Post by Xavier Cross on Oct 13, 2012 2:36:39 GMT -6
I've been here since, what, the end of '08 maybe, roughly 4 and some change years later. I'm still looking at red and that odd mixture of black/grey, one of those 50 shades I assume. Regardless, nCw has brought a lot of joy to my life. I've met some amazing people, and friends I hope that 50 years from now if Craig hasn't snapped, and murdered us all, I can still talk to in a childish 12 year old joking way, with my valley girl voice. At his point, Gib will literally be old as dirt.
Regardless, certain things have happened over the last week or so that have made me question who I am, and why I do this. You figure on an average week, depending on if i work 32-40+ hours a week at my job, the casual dates with the lady every so often. Let's say. 5-6 of my days are spent focusing on me, I've tried to balance my time accordingly and I must have done a decent job at this point with a more wins than losses, added on to the fact i'm the National Champion. I want to give you guys my all.
But I feel like I'm going to fail to do that. I feel like I'm about to hit a slump, and I don't want to disgrace the place I love. I took a week off, and will be going back to the ol grind this upcoming week, and with RTTG going strong. It makes me realize that this place is full of talent, full of familiar faces, and some fresh ones. And since I only talk to the certified jerks of the ol' fed. I want to put this out here.
I'd like to work with each person here in some capacity in whatever is left in my e-fed tank. I don't know when I'll hang up the 'boots' and walk away. Hell, I may try to make my mark as the greatest efedder to never win a world title. Whatever that may be, I want to work with everyone. At least once.
So call it an open audition. I'm the National Champion which should attract some people, but I want to work angles. I need someone to help bring my passion back to the burning blaze it was. Coming back and fighting Adam was like, great sex, but now i'm at that awkward moment where cuddling is eh, i just want to take a shower, and smoke a cig, then sneak away never to call her again. I need YOU to help me commit to this relationship.
So shoot me a PM, if ya got some ideas, or are just generally interested. I'm occasionally on AIM (RobTheAmatuer) or even facebook (www.facebook.com/RBrownie) or even xbox live, RobXCBrown
So please, save me from myself.
Regardless, certain things have happened over the last week or so that have made me question who I am, and why I do this. You figure on an average week, depending on if i work 32-40+ hours a week at my job, the casual dates with the lady every so often. Let's say. 5-6 of my days are spent focusing on me, I've tried to balance my time accordingly and I must have done a decent job at this point with a more wins than losses, added on to the fact i'm the National Champion. I want to give you guys my all.
But I feel like I'm going to fail to do that. I feel like I'm about to hit a slump, and I don't want to disgrace the place I love. I took a week off, and will be going back to the ol grind this upcoming week, and with RTTG going strong. It makes me realize that this place is full of talent, full of familiar faces, and some fresh ones. And since I only talk to the certified jerks of the ol' fed. I want to put this out here.
I'd like to work with each person here in some capacity in whatever is left in my e-fed tank. I don't know when I'll hang up the 'boots' and walk away. Hell, I may try to make my mark as the greatest efedder to never win a world title. Whatever that may be, I want to work with everyone. At least once.
So call it an open audition. I'm the National Champion which should attract some people, but I want to work angles. I need someone to help bring my passion back to the burning blaze it was. Coming back and fighting Adam was like, great sex, but now i'm at that awkward moment where cuddling is eh, i just want to take a shower, and smoke a cig, then sneak away never to call her again. I need YOU to help me commit to this relationship.
So shoot me a PM, if ya got some ideas, or are just generally interested. I'm occasionally on AIM (RobTheAmatuer) or even facebook (www.facebook.com/RBrownie) or even xbox live, RobXCBrown
So please, save me from myself.