Post by Shelly Taylor-Jones on Sept 27, 2012 17:45:12 GMT -6
"I'm back...."
A small smile comes across my ruby red lips. I tilt my head and move my blonde highlighted hair from my eyes.
"Over the last few months I took a step back from my career. I let my deal expire. I was content with sitting at home and being a mother to my son and daughter. I kept in shape, I did a little kickboxing, some yoga, but for all future purposes my career as an active competitor in NCW and indeed wrestling, was done. I was at peace with it, I had my time in the sun, I held the Starlets title, I came in with a bang, I left with a wimper....."
"I had the fire inside me, I always will, but I was happy enough to sit back, relax and enjoy being a mother to two beautiful children and a wife to a star. I was prepared to face into memory, to become a nobody, to just be Shelly Jones. But then, last sunday night at 7 13 pm it all changed. I received a fax. A fax from NCW's personel division. An offer asking me to come back and compete in the road to the gold. A chance to get in the ring and be in the spotlight again."
"I didn't sign it right away. In fact I sat there staring at it for a good three hours. This one piece of paper had turned my life upside down. In fact my biggest decision before that had been what to watch after I put Dylan down for a nap while Hayleigh was at school. That was it, the hardest decision of my day. Now here I was, holding a piece of paper asking me to come back to a life I loved but left behind......."
I sigh deeply and close my eyes.
"I decided to ask for guidance....No, not from the almighty above, but from four men who have had huge influence in my personal and professional life. My brothers, Chris and Rob, my ex-husband and farther of my daughter, Angel. And of course the love of my life, Alex. Chris' answer was as expected. He told me now I was out to not get sucked in. Chris has always looked at this business as the dark side of our family legacy. And in some ways he's been right....."
"Rob on the other hand. Well his answer was less predictable but more classic Rob. First he asked if I was still married to that "nut hugging douchebag queer". At which time I answered if he meant Alex then yes. Ron then told me he was disappointed, wished death and testicular cancer on Alex, he then said "Love ya sis bye". Typical Rob. I love my brother but...well you all know...."
"I tried to get a hold of Angel for an hour or so. No answer, constant dial tone, no answer to my messages. Eventually I gave up. My conversation with Alex though. Well...that was..different....."
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Sunday 23rd of September 2012 9:48 PM
"I received a new contract today...."
Alex looked up at me, he didn't say a word. He waited for my next thoughts to see a reaction.
"I don't know what to do....."
Alex looked away, he sighed deeply and then looked back up at me.
"What do you want to do?"
The question envoked emotions I had no felt in a long time.
"I know what I want...but I don't know if it's right....."
Alex smiled at me and shook his head.
"Right and wrong have no place in this. If you can rip that contract up and walk away with no regrets, if that is what you want, then do it. But if you know you'd wake up tomorrow with a heartful of anger and regret, then you know what you have to do...."
Alex kisses me on the forehead and handed me two items, a pen and a pair of scissors, he left the room confident that he already knew my decision......a decision I now knew to make.....
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"So here I am, sitting with a signed contract in front of me. I am now once again part of the active NCW starlets roster. I was guilty in the past of thinking my family legacy and name entitled me to something. And then after I won the right to be champion I let others opinions of how I got there cloud my judgement and I lot my first big test. Kelly Knite trampled me and left me for dead and you know what?. I never recovered. I let that loss eat away at me from the inside out, I let it overtake me and send me to a dark place."
"But this contract and return is a glimmer of hope, a chance to forge my legacy in a way that will leave my true mark on this world. And it starts with Jasmine Barerra. A woman who has been a fixture in NCW's starlets division while I've been gone and has built herself up to a position of respect in NCW. And truth be told I know a little of the "story" behind Jasmine, but I don't know the woman, I don't know her motives, I don't know what drives her...this is something I want to find out...."
"The best way to know someone is to walk down to that ring, stare them in the face and punch them in the mouth. Then you can see what they're made of and who they are...."
I smile to myself and look away.
"This is my second chance Jasmine, I don't wish you any ill will and I'm sure you are a talented young woman with a bright shining future ahead of you. And while I'm not an old woman by any means, I'm more looked at as a veteran these days I suppose. All I can do, all I can ever do is go out there, put myself on the line and do the best I can do and just hope it's enough. That's all you can ever really do Jasmine. For years I got drawn into the verbal battle. The mind**** if you will. I told other women they had no chance against me, that I had all but won the match before stepping into the ring, that it was a formality....."
"Truth is...everyone has a chance...."
"Everyone who stands up in NCW and has the balls to walk down to the ring has that shot at being a champion. They just have to want it....they just have to believe. I believe in myself, I believe I can be champion and that I can beat any women NCW put's in front of me. But at the same time, I know the rest of you have that same belief. We're all sisters in this, we all fight towards that goal of being called the best. and being able to do this is an honor. And it's a chance I will not give up.....Good luck Jasmine. Which ever one of us wins, I know it'll be the best woman......"
A small smile comes across my ruby red lips. I tilt my head and move my blonde highlighted hair from my eyes.
"Over the last few months I took a step back from my career. I let my deal expire. I was content with sitting at home and being a mother to my son and daughter. I kept in shape, I did a little kickboxing, some yoga, but for all future purposes my career as an active competitor in NCW and indeed wrestling, was done. I was at peace with it, I had my time in the sun, I held the Starlets title, I came in with a bang, I left with a wimper....."
"I had the fire inside me, I always will, but I was happy enough to sit back, relax and enjoy being a mother to two beautiful children and a wife to a star. I was prepared to face into memory, to become a nobody, to just be Shelly Jones. But then, last sunday night at 7 13 pm it all changed. I received a fax. A fax from NCW's personel division. An offer asking me to come back and compete in the road to the gold. A chance to get in the ring and be in the spotlight again."
"I didn't sign it right away. In fact I sat there staring at it for a good three hours. This one piece of paper had turned my life upside down. In fact my biggest decision before that had been what to watch after I put Dylan down for a nap while Hayleigh was at school. That was it, the hardest decision of my day. Now here I was, holding a piece of paper asking me to come back to a life I loved but left behind......."
I sigh deeply and close my eyes.
"I decided to ask for guidance....No, not from the almighty above, but from four men who have had huge influence in my personal and professional life. My brothers, Chris and Rob, my ex-husband and farther of my daughter, Angel. And of course the love of my life, Alex. Chris' answer was as expected. He told me now I was out to not get sucked in. Chris has always looked at this business as the dark side of our family legacy. And in some ways he's been right....."
"Rob on the other hand. Well his answer was less predictable but more classic Rob. First he asked if I was still married to that "nut hugging douchebag queer". At which time I answered if he meant Alex then yes. Ron then told me he was disappointed, wished death and testicular cancer on Alex, he then said "Love ya sis bye". Typical Rob. I love my brother but...well you all know...."
"I tried to get a hold of Angel for an hour or so. No answer, constant dial tone, no answer to my messages. Eventually I gave up. My conversation with Alex though. Well...that was..different....."
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Sunday 23rd of September 2012 9:48 PM
"I received a new contract today...."
Alex looked up at me, he didn't say a word. He waited for my next thoughts to see a reaction.
"I don't know what to do....."
Alex looked away, he sighed deeply and then looked back up at me.
"What do you want to do?"
The question envoked emotions I had no felt in a long time.
"I know what I want...but I don't know if it's right....."
Alex smiled at me and shook his head.
"Right and wrong have no place in this. If you can rip that contract up and walk away with no regrets, if that is what you want, then do it. But if you know you'd wake up tomorrow with a heartful of anger and regret, then you know what you have to do...."
Alex kisses me on the forehead and handed me two items, a pen and a pair of scissors, he left the room confident that he already knew my decision......a decision I now knew to make.....
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"So here I am, sitting with a signed contract in front of me. I am now once again part of the active NCW starlets roster. I was guilty in the past of thinking my family legacy and name entitled me to something. And then after I won the right to be champion I let others opinions of how I got there cloud my judgement and I lot my first big test. Kelly Knite trampled me and left me for dead and you know what?. I never recovered. I let that loss eat away at me from the inside out, I let it overtake me and send me to a dark place."
"But this contract and return is a glimmer of hope, a chance to forge my legacy in a way that will leave my true mark on this world. And it starts with Jasmine Barerra. A woman who has been a fixture in NCW's starlets division while I've been gone and has built herself up to a position of respect in NCW. And truth be told I know a little of the "story" behind Jasmine, but I don't know the woman, I don't know her motives, I don't know what drives her...this is something I want to find out...."
"The best way to know someone is to walk down to that ring, stare them in the face and punch them in the mouth. Then you can see what they're made of and who they are...."
I smile to myself and look away.
"This is my second chance Jasmine, I don't wish you any ill will and I'm sure you are a talented young woman with a bright shining future ahead of you. And while I'm not an old woman by any means, I'm more looked at as a veteran these days I suppose. All I can do, all I can ever do is go out there, put myself on the line and do the best I can do and just hope it's enough. That's all you can ever really do Jasmine. For years I got drawn into the verbal battle. The mind**** if you will. I told other women they had no chance against me, that I had all but won the match before stepping into the ring, that it was a formality....."
"Truth is...everyone has a chance...."
"Everyone who stands up in NCW and has the balls to walk down to the ring has that shot at being a champion. They just have to want it....they just have to believe. I believe in myself, I believe I can be champion and that I can beat any women NCW put's in front of me. But at the same time, I know the rest of you have that same belief. We're all sisters in this, we all fight towards that goal of being called the best. and being able to do this is an honor. And it's a chance I will not give up.....Good luck Jasmine. Which ever one of us wins, I know it'll be the best woman......"