Post by Xavier Cross on May 17, 2013 17:54:26 GMT -6
The Undying Machine
I was numb to the world, not caring about this, or that. I ignored my home life, my wife, and my children. I was so focused on being the best fighter I could be. Eating pain killers like M&Ms, boozing with the best of them. I just didn’t care, my body couldn’t be hurting, I had to get in that ring, that nCw ring.
I could easily look at this and say that nCw ruined my life, but here I am, mere days before the end of it, and I know without this place, I wouldn’t be the man I am today. I wouldn’t have gotten through losing Cari, I wouldn’t have experienced the friendships, relationships, and emotions I’ve had whirling around, without this place.
This place made me realized, I’m not only mortal, but I’m human, far from the idea of ‘Undying Machine’
The American Dream
I lived it, houses across the world, cars like no one else, electronics and toys, I could do what I want, and when I wanted to. The benefits of money in this country, make a huge difference between jail time, and a small fine, between living a normal life, and blowing it out my ass, doing dumb things, but living it all up.
I covered it up with blind patriotism. I support America like a *** damn tea-partier, so yeah, blind ambition. I was wearing the flag as trunks, dancing around like Apollo Creed. But the only difference between him and I, I didn’t get murdered by a Russian. But I got swept away in it all, and ended up loving the endorsements, movie offers, all that bull ****. I forgot about why I did this.
nCw showed me my roots, my limitations, and why I can’t do it all, but there is something I can give my all doing. This.
The Savior
When I thought I had to be what makes nCw the best federation in the world. I thought it was my responsibility to do this. Call it a god complex, but I honestly thought I was the greatest thing to set foot in this business. Well, this business has a tendency of putting you in your place.
It taught me that sometimes, I wasn’t going to be able to do it all by myself. I think I figured out exactly how I want to say goodbye to this place that has given me so much, taught me so much.
By apologizing.
For the cheap gay jokes. Homosexual equality is a serious issue, and I’ve used it as a simple way to try to get under my opponents skin. I mean, look at how I tried to come at Falcon during that World Title match. We live in such a numb society to this word. I’m sorry for alienating any of the fans, or competitors in the back. There isn’t anything wrong with being gay.
All the dick and fart jokes. Sure, it can be funny the first time. But after a while it just drags on, and drags on. Occasionally get a gem, but is it really worth it to beat the horse to death and back.
For not living up to expectations. I won the riot, I have this title shot. I’ve been a two time National Champion. A two time Xtreme Champion. I’ve had success, but I’ve never lived up to what people have imagined for me. I’m sorry I couldn’t achieve the top of the mountain in nCw.
But I’ve never let you down. When I’m out there, I always give a hundred percent. I can put in a submission like no one else, and leap from high distances than anyone else. And the only way I can truly apologize to those I’ve let down.
Not a win, not a loss.
But the greatest. Match. Ever.
BRODEO
I was numb to the world, not caring about this, or that. I ignored my home life, my wife, and my children. I was so focused on being the best fighter I could be. Eating pain killers like M&Ms, boozing with the best of them. I just didn’t care, my body couldn’t be hurting, I had to get in that ring, that nCw ring.
I could easily look at this and say that nCw ruined my life, but here I am, mere days before the end of it, and I know without this place, I wouldn’t be the man I am today. I wouldn’t have gotten through losing Cari, I wouldn’t have experienced the friendships, relationships, and emotions I’ve had whirling around, without this place.
This place made me realized, I’m not only mortal, but I’m human, far from the idea of ‘Undying Machine’
The American Dream
I lived it, houses across the world, cars like no one else, electronics and toys, I could do what I want, and when I wanted to. The benefits of money in this country, make a huge difference between jail time, and a small fine, between living a normal life, and blowing it out my ass, doing dumb things, but living it all up.
I covered it up with blind patriotism. I support America like a *** damn tea-partier, so yeah, blind ambition. I was wearing the flag as trunks, dancing around like Apollo Creed. But the only difference between him and I, I didn’t get murdered by a Russian. But I got swept away in it all, and ended up loving the endorsements, movie offers, all that bull ****. I forgot about why I did this.
nCw showed me my roots, my limitations, and why I can’t do it all, but there is something I can give my all doing. This.
The Savior
When I thought I had to be what makes nCw the best federation in the world. I thought it was my responsibility to do this. Call it a god complex, but I honestly thought I was the greatest thing to set foot in this business. Well, this business has a tendency of putting you in your place.
It taught me that sometimes, I wasn’t going to be able to do it all by myself. I think I figured out exactly how I want to say goodbye to this place that has given me so much, taught me so much.
By apologizing.
For the cheap gay jokes. Homosexual equality is a serious issue, and I’ve used it as a simple way to try to get under my opponents skin. I mean, look at how I tried to come at Falcon during that World Title match. We live in such a numb society to this word. I’m sorry for alienating any of the fans, or competitors in the back. There isn’t anything wrong with being gay.
All the dick and fart jokes. Sure, it can be funny the first time. But after a while it just drags on, and drags on. Occasionally get a gem, but is it really worth it to beat the horse to death and back.
For not living up to expectations. I won the riot, I have this title shot. I’ve been a two time National Champion. A two time Xtreme Champion. I’ve had success, but I’ve never lived up to what people have imagined for me. I’m sorry I couldn’t achieve the top of the mountain in nCw.
But I’ve never let you down. When I’m out there, I always give a hundred percent. I can put in a submission like no one else, and leap from high distances than anyone else. And the only way I can truly apologize to those I’ve let down.
Not a win, not a loss.
But the greatest. Match. Ever.
BRODEO
*****
The scene opens with Zelda Knite wearing a ‘Link’ costume. The camera pans out to show Xavier Cross up in a tree, wearing a pink dress.
“You know this is not only confusing to me but to anyone who is watching this!”
“SHUT UP PRINCESS!”
“Yes dear…”
Zelda proceeds to hit some stereotypical nerdy kids with her sword, as Xavier attempts to get comfortable in the tree.
*****
The scene opens with Xavier Cross wearing a ‘Saturday Night Fever Costume’
“Well this is interesting to say the least.”
He opens the door to a dance club, and it’s almost like we’re transported to another time. Disco music blares throughout the club, as Xavier casually walks in and just starts dancing.
“I don’t even care!”
*****
Waking up in the back of a blue prius, Cross slowly sits up, looking around. Immediately a young white man, and a young black man turn around from the front, grinning.
“XAVIER!”
The spoke in unison, Cross’s vision is foggy, but his ears are sharp.
“SHAUN! CHOCO-TACO!”
“You forgot my name!”
“Uh….Gurton right?”
“Gus calm down..Look, we found you at that Disco Club, someone drugged you.”
“Someone what me…”
*****
Here I am. Xavier Cross.
The man who was given everything, but accomplished nothing.
I stand at the gates of Heaven, wondering if St. Peter will open them.
But if that’s the case, then maybe it’s time to just storm the gates.
And thanks to nCw, I found someone I know will stick by my side.
Will Washington.
A man that only a few years ago, I hated with every fiber of my being.
We took each other to hell once.
Now let’s go to Wrestling Heaven Brother.
Let’s show these people what we can do, that a world title doesn’t define greatness.
Only we can carve our names on eternity.
Let’s ****ing do this.
The man who was given everything, but accomplished nothing.
I stand at the gates of Heaven, wondering if St. Peter will open them.
But if that’s the case, then maybe it’s time to just storm the gates.
And thanks to nCw, I found someone I know will stick by my side.
Will Washington.
A man that only a few years ago, I hated with every fiber of my being.
We took each other to hell once.
Now let’s go to Wrestling Heaven Brother.
Let’s show these people what we can do, that a world title doesn’t define greatness.
Only we can carve our names on eternity.
Let’s ****ing do this.