Post by Freya Davis on Dec 1, 2012 13:50:53 GMT -6
Tomorrow is the big day. Today is a different story. I'm walking around in one of the malls of the city just by myself. Dexter said he had something that came up and had to deal with it so its just me right now. I try to look incognito with jeans and a band t-shirt instead of being classy. I have yet to buy anything because I really have no need for anything. Everything in life is pretty great right now I have to say. Wonderful kids, a great husband, a live in mother in law, great friends, and a decent wrestling career.
Ah, one of my favorite stores! I know what everyone is going to automatically assume because these people think they know me. Its the create a teddy bear place. I usually try to find one for every pay per view so I can make one for Tasha and now baby Dexter. I walk into the store and see that its so busy I won't possibly have a chance right now. I'll just come back in a little while then! Plenty of other places to visit right now.
Hmm, what about shoe store? No, I have enough of those. Goodness I have enough shoes to end me until the end of time. Kind of became a bad habit at one point. Maybe I'll get Dexter some new shirts. Maybe I'll just sit down for a second. I wish they had recliners instead of these hard benches at the malls. It'd be so much more comfortable. It is very odd my phone hasn't gone off in a few minutes. Ha! There it goes. And it is an actual call coming in from Nina. She's awesome so I answer it.
Freya: Heya blondie, what's up?
Same old I guess. There really isn't anything big going on in her life outside of being pregnant with another Brad baby. That dude seriously needs to stop reproducing. God knows we don't need a bunch of him running around.
Freya: You're bored? Why?
Oh that makes sense. Brad had to go off to do some business for where he works and Nina's left alone right now. I guess the kids are staying with some friends of theirs for the weekend.
Freya: What do you mean turn around?
I turn around and boom! NINA! I end the call before standing up as we walk to one another and hug. It is so great to see her here. A complete surprise.
Freya: The heck are you doing here?
Nina: Well with the kids with someone else this weekend and Brad being off doing his thing, I figured why not surprise my favorite sister in law.
Freya: How did you know I was here?
Nina: Dexter told me. He's planning something big, I think, for you.
Ugh I hate it when she talks like that. I blame that on her being Canadian. It is rather funny when I start saying "Eh" around her. They get really offended by that sometimes. Still its all good natured teasing. I couldn't mean to hurt Nina if I wanted to. She's way too sweet.
Freya: Oh, alright. So now that I have someone to pal around with, what do you want to do?
Nina: FOOD! I need to eat!
Oh pregnant chicks need to eat a lot. I wonder if she'll get super big when she gets further along. Nina smiles as we begin to look for a place to eat. I love my sister in law.
Nina: So, I'm like you Freya.
Freya: Huh?
The hell does she mean?
Nina: I lost my mother too. And my father. At a fairly young age. It was just my brother and I for a while. Cecilia told me about your break down and I just thought that you'd like some company if you want to talk about it from someone who lost their mom too.
Really? Does she want to do this now just the day before my rematch? I stop walking as Nina turns around concerned. She takes a few steps, placing a hand on my shoulder. The blondie offers me a warm smile but honestly I really don't care.
Freya: What gives you the right?
Nina: Pardon?
I feel my blood begin to boil right now. I feel my hands shaking, my mouth becoming dry, some tears forming, and this urge to kill every living thing that surrounds me.
Freya: What gives you the right to act like you know what I went through?!
Nina: I... I don't I was simply offering you someone to talk to.
Freya: Maybe I don't want to talk about it right now. Did you think about that? Maybe I just wanted to wander around this mall, take my mind off my tomorrow night and other things and just get lost in having some fun. But no. You show up telling me you want to eat before saying you think you understand exactly what happened to me and my family? No, Nina, I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to think about it right now.
I look up at her trying to scowl because I'm a little upset at the moment. I just wanted some fun today and nothing deep. That is how I like to keep my days before I wrestle.
Freya: So lets just move on, talk about how ****ty Twilight is, and I can listen to you drone on about how much you miss hockey right now.
Nina looks a little taken back after that but she just nods. She never gets mad, unless talking about Megan. That is the only way to get her angry.
Nina: Okie dokie. Well I'd still like to get something to eat if that's alright. Gotta ensure that this one stays healthy.
I don't really say anything. Just nod my head as I begin to look for somewhere to eat while trying not to think about my mom and how much I wish she could be here. She could tell me that I can win tomorrow night instead of everyone telling me that it will be a tough match. I have no one to give me their undying support. Even Dexter says there is a chance I might not win. Oh well. At least I can make my kiddos some teddy bears later. Maybe even make two more to send out to PA so my two boys know that mommy still loves them.
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Ah, one of my favorite stores! I know what everyone is going to automatically assume because these people think they know me. Its the create a teddy bear place. I usually try to find one for every pay per view so I can make one for Tasha and now baby Dexter. I walk into the store and see that its so busy I won't possibly have a chance right now. I'll just come back in a little while then! Plenty of other places to visit right now.
Hmm, what about shoe store? No, I have enough of those. Goodness I have enough shoes to end me until the end of time. Kind of became a bad habit at one point. Maybe I'll get Dexter some new shirts. Maybe I'll just sit down for a second. I wish they had recliners instead of these hard benches at the malls. It'd be so much more comfortable. It is very odd my phone hasn't gone off in a few minutes. Ha! There it goes. And it is an actual call coming in from Nina. She's awesome so I answer it.
Freya: Heya blondie, what's up?
Same old I guess. There really isn't anything big going on in her life outside of being pregnant with another Brad baby. That dude seriously needs to stop reproducing. God knows we don't need a bunch of him running around.
Freya: You're bored? Why?
Oh that makes sense. Brad had to go off to do some business for where he works and Nina's left alone right now. I guess the kids are staying with some friends of theirs for the weekend.
Freya: What do you mean turn around?
I turn around and boom! NINA! I end the call before standing up as we walk to one another and hug. It is so great to see her here. A complete surprise.
Freya: The heck are you doing here?
Nina: Well with the kids with someone else this weekend and Brad being off doing his thing, I figured why not surprise my favorite sister in law.
Freya: How did you know I was here?
Nina: Dexter told me. He's planning something big, I think, for you.
Ugh I hate it when she talks like that. I blame that on her being Canadian. It is rather funny when I start saying "Eh" around her. They get really offended by that sometimes. Still its all good natured teasing. I couldn't mean to hurt Nina if I wanted to. She's way too sweet.
Freya: Oh, alright. So now that I have someone to pal around with, what do you want to do?
Nina: FOOD! I need to eat!
Oh pregnant chicks need to eat a lot. I wonder if she'll get super big when she gets further along. Nina smiles as we begin to look for a place to eat. I love my sister in law.
Nina: So, I'm like you Freya.
Freya: Huh?
The hell does she mean?
Nina: I lost my mother too. And my father. At a fairly young age. It was just my brother and I for a while. Cecilia told me about your break down and I just thought that you'd like some company if you want to talk about it from someone who lost their mom too.
Really? Does she want to do this now just the day before my rematch? I stop walking as Nina turns around concerned. She takes a few steps, placing a hand on my shoulder. The blondie offers me a warm smile but honestly I really don't care.
Freya: What gives you the right?
Nina: Pardon?
I feel my blood begin to boil right now. I feel my hands shaking, my mouth becoming dry, some tears forming, and this urge to kill every living thing that surrounds me.
Freya: What gives you the right to act like you know what I went through?!
Nina: I... I don't I was simply offering you someone to talk to.
Freya: Maybe I don't want to talk about it right now. Did you think about that? Maybe I just wanted to wander around this mall, take my mind off my tomorrow night and other things and just get lost in having some fun. But no. You show up telling me you want to eat before saying you think you understand exactly what happened to me and my family? No, Nina, I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to think about it right now.
I look up at her trying to scowl because I'm a little upset at the moment. I just wanted some fun today and nothing deep. That is how I like to keep my days before I wrestle.
Freya: So lets just move on, talk about how ****ty Twilight is, and I can listen to you drone on about how much you miss hockey right now.
Nina looks a little taken back after that but she just nods. She never gets mad, unless talking about Megan. That is the only way to get her angry.
Nina: Okie dokie. Well I'd still like to get something to eat if that's alright. Gotta ensure that this one stays healthy.
I don't really say anything. Just nod my head as I begin to look for somewhere to eat while trying not to think about my mom and how much I wish she could be here. She could tell me that I can win tomorrow night instead of everyone telling me that it will be a tough match. I have no one to give me their undying support. Even Dexter says there is a chance I might not win. Oh well. At least I can make my kiddos some teddy bears later. Maybe even make two more to send out to PA so my two boys know that mommy still loves them.
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"I've had so much on my mind lately about being the best mother I possibly can be. I never got to know mine because of some weird stuff. I still don't grasp how or what really happened. All I know is that my mom killed herself. This is what Spike told me. Brad doesn't seem to really understand it all either. The situation is that messed up and I honestly don't know what is right and what isn't at this point. Still, the main point is that I wish I could have known my mother more.
Seeing some older pictures I look like she does. There is no one to tell me that I do. All I have is two or three pictures of my mom and that is all I have left of her. No mementos like a necklace. Nothing. Just pictures. How can I piece together how my mom was when I just knew nothing about her. It frustrates me to no end to see people saying terrible things about their mothers. Just makes me completely sick. They are in your lives for a reason.
I am a proud mother of four children. Two of which I never get to see anymore. Do you know how much it hurts to know that Joe wanted them back and threatened me with legal action. It pains me to know that I won't get to see Brandon and Jayden grow up, to see what kind of men they'll become. They loved Tasha, their little half sister. I'm sure they would love baby Dexter too. They won't get to know me as a mom though because of some things that happened between Joe and I.
I've tried to see them numerous times but I never get a response back from him. I only get his voice mail. Did I wrong him? I've admitted to him that I have and I apologized for it. I like to think we've both found better people for it but to not let me see my two boys is just, it hurts me. Then Jenny thinks I act like they don't exist. Do you know how much that hurts, Jenny? To say that I don't believe they live, that I pushed them out of me, to see their little faces crying at me.
You don't know anything, little girl. Yeah, you're older then me but you don't know a ***damn thing. You sit there on your high horse thinking you know me because you've seen me be goofy, or get caught in a horny mood. My god, do you not get human emotions. There is a wide range of them, Jenny, and to assume that from when I do these things is anything but being a friend. No. What you said is like being a snake.
A snake in the grass that was waiting to strike. I enjoy having fun. I don't like serious things most of the time. You wouldn't believe the talk Dexter and I had about having a surrogate mother to try to have a son together. See, in your world, your hardest decisions is which person should you hang out with today. Your hard decisions are completely trivial outside of when you supposedly ran a company that most people have never even heard of.
Most people don't even realize you are the Starlets World Champion. Most people assume that the title is held by a phantom because of the little you've managed to do as champion. Yeah, you've won a few matches, retained your title a few times, but you haven't done anything to define your reign. Going from title defense to title defense while whining about how stupid ho Vargas calls you a fluke is pathetic. People expect more from a champion.
What have you given the young women to look at you for? At least Alysson Gardner, for all of her faults, fought for something while she was champion and even after it. What the **** have you fought for while you hold that title? To bring your family name respect? To make people take you as a serious competitor. You've complained about the fluke name for so long that people are going to assume that you are a fluke.
The more you talk about something, drive it into people's skulls, the more they are going to believe it. I'll admit I've dug my own grave a bit with the things that come out of my mouth. I'm not the smartest woman in the world, never claimed to be but I know what that championship, I would make it mean something again like when Zelda had the title. Or Sydney. I don't care if I get fined by the bitch of a boss.
You have done nothing to make that title look good besides holding and planning a wedding to marry into a bigger wrestling family. That is your grand accomplishment while holding that title, Jenny, planning to get married to one of the biggest wrestling families in all of the world. You go up to any fan and say you're marrying Gib's son, they'll know who you're talking about right away. They'll know you as the daughter in law of Gib.
People ask me who I'm married to. I say Dexter Davis. I usually get a blank look followed with oh I guess he's a decent enough wrestler. See, Jenny, what you're doing, I don't like. I know you love him or whatever, but being in two giant wrestling families is putting you into this position of always being at the forefront of wrestling discussion which will feed the ego that the Williams family has. See for as bad as my brothers are, I think yours is even worse.
Your family is worse then mine at making giant jackasses of themselves. I mean how long before Crystal goes and stars in another ****ty movie? How much longer until my words ring into your head as the truth and you start to hate me for being honest enough to tell you how I feel. For the longest time, Jenny, I thought you were a friend but after what you said to me this week about my kids and how I don't think they exist...
You crossed this line.
You wouldn't know about the line because you have no kids. I pray to God that you never do either. I don't want you being happy because you don't deserve it. You are a snake and you showed me your true colors this week. You want to rival Zelda? That will never happen, Jenny. You don't have what she has. The ability to make her reign seem like she did something, that she accomplished things. Not just sitting on her ass like I said before.
Do you know what will define you after I beat you this weekend, Jenny? How you handle this loss at my hands. How well you handle these words that come out of my mouth. You came at me like you think you know me. As a person and most importantly as a mother. Never will you insult me like this again or I will end you. You have no idea who the **** I am. You on the other hand? Well, I think everyone has managed to form the correct opinions on exactly who you are.
Maybe you are a fluke after all. Flukes don't make people care. Make someone care about you and your pathetic 140 day reign. 140 days of doing jack ****? Yep, what a great champion you are. If you keep representing this division, it'll be the end of it.
We need a change and I'm that change. See you tomorrow night.
Friend."
Seeing some older pictures I look like she does. There is no one to tell me that I do. All I have is two or three pictures of my mom and that is all I have left of her. No mementos like a necklace. Nothing. Just pictures. How can I piece together how my mom was when I just knew nothing about her. It frustrates me to no end to see people saying terrible things about their mothers. Just makes me completely sick. They are in your lives for a reason.
I am a proud mother of four children. Two of which I never get to see anymore. Do you know how much it hurts to know that Joe wanted them back and threatened me with legal action. It pains me to know that I won't get to see Brandon and Jayden grow up, to see what kind of men they'll become. They loved Tasha, their little half sister. I'm sure they would love baby Dexter too. They won't get to know me as a mom though because of some things that happened between Joe and I.
I've tried to see them numerous times but I never get a response back from him. I only get his voice mail. Did I wrong him? I've admitted to him that I have and I apologized for it. I like to think we've both found better people for it but to not let me see my two boys is just, it hurts me. Then Jenny thinks I act like they don't exist. Do you know how much that hurts, Jenny? To say that I don't believe they live, that I pushed them out of me, to see their little faces crying at me.
You don't know anything, little girl. Yeah, you're older then me but you don't know a ***damn thing. You sit there on your high horse thinking you know me because you've seen me be goofy, or get caught in a horny mood. My god, do you not get human emotions. There is a wide range of them, Jenny, and to assume that from when I do these things is anything but being a friend. No. What you said is like being a snake.
A snake in the grass that was waiting to strike. I enjoy having fun. I don't like serious things most of the time. You wouldn't believe the talk Dexter and I had about having a surrogate mother to try to have a son together. See, in your world, your hardest decisions is which person should you hang out with today. Your hard decisions are completely trivial outside of when you supposedly ran a company that most people have never even heard of.
Most people don't even realize you are the Starlets World Champion. Most people assume that the title is held by a phantom because of the little you've managed to do as champion. Yeah, you've won a few matches, retained your title a few times, but you haven't done anything to define your reign. Going from title defense to title defense while whining about how stupid ho Vargas calls you a fluke is pathetic. People expect more from a champion.
What have you given the young women to look at you for? At least Alysson Gardner, for all of her faults, fought for something while she was champion and even after it. What the **** have you fought for while you hold that title? To bring your family name respect? To make people take you as a serious competitor. You've complained about the fluke name for so long that people are going to assume that you are a fluke.
The more you talk about something, drive it into people's skulls, the more they are going to believe it. I'll admit I've dug my own grave a bit with the things that come out of my mouth. I'm not the smartest woman in the world, never claimed to be but I know what that championship, I would make it mean something again like when Zelda had the title. Or Sydney. I don't care if I get fined by the bitch of a boss.
You have done nothing to make that title look good besides holding and planning a wedding to marry into a bigger wrestling family. That is your grand accomplishment while holding that title, Jenny, planning to get married to one of the biggest wrestling families in all of the world. You go up to any fan and say you're marrying Gib's son, they'll know who you're talking about right away. They'll know you as the daughter in law of Gib.
People ask me who I'm married to. I say Dexter Davis. I usually get a blank look followed with oh I guess he's a decent enough wrestler. See, Jenny, what you're doing, I don't like. I know you love him or whatever, but being in two giant wrestling families is putting you into this position of always being at the forefront of wrestling discussion which will feed the ego that the Williams family has. See for as bad as my brothers are, I think yours is even worse.
Your family is worse then mine at making giant jackasses of themselves. I mean how long before Crystal goes and stars in another ****ty movie? How much longer until my words ring into your head as the truth and you start to hate me for being honest enough to tell you how I feel. For the longest time, Jenny, I thought you were a friend but after what you said to me this week about my kids and how I don't think they exist...
You crossed this line.
You wouldn't know about the line because you have no kids. I pray to God that you never do either. I don't want you being happy because you don't deserve it. You are a snake and you showed me your true colors this week. You want to rival Zelda? That will never happen, Jenny. You don't have what she has. The ability to make her reign seem like she did something, that she accomplished things. Not just sitting on her ass like I said before.
Do you know what will define you after I beat you this weekend, Jenny? How you handle this loss at my hands. How well you handle these words that come out of my mouth. You came at me like you think you know me. As a person and most importantly as a mother. Never will you insult me like this again or I will end you. You have no idea who the **** I am. You on the other hand? Well, I think everyone has managed to form the correct opinions on exactly who you are.
Maybe you are a fluke after all. Flukes don't make people care. Make someone care about you and your pathetic 140 day reign. 140 days of doing jack ****? Yep, what a great champion you are. If you keep representing this division, it'll be the end of it.
We need a change and I'm that change. See you tomorrow night.
Friend."
