Post by Adam Knite on May 18, 2013 14:11:13 GMT -6
You ever watch one of those movies and they show the man on death row, and they show him regretting all his actions, all the misdeeds he’s done by having a slideshow inside his head playing the faces of all his victims? How he is being walked towards the chair and he can see all those that he hurt standing there, watching as he gets justice served to him, and before he draws his final breath he feels at peace as he says “I’m Sorry.” Despite all he has done, he’s asked for forgiveness and even if none of the victims or the families forgive him, he at least knows that he’ll go on having at least tried to make things a little better. You know the what I’m talking about?
Well... this is my final moments in NCW, and...
It couldn’t be any more, NOT like that.
Oh, I’m seeing all of the faces all right, I’m looking out at the crowd of people I’ve beaten, ridiculed, embarrassed over the years, the Spike Kanes, the Davey Ortegas, Steve Awesomes, Alex Joneses, Trent Helmses, Brad Kanes and I keep coming back and looking at one person standing there in that crowd, I keep coming back to see that one face that is more hurt, in more pain than any of the rest of those schmucks and I can’t help but take extra enjoyment in seeing him tortured with the thoughts of losing to me. He’s standing there, watching me take those final steps... wishing that I would get what was coming to me, wishing that he could finally have his revenge for all the things I’ve done. He wants me to feel the pain he’s feeling, he wants me to hurt the same way he’s been hurting because he’s had to live with this torment for so long, he’s had to live with this feeling of not being good enough for five years and it’s gotten to a point where he just can’t stand it anymore.
And I just can’t help but grin... looking at your face, Jake.
You can’t stand it can you?
You have to watch as I’m constantly praised as one of the greatest wrestlers to ever step foot in NCW, you have to see every accolade and accomplishment I’ve made over my career and be instantly reminded how it was I who was always there to overshadow you. It was I who constantly wouldn’t let you forget about all the times that you and your family came up short against mine, and mine. Kathy could never beat Kelly and now has moved on to losing to Zelda, and you just could never get over that hump and get that one victory over me could you? You’ll be ending your NCW run as the final National champion, but yet... you will still be in a state of unfulfillment unless you get this ONE victory.
It’s fantastic, watching you suffer on the inside.
Do you really think though, that this one match will fix all those demons that are haunting you? All those times that you weren’t good enough to defeat me, all those times that you gave our match all you had, your heart, soul, every last bit of energy and you still came up short? All those are just magically going to be forgotten about and it’s going to be all about how you defeated Adam Knite this time. None of those other things are going to mean anything once you have that one victory against Adam Knite, right? Truthfully Jake, do you really think that this is going to make you feel better about and help you close the book on what you’ve accomplished in NCW, allowing you to leave content?
Or maybe... that’s not it?
Maybe I’m wrong, maybe this is only about the feeling of “I can’t do it.” You just want that one win so you can say to yourself that you could beat Adam Knite, you could have beaten Adam Knite if the dice had fallen better? With that victory you can finally stop doubting yourself, finally stop comparing your career to mine, stop playing the “what ifs” over and over again inside your head and finally put to rest all those notions of being the inferior wrestler. Even then... do you think it’s going to be better going forward? I’ll still hold what? Fifteen victories to your one? Will that one written next to our series against each other really mean all the difference in the world?
Even if you win... you’ll still be in my shadow. I’ve lost to many people over my career and that doesn’t mean in the long run I wasn’t the better man, I wasn’t the best wrestler in this business. One loss here and one win there doesn’t make an entire career. You’ll still have those feelings of ineptitude, all those thoughts dashing through your head about how you just couldn't cut it against the best of the best, against The King.
Either way, we both know there is something holding you here, something that is driving you to want this final match against me, something telling you that you have to fight Adam Knite one more time.
And it’s all on you.
I don’t have to beat you again.
Even if I lose, I’d still have beaten you all those times before. Even if I go out there and lay an egg in the middle of that ring, I’ll still have those times that I took a title off of you and ran with it. You’ll have what? That final match? The last laugh? Please, this isn’t some childish retort where the kid who screams out the final insult is instantly the winner of the argument. If you win this match, if you beat me... that’s simply all it will be... a win. Is one win, with not a single title on the line that important to you? Is one victory going to mean that much to you?
I guess you are the only one who could really answer that question...
but before you do, and we all know you’re going to, because that’s just what you do, inform us all how you feel when we don’t care. Let me just say... don’t answer that.
Spare us the boredom. Please.
Look Jake. Over the years I’ve come to find a respect for you. I’ve told you this before, and I still mean it. Despite the fact that we’ll always be rivals, most likely always be enemies, deep down I do indeed respect everything that you’ve done in your career. Let me just make this clear though; no matter what happens this Sunday on the final NCW pay per view... I’ll still be the King, and you’ll still be just the joker in the deck, and you know what happens to the jokers. The moment somebody opens a new pack of cards... what is it that do? Pull them out, and discard the jokers back into the box with the little poker instructions cards.
That will always be your legacy when compared to mine Jake.
This one show isn’t going to change that.
I will still be the king of Professional wrestling...
I’ll still be Adam Knite.
and you’ll still be just... “you”
Parroting what others are saying to you, making cringe worthy puns, and boring us with your long drawn out references to poker and talking at length about **** nobody cares about, such as how much you love your wife and how meaningful she is to you. It will always be the same. If you like to admit it or not is of no concern to me, because everybody with two eyes inside their head and an ability to comprehend basic concepts can see that you’ll always just be “The Ace”, you’ll always be playing second fiddle to somebody else. You have and will have a fine career, you will accomplish some great things and I’m sure still have plenty of fights ahead of you...
but..
You’ll never be “that guy.”
You will never put a company on your shoulders and carry it through the rough times, you will never be looked upon as a person the roster can rally around and make everybody around you better by the simple fact they want to be more like you to have what you have. It’s just not who you are. That’s why when the curtains close at A Night to Remember, when our final pages are written in the history books it will always read that Adam Knite was the better wrestler than The Ace, that’s why for an eternity it will be displayed in big flashing letters that Jake Conway was the inferior man compared to Adam Knight.
However, I do just want to say... don’t feel too bad about that...
because you won’t be the only one.
Deal with it.
-----{SEVERAL MONTHS AGO}-----
“ADAM!”
[Kelly’s voice rings through the apartment as she yells out her husband’s name. Adam who is not one to disappoint his wife especially when her yells seem that surprised and urgent comes running. Adam comes bursting through the bathroom door and see’s Kelly standing there with an uneasy expression on her face.]
“Kelly you ok!?”
[Adam stops dead in his tracks when he notices she is ok and just acting nervous and stands straight up, looking at her confused.]
“Uh... why did you scream? What’s wrong?”
[Kelly kicks her feet, obviously acting nervous as she tries to find the words she wants to say to her husband. He is obviously perplexed at what is going on here now, so he cocks his head slightly to the side.]
“Kelly?”
“Yeah?”
“Ok. Now I’m officially lost. What in the hell Kelly?”
“I’ve got something I need to tell you.”
[Kelly goes to say something but nothing comes out as her bottom lip quivers like she’s trying to force the words out.]
“Well I...”
[Kelly sighs and brings out a small white piece of plastic that is behind her back, a device Adam instantly recognizes, and so does anybody else watching, as a pregnancy test. Adam eyes go wide as he looks down at it and watches as it’s slid across the countertop to him by his wife. Adam looks down and it’s obviously positive, he then looks back up at Kelly smiling wide and Kelly blushes as she looks down at the floor, she didn’t seem to expect Adam to be happy about this.]
“Wow, you’re... that’s great! My God, we’re going to have another... ”
[Adam lunges forward and grabs his wife in his arms and lifts her off the ground, holding her to his chest. Kelly can’t help but laugh at thisi reaction as her arms are pinned to her side and she has nowhere to go. Adam puts her down, with a huge smile from ear to ear and Kelly takes a step forward and presses her head against him as she hugs him back.]
“I didn’t think you’d take it so well.”
“Why wouldn’t I?!”
“I don’t know, because we weren’t planning it... we’ve never even talked about having another child. You kinda zoned out when I told you about Ryleigh.”
[Adam pushes Kelly away so he can look her in the eyes with his hands placed squarely on her shoulders, comforting her. He smiles gently and talks concisely as he explains himself.]
“Yes, ‘we’ weren’t planning it, but that doesn’t mean I didn’t want another kid, I’ve been thinking about this for over a year now. I just thought you didn’t... wait... you do want another baby right?”
“Well it’s just... we’re very busy people with NCW and everything else we’ve got going on and being pregnant again is kinda scary, plus... our apartment is kinda small for two kids...”
[Adam softly pulls Kelly forward towards him, giving her a gentle nudge to stop her rambling. She looks up at him and smiles and he looks down at her with a sincere expression on his face.]
“Then lets step away, lets take some time away from wrestling. You were working every day when you were pregnant with Ryleigh.. we’ve been talking about it and... lets just do it. We have plenty of money we’re set.”
“Adam I can’t do...”
“Why not? Because of what people will think if we just walk away from NCW? Who cares? We’ll have each other, we don’t need any of this, we don’t need wrestling anymore.”
“Are you sure about what you’re saying?”
“I’ve never been more sure about anything in my entire life. I have you, Ryleigh and now little Raini. I don’t need anything else.”
[Kelly begins laughing.]
“We’re not naming our child Raini Knight.”
“Oh come on, the word play is fantastic!”
[Kelly giggles as Adam looks at her in complete disbelief that she would throw away his name idea, the two then stare into each other’s eyes and give the other a calming smile before they wrap their arms around each other’s necks and embrace in a hug and kiss. Adam throws Kelly up into the air again, causing her to laugh as she tries to kiss him and we fade to black on that sight.]
Well... this is my final moments in NCW, and...
It couldn’t be any more, NOT like that.
Oh, I’m seeing all of the faces all right, I’m looking out at the crowd of people I’ve beaten, ridiculed, embarrassed over the years, the Spike Kanes, the Davey Ortegas, Steve Awesomes, Alex Joneses, Trent Helmses, Brad Kanes and I keep coming back and looking at one person standing there in that crowd, I keep coming back to see that one face that is more hurt, in more pain than any of the rest of those schmucks and I can’t help but take extra enjoyment in seeing him tortured with the thoughts of losing to me. He’s standing there, watching me take those final steps... wishing that I would get what was coming to me, wishing that he could finally have his revenge for all the things I’ve done. He wants me to feel the pain he’s feeling, he wants me to hurt the same way he’s been hurting because he’s had to live with this torment for so long, he’s had to live with this feeling of not being good enough for five years and it’s gotten to a point where he just can’t stand it anymore.
And I just can’t help but grin... looking at your face, Jake.
You can’t stand it can you?
You have to watch as I’m constantly praised as one of the greatest wrestlers to ever step foot in NCW, you have to see every accolade and accomplishment I’ve made over my career and be instantly reminded how it was I who was always there to overshadow you. It was I who constantly wouldn’t let you forget about all the times that you and your family came up short against mine, and mine. Kathy could never beat Kelly and now has moved on to losing to Zelda, and you just could never get over that hump and get that one victory over me could you? You’ll be ending your NCW run as the final National champion, but yet... you will still be in a state of unfulfillment unless you get this ONE victory.
It’s fantastic, watching you suffer on the inside.
Do you really think though, that this one match will fix all those demons that are haunting you? All those times that you weren’t good enough to defeat me, all those times that you gave our match all you had, your heart, soul, every last bit of energy and you still came up short? All those are just magically going to be forgotten about and it’s going to be all about how you defeated Adam Knite this time. None of those other things are going to mean anything once you have that one victory against Adam Knite, right? Truthfully Jake, do you really think that this is going to make you feel better about and help you close the book on what you’ve accomplished in NCW, allowing you to leave content?
Or maybe... that’s not it?
Maybe I’m wrong, maybe this is only about the feeling of “I can’t do it.” You just want that one win so you can say to yourself that you could beat Adam Knite, you could have beaten Adam Knite if the dice had fallen better? With that victory you can finally stop doubting yourself, finally stop comparing your career to mine, stop playing the “what ifs” over and over again inside your head and finally put to rest all those notions of being the inferior wrestler. Even then... do you think it’s going to be better going forward? I’ll still hold what? Fifteen victories to your one? Will that one written next to our series against each other really mean all the difference in the world?
Even if you win... you’ll still be in my shadow. I’ve lost to many people over my career and that doesn’t mean in the long run I wasn’t the better man, I wasn’t the best wrestler in this business. One loss here and one win there doesn’t make an entire career. You’ll still have those feelings of ineptitude, all those thoughts dashing through your head about how you just couldn't cut it against the best of the best, against The King.
Either way, we both know there is something holding you here, something that is driving you to want this final match against me, something telling you that you have to fight Adam Knite one more time.
And it’s all on you.
I don’t have to beat you again.
Even if I lose, I’d still have beaten you all those times before. Even if I go out there and lay an egg in the middle of that ring, I’ll still have those times that I took a title off of you and ran with it. You’ll have what? That final match? The last laugh? Please, this isn’t some childish retort where the kid who screams out the final insult is instantly the winner of the argument. If you win this match, if you beat me... that’s simply all it will be... a win. Is one win, with not a single title on the line that important to you? Is one victory going to mean that much to you?
I guess you are the only one who could really answer that question...
but before you do, and we all know you’re going to, because that’s just what you do, inform us all how you feel when we don’t care. Let me just say... don’t answer that.
Spare us the boredom. Please.
Look Jake. Over the years I’ve come to find a respect for you. I’ve told you this before, and I still mean it. Despite the fact that we’ll always be rivals, most likely always be enemies, deep down I do indeed respect everything that you’ve done in your career. Let me just make this clear though; no matter what happens this Sunday on the final NCW pay per view... I’ll still be the King, and you’ll still be just the joker in the deck, and you know what happens to the jokers. The moment somebody opens a new pack of cards... what is it that do? Pull them out, and discard the jokers back into the box with the little poker instructions cards.
That will always be your legacy when compared to mine Jake.
This one show isn’t going to change that.
I will still be the king of Professional wrestling...
I’ll still be Adam Knite.
and you’ll still be just... “you”
Parroting what others are saying to you, making cringe worthy puns, and boring us with your long drawn out references to poker and talking at length about **** nobody cares about, such as how much you love your wife and how meaningful she is to you. It will always be the same. If you like to admit it or not is of no concern to me, because everybody with two eyes inside their head and an ability to comprehend basic concepts can see that you’ll always just be “The Ace”, you’ll always be playing second fiddle to somebody else. You have and will have a fine career, you will accomplish some great things and I’m sure still have plenty of fights ahead of you...
but..
You’ll never be “that guy.”
You will never put a company on your shoulders and carry it through the rough times, you will never be looked upon as a person the roster can rally around and make everybody around you better by the simple fact they want to be more like you to have what you have. It’s just not who you are. That’s why when the curtains close at A Night to Remember, when our final pages are written in the history books it will always read that Adam Knite was the better wrestler than The Ace, that’s why for an eternity it will be displayed in big flashing letters that Jake Conway was the inferior man compared to Adam Knight.
However, I do just want to say... don’t feel too bad about that...
because you won’t be the only one.
Deal with it.
-----{SEVERAL MONTHS AGO}-----
“ADAM!”
[Kelly’s voice rings through the apartment as she yells out her husband’s name. Adam who is not one to disappoint his wife especially when her yells seem that surprised and urgent comes running. Adam comes bursting through the bathroom door and see’s Kelly standing there with an uneasy expression on her face.]
“Kelly you ok!?”
[Adam stops dead in his tracks when he notices she is ok and just acting nervous and stands straight up, looking at her confused.]
“Uh... why did you scream? What’s wrong?”
[Kelly kicks her feet, obviously acting nervous as she tries to find the words she wants to say to her husband. He is obviously perplexed at what is going on here now, so he cocks his head slightly to the side.]
“Kelly?”
“Yeah?”
“Ok. Now I’m officially lost. What in the hell Kelly?”
“I’ve got something I need to tell you.”
[Kelly goes to say something but nothing comes out as her bottom lip quivers like she’s trying to force the words out.]
“Well I...”
[Kelly sighs and brings out a small white piece of plastic that is behind her back, a device Adam instantly recognizes, and so does anybody else watching, as a pregnancy test. Adam eyes go wide as he looks down at it and watches as it’s slid across the countertop to him by his wife. Adam looks down and it’s obviously positive, he then looks back up at Kelly smiling wide and Kelly blushes as she looks down at the floor, she didn’t seem to expect Adam to be happy about this.]
“Wow, you’re... that’s great! My God, we’re going to have another... ”
[Adam lunges forward and grabs his wife in his arms and lifts her off the ground, holding her to his chest. Kelly can’t help but laugh at thisi reaction as her arms are pinned to her side and she has nowhere to go. Adam puts her down, with a huge smile from ear to ear and Kelly takes a step forward and presses her head against him as she hugs him back.]
“I didn’t think you’d take it so well.”
“Why wouldn’t I?!”
“I don’t know, because we weren’t planning it... we’ve never even talked about having another child. You kinda zoned out when I told you about Ryleigh.”
[Adam pushes Kelly away so he can look her in the eyes with his hands placed squarely on her shoulders, comforting her. He smiles gently and talks concisely as he explains himself.]
“Yes, ‘we’ weren’t planning it, but that doesn’t mean I didn’t want another kid, I’ve been thinking about this for over a year now. I just thought you didn’t... wait... you do want another baby right?”
“Well it’s just... we’re very busy people with NCW and everything else we’ve got going on and being pregnant again is kinda scary, plus... our apartment is kinda small for two kids...”
[Adam softly pulls Kelly forward towards him, giving her a gentle nudge to stop her rambling. She looks up at him and smiles and he looks down at her with a sincere expression on his face.]
“Then lets step away, lets take some time away from wrestling. You were working every day when you were pregnant with Ryleigh.. we’ve been talking about it and... lets just do it. We have plenty of money we’re set.”
“Adam I can’t do...”
“Why not? Because of what people will think if we just walk away from NCW? Who cares? We’ll have each other, we don’t need any of this, we don’t need wrestling anymore.”
“Are you sure about what you’re saying?”
“I’ve never been more sure about anything in my entire life. I have you, Ryleigh and now little Raini. I don’t need anything else.”
[Kelly begins laughing.]
“We’re not naming our child Raini Knight.”
“Oh come on, the word play is fantastic!”
[Kelly giggles as Adam looks at her in complete disbelief that she would throw away his name idea, the two then stare into each other’s eyes and give the other a calming smile before they wrap their arms around each other’s necks and embrace in a hug and kiss. Adam throws Kelly up into the air again, causing her to laugh as she tries to kiss him and we fade to black on that sight.]