Post by Jennifer Williams on Aug 19, 2012 6:56:00 GMT -6
Demons…
It just seems like everyone lately has had their share of demons. For Kelly Fox it’s the fact that she is a power hungry company owner which I find very sad because at one time she seemed like her heart was sincere and pure being at ringside calling the matches. You have my future husband Xander who has become a monster in order to protect his sister in law at any and all costs, and of course last but not least you have me. You have little old Jennifer Williams who has given everything she had in her plus more to win the Starlet’s World Championship and in a two week span she turned away on what helped her achieve that championship in the first place.
I find it amusing because I thought that being the champion would solve all my problems but in reality all it did was add additional problems to the pile. I really thought being the Power Couple of NCW with my beautiful fiancé would make things better but it’s just a false delusion. It’s a lie that has left me befuddled, and I thought it was what Xander wanted but all this time I was mistaken.
Xander didn’t want to be handed a title… Oh no… He wanted to earn his place but I never understood that. I thought Xander wearing the mask was a sign of him being a monster but that was never his intention all along, and that realization finally dawned on me when Adam, Herald, and I won our big tag team match last week.
I was waiting for it…
I was waiting for MY Xander to come inside the ring and sweep me off my feet hugging and kissing me for a job well done, after all isn’t that what the so called power couples do? They celebrate together with their hands raised up looking down at the roster knowing that the both of them are on top of the world and no one could do a thing about it….
Yet as soon as we won where was that power couple celebration that I was waiting for? Where was my charming prince?! It was nowhere to be found because Xander saved it for his sister. He knocked me down flat on my ass, and instead yanked his sister up carrying her out of the arena.
I honestly don’t know what to say about any of it but maybe it’s the thing I needed to wake myself out of this delusion that I been meddling with. I am supposed to be a dreamer, I am supposed to be a woman who lives her life out of fighting what she believes in and working hard to get there, not taking cheap shots and short cuts to get ahead.
When my brother won the World Championship he wasn’t afraid of losing it instead he went out like a champ to every single match and he lost it like a man to Ricky Johnson in an epic showdown between two great competitors.. If he could be so calm about it why is it that I am having a hard time doing the same?
It’s because the belt has this unknown pull over me…
I guess I am like Richter Belmont from the CastleVania series.
Richter Belmont was a vampire hunter, in fact he was one of the best and he took the fight right to Dracula slaying him saving the day, but that victory was short lived because an unknown force in Shaft was controlling him beyond his whim. The once vampire hunter was now becoming the vampire reviver and that’s how I am feeling right now….
This belt is forcing me to do things I normally wouldn’t do… It’s causing me to take out my own family which is why I drove a belt against Crystal’s face, it caused me to throw my very own best friend Jasmine into a barricade, and now it won’t stop until it rips me apart at the seam…
I fear that the belt is causing me to feel a bit jealous over this sibling relationship between Xander and Sydney, and I really don’t want to feel jealousy. I need to overcome this…I can't become a slave for the belt. I just need to believe in my dreams, and make those dreams a reality…
Believe Jenny… Believe…
{Our scene opens up from the host city of the New Dawn Pay Per View, Washington D.C. We are taken to the National Mall and are at the footsteps of the Lincoln Memorial. We are caught by the site of Jennifer Williams, and she is standing just gazing up the stairs. She doesn’t bother walking up the stairs instead she just stands there with her eyes closed. She isn’t alone as her manager and best friend Ashlie Stevens is behind her. Ashlie looks up the sky noticing that there was some serious overcast going on as the sky was filled with nothing but dark clouds that looked as if they were ready to burst at any moment.}
Ashlie: Jenny maybe we should get going it looks like it’s going to rain…And I really don’t feel like getting wet… Let’s grab a cab and head back to the hotel…
{Jennifer however finally opens her eyes as she smirks as the structure in front of her. She slowly lets out a long sigh and deep breath as she begins to speak out loud back to her friend.}
Jenny: You know Ash I really find it amusing. Abraham Lincoln was the man that led this country through its greatest constitutional crisis ever in the American Civil War. He is the man that had passed the Emancipation Proclamation, and was part of the reason the Thirteenth Amendment got passed that ended slavery in the United States. Because of this man we have a lot of free people in this country. Not only is he an iconic man but this landmark is iconic because this is the place where Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. delivered his famous I have A Dream speech…
{Jenny just let’s off a chuckle as she sits down on the step and faces at her friend gazing at the reflection pond and Washington monument in the background.
Jenny: Yet how come I am standing here and am not feeling the vibe of being free… I feel like I am being placed in bondage and in shackles becoming a pawn of the Starlet’s Championship. It’s like it’s got this hold on me and I don’t really know what to do… I thought that if I came here I could feel it in my heart… I could regain my dreams in the same way that Martin Luther King had his but yet I don’t feel anything… I think I am hopeless…
{Jenny crosses her arms as she doesn’t know what else to say but Ashlie takes a seat beside her to let her know she isn’t alone. She gazes out at the reflection pond as well as she replies back to Jenny.}
Ashlie: Listen Jenny… I know things seem like they are tying you down but in reality they aren’t. The belt cannot do that to you, only you can do that to you. You own that belt… The belt doesn’t own you… So whatever happens as a result of owning it is all based on how you rise to the occasion and challenge of being a champion. I am not going to say you are hopeless because I can remember seeing a woman who went from nothing to becoming a legit wrestler in a span of four months. You don’t know where your dreams went? Well if that’s not mere dreams becoming a reality I don’t know what is?
{Jenny however looks back at Ashlie as she snaps back at her, growling a bit as she shakes her head at her.}
Jenny: I don’t want to hear that sentimental bull crap Ashlie…Nobody cares about what you did yesterday all they care about is the here and now. As it stands everyone just thinks of me as this cowardly champion. That I am this champion was got lucky, that I am a champion who slept my way to the top and they are waiting for me to come crashing back down to the ground… That’s the part I really don’t know how to deal with and it’s getting me a bit nervous…It’s this same feeling that’s causing me to get paranoid, and it’s that paranoia that led me to bash my sister in the head with the title… I just don’t know what to do…
{Ashlie turns her attention over to Jen and she looks at her in the eyes giving a serious expression as she replies back to her.}
Ashlie: You want to know what to do? Show them that you aren’t a bad champion… Show them exactly what you are made of and what got you here… Your dreams never left you… They were always there you just need to bring them out….
Jenny: Thank you… I needed that….
{The two share a friendly hug right at the steps on Lincoln Memorial and as they do it begins to drizzle. Ashlie pulls away from Jenny as she shakes her head at her.}
Ashlie: I swear I hate you… I told you we should have left before it started to rain!
{Jenny shrugs her shoulders as she couldn’t help but giggle back. It felt good to have a manager who cared about her more than just a client but as a friend, and right now that’s exactly what Jennifer needed more than anything else.}
So here we are at this big Viewer’s Choice Pay Per View show of a New Dawn.
The name of this show couldn’t be any more correct because with me as your Starlet’s Champion this is indeed a New Dawn rising. Am I the best technically trained Starlet wrestling in the world today? No I am far from it but it is one of my dreams to one day become that. For the past few weeks my eyes were too much worried about status and not enough on skill and I have been second guessing my talents and abilities. I looked at this match that I am about to compete in and I at first thought it was unfair.
Why should I have to step foot in the ring with an unknown competitor? Why should I have to defend my championship under these conditions? I thought it was unruly, unjust, and unfair but to be honest the problem was never this match. The problem was on me and it was because I was afraid to lose what I worked so damn hard too achieved. In my mind I kept visioning myself stepping foot into this match and stepping out of it empty handed and it was a vision that was like a nightmare to me.
It was an image that I just didn’t want to deal with and it caused me to look at everyone as a possible threat to my title, even my own sister in law who taught me this craft of wrestling.
However the more I started to really think about it all I was able to get a clear head and realized that I was just being a mere baby. What exactly am I so afraid of anyway? I am the Starlet’s Champion and as such I want to be considered one of the best. I don’t want to be one of those who duck matches or resorts to taking the easy way out.
Unlike the other World Champion in this company I earned this title facing off against a woman who was in her prime and was a dominating champion. I wasn’t gift wrapped a match against a man who gave everything he had against Trent Helms and thought he was going to retire as champion afterwards.
Do I love my fiancé? You bet your ass I do but after seeing how he treated me last week I realized that I could never be among the hierarchy… I don’t want to establish a chain or pecking order, I rather focus on being a dominant champion and doing what I can to defend this belt proudly.
This match can be against any of the four women listed in the poll…
But to be honest I really don't care because no matter what I will go out to that ring and be the fighting champion that I know i am regardless of the opponent.
It could be long time Starlet Ayla. St. James… It could be the rising Mercedes Vargas…. It could be the Hardcore Hellion Emma Danielson, or the former champion I just defeated Alysson Gardner.
It could be any of those four but despite how good they are the fact is I have nothing to be afraid of because I defeated each of them. Whether in a tag match or singles match I have beaten all of those women.
If I had my way I would rather be in the ring with all of them, give them all a title shot because that’s the type of champion that I want to be. I want to be the woman who is willing to risk it all showcasing why she is the Starlet’s Champion at the world, and at the end isn’t that what’s it’s all about?
Showcasing to everyone why you are the absolute best. You don’t get to that status by crying and being a baby. You get there by proving your worth in the ring.
So come on ladies what do you have got?
Ayla you have been in NCW for a very long time and you are one of the most tenured women here in NCW but you have had this issue of getting over the hump. Getting over the hurdle where you would become a World Champion. If you think any of that changes in this match you are in for a rude awakening because I will be damned if I just let you come in and take something from me that I worked my ass to achieve.
Alysson Gardner you have been on my nerves since day one. No matter what I do it just seems like I could never gain your respect. Even if I did beat Shelly Taylor Jones to you it just doesn’t mean anything and I get that. Before you spew off how I am not a real champion, how I am just a place holder just remember that I defeated you, and by defeating you your own argument only makes you sound silly because that’s just saying you were never a real champion either. I guess I am karma in it’s finest. You came in you bullied my best friend Ashlie, you beat her for her championship, and she helped raise me out so I could come take it back from you…
Oh I guess there’s Mercedes Vargas as well. Mercy I am not going to front I like your style. You have a lot of great potential and you are a woman who needs to finally break out of her shell showing everyone what she is made of. Last week you proved that you had what it takes to be here and when you defeated the former champion in Alysson Garden. You know Mercedes if you changed the tune from crying over how you were luggage to focusing on the here and now. I think you would go a very far way…
Emma Danielson for you I know this has been a long time coming, last time you were World Champion was back in 2010 back when Zelda gave up on the decision so someone else could have a chance… Yeah… Hey I am poking fun at you but you should be happy. I am not bringing you the Manielson jokes…. In all seriousness I know you have been waiting for this golden opportunity. You want to get your hands around that title one more time so you could go out in a blaze of glory. I know that’s what you are looking for. If you somehow get picked let’s just put on a hell of a show that these fans will never forget.
No matter what happens I looked at this title as if it was a curse but truthfully it’s a blessing. I want to be the best and you can bet your ass I will do whatever it takes to remain as such.
I know you four ladies don’t really like me. So go ahead offer me the same insults that you have been offering all along….Call me a nerd…. Call me the Famularo rag doll…. I don’t really care….
Because no matter what you say there is one thing that you will be calling me today, tomorrow, and after A New Dawn, and that’s your NCW Starlet’s World Champion….
This is my time and I am going to do whatever it takes to out shine everyone else…
My opponent may be a mystery but there’s no mystery over how much I love this belt. You want this belt? Come take it but you will have to pry it from my fingers to get it and to be quite frank I am not ready to give it up.
Let the story of the dream live on, and let me show you why they eventually can become a reality…
It just seems like everyone lately has had their share of demons. For Kelly Fox it’s the fact that she is a power hungry company owner which I find very sad because at one time she seemed like her heart was sincere and pure being at ringside calling the matches. You have my future husband Xander who has become a monster in order to protect his sister in law at any and all costs, and of course last but not least you have me. You have little old Jennifer Williams who has given everything she had in her plus more to win the Starlet’s World Championship and in a two week span she turned away on what helped her achieve that championship in the first place.
I find it amusing because I thought that being the champion would solve all my problems but in reality all it did was add additional problems to the pile. I really thought being the Power Couple of NCW with my beautiful fiancé would make things better but it’s just a false delusion. It’s a lie that has left me befuddled, and I thought it was what Xander wanted but all this time I was mistaken.
Xander didn’t want to be handed a title… Oh no… He wanted to earn his place but I never understood that. I thought Xander wearing the mask was a sign of him being a monster but that was never his intention all along, and that realization finally dawned on me when Adam, Herald, and I won our big tag team match last week.
I was waiting for it…
I was waiting for MY Xander to come inside the ring and sweep me off my feet hugging and kissing me for a job well done, after all isn’t that what the so called power couples do? They celebrate together with their hands raised up looking down at the roster knowing that the both of them are on top of the world and no one could do a thing about it….
Yet as soon as we won where was that power couple celebration that I was waiting for? Where was my charming prince?! It was nowhere to be found because Xander saved it for his sister. He knocked me down flat on my ass, and instead yanked his sister up carrying her out of the arena.
I honestly don’t know what to say about any of it but maybe it’s the thing I needed to wake myself out of this delusion that I been meddling with. I am supposed to be a dreamer, I am supposed to be a woman who lives her life out of fighting what she believes in and working hard to get there, not taking cheap shots and short cuts to get ahead.
When my brother won the World Championship he wasn’t afraid of losing it instead he went out like a champ to every single match and he lost it like a man to Ricky Johnson in an epic showdown between two great competitors.. If he could be so calm about it why is it that I am having a hard time doing the same?
It’s because the belt has this unknown pull over me…
I guess I am like Richter Belmont from the CastleVania series.
Richter Belmont was a vampire hunter, in fact he was one of the best and he took the fight right to Dracula slaying him saving the day, but that victory was short lived because an unknown force in Shaft was controlling him beyond his whim. The once vampire hunter was now becoming the vampire reviver and that’s how I am feeling right now….
This belt is forcing me to do things I normally wouldn’t do… It’s causing me to take out my own family which is why I drove a belt against Crystal’s face, it caused me to throw my very own best friend Jasmine into a barricade, and now it won’t stop until it rips me apart at the seam…
I fear that the belt is causing me to feel a bit jealous over this sibling relationship between Xander and Sydney, and I really don’t want to feel jealousy. I need to overcome this…I can't become a slave for the belt. I just need to believe in my dreams, and make those dreams a reality…
Believe Jenny… Believe…
{Our scene opens up from the host city of the New Dawn Pay Per View, Washington D.C. We are taken to the National Mall and are at the footsteps of the Lincoln Memorial. We are caught by the site of Jennifer Williams, and she is standing just gazing up the stairs. She doesn’t bother walking up the stairs instead she just stands there with her eyes closed. She isn’t alone as her manager and best friend Ashlie Stevens is behind her. Ashlie looks up the sky noticing that there was some serious overcast going on as the sky was filled with nothing but dark clouds that looked as if they were ready to burst at any moment.}
Ashlie: Jenny maybe we should get going it looks like it’s going to rain…And I really don’t feel like getting wet… Let’s grab a cab and head back to the hotel…
{Jennifer however finally opens her eyes as she smirks as the structure in front of her. She slowly lets out a long sigh and deep breath as she begins to speak out loud back to her friend.}
Jenny: You know Ash I really find it amusing. Abraham Lincoln was the man that led this country through its greatest constitutional crisis ever in the American Civil War. He is the man that had passed the Emancipation Proclamation, and was part of the reason the Thirteenth Amendment got passed that ended slavery in the United States. Because of this man we have a lot of free people in this country. Not only is he an iconic man but this landmark is iconic because this is the place where Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. delivered his famous I have A Dream speech…
{Jenny just let’s off a chuckle as she sits down on the step and faces at her friend gazing at the reflection pond and Washington monument in the background.
Jenny: Yet how come I am standing here and am not feeling the vibe of being free… I feel like I am being placed in bondage and in shackles becoming a pawn of the Starlet’s Championship. It’s like it’s got this hold on me and I don’t really know what to do… I thought that if I came here I could feel it in my heart… I could regain my dreams in the same way that Martin Luther King had his but yet I don’t feel anything… I think I am hopeless…
{Jenny crosses her arms as she doesn’t know what else to say but Ashlie takes a seat beside her to let her know she isn’t alone. She gazes out at the reflection pond as well as she replies back to Jenny.}
Ashlie: Listen Jenny… I know things seem like they are tying you down but in reality they aren’t. The belt cannot do that to you, only you can do that to you. You own that belt… The belt doesn’t own you… So whatever happens as a result of owning it is all based on how you rise to the occasion and challenge of being a champion. I am not going to say you are hopeless because I can remember seeing a woman who went from nothing to becoming a legit wrestler in a span of four months. You don’t know where your dreams went? Well if that’s not mere dreams becoming a reality I don’t know what is?
{Jenny however looks back at Ashlie as she snaps back at her, growling a bit as she shakes her head at her.}
Jenny: I don’t want to hear that sentimental bull crap Ashlie…Nobody cares about what you did yesterday all they care about is the here and now. As it stands everyone just thinks of me as this cowardly champion. That I am this champion was got lucky, that I am a champion who slept my way to the top and they are waiting for me to come crashing back down to the ground… That’s the part I really don’t know how to deal with and it’s getting me a bit nervous…It’s this same feeling that’s causing me to get paranoid, and it’s that paranoia that led me to bash my sister in the head with the title… I just don’t know what to do…
{Ashlie turns her attention over to Jen and she looks at her in the eyes giving a serious expression as she replies back to her.}
Ashlie: You want to know what to do? Show them that you aren’t a bad champion… Show them exactly what you are made of and what got you here… Your dreams never left you… They were always there you just need to bring them out….
Jenny: Thank you… I needed that….
{The two share a friendly hug right at the steps on Lincoln Memorial and as they do it begins to drizzle. Ashlie pulls away from Jenny as she shakes her head at her.}
Ashlie: I swear I hate you… I told you we should have left before it started to rain!
{Jenny shrugs her shoulders as she couldn’t help but giggle back. It felt good to have a manager who cared about her more than just a client but as a friend, and right now that’s exactly what Jennifer needed more than anything else.}
So here we are at this big Viewer’s Choice Pay Per View show of a New Dawn.
The name of this show couldn’t be any more correct because with me as your Starlet’s Champion this is indeed a New Dawn rising. Am I the best technically trained Starlet wrestling in the world today? No I am far from it but it is one of my dreams to one day become that. For the past few weeks my eyes were too much worried about status and not enough on skill and I have been second guessing my talents and abilities. I looked at this match that I am about to compete in and I at first thought it was unfair.
Why should I have to step foot in the ring with an unknown competitor? Why should I have to defend my championship under these conditions? I thought it was unruly, unjust, and unfair but to be honest the problem was never this match. The problem was on me and it was because I was afraid to lose what I worked so damn hard too achieved. In my mind I kept visioning myself stepping foot into this match and stepping out of it empty handed and it was a vision that was like a nightmare to me.
It was an image that I just didn’t want to deal with and it caused me to look at everyone as a possible threat to my title, even my own sister in law who taught me this craft of wrestling.
However the more I started to really think about it all I was able to get a clear head and realized that I was just being a mere baby. What exactly am I so afraid of anyway? I am the Starlet’s Champion and as such I want to be considered one of the best. I don’t want to be one of those who duck matches or resorts to taking the easy way out.
Unlike the other World Champion in this company I earned this title facing off against a woman who was in her prime and was a dominating champion. I wasn’t gift wrapped a match against a man who gave everything he had against Trent Helms and thought he was going to retire as champion afterwards.
Do I love my fiancé? You bet your ass I do but after seeing how he treated me last week I realized that I could never be among the hierarchy… I don’t want to establish a chain or pecking order, I rather focus on being a dominant champion and doing what I can to defend this belt proudly.
This match can be against any of the four women listed in the poll…
But to be honest I really don't care because no matter what I will go out to that ring and be the fighting champion that I know i am regardless of the opponent.
It could be long time Starlet Ayla. St. James… It could be the rising Mercedes Vargas…. It could be the Hardcore Hellion Emma Danielson, or the former champion I just defeated Alysson Gardner.
It could be any of those four but despite how good they are the fact is I have nothing to be afraid of because I defeated each of them. Whether in a tag match or singles match I have beaten all of those women.
If I had my way I would rather be in the ring with all of them, give them all a title shot because that’s the type of champion that I want to be. I want to be the woman who is willing to risk it all showcasing why she is the Starlet’s Champion at the world, and at the end isn’t that what’s it’s all about?
Showcasing to everyone why you are the absolute best. You don’t get to that status by crying and being a baby. You get there by proving your worth in the ring.
So come on ladies what do you have got?
Ayla you have been in NCW for a very long time and you are one of the most tenured women here in NCW but you have had this issue of getting over the hump. Getting over the hurdle where you would become a World Champion. If you think any of that changes in this match you are in for a rude awakening because I will be damned if I just let you come in and take something from me that I worked my ass to achieve.
Alysson Gardner you have been on my nerves since day one. No matter what I do it just seems like I could never gain your respect. Even if I did beat Shelly Taylor Jones to you it just doesn’t mean anything and I get that. Before you spew off how I am not a real champion, how I am just a place holder just remember that I defeated you, and by defeating you your own argument only makes you sound silly because that’s just saying you were never a real champion either. I guess I am karma in it’s finest. You came in you bullied my best friend Ashlie, you beat her for her championship, and she helped raise me out so I could come take it back from you…
Oh I guess there’s Mercedes Vargas as well. Mercy I am not going to front I like your style. You have a lot of great potential and you are a woman who needs to finally break out of her shell showing everyone what she is made of. Last week you proved that you had what it takes to be here and when you defeated the former champion in Alysson Garden. You know Mercedes if you changed the tune from crying over how you were luggage to focusing on the here and now. I think you would go a very far way…
Emma Danielson for you I know this has been a long time coming, last time you were World Champion was back in 2010 back when Zelda gave up on the decision so someone else could have a chance… Yeah… Hey I am poking fun at you but you should be happy. I am not bringing you the Manielson jokes…. In all seriousness I know you have been waiting for this golden opportunity. You want to get your hands around that title one more time so you could go out in a blaze of glory. I know that’s what you are looking for. If you somehow get picked let’s just put on a hell of a show that these fans will never forget.
No matter what happens I looked at this title as if it was a curse but truthfully it’s a blessing. I want to be the best and you can bet your ass I will do whatever it takes to remain as such.
I know you four ladies don’t really like me. So go ahead offer me the same insults that you have been offering all along….Call me a nerd…. Call me the Famularo rag doll…. I don’t really care….
Because no matter what you say there is one thing that you will be calling me today, tomorrow, and after A New Dawn, and that’s your NCW Starlet’s World Champion….
This is my time and I am going to do whatever it takes to out shine everyone else…
My opponent may be a mystery but there’s no mystery over how much I love this belt. You want this belt? Come take it but you will have to pry it from my fingers to get it and to be quite frank I am not ready to give it up.
Let the story of the dream live on, and let me show you why they eventually can become a reality…
