Post by Alex Jones on May 29, 2009 22:38:02 GMT -6
I sit alone, the steam rises from my body as the cold air reacts with my warm skin. I just finished a workout, my body feeling stronger, faster, I’ve almost fully recovered from the attack, the cowardly attack. A black towel stays over my head, I know they’re here, I know what they want, and I am more than happy to give it to them.
“You are such a fool Adam.”
The statement comes from me in a simple term. So much behind it and so much expectation of what I say next. I can feel the heaving masses watching me and hanging off every small movement I make and every sound that escapes my lips.
“Dance for me clown. Dance in front of everyone trying to prove you’re a worthy champion instead of the cruel parody of success. Your lies taste sweet, but the aftertaste they leave are of vinegar and salt. They reek of disgust and contempt. I’ve said many times that I was never the savior the people and even Leonard made me out to be. I’m a simple man Adam. I just happened to be the one to inspire and speak the truth when it came to you. Spike and Trent, both great champions had personal issues with you, they had a real hatred, I had nothing at stake except my real love...NCW.”
“It inspired a fight back, it made two of your soldiers walk away from you. And now on the verge of losing everything your ego has made you blind. You’re walking in darkness and you still have not figured out that you’re heading for a fall. You write me off as a nobody, saying I’ve accomplished nothing. Funny Adam, because in the same breath as saying I’m nothing you are lifting me up as some kind of savior like Leonard, the only difference is Leonard speaks favourably, while your voice shows hatred and anger.”
I should be angry, I should be showing an amazing amount of emotion. My blood should be boiling, but it’s not. I feel calm, tranquil, almost complacent.
“But there are things you said that are true. Every time we’ve faced one on one you’ve beaten me. Every time. Even though it was ONCE. Even though you conveniently left out that Angel was the one who cost me the victory, it’s true, you have that single one on one victory over me. But see even your truths reek of lies. Even your win at Sovereign, you made Angel tap. NOT ME. And even he admitted he taped on purpose to hand you the victory, just like your fiancé asked him to. And I hate to flog a dead horse, after all you can’t hear it scream. But that single act, the act of having your woman ask someone to lay down for you, instantly makes you an unworthy champion.”
“But I’m not the only one who flogs dead horses am I Adam?. After all, the only thing I’ve heard from you through this entire ordeal is how you beat me at crossroads. Well this is another time, another place. You and I step into the ring and on the line is that pretty piece of gold, a title you don’t deserve, a title that deserves a real champion instead of the run of pretenders that has come in the last few months. I look at men like Williams and Hammond. Men I have beaten, men that put up no challenge to me, and they held the title and brought it down to a level that was horrible. Those two men are great competitors, but what happened to the days of Spike Kane and Lance Ryan?. What happened to six month long dominating title reigns?. All we’ve had is a succession of pretenders and transitional champions.....”
“I proved during my reign as X-Division champion that I can hold onto a title and dominate as a champion. I beat Falcon, Angel, Harold. I even beat you in a tag match and took two brutal beatings and now you dare to stand there and with a straight face tell the world I don’t deserve a shot?. Do they have oxygen on planet Knite?. Cause it seems to me like you saying I don’t deserve it means men like Harold and Falcon aren’t worth anything. I mean if I beat them and I’m the one facing you then what does that say about them Adam?. Do you really consider yourself that much of a dominating force?. Cause with all your accusations and smokescreens of fake confidence I see a scared little boy that realises his dream is ending and he’s about to be replaced by someone who is simply...better.”
I feel it, the confidence, it grows in me. It shoots up from my stomach all around me, my muscles bulge, my heart races. What a rush....
“You know it and you can feel it. You may as well be a man, take your balls from Kelly Fox’s handbag and admit it for once in your sad life. You say it takes heart to be champion, what do you call me coming back from you trying to kill me to sign the contract?. If I didn’t have heart I would have laid in the back and let the paramedics take me to the hospital and remove the shards of the windscreen I went through. Do you call that cowardice Adam?. Cause I call it heart and will to succeed that you can’t match....Bui...I will admit I’m not a hero, I’m not a savior, I’m not a Greek god. I’m simply me, and Adam, that is more than enough to defeat you.”
“I’ll show the world that fairy tales do happen and stories have happy ending. I’ll show the world that even in these tough times the good and just can rise above a tyrant. I will show the world Adam that a man can overcome everything life throws at him. My name is AJ Phoenix. I will not be denied. I will get revenge on every hard working wrestler you’ve ever tried to take out. I will get revenge for every fan you’ve disrespected and treated like an idiot. And I will get revenge.....for me....”
I stand up, the towel is removed from my head, I feel a smile come across my face as the air pushes from my lungs. I’m ready to go. I’m ready to be a champion. And most importantly.....I’m ready to be....me
“You are such a fool Adam.”
The statement comes from me in a simple term. So much behind it and so much expectation of what I say next. I can feel the heaving masses watching me and hanging off every small movement I make and every sound that escapes my lips.
“Dance for me clown. Dance in front of everyone trying to prove you’re a worthy champion instead of the cruel parody of success. Your lies taste sweet, but the aftertaste they leave are of vinegar and salt. They reek of disgust and contempt. I’ve said many times that I was never the savior the people and even Leonard made me out to be. I’m a simple man Adam. I just happened to be the one to inspire and speak the truth when it came to you. Spike and Trent, both great champions had personal issues with you, they had a real hatred, I had nothing at stake except my real love...NCW.”
“It inspired a fight back, it made two of your soldiers walk away from you. And now on the verge of losing everything your ego has made you blind. You’re walking in darkness and you still have not figured out that you’re heading for a fall. You write me off as a nobody, saying I’ve accomplished nothing. Funny Adam, because in the same breath as saying I’m nothing you are lifting me up as some kind of savior like Leonard, the only difference is Leonard speaks favourably, while your voice shows hatred and anger.”
I should be angry, I should be showing an amazing amount of emotion. My blood should be boiling, but it’s not. I feel calm, tranquil, almost complacent.
“But there are things you said that are true. Every time we’ve faced one on one you’ve beaten me. Every time. Even though it was ONCE. Even though you conveniently left out that Angel was the one who cost me the victory, it’s true, you have that single one on one victory over me. But see even your truths reek of lies. Even your win at Sovereign, you made Angel tap. NOT ME. And even he admitted he taped on purpose to hand you the victory, just like your fiancé asked him to. And I hate to flog a dead horse, after all you can’t hear it scream. But that single act, the act of having your woman ask someone to lay down for you, instantly makes you an unworthy champion.”
“But I’m not the only one who flogs dead horses am I Adam?. After all, the only thing I’ve heard from you through this entire ordeal is how you beat me at crossroads. Well this is another time, another place. You and I step into the ring and on the line is that pretty piece of gold, a title you don’t deserve, a title that deserves a real champion instead of the run of pretenders that has come in the last few months. I look at men like Williams and Hammond. Men I have beaten, men that put up no challenge to me, and they held the title and brought it down to a level that was horrible. Those two men are great competitors, but what happened to the days of Spike Kane and Lance Ryan?. What happened to six month long dominating title reigns?. All we’ve had is a succession of pretenders and transitional champions.....”
“I proved during my reign as X-Division champion that I can hold onto a title and dominate as a champion. I beat Falcon, Angel, Harold. I even beat you in a tag match and took two brutal beatings and now you dare to stand there and with a straight face tell the world I don’t deserve a shot?. Do they have oxygen on planet Knite?. Cause it seems to me like you saying I don’t deserve it means men like Harold and Falcon aren’t worth anything. I mean if I beat them and I’m the one facing you then what does that say about them Adam?. Do you really consider yourself that much of a dominating force?. Cause with all your accusations and smokescreens of fake confidence I see a scared little boy that realises his dream is ending and he’s about to be replaced by someone who is simply...better.”
I feel it, the confidence, it grows in me. It shoots up from my stomach all around me, my muscles bulge, my heart races. What a rush....
“You know it and you can feel it. You may as well be a man, take your balls from Kelly Fox’s handbag and admit it for once in your sad life. You say it takes heart to be champion, what do you call me coming back from you trying to kill me to sign the contract?. If I didn’t have heart I would have laid in the back and let the paramedics take me to the hospital and remove the shards of the windscreen I went through. Do you call that cowardice Adam?. Cause I call it heart and will to succeed that you can’t match....Bui...I will admit I’m not a hero, I’m not a savior, I’m not a Greek god. I’m simply me, and Adam, that is more than enough to defeat you.”
“I’ll show the world that fairy tales do happen and stories have happy ending. I’ll show the world that even in these tough times the good and just can rise above a tyrant. I will show the world Adam that a man can overcome everything life throws at him. My name is AJ Phoenix. I will not be denied. I will get revenge on every hard working wrestler you’ve ever tried to take out. I will get revenge for every fan you’ve disrespected and treated like an idiot. And I will get revenge.....for me....”
I stand up, the towel is removed from my head, I feel a smile come across my face as the air pushes from my lungs. I’m ready to go. I’m ready to be a champion. And most importantly.....I’m ready to be....me