Post by Brad Kane on Jul 16, 2012 21:37:40 GMT -6
~Everyone will be washed away
Drowning in the hell that we made
I cannot believe that our end is so near~
I sit in silence right now. Everyone's gone to bed. Its just me right now sitting outside under the sky. Still warm out right now despite the sun going away for the day. Sometimes the silence is what I need to reflect upon. Not hearing anything outside of a few people outside yet enjoying a beer or two. A few cars pass by as do a few walkers. Odd time of night for people to be out walking. I tilt back in my lawn chair before taking a sip of my own beer.
Honestly at any moment I expect the door to open. Nina will come out to me and ask me what's on my mind even though we both know. She's upset with me because I didn't show up to Spike's big party. I wouldn't have been the greatest of company. Its not like he wants anything with me in his wedding so to hell with him.
Almost on cue the door opens but its not Nina when I turn my head around. Instead its Chris. Should've known he's still awake. Kid is a night owl during the summer. Stays up playing video games, watching movies, and trying to get into his girlfriend's pants. Typical fifteen year stuff. He takes a seat next to me. I nod at him as he cracks open a can of Monster. No wonder he stays up.
Chris: So whats up dad? Why didn't you go to Uncle Spike's party today?
Brad: You know why Chris.
He sighs loudly. He wants this to be over just like everyone else in the family. Its really hard on him. Being his age and guys knowing his real mom is a whore, well, he gets a lot of flak for it. I wish she never did that too him. Just like when she went off into porn. His friends got wind and gave him grief for that too. Typical Megan always thinking of her own feelings.
Chris: Dad, that's one of the worst reasons I've ever heard. I know you're pissed at him for not naming you his best man and everything but...
Brad: Wrong. I didn't go because my mind isn't on having fun right now.
Okay so many he doesn't know exactly what I'm thinking. Then again since Reborn he hasn't much cared for watching. Seeing your own mother in a lingerie match would also cause this. Not what any kid would want to see. Still it goes back more to Lex pie facing him at Reborn.
Chris: Oh right. I try not to think about it. Sometimes you make it hard with sulking around the house or the bruise he gave Nina. I wish I could've been there to beat the crap out of him when he did that. She's so awesome to everyone and he just does that for no reason.
Brad: He had a reason. Everything Lex has done is designed to make me break and tell him he wins. As you know I don't do that.
I look over to see Chris nod his head in agreement. I take another drink of my beer finishing off the bottle. Chris leans forward before tilting his head at me.
Chris: Do you think you have a chance?
I nod my head now.
Chris: But he's huge and its not a normal match. With your neck dad...
Brad: I'll be fine. How many times have I walked out of this without serious injury?
Chris: But you can't keep banking on that to happen! What would we do with you in a wheelchair for the rest of your life! I just...
I sigh as Chris tries not to break into tears. I love him for caring about me so much. He just can't possibly understand what this is. He's too young.
Brad: It won't happen Chris. When you're older you'll understand why I have to do this.
Chris: Its bull**** when you keep saying crap like that! I get it dad! I listen to what you say all the time. I know why you're doing this and I think its stupid. You've proved enough as it is! You kept getting up all the time. Why are you risking it again?
Brad: I just do. Never said you or anyone else had to like it. This is me Chris. You've known for a long time that I don't just go ahead and let someone win like this. When a man thinks he's right then he has to fight for his reasoning until he proves his point. Its pride.
He shakes his head and stands up. I know he's getting upset. He picks up the chair and chucks it across the yard.
Chris: Stop feeding everyone this crap! Lex is a monster, dad. I know you've slayed them before but this was before your neck problems!
Brad: Well aware. Like I said. Pride.
Chris: Whatever. I hope you break your neck. Maybe then we can live a normal life..
I stand up now as Chris goes to storm off inside. I open my mouth but shut it quickly. We both know he doesn't mean it. Just teenage horomones. Kinda like how this all started. I was the big man on campus with the hot chick who slept around. Still it ends on Sunday. Then maybe I'll be able to give Chris his wish.
Drowning in the hell that we made
I cannot believe that our end is so near~
"You know I've been thinking a lot lately about so many things. What it means to me to keep going through something like this. Do I bring this upon myself every single time I open my mouth? I keep finding myself wanting blood and more blood. Nothing ever satisfies the craving that I need to keep going. Its like my Reckless side always boils over the moment something happens to me and I don't know how to deal with it. No matter what I do to someone I feel like I still haven't done enough to them.
Despite going against Joe Everyman to warm me up for this coming Sunday, I still feel as if something isn't quite right. Maybe its the fact that neither Lex or I laid hands on one another for the first time in weeks. It was like the two of us knew that any contact would give the other an advantage. Bit surprised though as Lex would look for anything going into this match. I mean for the past few months its been at one another throats.
I don't know how anyone could possibly hype up this match any more then it possibly already is. If it wasn't for a world title we might be in the main event. There is so much emotion riding in this match I'm not sure what else can be said from me or Lex at this point. Everyone knows how we got to this point. The years of being cheated on behind my back. The final straw with Megan telling me everything. The past year leads up to his point.
Not sure if you remember but last year I was in that ring at Picture Perfect against Adam Knite. The Boston Massacre in Boston. I did what usually happens to me. I messed with a man's family. I kidnapped his kid to prove a point. I stalked his wife in the locker room to prove a point. I took out his knee for months and he still came at me. For the first time in my life I found out what it was to be on the other side of things. First time I knew what it felt like to be the man in power.
I felt the rush of knowing I was messing with his life. The pleasure that I got from that was so amazing but on that night so many things changed in my life. It was around this time last year that Megan would knock on their hotel room and go with both Adam and Kelly. Despite her coming back to me that was the beginning of my paranoia about her doing this all the time. I began to think more and more if she was doing this with other wrestlers.
As we all know I was correct in my fears. From that one night around this time last year my life began to change. As Joe Everyman accused me of last week, I've never changed. How isn't my life going through so much change right now. We all know how long I was with Megan. We all know we had seven kids with one another. We all know that at the moment of a dime dropping my pants would be down around my ankles. That was her choice.
She always made her choices. This time her choice was a terrible one. Out of all the men in that locker room, it was you Lex that got her pregnant. It was you Lex that made me think that Natalie was my little girl until this paranoia got the best of me. For the longest time I thought it would've been Adam's. How crazy would have that been? But nope. It was Lex Sense. Perhaps the largest man on this roster.
Its amazing to me why she came on to you. Maybe she wanted more adventure in her life. Maybe she though a big guy would pack a big one. I'll never know what she saw in you to bring us to this point, Lex. Regardless this is where we stand now. Six nights away from the evening that will change our careers. I've been in so many of these they're beginning to look like a blur. This is about the ninth time we've seen something like the Master of Horrors. Nine times or so I've had to use this match or something close to it.
I've been in this match against men bigger then you. Hardcore Harry. He was bigger. I beat him. I've faced legends in this match. Lance Ryan. Greatest of all time. I pinned him. You said it best last night Lex when you called me a warrior. I am as you said. Time after time these past few months you've kept trying to break me. From choking me at A Night to Remember when I wanted my moment on the biggest stage this company has to offer.
Reborn when you attacked my oldest child. When you laid your hands on Nina and nearly broke her back. A couple of weeks ago when you made her scream into a microphone from putting her in your submission hold. Ever since I cost you the world title you've kept trying to break me and break me. Lance Ryan tried to break me. My own damn brother tried to break me and force me to give in. I never did. I know this is cliche but I don't roll over and give up when everything is on the line.
Much like my sister calls herself. Much like how one of my friends labels himself. I'm Unbreakable. So many men have tried in their careers only to fail. When I want something, Lex, the only thing that stops me is neck surgery. The only thing that stops me is wondering if risking being in a wheelchair for the rest of my life is the way I want to go. These past few months I've always kept asking myself that. Why am I still gunning to beat you.
Why am I risking my life every single time I get into the ring against a man who is so much larger then I am.
Its simple, Lex. My pride. This is about my pride. You embarrassed me. You and Megan caused people to point and laugh at me for not knowing about how many times my wife cheated on me. This is far beyond my first reasons of wanting to prove that you don't belong up at the top of this promotion or any other. This has gone past me kicking your head off in your first one on one world title match to put one over on you.
This is about two men fighting for their lives now. I know you haven't lost sight of what I did to you when I kicked you right in the head. I know you fight for something more than that too. Why else would to stay on this so long if you didn't care about putting me into the ground. You want to end me Lex. Even if you pin me on Sunday night, I'm not going away. I'll still be standing here. That'll hurt your pride.
For months now you've wanted to break me. You can make me bleed. You can break my arm, my leg, my neck, and I'll still show up the next week with a smile on my face. No matter what you do in my match, the Master of Horrors, I'll refuse to let you get the best of me. I'll stand up. No matter what happens I'm going to stand up with my head held up high. Win or lose, we're done Lex. I don't care if we face one another again.
This is the end of us. Our issue ends on Sunday night for the good of this company and for the benefit of our health. Just realize no matter what you do to me I'll stand back up and fight back. I've proven that since A Night to Remember. You've gone after my kids, my new woman, and myself. I'm going to keep pulling myself up. You hurt my pride. This is how I'm hurting yours. I'm deconstructing the myth of the monster at Picture Perfect.
Peace."
Despite going against Joe Everyman to warm me up for this coming Sunday, I still feel as if something isn't quite right. Maybe its the fact that neither Lex or I laid hands on one another for the first time in weeks. It was like the two of us knew that any contact would give the other an advantage. Bit surprised though as Lex would look for anything going into this match. I mean for the past few months its been at one another throats.
I don't know how anyone could possibly hype up this match any more then it possibly already is. If it wasn't for a world title we might be in the main event. There is so much emotion riding in this match I'm not sure what else can be said from me or Lex at this point. Everyone knows how we got to this point. The years of being cheated on behind my back. The final straw with Megan telling me everything. The past year leads up to his point.
Not sure if you remember but last year I was in that ring at Picture Perfect against Adam Knite. The Boston Massacre in Boston. I did what usually happens to me. I messed with a man's family. I kidnapped his kid to prove a point. I stalked his wife in the locker room to prove a point. I took out his knee for months and he still came at me. For the first time in my life I found out what it was to be on the other side of things. First time I knew what it felt like to be the man in power.
I felt the rush of knowing I was messing with his life. The pleasure that I got from that was so amazing but on that night so many things changed in my life. It was around this time last year that Megan would knock on their hotel room and go with both Adam and Kelly. Despite her coming back to me that was the beginning of my paranoia about her doing this all the time. I began to think more and more if she was doing this with other wrestlers.
As we all know I was correct in my fears. From that one night around this time last year my life began to change. As Joe Everyman accused me of last week, I've never changed. How isn't my life going through so much change right now. We all know how long I was with Megan. We all know we had seven kids with one another. We all know that at the moment of a dime dropping my pants would be down around my ankles. That was her choice.
She always made her choices. This time her choice was a terrible one. Out of all the men in that locker room, it was you Lex that got her pregnant. It was you Lex that made me think that Natalie was my little girl until this paranoia got the best of me. For the longest time I thought it would've been Adam's. How crazy would have that been? But nope. It was Lex Sense. Perhaps the largest man on this roster.
Its amazing to me why she came on to you. Maybe she wanted more adventure in her life. Maybe she though a big guy would pack a big one. I'll never know what she saw in you to bring us to this point, Lex. Regardless this is where we stand now. Six nights away from the evening that will change our careers. I've been in so many of these they're beginning to look like a blur. This is about the ninth time we've seen something like the Master of Horrors. Nine times or so I've had to use this match or something close to it.
I've been in this match against men bigger then you. Hardcore Harry. He was bigger. I beat him. I've faced legends in this match. Lance Ryan. Greatest of all time. I pinned him. You said it best last night Lex when you called me a warrior. I am as you said. Time after time these past few months you've kept trying to break me. From choking me at A Night to Remember when I wanted my moment on the biggest stage this company has to offer.
Reborn when you attacked my oldest child. When you laid your hands on Nina and nearly broke her back. A couple of weeks ago when you made her scream into a microphone from putting her in your submission hold. Ever since I cost you the world title you've kept trying to break me and break me. Lance Ryan tried to break me. My own damn brother tried to break me and force me to give in. I never did. I know this is cliche but I don't roll over and give up when everything is on the line.
Much like my sister calls herself. Much like how one of my friends labels himself. I'm Unbreakable. So many men have tried in their careers only to fail. When I want something, Lex, the only thing that stops me is neck surgery. The only thing that stops me is wondering if risking being in a wheelchair for the rest of my life is the way I want to go. These past few months I've always kept asking myself that. Why am I still gunning to beat you.
Why am I risking my life every single time I get into the ring against a man who is so much larger then I am.
Its simple, Lex. My pride. This is about my pride. You embarrassed me. You and Megan caused people to point and laugh at me for not knowing about how many times my wife cheated on me. This is far beyond my first reasons of wanting to prove that you don't belong up at the top of this promotion or any other. This has gone past me kicking your head off in your first one on one world title match to put one over on you.
This is about two men fighting for their lives now. I know you haven't lost sight of what I did to you when I kicked you right in the head. I know you fight for something more than that too. Why else would to stay on this so long if you didn't care about putting me into the ground. You want to end me Lex. Even if you pin me on Sunday night, I'm not going away. I'll still be standing here. That'll hurt your pride.
For months now you've wanted to break me. You can make me bleed. You can break my arm, my leg, my neck, and I'll still show up the next week with a smile on my face. No matter what you do in my match, the Master of Horrors, I'll refuse to let you get the best of me. I'll stand up. No matter what happens I'm going to stand up with my head held up high. Win or lose, we're done Lex. I don't care if we face one another again.
This is the end of us. Our issue ends on Sunday night for the good of this company and for the benefit of our health. Just realize no matter what you do to me I'll stand back up and fight back. I've proven that since A Night to Remember. You've gone after my kids, my new woman, and myself. I'm going to keep pulling myself up. You hurt my pride. This is how I'm hurting yours. I'm deconstructing the myth of the monster at Picture Perfect.
Peace."
~Everyone will be washed away
Drowning in the hell that we made
I cannot believe that our end is so near~
Drowning in the hell that we made
I cannot believe that our end is so near~
I sit in silence right now. Everyone's gone to bed. Its just me right now sitting outside under the sky. Still warm out right now despite the sun going away for the day. Sometimes the silence is what I need to reflect upon. Not hearing anything outside of a few people outside yet enjoying a beer or two. A few cars pass by as do a few walkers. Odd time of night for people to be out walking. I tilt back in my lawn chair before taking a sip of my own beer.
Honestly at any moment I expect the door to open. Nina will come out to me and ask me what's on my mind even though we both know. She's upset with me because I didn't show up to Spike's big party. I wouldn't have been the greatest of company. Its not like he wants anything with me in his wedding so to hell with him.
Almost on cue the door opens but its not Nina when I turn my head around. Instead its Chris. Should've known he's still awake. Kid is a night owl during the summer. Stays up playing video games, watching movies, and trying to get into his girlfriend's pants. Typical fifteen year stuff. He takes a seat next to me. I nod at him as he cracks open a can of Monster. No wonder he stays up.
Chris: So whats up dad? Why didn't you go to Uncle Spike's party today?
Brad: You know why Chris.
He sighs loudly. He wants this to be over just like everyone else in the family. Its really hard on him. Being his age and guys knowing his real mom is a whore, well, he gets a lot of flak for it. I wish she never did that too him. Just like when she went off into porn. His friends got wind and gave him grief for that too. Typical Megan always thinking of her own feelings.
Chris: Dad, that's one of the worst reasons I've ever heard. I know you're pissed at him for not naming you his best man and everything but...
Brad: Wrong. I didn't go because my mind isn't on having fun right now.
Okay so many he doesn't know exactly what I'm thinking. Then again since Reborn he hasn't much cared for watching. Seeing your own mother in a lingerie match would also cause this. Not what any kid would want to see. Still it goes back more to Lex pie facing him at Reborn.
Chris: Oh right. I try not to think about it. Sometimes you make it hard with sulking around the house or the bruise he gave Nina. I wish I could've been there to beat the crap out of him when he did that. She's so awesome to everyone and he just does that for no reason.
Brad: He had a reason. Everything Lex has done is designed to make me break and tell him he wins. As you know I don't do that.
I look over to see Chris nod his head in agreement. I take another drink of my beer finishing off the bottle. Chris leans forward before tilting his head at me.
Chris: Do you think you have a chance?
I nod my head now.
Chris: But he's huge and its not a normal match. With your neck dad...
Brad: I'll be fine. How many times have I walked out of this without serious injury?
Chris: But you can't keep banking on that to happen! What would we do with you in a wheelchair for the rest of your life! I just...
I sigh as Chris tries not to break into tears. I love him for caring about me so much. He just can't possibly understand what this is. He's too young.
Brad: It won't happen Chris. When you're older you'll understand why I have to do this.
Chris: Its bull**** when you keep saying crap like that! I get it dad! I listen to what you say all the time. I know why you're doing this and I think its stupid. You've proved enough as it is! You kept getting up all the time. Why are you risking it again?
Brad: I just do. Never said you or anyone else had to like it. This is me Chris. You've known for a long time that I don't just go ahead and let someone win like this. When a man thinks he's right then he has to fight for his reasoning until he proves his point. Its pride.
He shakes his head and stands up. I know he's getting upset. He picks up the chair and chucks it across the yard.
Chris: Stop feeding everyone this crap! Lex is a monster, dad. I know you've slayed them before but this was before your neck problems!
Brad: Well aware. Like I said. Pride.
Chris: Whatever. I hope you break your neck. Maybe then we can live a normal life..
I stand up now as Chris goes to storm off inside. I open my mouth but shut it quickly. We both know he doesn't mean it. Just teenage horomones. Kinda like how this all started. I was the big man on campus with the hot chick who slept around. Still it ends on Sunday. Then maybe I'll be able to give Chris his wish.
~Everyone will be washed away
Drowning in the hell that we made
I cannot believe that our end is so near~
Drowning in the hell that we made
I cannot believe that our end is so near~
