Post by Seth Evans on Feb 2, 2013 22:45:11 GMT -6
"You do not fear death. You think this makes you strong. It makes you weak."
{Lost inside of his own head, the camera focuses at Seth's shoulders and above as his eyes look to be filled with fire and determination... One day away from Metamorphosis. One day away from his confrontation with Alex Jones, his former mentor and friend, and the current holder of the X Title. His mouth didn't make the shape of a smile, nor a frown; it seemed as if he had no emotion. with no further hesitation, he finally spoke.}
"I've come to a realization about myself over this last week... Over my time inside of New Championship Wrestling. Although I have preached about it for a while --- I feel that it is no longer the truth."
I take a deep breath, as I peer straight down and feel the cool breeze running across my body and filling my soul. I close my eyes to embrace the breeze but don't move.
"Part of it isn't, at least."
Chuckling lightly to myself, I lift my head to look at the camera nearby.
"Fearless. I've gone into a good number of matches without any fear of giving absolutely everything that I possibly could! The thought would constantly cross my mind... The thought that this could very well be my last match --- not by choice. But what if something were to happen to prevent me from stepping into the ring? What if an injury would be sustained? Wishful thinking on the part of Alex Jones. But I would march down to that ring, and there's no denying it; I would give everything that I had into one match that truly meant nothing. I would be willing to take everything to all new heights, I would be willing to take all new risks that nobody has ever seen before! When you thought that I just might be counted out; I would get back up.
Just to give the people a show.
Just to try and win a title, which there's no denying... I have not been very successful with doing.
Just for a win.
This mentality has been on both sides of the fence. There have been times that it has paid off... Like when I became the runner up of the Road To The Gold by defeating Caleb Lockwood, Freakke the Clown, and Lex Sense. The time that I did finally win the X-Division Championship after half a year of wanting it --- craving it --- needing it. There have been some highly noted victories over a number of people... I'm proud of beating Xavier Williams, I'm proud that I defeated Steve Awesome. Ricky Johnson. You know what: I'm even proud that I defeated Jake 'The Ace' Conway!
Like I said, though... I've been on both sides of the fence.
It was that same mentality... that same mentality that drove me to fight hard, and fight as long as I could... just for the fight to be in vain. It was that mentality that defeated me when I went against Xander Famularo, when I went against Rob Diamond, when I went against Falcon. And even when I went against you, Alex Jones."
Still looking directly into the camera, I snicker at myself. Was the mentality really such a bad thing? Maybe... If I knew how to use it.
"It's a mentality that you encouraged of me, and a mentality that you even take a lot of credit for. You don't fear stepping into the ring with anyone, because you feel that you can defeat any of them... You don't fear being on the streets with anyone, because you feel that you're above them. According to you; there's nothing in this life that will make you feel fear... If I were to ask you, I think you could honestly say that you don't even fear the thought that Shelly might leave you the way that she left Angel."
My eyes leave the camera and I take a couple steps forward, peering over the edge. For the first time, the camera does pan out to see where I'm standing --- at the edge of a cliff. My heart was racing as I felt a small jolt of adrenaline just from standing at this point.
"My reality, Alex, is that I do feel fear."
I kick my foot forward, sending a pebble off the side of the cliff.
"One of which is even standing where I am... You see, I really don't enjoy heights. Something that I don't have a choice to go through tomorrow night when I'm going to have to climb that ladder to take down the X Title and take that belt away from you! But the height... is not my biggest fear. It's a fear that I can accept, and one that I can conquer.
I fear... Having my last match. It's not a day that I like to think about, and not one that I would really like to endure. Ever. But I know that the day will come that I will have to hang up my boots for the last time. Tomorrow will not be that day. However, I do still fear the day coming that a doctor might tell me that I can't wrestle, due to any injury that I may sustain. But... like I said; tomorrow will not be that day.
There's another fear which you may call childish... you may say that I whine when it happens, but I'm not bothered by it. I fear losing my matches. It's something that I still have to live with, ever since Rob Diamond defeated me to keep me from achieving my goal of becoming the X-Division Champion for the very first time; but I've lost my cool before. How can I really guarantee that it isn't going to happen again? I can tell everybody about how I've promised everybody, how I've promised myself that it isn't going to happen --- but to some people, those are just words. All I can say is that that's a word you're going to have to take from me.
Because of my next fear.
I fear being nothing. I fear having to retire from wrestling, I fear being told that I can't wrestle, I fear losing, but above all; I fear being nothing. Which is why I'm not going to quit... Which is why I'm not going to accept defeat. Which is why I'm not going to allow a doctor to tell me that I can't step back into the ring to do what I love! And be the best at what I do! I fear not being able to walk out as the new X Champion. I fear not having a chance to become the National Champion... the World Champion. Even holding one-half of the Tag Team Titles. If I can't win any of those, I know that that will also keep me from my overall goal of going into the Hall of Fame.
I fear not being good enough to be viewed as the absolute best."
Just the thought of it made me cringe. Drawing in a deep breath, I lock my eyes onto the camera to let Alex see the fire in my eyes... the determination. The truth about my fears.
"Through all of those fears, Alex... I don't fear you. Are you superior than me? Your record may say so. The titles that you've held... definitely says that you are. Hell, throughout your career, you've relied solely on being the high flyer! Doing stunts that people think you would be absolutely crazy for attempting and succeeding with... While I've enjoyed that style, and will still go to that style when I need to; I've stepped away from that at an earlier stage.
You are a veteran inside the ring.
You may not be that forty year old that struggles to get out of bed after being in the industry for twenty-two years... You may have not even hit your thirties and so you feel that you're just hitting your prime. You proved that you're going to be a phenomenon among your peers by being as successful as you've been for as young as you are! You aren't all that much older than I!
None of that matters, though.
When I step into that ring, I guarantee it... You will not recognize me. I will fight harder than you've ever imagined. I will fight harder than anyone thought to be possible! I will fight beyond my limitations; and truly bring back the old feeling that was brought to the ring with the X-Division.
And when all is said and done...
I will be walking out as New Championship Wrestling's brand new X Champion."
I look back down from the edge of the cliff, and smirk.
"And if you want another go around when I do walk out as the new X Champion... Just say the word. Because my word is law in my world; and I don't fear you."
{Seth Evans continues to look down the edge of the cliff as the camera pans in on him before eventually fading away.}
"How can you move faster than possible, fight longer than possible without the most powerful impulse of the spirit; the fear of death."
{Lost inside of his own head, the camera focuses at Seth's shoulders and above as his eyes look to be filled with fire and determination... One day away from Metamorphosis. One day away from his confrontation with Alex Jones, his former mentor and friend, and the current holder of the X Title. His mouth didn't make the shape of a smile, nor a frown; it seemed as if he had no emotion. with no further hesitation, he finally spoke.}
"I've come to a realization about myself over this last week... Over my time inside of New Championship Wrestling. Although I have preached about it for a while --- I feel that it is no longer the truth."
I take a deep breath, as I peer straight down and feel the cool breeze running across my body and filling my soul. I close my eyes to embrace the breeze but don't move.
"Part of it isn't, at least."
Chuckling lightly to myself, I lift my head to look at the camera nearby.
"Fearless. I've gone into a good number of matches without any fear of giving absolutely everything that I possibly could! The thought would constantly cross my mind... The thought that this could very well be my last match --- not by choice. But what if something were to happen to prevent me from stepping into the ring? What if an injury would be sustained? Wishful thinking on the part of Alex Jones. But I would march down to that ring, and there's no denying it; I would give everything that I had into one match that truly meant nothing. I would be willing to take everything to all new heights, I would be willing to take all new risks that nobody has ever seen before! When you thought that I just might be counted out; I would get back up.
Just to give the people a show.
Just to try and win a title, which there's no denying... I have not been very successful with doing.
Just for a win.
This mentality has been on both sides of the fence. There have been times that it has paid off... Like when I became the runner up of the Road To The Gold by defeating Caleb Lockwood, Freakke the Clown, and Lex Sense. The time that I did finally win the X-Division Championship after half a year of wanting it --- craving it --- needing it. There have been some highly noted victories over a number of people... I'm proud of beating Xavier Williams, I'm proud that I defeated Steve Awesome. Ricky Johnson. You know what: I'm even proud that I defeated Jake 'The Ace' Conway!
Like I said, though... I've been on both sides of the fence.
It was that same mentality... that same mentality that drove me to fight hard, and fight as long as I could... just for the fight to be in vain. It was that mentality that defeated me when I went against Xander Famularo, when I went against Rob Diamond, when I went against Falcon. And even when I went against you, Alex Jones."
Still looking directly into the camera, I snicker at myself. Was the mentality really such a bad thing? Maybe... If I knew how to use it.
"It's a mentality that you encouraged of me, and a mentality that you even take a lot of credit for. You don't fear stepping into the ring with anyone, because you feel that you can defeat any of them... You don't fear being on the streets with anyone, because you feel that you're above them. According to you; there's nothing in this life that will make you feel fear... If I were to ask you, I think you could honestly say that you don't even fear the thought that Shelly might leave you the way that she left Angel."
My eyes leave the camera and I take a couple steps forward, peering over the edge. For the first time, the camera does pan out to see where I'm standing --- at the edge of a cliff. My heart was racing as I felt a small jolt of adrenaline just from standing at this point.
"My reality, Alex, is that I do feel fear."
I kick my foot forward, sending a pebble off the side of the cliff.
"One of which is even standing where I am... You see, I really don't enjoy heights. Something that I don't have a choice to go through tomorrow night when I'm going to have to climb that ladder to take down the X Title and take that belt away from you! But the height... is not my biggest fear. It's a fear that I can accept, and one that I can conquer.
I fear... Having my last match. It's not a day that I like to think about, and not one that I would really like to endure. Ever. But I know that the day will come that I will have to hang up my boots for the last time. Tomorrow will not be that day. However, I do still fear the day coming that a doctor might tell me that I can't wrestle, due to any injury that I may sustain. But... like I said; tomorrow will not be that day.
There's another fear which you may call childish... you may say that I whine when it happens, but I'm not bothered by it. I fear losing my matches. It's something that I still have to live with, ever since Rob Diamond defeated me to keep me from achieving my goal of becoming the X-Division Champion for the very first time; but I've lost my cool before. How can I really guarantee that it isn't going to happen again? I can tell everybody about how I've promised everybody, how I've promised myself that it isn't going to happen --- but to some people, those are just words. All I can say is that that's a word you're going to have to take from me.
Because of my next fear.
I fear being nothing. I fear having to retire from wrestling, I fear being told that I can't wrestle, I fear losing, but above all; I fear being nothing. Which is why I'm not going to quit... Which is why I'm not going to accept defeat. Which is why I'm not going to allow a doctor to tell me that I can't step back into the ring to do what I love! And be the best at what I do! I fear not being able to walk out as the new X Champion. I fear not having a chance to become the National Champion... the World Champion. Even holding one-half of the Tag Team Titles. If I can't win any of those, I know that that will also keep me from my overall goal of going into the Hall of Fame.
I fear not being good enough to be viewed as the absolute best."
Just the thought of it made me cringe. Drawing in a deep breath, I lock my eyes onto the camera to let Alex see the fire in my eyes... the determination. The truth about my fears.
"Through all of those fears, Alex... I don't fear you. Are you superior than me? Your record may say so. The titles that you've held... definitely says that you are. Hell, throughout your career, you've relied solely on being the high flyer! Doing stunts that people think you would be absolutely crazy for attempting and succeeding with... While I've enjoyed that style, and will still go to that style when I need to; I've stepped away from that at an earlier stage.
You are a veteran inside the ring.
You may not be that forty year old that struggles to get out of bed after being in the industry for twenty-two years... You may have not even hit your thirties and so you feel that you're just hitting your prime. You proved that you're going to be a phenomenon among your peers by being as successful as you've been for as young as you are! You aren't all that much older than I!
None of that matters, though.
When I step into that ring, I guarantee it... You will not recognize me. I will fight harder than you've ever imagined. I will fight harder than anyone thought to be possible! I will fight beyond my limitations; and truly bring back the old feeling that was brought to the ring with the X-Division.
And when all is said and done...
I will be walking out as New Championship Wrestling's brand new X Champion."
I look back down from the edge of the cliff, and smirk.
"And if you want another go around when I do walk out as the new X Champion... Just say the word. Because my word is law in my world; and I don't fear you."
{Seth Evans continues to look down the edge of the cliff as the camera pans in on him before eventually fading away.}
"How can you move faster than possible, fight longer than possible without the most powerful impulse of the spirit; the fear of death."