Post by Nathan Webb on Feb 16, 2013 20:14:13 GMT -6
Apathetic…
Ignorant…
Loser…
Career Choker…
Words…simple words…effective words…words that people have sat on the outside looking in to describe me. These words that I have heard over and over and while I have hated them they do hold weight and with a good debate ring of some truth.
There is a belief that I am apathetic because of the appearance that I don’t look to improve, that I don’t look to shore up my weaknesses…that I move forward week in and week out without the total appearance of changing when the proverbial **** hits the fan.
There is an argument that I am ignorant because I am really not seeing the grand scale of the works of our newest godly figure in Roberto Verona…that I am close minded to the brilliance of the ways of our Lord and Savior Roberto Verona.
Then of course I hear the word Loser…That I have flares of excellence…that I have shown I have the ability to beat the elite of this business…but I have shown a lack in consistency to do it on a weekly basis. I may have a big win for a week or two but then I hit a lot of bumps that set me back.
Which leads to the term that I am most known and referred to as…which is a Career Choker. I can’t dispute or dispel this term that hangs above my head like a dark thunderstorm cloud. Let’s face it, the proof is in the pudding. Every single time an opportunity presents itself, I seem to squander it.
I had an opportunity to gain my first title ever with New Championship Wrestling…by defeating Mike Lazlo for the X Title…and boy did I not show up.
I had an opportunity to obtain statement wins at several junctures in my career…whether it be against Seth Evans…or The Ace, or Xander, even against Adam the first time…oh and let’s not forget the multitude of times that I have faced and lost to Roberto Verona.
So many marks against my name…and marks that are worth merit and again with credible debate very well could be true. These marks can only be dispelled and disproved by me…and me only. That means proving a lot of people wrong and not just winning once every blue moon…but winning consistently.
Yeah sure I beat Davey Ortega last week in the main event of Trauma…but what did I prove? Seriously what did I prove? I beat not only a man who talked the biggest game, aside from my opponent this week, Alex Jones, but unlike Alex Jones on most weeks Davey usually never backs it up…just look at his partner Joe Everyman…and how many times have they alluded to being the next tag champs without living up to that promise. So yeah I beat that man…but to pour salt into my own wounds I actually struggled in getting that win against him.
So again…what did I prove?
Nothing…and I would be hard-pressed to find anyone who would say anything otherwise.
So like always I have to go back and learn from my mistakes…learn from my individual failures and fight through them and become better for my next opponent whether it is against Joe Everyman or someone like Alex Jones or Roberto Verona.
So like I always do…like I will always do is not panic and tweak what I need to so that I come into each new match more prepared than the last. What Xander sees as apathy I see as calmly, and meticulously progressing without feeling the need to scrap something because of a loss or a misstep. The emotion I have is left in the ring…everything else is a process that blowing will cause more harm than good. Like it or not that is how I work….that will not change, I just have to roll with the punches as they come along.
So whatever happens…whatever I choose to tweak…my next opponent is always slotted and they are usually always ready to face me. This is the nature of this business…there is no rest …especially for the weary…as we are in a marathon world filled with sprints…and the next sprint comes against a man by the name of Alex Jones….
A man who is no doubt ready to fight me. A man who is a champion in his own right and has fought admirably in achieving the X Title but no doubt is always looking for more…especially when it comes to finally putting that final cherry on top in his attaining that elusive World Title. A man who will be a great test to see where I truly stand in terms of ability within this company.
Yes, Alex I am looking forward to our battle on Sunday…to see if I can actually make some momentum for myself in this company. Momentum that seems so elusive to me no matter what I do. Momentum that I will need if I am ever going to make any headway within this company…and achieve my own lofty dreams of finally becoming a true star within this business.
But you see the big difference between the two of us is that while I am an independent type…going to the beat of my own drum…you sit there with your title claiming to be the same but let us be honest…you are going to the beat of the drum of what Roberto pounds. You are not your own person…and I can see that it irritates you to no end.
Yes you have the strength at your back with this newly formed power trip…but the fact that you have to do it with people like Roberto and Jake Conway is really irritating you…I can see it in your eyes. Not only are you working with individuals you have to tolerate but it also holds you back.
Weren’t you the one saying you deserved a title shot...at the World Title? I mean come on I know how much that X Title means to you but what would you rather have in the long run?
Come on…you can be honest.
And let’s face it as long as Roberto has that World Title you are not going to have a shot at getting it. You got Lazlo…you got Washington…hell you have Jacobson possibly getting a title shot over you.
Is that what you really want? Do you want to be in a position of power without any career advancement?
Don’t lie to me cause I know you don’t.
If anything this match is going to be about just that…the fact that I am content…NOT APATHETIC about me continuing to move to the beat of MY own drum…even though I may end up getting beat down time and time again…or if it is okay with you to do what you do…well…mind you but continue to go nowhere.
It’s the reality of the situation that you are in…so what do you REALLY want to be…a perennial X Title holder…or something even MORE?
Don’t answer that question verbally…because let’s face it that question can only be answered in our match on Sunday.
And while yes I know I can beat you Alex…Just I like I know I have the ability to beat everyone any given week…the biggest question lies with me…
Can I show you and the world with actions and not words on Sunday…?
And I know the answer to that question is a rousing YES.
Ignorant…
Loser…
Career Choker…
Words…simple words…effective words…words that people have sat on the outside looking in to describe me. These words that I have heard over and over and while I have hated them they do hold weight and with a good debate ring of some truth.
There is a belief that I am apathetic because of the appearance that I don’t look to improve, that I don’t look to shore up my weaknesses…that I move forward week in and week out without the total appearance of changing when the proverbial **** hits the fan.
There is an argument that I am ignorant because I am really not seeing the grand scale of the works of our newest godly figure in Roberto Verona…that I am close minded to the brilliance of the ways of our Lord and Savior Roberto Verona.
Then of course I hear the word Loser…That I have flares of excellence…that I have shown I have the ability to beat the elite of this business…but I have shown a lack in consistency to do it on a weekly basis. I may have a big win for a week or two but then I hit a lot of bumps that set me back.
Which leads to the term that I am most known and referred to as…which is a Career Choker. I can’t dispute or dispel this term that hangs above my head like a dark thunderstorm cloud. Let’s face it, the proof is in the pudding. Every single time an opportunity presents itself, I seem to squander it.
I had an opportunity to gain my first title ever with New Championship Wrestling…by defeating Mike Lazlo for the X Title…and boy did I not show up.
I had an opportunity to obtain statement wins at several junctures in my career…whether it be against Seth Evans…or The Ace, or Xander, even against Adam the first time…oh and let’s not forget the multitude of times that I have faced and lost to Roberto Verona.
So many marks against my name…and marks that are worth merit and again with credible debate very well could be true. These marks can only be dispelled and disproved by me…and me only. That means proving a lot of people wrong and not just winning once every blue moon…but winning consistently.
Yeah sure I beat Davey Ortega last week in the main event of Trauma…but what did I prove? Seriously what did I prove? I beat not only a man who talked the biggest game, aside from my opponent this week, Alex Jones, but unlike Alex Jones on most weeks Davey usually never backs it up…just look at his partner Joe Everyman…and how many times have they alluded to being the next tag champs without living up to that promise. So yeah I beat that man…but to pour salt into my own wounds I actually struggled in getting that win against him.
So again…what did I prove?
Nothing…and I would be hard-pressed to find anyone who would say anything otherwise.
So like always I have to go back and learn from my mistakes…learn from my individual failures and fight through them and become better for my next opponent whether it is against Joe Everyman or someone like Alex Jones or Roberto Verona.
So like I always do…like I will always do is not panic and tweak what I need to so that I come into each new match more prepared than the last. What Xander sees as apathy I see as calmly, and meticulously progressing without feeling the need to scrap something because of a loss or a misstep. The emotion I have is left in the ring…everything else is a process that blowing will cause more harm than good. Like it or not that is how I work….that will not change, I just have to roll with the punches as they come along.
So whatever happens…whatever I choose to tweak…my next opponent is always slotted and they are usually always ready to face me. This is the nature of this business…there is no rest …especially for the weary…as we are in a marathon world filled with sprints…and the next sprint comes against a man by the name of Alex Jones….
A man who is no doubt ready to fight me. A man who is a champion in his own right and has fought admirably in achieving the X Title but no doubt is always looking for more…especially when it comes to finally putting that final cherry on top in his attaining that elusive World Title. A man who will be a great test to see where I truly stand in terms of ability within this company.
Yes, Alex I am looking forward to our battle on Sunday…to see if I can actually make some momentum for myself in this company. Momentum that seems so elusive to me no matter what I do. Momentum that I will need if I am ever going to make any headway within this company…and achieve my own lofty dreams of finally becoming a true star within this business.
But you see the big difference between the two of us is that while I am an independent type…going to the beat of my own drum…you sit there with your title claiming to be the same but let us be honest…you are going to the beat of the drum of what Roberto pounds. You are not your own person…and I can see that it irritates you to no end.
Yes you have the strength at your back with this newly formed power trip…but the fact that you have to do it with people like Roberto and Jake Conway is really irritating you…I can see it in your eyes. Not only are you working with individuals you have to tolerate but it also holds you back.
Weren’t you the one saying you deserved a title shot...at the World Title? I mean come on I know how much that X Title means to you but what would you rather have in the long run?
Come on…you can be honest.
And let’s face it as long as Roberto has that World Title you are not going to have a shot at getting it. You got Lazlo…you got Washington…hell you have Jacobson possibly getting a title shot over you.
Is that what you really want? Do you want to be in a position of power without any career advancement?
Don’t lie to me cause I know you don’t.
If anything this match is going to be about just that…the fact that I am content…NOT APATHETIC about me continuing to move to the beat of MY own drum…even though I may end up getting beat down time and time again…or if it is okay with you to do what you do…well…mind you but continue to go nowhere.
It’s the reality of the situation that you are in…so what do you REALLY want to be…a perennial X Title holder…or something even MORE?
Don’t answer that question verbally…because let’s face it that question can only be answered in our match on Sunday.
And while yes I know I can beat you Alex…Just I like I know I have the ability to beat everyone any given week…the biggest question lies with me…
Can I show you and the world with actions and not words on Sunday…?
And I know the answer to that question is a rousing YES.