Harder than it should be.

[Leonard Fox]

Guys... I don't even know where to begin here... so I'll just get it out there. This is the end.

I've been thinking this over for a long time now, and for so long I've just been going through the motions, just pushing through because I didn't want to disappoint anybody on the roster and I didn't want to get rid of the family feel I had with so many of you. However, it's just not seeming to be working any longer and I truly believe this is a good time to put the legacy of NCW to rest. I've talked it over with the current staff and I've talked it over with my wife who has stood by me for these six years or so and with my general "don't care anymore" attitude and the toll I think that's having on this federation... I think everybody deserves better.

The things I enjoyed like hanging on the Cbox, talking with friends over AIM, just having fun don't seem to be there anymore. I don't know what it is, but I'm pretty sure it's me, I have gotten pretty harsh and rather uncaring lately and I think it's just the pressure and burned out feeling getting me down. We've all lost a lot of good friends over the years, we've all built friendships and watched them disappear as NCW has grown and evolved and I know I for one am a bit tired of seeing things die down... hell I'm just "tired" in general.

I told myself many years ago that I would never be efedding past high school... well that obviously changed into I'd never be efedding past college and again that evolved to the point where I told myself I would never be efedding into my 30's and here I am at 29 and still going relatively strong. However with my wife who has been amazingly supportive and my two kids who are still young and still have a ton of growing to do here in my real life I believe it's time I finally held myself to these timelines.

I never thought NCW would last this long. I never thought it would be this successful. I remember when NCW first started, there was a conflict with an RPer who's name I still remember "Justin Tyme"... he lost a match and proceeded to quit and because of things that happened immediately following I remember him telling me that I was incompetent and there was no way NCW would last three months with me in charge... still have that message saved somewhere. It drove me for so long, so many times I wanted to pull it up and send him an email and ask him if he still stood by that statement and so many times I had to tell myself that... it wasn't worth it, that what NCW has accomplished was testament enough to how great of a fed that I had the honor of heading really was.

And I mean that. We really did have something amazing here. It was during our three or four year anniversary celebration that I remember posting on the cbox about how I never thought this fed would be so special and last so long and I remember Charlie Velez responding immediately afterwards "get to seven years and then talk"... those words really sunk in to me. I had given so much for this fed and all those that came over and I think that was the point I realized that nothing I did would ever make anybody truly appreciate the work I put in each and every week. Maybe we haven't lasted seven full years, but from 2007-2013 NCW has been alive for seven years and we've put on a show every week in that time frame. I don't remember the official count at the moment but we are well over 500 production shows and I don't care what anybody has to say about that, or anybody's asinine opinions on if this fed was good or not... because that IS something special and I want to thank each and every person that has stood by me and this efed to know that. You were NCW. You were what made this place great.

That's why I always took offense when somebody slammed NCW, it wasn't because of my pride, it was because I knew so many others wanted this place to be great, so many others invested so much time into it as well. If it wasn't for Spike and Lance stepping up after Boone had abandoned me and Josh took a leave of absence... NCW would have died before that three month mark as I wouldn't have kept this going by myself. If it wasn't for Ed, Mark and Steve stepping in after that when Spike and Lance got burnt out... NCW would have died well before the two year mark. Now if it wasn't for Helms, Gib, Jeremy, Sam, AJ... NCW would have never made it this far. Don't ever look at NCW as being "Adam".... don't ever look at NCW being just a handful of guys. NCW, or what I always tried to portray it as, should always be about the people who played here and those that kept it going for this long. So if you respond to this post... don't thank me, don't look at me and think of all the work I've done... think of all the work you've done think of all the work those others did and the bridges they built so we could make it this far and most important think of you. "You" are what made NCW great. "You" are what made me keep going all this time and "You" will always be considered my friend and I wish each of you great success in not only this game, but in whatever your life brings.

This is hard to say, way too hard to believe these words are finally being typed, I'm shaking... man tearing up... I can barely type it, we are going to try and make it to A Night to Remember in two months but after that... NCW is closed.

Verona has expressed his interest of making a fed to continue on after the closing, and I want to encourage everybody to follow on to there if it happens. I also hope that Sam and whoever helps him consider it an extension of NCW and our universe. The idea of NCW being carried on by others without me was thrown out and I was not against those ideas as I didn't want to see NCW die... I never did, but I think back to when NCW started because WCF had closed and I remember how Seth Lerch pointed people towards NCW and another fed on his boards... and I don't know if it's what he had in mind but I do want a fed to grow with it's own identity, with it's own chance to proceed with it's own legacy... and be given a chance to prosper like the chance NCW was given.

With that said, I don't want NCW's final days to be about the ones that came before, the legends if you will. I don't want our last show to be some grand sendoff to the federation and it's history. I want it to be what NCW was always supposed to be about. The roster. Everybody here now supporting this fed, everybody here now helping us carry on, all of you. I want to encourage everybody who has been here to give some final words on about what NCW meant to them... but when the time comes. Lets really make these final moments something special, lets really go out and really enjoy this, because without your support.. it just wouldn't be NCW.

So... thank you all. Thank you for the memories that I'll never forget, the funny stories that I'll always remember and thank you for giving me a chance to bring my vision of NCW to life.

Thank you.

[Hannah Reed]

I can confirm that I will be opening a new federation once ANTR draws to a close, this was always my intention if Adam chose to say goodbye, you're all 100% welcome and I truly hope that the NCW family will join. I definitely consider it to be an extension of NCW and the fabulous universe here and I hope it can continue the wonderful legacy.

I would like to say that it has been a true pleasure to roleplay alongside everybody here in NCW and it has formed a very special place in my life, along with all of you. The quality of this fed is a testament to Adam, the staff and all of the members of the roster who've made this place such a special establishment. There have been some truly tremendous moments, fantastic storylines and brilliant roleplays in my time here, you've all brought to life a universe which I can honestly say has had me waking up eager to see what would happen next.

We've got a few shows to prove just what made this place so special in the first place, let's show everyone how great NCW is and go out on the high I know we can all produce.

I would like to personally (for reasons staff are aware) thank Adam for all of his hard work, his passion and drive have been truly inspirational. Thank you, Adam. For everything.

[ishimarujunichiro]

Thanks for all your hard work. Know that it isn't easy as have ran my own fed before.

[Mike Laszlo]

I want to say thank you to everyone for all the hard work put into NCW. The storyline creators the characters and the matches written are all great. That said, after A Night to Remember, let me be the first to say i am on board with the new fed.

[Will Washington]

I started writing a reply to this, but I realized I was getting way too gloomy about everything. So let me just say that I love NCW, and I love everyone that's ever RPed here. And a massive thank you to Adam, for running this place for 6 years, and always letting me come back and giving me opportunities, even though I've screwed up so many times. I appreciate everything Adam has done, and everything every other RPer here has brought to my life.

I hate that this is happening. All the signs were there and there wasn't much life here for the last few months, but I had still hoped that we'd pull through it. I really hoped to build a legacy here, but I never really did it, and that's all on me. NCW gave me more than I gave it, that's for damn sure.

As for the future. I talked to Verona for the first time ever yesterday, and I've got a lot of faith in him if he starts a new company. He really impressed me with his feelings on efedding, and I hope his new fed runs just as awesomely as NCW has for the last 6 years.

[Jabari Woodhead]

Joe Everyman vs. Mark Evil at ANTR. Book it

[Dante Cross]

Web show, got it heh

[Captain Howdy]

I know I wasn't here long, but for as long as I've been doing this, I counted NCW as a special place. You could see and feel it when you joined up. There was just something about it that made it seem like the place to be. It's unfortunate, but I've seen a lot of feds come and go. This one, this is a shame. Good luck to everyone wherever you go, and keep me in mind as I might just come back and have some fun.

[Curtis D. Kanyon]

Well, it sucks, but it makes sense. I know the toll, I know the hard work and sacrifice, and I have to say Adam, thank you. Thank you for running this place and keeping everything in order and keeping the rules nice and tight. This place made me come out of retirement a few years ago, and I've been non-stop since. Made a lot of friends and one enemy, brought a friend in, it's been a blasts. I have to admit, I was starting to get a little burnt out myself finally, but knowing there's an end, knowing that two months is all we have left, I have a renewed sense of vigor and I plan to make the most of these last two months. So let's make this as explosive and crazy a finale that NCW deserves! I heart you all!

[Seth Evans]

I really do hate to see this place go... I've been doing the whole e-fed thing for a long time, and I've had the same mentality as you. I wasn't planning on doing this as long as I have, and when the old place that some of us came from closed down; I said that I was going to be done. I said that there was going to be nothing that could bring me back into the game. However, that changed when I had a little bit of time to look into nCw and decide whether it was the place for me and the truth was that there was no better suit for me and my fairly new character (Seth Evans)!

Throughout my time here, I feel that we've had our ups and downs, our agreements and disagreements. I've stepped away due to being burnt out, and the other two times... whether people choose to believe me or not, I'm not bothered, was due to reality taking a few kicks at me. I stepped away after losing in Road To The Gold (a month or two after) because my roommates weren't paying the internet bill, and I couldn't afford to pay it every month on my own, and I truly didn't feel it to be fair to the people that I was facing that they wouldn't get a chance to face me while I was at my best. I had no choice but to step away. Then, the Xbox came out with an update that added internet explorer and I loved this place enough that I figured I would give it a shot --- and I had no problems with it...

It was my typical short fuse that made me request one week off, and then that one week came to another week... which went to another week. I was planning on returning this week, but with this news, I figure that it might be best for me to just let it go and not stress over anything. Although! I might be in the talks with a certain someone to see if they would like to do one last match for nCw (my favorite and most notable feud) at the last show. If at all possible. I didn't mean to let my short break lead to as long as it did, and if I could change one thing from the very beginning, I would not have let the game get to me to the point of me having to take a break in the first place.

Guess I won't be getting Seth into the nCw Hall of Fame after all.

I would also like to thank you all for putting up with my hard-to-get-along-with attitude. I know I'm not the most popular guy around here.

Anyways... It's been a pleasure roleplaying with all of you, and I look forward to it more. Roberto can consider me signed up for the new place when he does get that going, and the last thing that I would like to close this out with is that nCw is a very rare place. I'm very stubborn about certain things, and when I have my mind set on something, I hardly stray away... I did have my mind set on retiring after the XHF had closed a number of years ago. nCw changed my mind, and made me want to continue after the final nCw chapter is written.

[Angel]

Graff sent me a message on facebook about this and I honestly didn't believe him. I thought Adam would never close this place. I can say I'm honestly sad to see it go. I figured nCw would be around forever and eventually I'd make my way back here and play one more round with some of the best role players I've ever seen.

Adam, I wanna say thank you for giving me the chance to work with you, both on staff and off. I wanna thank you for giving me a place to call home while I was here and working so hard to please me and everyone else here despite the stress I know it causes on your personal life. You were always a great friend before things between us went to hell and I thank you.

To everyone else, far too many to name, everyone I ever worked with, I thank you for everything you've done. I've been a part of some real great stories with Xavier Williams and Alex Jones and Gib and everyone else, stories that wouldn't have been so great somewhere else with a different group of people. nCw truly brought out something special in all of us and we should all be proud of everything we've ever done here.

Lastly to Verona, I'm excited and happy to hear you will be trying to carry on the legacy of nCw and I'd be honored to be a part of it in someway so please feel free to get in touch with me on facebook or other wise.

I know Adam said he wants ANTR to be about who is here but I'd be honored if the staff would consider giving me a chance to send off Angel right, to send off Angel with the only place I've ever felt at home using him. If not, that's fine. Hopefully I will talk to you all soon, I plan on making myself a little more available than I've been since I left.

Thank you for the memories.

[Seth Evans]

Alex Jones vs. Angel! A NIGHT TO REMEMBER! Book it.

[Dante Cross]

Web show...got it..heh


We will see, but graff....no spoilers

[Nikki Michaels]

if the people want it...and ed wants it....i'm inj

[Seth Evans]

The people demand it!

[Paul Star]

We the people?

[Angel]

I'm down for one last match with AJ.

[Philip Burns]

So I just stumbled upon this today and I am somewhat disappointed that nobody reached out to tell me. Work has consumed my life in the last several months so there was a chance the end would come and go without me knowing at all.

Im glad that didnt happen.

I want to say that when PWW closed down back in 2004 (I think) I honestly thought I was done with efeds. Sure it was fun but what was the point really? A few years went by and I remember someone sent me a link to these boards and after seeing a few familiar names I decided to join. Now I will be the first to admit that my relationship with nCw has been intermittent to say the least. It was never that I didnt want to play the game with you guys, but when one loses motivation and no longer knows which keys to hit then there isnt much to be done.

I am PROUD to be a former World Champion. There is not even a hint at sarcasm there. Being awarded the title was a huge accomplishment to me. This place has put a smile on my face so many times. The Honcho hilarity, Burning Angels doing their thing, so many things that I will remember until Alzheimer's sets in. Remembering the great times makes me feel terrible for not being around to make more with you guys. When this place closes its doors I want Adam and everything else to know, nCw didnt fail Philip Burns. Josh Palmer failed nCw.

I hate to end the legacy of nCw as the guy who stepped away months beforehand. That being said, I will return to full time active duty until the end. I'll be damned if Philip Burns doesn't have his hand raised one more time.

Thank you Adam for the opporunities.
Thank you Ed for being my partner.
Thank you Deez for making me laugh.

Thank you to everyone I have had the pleasure of interacting with. nCw has found its way into my personal life via inside jokes between Honcho and me and obscure references I make when watching Raw. Thats the kind of stuff that an efed cant force. That legacy was earned. 20 years from now I will make a Joe Everyman joke. And it wont be because Sam did something wrong, it will be because nCw did something right. And to answer my earlier question... THAT is the point.

Much love, guys.

Josh/Philip Burns

[Shane Hunt]

I love that everyone is coming back, so NCW can close on a real high. It's a shame that it's taken the feds inevitable closure to bring us all back, but now we are back we can make the last couple of months of NCW really good.

[Xavier Williams]

IF you need someone to fill up a 4 man highspotfest of doom... and I mean that with the utmost respect.

I'm here duder. Long speeches aren't my thing, but I love this place, sucks that life kinda took away my time form this place, but why would I miss out on the final show?

Not a chances duders..

~X

[Spike Kane]

^What they all said.

I've dropped off the face of the virtual world, mainly because my laptop is a piece of **** and secondly because I felt like I just couldn't write worth a crap anymore. However, Pav mentioned to me that he was being inducted into the Hall of Fame and asked me to write something for him, anyway....when he showed me the finished article I read that nCw was closing, and I genuinely felt a knot in my stomach. I'm not even active, haven't checked the boards for months but I felt like crap.

After reading Adams post I decided it was worth the effort to help nCw send off in style. This board, and you guys have helped me through some of the toughest times of my life. When I underwent major heart surgery, you guys were there, and that will never, ever be forgotten. This last year everything fell apart, and whilst I was letting people down with my duties, it was still handled with respect, with dignity and I am so grateful. No matter what has happened in the past, no matter who has said what, nCw has always been my home, and whilst it saddens me to see it's doors closing I'm glad that Adam is taking the initiative to look after himself and his family.

Guys, roster guys - thank you for helping write some amazing stories and matches.

Staff, old and new - thank you for taking the time out of your lives to help run this board, come up with storylines, and all the rest, and Trent since you showed up you've gone above and beyond, that has always been appreciated.

Adam, to you and you're lovely wife - thank you for giving us a place to vent, a place to show off, and a place to find a family.

I'm back for this run if you'll have me

[Dexter Davis]

How should I possibly begin this. First off with I'm sorry. I'm sorry for continually making the wrong choices, saying the wrong things and hurting the people that I honestly do care for. I don't think any of you honestly know what NCW will ever mean to me. There was a time in my life when all I had was e-fedding. I couldn't find a job, wasn't in school and I was in a generally depressing time in my life. Maybe this is why I acted out in so many of the ways that I did. I always feel remorse for my actions because I act in impulse. If I ever thought anything out it'd be a miracle.

Did I say some really stupid things? Yes, I did and I wish I could take them back. When someone is upset and frustrated and pissed off they're liable to say the wrong things. The wrong things get relayed back when they never should've been said to anyone in the first place. Did I quit on NCW a lot? I did. I quit on it way too often when I felt like I didn't get what I should have. Sometimes I believe like I have this giant ego that I suppress and put on this humble guy act so people could tolerate me for more than two minutes.

I had a hard time accepting a lot of the decisions made here and they would just set me off in this chain reaction of rage when I would quit on this place despite every single second, third, fourth chances that I would be granted. I kept on wondering why Adam would let me back in when I think I knew that in the back of my mind I'd find something to get upset over and take my leave or I'd decide I wouldn't want to play this character or that character. It was one of those never ending cycles that lead me to the course that I am on right now.

A course full of remorse and wondering what could have been should I stayed consistent, kept my emotions in check and not spout off saying things that hurt people and what they created and what they spent hours of their life putting time into. As I said I made a lot of stupid mistakes when it came to NCW. I took this place for granted. I treated this promotion as if it was just some personal toy that I could **** around with any time I wanted. That wasn't far to anyone who has spent time here. It wasn't fair to the staff. Most of all it wasn't fair of Adam to me to do.

So now that the end is nearing NCW I just keep looking back at what I've done and I don't feel proud of it. Some of the angles I did were great but I'd leave right after. I never built off of anything because most of the time I felt as if I was just going to waste my time. All I did was waste your people's time, not mine. I feel as if I've failed those I've faced in every single match I've had here because of my actions.

When NCW started nearly seven years ago and I left before the first show even took place started this too. This uncertainity I have because I feel like I should be at the top of the card every single show. After nine damn years I realize that I'm a prick. There's no other way around it. When it concerns e-fedding I am a prick and I don't like it. I've ran down people behind their backs, I've spewed venom to people who didn't deserve it and once again I'm sorry.

So when I look back at what NCW meant to me it was just more than this place I continually let down because I am a prick in this game. However, NCW also gave me a second life from my real one where I don't have any friends hardly. My best friend lives thousands of miles away and we can only hang out twice a year. Despite how I acted towards a lot of you I consider most of you as a friend and when I said earlier this year that I want to drop the title because I'm feeling burnt out, well, I might as well be honest...

It was a load of bull****. Pure and simple. I had plenty left over I just didn't want to RP here anymore. Now that the end is here for this place I felt like I owed it to everyone to give one last match but now that I'm thinking about it I owe so much more then just one match. I owe at least 100 if not more of them and there isn't enough time for me to correct my mistakes.

So to every single one of you that put up with my bull**** over the past seven years, I'm sorry again. To the people I no showed, I'm sorry. To everyone I let down, I'm sorry. I still think I should thank every single one of you for putting up with my ****, for making the jokes that I deserved every single time I came back and for every single time I left. I have reaped what I have sown.

I just hate myself for realizing all of this when its too late to correct everything. If this gets deleted at least I'll have my own peace of mind. If not then thank you for taking the time to read this. I'll see some of you at IWF. To those who aren't there I'll probably see you elsewhere. I'm going to do every single thing I can to not fall into this trap again.

So thank you to everyone but mostly Adam for dealing with me for the past seven years.