCW’s starlets division. She is the one woman in this company who I respect. She is my best friend, she is my partner in crime...she is my other half....”
“She finally knows who and what she is, and as Crystal prepares to wreck unimaginable chaos on the starlets division I find myself reflecting on my career and lack of impact. You see Jenny, I can call you Jenny right?. Before I got injured, through my injury and all the way to my return I haven’t felt like me...I haven’t been Shelly Taylor-Jones, I haven’t been the woman I was last year....”
“It got me thinking, just who am I?. What am I?. And as I sat on my bedroom floor watching DVD’s of NCW pay per view events and even some collisions I found myself remembering something. Something I never forgot I just kind of, misplaced. I remembered just who I was and what I was capable of....it hit me like a frying pan to the face....”
A wry smile comes across my face, the confidence grows, the arrogance returns, I get excited, happy...I am me again....
“Last year I came into NCW and dominated the Starlets division. I verbally and physically beat down every single bitch NCW put in my way. Amy Marshall, Trish Newborne, Emma Danielson, Aly Gardner...even Crystal herself. They all fell to me, they all ended up on their knees begging me to stop, PLEADING with me to just go away. Because I possessed a confidence and a skill set that put me above my peers. And in time that fire I had slowly disappeared. In time that love I had slowly became nothing....”
“I lost my title to Kelly Knite, I lost my love for this business. And as I stood alone, pain in my knee and a hole in my heart I feared I may never step into the ring again. I sat at home and thought about my life as a wife, as a mother. And while I love my family I knew that I would regret not returning. I would regret turning my back on the ring and on the competition that made me feel alive. So, I got the surgery on my knee and started my rehab vowing to return....”
“And as I made my preparations, Crystal asked me to come back and watch her back, so I used that to make an impact. And what an impact I made as special enforcer. But at the same time I made mistakes, I came back to early, I came back and wasn’t ready, ring rust some call it, I just call it a lack of concentration. I faultered, I lost matches, but now. Well Jenny....now this realisation has led me to one simple understanding....”
I laugh to myself and close my eyes.
“To be who I need to be, to become the Shelly that destroyed an entire division. I need to destroy you. I need to beat you to within an inch of your miserable little life and send a message to the entire Starlets locker room. I need to leave you laying in a pool of your own blood, I need to end you. It’s not a personal issue when it comes to the message I need to send through you. But it is personal when it comes to the enjoyment of inflicting that damage.....”
“This business Jenny is in my blood. As much as it is in yours. Your brother is a former world champion, so are mine, and my ex husband, and honestly if it wasn’t for Adam and Zelda, Alex would be a world champion too. And me, well I am a former Starlets champion, I know what it means to be a champion and to be dominant. And the road back to that title starts with you....”
“It’s no secret I have a deep hatred for Aly Gardner, a hatred that I’m sure she shares with me. And she currently holds a world title she had no right competing for. Twice now that bitch has come back from nothing to get a title shot handed on a silver platter for her to take and somehow fluke a win an d I really hope with every fibre of my being that Amy Marshall breaks her neck, ends her career, takes the title and sends Gardner to some backwater hospital where she can lament her dead career and very slowly fade away into obscurity with her lamewad brother....”
My words spit with venom and hatred.
“But if Gardner does happen to survive Marshall, I need to keep winning, which means beating you Jenny. I win, I advance, I face whoever the champion is Gardner or not and I become champion again. I take my rightful place back on top of the starlets division. And this time, I keep that title and have a run that doesn’t go down in history as a joke, a footnote ended by a member of the ****ing Knite family. It’s funny Jenny, but it seems as if the Knites have it against my family.....”
“Adam and Zelda screw Alex and Kelly takes my title. But we’ve had our problems with the Williams family to. See Alex, my loving husband, is twice the man and wrestler that your weasel of a brother is. I had to sit back and watch him leapfrog Alex and win the world title before him and then piss it all away. So this match Jenny, it’s not just for me, it’s not just for my lovely Crystal, it’s also for Alex....”
“He proved he was better than Todd, even when Todd was champion and I’m going to prove that I’m much much better than you. It wont take me much to prove it Jenny. All I have to do is walk down to that ring, beat you down like the dog you are and walk away with your pride tucked away in my purse......”
I laugh to myself again and shake my head.
“When the dust settles Jenny, I will stand tall with my arm raised. Because I’m part of two families where winning is just what we do. I’m a winner Jenny, a champion, a beacon for all women who wish to do what we do. Little girls around the world will buy mine and Crystals themes off of iTunes, they’ll follow us on Twitter, they’ll buy our action figures and buy the official NCW Halloween costumes, they will idolise us. And I think I figured out what this is all about....”
“It’s jealousy. You see how Crystal and I are taking over. You see how little girls idolise us and you see how even though she is your sister in law Crystal and I are sisters in spirit, Crystal embraces me, respects me....loves me.......and she just see’s you as Todd’s annoying sister.....”
“It’s sad Jenny, it’s sad you feel the need to attack me because I’m closer to Crystal than you will ever be. It’s sad that you’re jealous of who I am and what I will be again. But it’s ok, I don’t blame you Jenny, if I wasn’t me, I’d be jealous too......see you soon...bitch....”
